This phone call made me very embarrassed. Although I agreed to her on the phone, I didn't want to go to her place again, but it was hard to refuse because she and I already had that kind of relationship.
I still went after get off work. This was the result of my ideological struggle all afternoon. I felt like a hesitant moth. After hovering around the light for a long time, I still had no choice but to pounce towards the fire...
I felt like I couldn't control myself after having the first time with Zhao Menglei that night. She was as irresistible to me as opium.
This is nature and nature. Having sex with a woman is like taking opium. Once you try it for the first time, you will easily become addicted and become dependent, and you will be unable to stop craving for life. Medically speaking, this is a normal condition where the terminal nerves of a person are over-stimulated in the cerebral cortex.
Reflection. In other words, humans have no fault, and the sin lies in nature.
I convinced myself, so I headed towards Zhao Menglei's house without hesitation. On the way there, I no longer thought of myself as a moth. I told myself in my heart: You are going to see the lover of your dreams who you have missed for many years.
It is also a kind of love.
Even if it is immoral love...
"Feng Xiao, why did it take you so long to come!" Zhao Menglei saw me, took my arm, and said to me sweetly.
The cool air in her home and the gentle smile on her face made me fascinated for a while.
"Go take a bath." she said to me.
My mind was not clear for a while, so I lost reaction to her words.
She burst into laughter, "Why are you standing there in a daze? Do you still want me to wash you?"
"Take a shower? Okay." At this time, I finally came to my senses.
"You really want me to give you a bath? Hehe!" She smiled immediately, and a passionate kiss suddenly landed on my sweaty cheek.
Her kiss made my soul completely return to my body. At this moment, the inner contradictions and hesitations suddenly disappeared, leaving only lust, and it was suddenly stirred up by her...
The bath she gave me was as gentle as a wife's. Although I have never been married, or even had a girlfriend, I can imagine the behavior of gentle wives in marriage.
Afterwards, we had dinner together and of course drank some wine. Then she finished washing and I watched TV.
Then we went to her bedroom together. The whole process was as natural as a couple.
This time I left her house the next morning because I fell asleep after our lovemaking ended and slept until dawn.
When I woke up in the morning, she had already prepared breakfast. I left her house only after eating.
I walked out of her house, took the elevator downstairs, and then went to the side of the road to take a car. During this process, I had a dreamlike feeling. I only came to my senses when I arrived at the hospital gate - Feng Xiao, how could you?
What about this? At this moment, regret and fear began to hit my heart at the same time.
…
Yu Min's wound was in good condition after I re-sutured it. Although it was still a little red, there was no sign of it cracking again.
"Are you still coughing?" I asked while cleaning her wound.
"I don't cough much anymore. Thank you." She smiled lightly.
"It's nothing. But you still have to pay attention at all times and tell me if anything happens." I said to her softly.
"Now I just feel that the wound is a little itchy." She frowned and said, "Sometimes the itching is so uncomfortable that I can't help but scratch the wound, but it hurts when I scratch it, and I'm worried that the wound will cause problems again."
"Itching means that the wound is growing flesh, which is a sign of healing." I said with a smile, "Don't scratch it. If you really can't stand it anymore, just press it lightly."
"Yeah." she said.
"Where is your family?" I asked, "You are here alone in the hospital, what should you do to eat and go to the toilet?"
"I always ask the nurse for help." She said sadly, "My home is not here."
"Where is your boyfriend?" I asked again. She had an ectopic pregnancy, which meant that she must have a man. Otherwise, how could she be pregnant?
"He, he's gone." She replied, tears starting to fall from the corners of her eyes.
I suddenly felt sad and regretted the question I just asked.
"Have a good rest." I stopped asking her, and I had already finished changing her medicine. Then I was about to leave, but I heard her suddenly call me: "Doctor Feng..."
I stopped and looked at her with a smile.
"Oh, it's nothing." She said, smiling sheepishly.
I continued to smile at her, turned around and prepared to leave again, but her voice came again: "Dr. Feng, when will you work night shift?"
"Tomorrow night." I answered.
"Dr. Feng, can you come and talk to me during your night shift?" she asked me in a low voice.
I don't know why, but at this moment, a gentle emotion suddenly rose in my heart, "Okay." I nodded to her and said softly.
"Thank you!" Her voice suddenly became happy.
Zhao Menglei called me again that afternoon, but I refused. My reason was very good: my tutor’s birthday is tonight. Then I told her: "I will work night shift tomorrow night. I may be very busy recently."
"Are you starting to get tired of me?" she asked.
"Don't say that, I've been really busy lately." I didn't say "no" to her because I really couldn't say it, and I wasn't really tired of her, but because I blamed myself. Anyway,
She is a married person, and I don't want to let myself continue like this.
As for my patient today, her words suddenly caused ripples in my heart, and I felt her affection for me. So I thought: If I find a girlfriend of my own as soon as possible, then I
Only then can the inappropriate relationship with Zhao Menglei truly end.
