The passion flowing in my body suddenly disappeared, and I stood up hurriedly and ran towards the bedroom.
The child had enuresis. After changing his diaper, I fed him milk. Then I poured some hot water and wiped Chen Yuan's body. I felt very guilty because now I remembered that I had betrayed her again.
Azhu came in and said to me: "Feng Xiao, let me do it."
I shook my head, "No, get out."
She should know my complicated mood now, but she stood beside me and watched me finish everything. Then I hung up the infusion bottle for Chen Yuan.
The person who invited me is coming today, but I want to do everything by myself. I know that I am doing this to atone for my sins, but at the same time I also understand that this atonement is meaningless.
"Feng Xiao, it feels so uncomfortable to see you like this." Azhu said to me after I wiped Chen Yuan's body and put her into clean underwear.
"It's already wrong for me to betray her. The only thing I can do now is to serve her like this for the rest of my life. But I often let others do it for me. Alas!" I sighed.
She turned around and went out. The child had finished the milk and was shaking his hands towards me. I picked him up and then walked to Chen Yuan. I said to the child: "Call, call mom."
Of course the child couldn't scream. He didn't understand anything. He just looked at Chen Yuan on the hospital bed with his eyes. My heart was lamenting.
Then he carried the child to the living room. Azhu came over and said to me: "Feng Xiao, I just now realize that I am very ashamed of your wife. I have never felt like this before. So, I think it is better to move out."
"Where are you going to move to?" I asked.
"Feng Xiao, do you want me? If you want me, I will be your lover for the rest of my life and will never look for a boyfriend again," she said.
I shook my head, "Azhu, don't be like this. I still regret what happened last night. You have seen your mother's birthday. She is really foresight. Azhu, I can't harm your life."
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"That was of my own free will. I really wanted to become a woman earlier. This matter has nothing to do with you. Feng Xiao, it wasn't until last night that I realized that I liked you. Do you still remember the first time I drove you?
What about the car? When I had an accident, you immediately took my place on the driver's seat. I didn't feel anything was wrong at the time, but now I know that my dependence on you started from that moment.
Because you are a man who dares to take on everything for women. Later, the same thing happened between me and the doctor, and it was you who helped me. Then when my parents had an accident, you were still helping me. So I think now, if it weren't for you
Otherwise, I really don’t know how I can continue to live. So, I gave myself to you voluntarily and willingly. Feng Xiao, you know how important a girl’s first time is,
I gave you my first time, and in my heart I gave you my future. But just now, when I saw you carefully wiping your wife's body and then changing her clothes,
I suddenly felt that I was wrong. Because I suddenly remembered that Chen Yuan is also a woman. So I thought, if there are other women who have that kind of relationship with you, would I be able to accept it? The result is that I can't accept it.
Feng Xiao, if you want me, then I am willing to stay with you like this for the rest of my life, and I am also willing to take care of your wife with you, and I am even willing to give birth to a child for you. But I will never agree to you looking for someone else.
Woman, answer me now, if you don’t want to be with me, I will move out immediately." She said, saying a lot of words, although her thoughts were a little confused in the middle, but I listened to what she meant.
Be clear.
"Azhu..." I didn't know how to answer her for a while.
"You don't have to answer me for now. You can answer me later if you think about it." She said, looking at me closely.
"Actually, I can promise you. But when I think of your mother, I feel that I can't be so selfish. Also, Su Hua will definitely scold me. She has reminded me not to hurt you, and I have promised her, but
Unexpectedly, I still didn't do it. Azhu, this is not the problem you mentioned. You know that I have a wife, and I can't delay you like this for the rest of my life. You gave me your first time, which makes me both touched and excited.
I'm ashamed, and at the same time I blame myself. Azhu, I feel like a bastard." I didn't want to hesitate and answered her immediately.
"I understand what you mean, okay, I'll find a place to live as soon as possible, and then move out as soon as possible." She said, tears streaming from the corners of her eyes.
"Azhu, you don't have to move out. You can always live here. But we'd better not do that kind of thing again in the future. When Chen Yuan is at home, I always feel that she should be able to hear and feel that she is at home.