Of course Zhao Menglei didn't know what I was really thinking, so she immediately laughed and said, "Okay then. Call me anytime when you're done."
I could tell that she was in a happy mood, because there was a relaxed and cheerful element in her voice.
Only sigh.
After dinner that night, I went directly to the ward. My dormitory was too stuffy, but the ward had air conditioning. Of course, the stuffiness was only one of the reasons, and the other reason was that I wanted to go to the hospital with that beautiful girl named Yu Min.
The female patient talks.
The first thing I went to was the doctor's office. I took out a copy of "Obstetrics and Gynecology" from the drawer and flipped through it. This was just pretentious.
"Dr. Feng, are you so hardworking?" The doctor on duty immediately praised me when he saw me reading seriously.
"It's too hot in the dormitory and I really can't read." I smiled bitterly.
"Dr. Feng, the income of our department is not low, right? Why don't you buy a house by yourself? Why are you crowded in that small dormitory?" the doctor on duty said to me with a smile.
"It's hundreds of thousands. Where did I get so much money?" I couldn't help but be speechless.
"Are you stupid? Mortgage." She looked at me as if she were looking at an alien.
"I don't even have a girlfriend, so why buy a house?" I then said with a wry smile.
"Dr. Feng, I think you are thinking about the problem the other way around." She looked at me and said with a serious expression, "You should think like this. Now that you have a good income, if you have a house and a car, you can find a girlfriend.
Isn’t it easy? Women are very realistic. Although you are also an obstetrician and gynecologist, you only know their bodies, but you don’t understand women’s hearts. What’s more, everyone has to live for themselves, right? This summer in the city
It's so hot, why do you have to suffer that kind of pain?"
"It makes sense!" At this moment, I suddenly had a feeling of enlightenment.
She noticed the book in my hand and said, "Dr. Feng, you are so serious. You are still reading."
"The main task set by the teacher is that I have to complete a paper recently." I said hurriedly.
"Didn't you graduate and go to work?" she asked.
"The teacher asked me to take the PhD exam while on the job." I said.
"You have a bright future. Dr. Feng." She smiled at me, "Okay, I'm going to see the patient. You can read slowly."
Watching her leave, I couldn't help but smile bitterly. The doctor on duty is called Zhong Xiaohong. She is one of the first batch of college students after the Cultural Revolution. She has good professional skills, but she is not theoretically qualified, so she is always in the position of attending physician in terms of professional title.
It was difficult to move. She was also discouraged. When she was at work, she would chat with the nurses and talk about trivial matters whenever she had free time.
She is actually a very good person, but her temper towards patients is a little bad.
After Zhong Xiaohong left, I continued to stay in the office. I don’t know why, but I was hesitant: Should I go to Yu Min’s ward or not? I found that I was different from usual today. Because usually I was just a doctor.
A doctor, but tonight, I have something extra to think about.
Finally, I convinced myself. So I got up and went to her ward. By the way, I never mentioned that Yu Min lived in a single ward. From this, it can be seen that her family background must be very good. That's right.
Because of this, I am full of curiosity about her: How come a girl from such a good family does not have anyone to visit or accompany her even in the hospital? You know, she has a very dangerous ectopic pregnancy, and she may be sent to the hospital a little later.
It's deadly.
I met Zhong Xiaohong in the corridor of the ward, and she asked me: "What? You don't read anymore?"
"I'm going to see my patient." I said hurriedly, feeling somewhat inexplicably flustered.
"I've seen it all, it's okay." She said, and then stood still in front of me.
"When you're tired of reading, just go out for a walk." I added hurriedly, and then walked sideways past her.
I didn't turn around and walked forward directly, but I didn't hear the footsteps behind me. I knew that she might have been standing there watching me.
This person is really nosy! I feel very unhappy.
However, I was embarrassed to go directly to Yu Min's ward, so I had to keep walking forward until I reached the door of a ward where three people lived and then opened the door.
Finally, I heard footsteps in the distance behind me.
The large ward was very dark and quiet, and several patients seemed to be asleep. After entering, I looked around and no one noticed me, so I left.
The corridor was already quiet and no one was moving around. I was overjoyed and walked slowly towards Yu Min's ward.
When I arrived at the door of her ward, I suddenly stopped. At this moment, I found that my heart started beating violently. I suddenly felt flustered.
I knew I couldn't stand blankly outside the door of the ward like this. If the doctor or nurse on duty saw me, I would be gossiped about. I took a deep breath and raised my hand to knock on the door gently. In the obstetrics and gynecology department, especially in this kind of situation.
In single wards, we male doctors should also knock on the door before entering. Of course, female doctors and nurses don’t have to knock.
However, I didn't hear any sound from inside.
I hurriedly pushed open the door of the ward... (To be continued)