Everything that happened. Also, you can have hot food and rice anytime you live here, which is also very good for your life." I said hurriedly. Only now did I realize that my heart was so hesitant and difficult to make a choice.
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"No one lives in your old house now, right? Can I live there?" she asked me immediately.
I was startled, then shook my head and said, "Azhu, you can't do it there. That's my ex-wife's house. Although it belongs to me from a legal point of view, I don't want you to go in and live there. A'zhu, please understand."
"You're just going to leave that place empty?" she asked me.
"If I have time in the future, I want to meet my ex-wife's parents and give them the house." I said, and suddenly I remembered that I had forgotten to do this, and I suddenly felt very ashamed.
Zhao Menglei.
She immediately stopped talking. I looked at the sad expression on her face and felt very sorry. Suddenly I remembered something, "Azhu, let's go and live in my villa. There is no one there anyway."
The place to live has always been empty."
"You still have a villa?" She looked at me in surprise.
I nodded, "It was just decorated not long ago."
"Then will you come to see me in the future?" she asked me.
"Yes." I said, "But you should go find your own life. I really can't delay you. Otherwise, I will really feel sorry for your parents' souls in heaven."
"Feng Xiao, I still want to ask you something. But you must not be angry after I ask this question," she said.
"Ask me. When have I ever been really angry with you?" I shook my head with a wry smile.
"I want to ask you, what if, Feng Xiao, I mean what if, you have to understand, because I know that people who are in a coma for a long time will not live long. So..." She said immediately.
I immediately understood what she wanted to say, and immediately interrupted her, "Azhu! I don't want to hear your what-ifs!"
"No, I want to say, I want to ask you." She said stubbornly, "If that day comes, will you marry me?"
"Azhu, there's no point in forcing me to answer questions like yours. Think about it, what would you do if you were me?" I said, and immediately carried the child into the bedroom. The child had already fallen asleep, and I gently put it in my arms.
He put him in the crib. Then he went to Chen Yuan and I asked her softly: "Chen Yuan, can't you really wake up?"
She remained silent.
I watched her cry silently. I believe that no one can truly understand the deep sorrow in my heart at this moment.
I don’t know how long I stayed in the bedroom, and I didn’t even know when the nanny came back. Later, I woke up when I heard a stranger’s voice coming from the living room.
This is an old lady with gray hair, but she looks very energetic and has a relatively elegant temperament. She introduced herself and said that she was the mother-in-law of the retired director of our hospital.
I found that I knew her because she taught me internal medicine when I was an undergraduate intern.
I politely made her a cup of tea, and then told her what she had to do every day. She listened carefully the whole time, with a smile on her face, "Okay, it's very simple. Don't worry."
"You used to be my teacher. I'm so sorry that I ask you to help me now." I apologized.
She smiled and said to me: "Xiao Feng, don't say that, I can come and work at your place. I should be the one thanking you."
I felt that there was no point in continuing to be polite like this, so I told the nanny that I had to cook for one more person at noon every day, and then I took out 6,000 yuan and handed it to my former teacher.
"I haven't done it yet. Let's settle the bill next month." She said sheepishly.
"It's okay. You are my teacher, of course I believe you." I said. There is one thing I believe very much: although some things are small things, they may have a great effect. For example, what I am doing now, I believe
It will soon spread to the ears of the Director of the Retirement Department. In this way, people in the hospital will have a particularly good reputation for me. Anyway, I have to give money, so why do I need to be so cautious?
After settling things at home, I went to A-Zhu’s door and knocked gently, “A-Zhu, didn’t you say you were going shopping?”
But what surprised me was that no one answered in the room. I hurriedly opened the door, and I was even more surprised. There was really no one inside!
I ran out in a hurry and went directly to the nanny to ask, "Auntie, where is Azhu?"
She shook her head, "I didn't see her when I came back."
I suddenly became anxious and ran back to Azhu's room again. I found that her things were gone, including her clothes in the cabinet.
I hurriedly called her, but she didn't answer the call. I knew she didn't answer my call on purpose. At this time, I suddenly felt empty in my heart: when she was here, I felt that it didn't matter whether she left or not.
, but now I feel my loss to her.
I stood stunned in her room for a long time, and then I suddenly remembered that there was another way to contact her. (To be continued)