I felt relieved, because the thing I was most worried about seemed to be impossible for her, "That's good. Cai Cai, what I'm most worried about is that you can't think about it after this happened. In fact, I don't understand him.
Why do it that way?”
"He was diagnosed with such a disease very early, but he never told anyone. I only found out recently. You don't understand the situation at all. It's not that he wants to be with me, it's that I want to be with me. You said
That's right, I do sympathize with him, because he has been a man all his life and has even tasted women. So, I really want to give myself to him. Besides, he is such a noble person. I know
, many teachers and students in the school looked down upon him, because people didn’t know him at all, let alone understand him. It was only after I had been in contact with him for a long time that I learned everything about him.
It's curiosity and sympathy, but I always think he is strange, and I don't believe he is the person in the legend." She looked at the river in the distance and said softly.
Of course I understood what she meant, because I already knew everything. It turned out that Charlie Luan had been supporting many children in poor mountainous areas to go to school since many years ago. He spent more than half of his monthly salary on
After knowing the truth of the matter, I was shocked and moved. However, I don’t know why he did that, because I think it is not in line with the normal thinking of a person: I would rather
He uses his own money to support poor students but is reluctant to spend it on his girlfriend. Who in this world would do this?
"Naicai, do you know why he did that thing? Maybe I am an ordinary person, and I really don't understand him." So I asked.
"Really caring people are poor," she said.
I immediately said: "You can't say that, can you?" I was very dissatisfied. I thought to myself: Isn't it that I helped you with your reading difficulties?
"Uncle Feng, I know you have a good heart. At least I should thank you, because you helped me when I was in the most difficult time, but have you ever thought about it? How many people in need have you helped?
What? Charlie Luan is different from you, he is able to consider others first and is so indifferent to himself, so he is a saint in my eyes," she said.
"A saint also has a motive. At least he should have a motive to do such a thing. Oh, maybe my wording is not accurate, or it should be more accurate to call it a reason. Don't you think so? To be honest, Cai Cai, I think actually
You are still very naive, because I simply don’t believe there are any saints in this era.” I said.
"That's because you are too vulgar." She said, standing up suddenly, "Uncle Feng, I thank you for your help to me in the past, and I will always keep your help to me in my heart. In the future, I will
Earn money by yourself to complete your studies, then earn a lot of money, and then fulfill his last wish."
I was suddenly stunned, "Cai Cai, you are too idealistic. Have you ever thought about it? Are there no men in your hometown village who need your help? To do good things, you must start with the people around you. I
I don’t know why Teacher Luan did those good things, but I believe he must have a reason. And, until now, I still think it is a mistake for you to like him. No matter how noble he is, his age can already
It's a fact that your father is dead. Cai Cai, can you make your parents worry less about you? It's ridiculous for a person to talk about being noble without even fulfilling his filial piety. Do you think so?
?”
"You are too vulgar." She looked at me with disdain and left immediately.
I couldn't help but sigh.
Later, her solution was just as I expected - only when she truly grew up did she realize how naive she had been.
But there is one thing I still admire about her, because at least she was noble and had lofty dreams.
At that time, I didn’t fully understand many things, and I didn’t fully understand what was going on. But at that time, I didn’t want to figure it out anymore, because what Caicai said that day and her attitude made me disgusted, and
It’s just that I don’t believe that Charlie Luan is any kind of saint at all. Is he a saint who still picks up little girls at such an old age?
So, I stopped caring about that matter later.
Of course, there is another reason for this: Cai Cai’s mother asked me to resign.
Of course I knew that her heart was completely broken because of her daughter. So, I didn't try to save her.
When she left my house, the child cried loudly and she also shed tears.
Lin Yi sent me a new nanny the next day. I knew that Cai Cai's mother must have told Lin Yi her plans before resigning.
The new nanny is just as hard-working, but rarely talks.
My life has not changed because of this incident, except that my child did not adapt well to the new nanny for a long time at the beginning. It is said that the child often cried at home during that period.
However, the child has grown up, because one night when I went home to hug him, I suddenly heard him call me "Daddy"
I was so pleasantly surprised that I couldn't believe my ears, "Son, scream again!"
"Dad!" he shouted to me crisply.
I heard it clearly, and my eyes suddenly shed tears uncontrollably. I was not sad, but moved, so I made sure that the child quickly went to Chen Yuan.
"Son, call mom!" I asked the child to look at Chen Yuan on the bed and said to him excitedly.
At this moment, how much I hope that the child can make that call, and how much I hope that Chen Yuan can open her eyes immediately because of this...
This is the first time a child has consciously called out to me.
Once upon a time, when I was still in college, when I saw those young couples happily together with their children, I would always fantasize about one thing in my mind: What will my child look like in the future? Will it be a boy or a girl?
It would be great if they were twins, even better... At that time, I was very strange. I always fantasized about children first and then started to further think about what kind of woman my future wife would be.
I was like that at that time, and my fantasies were so unrealistic.
Later, after Zhao Menglei and I got married, when I learned that she was infertile, although I felt some regret in my heart, the regret was not very strong because I didn't really feel it at that time.
to the joy and happiness of being a father. But to be honest, I really don’t care much about her infertility problem, I just feel sorry for it. But I didn’t expect that the regret in my heart would cause such a big mistake, and it still makes me sad to this day.
I feel uneasy. In my heart, her death seems to be directly related to me. This feeling makes me unable to let go for a long time, and the guilt in my heart lingers for a long time.
It was Chen Yuan who gave me a child. However, she paid so much.
We had our child, and he was beautiful and cute. Although he was born prematurely, his body developed like a normal child. He was born thin and skinny and gradually turned into a tiger-like head and a cute look, especially the smear on his face.
Those obvious traces of my inheritance made me truly feel the joy of the continuation of my life. I truly felt the happiness and satisfaction of being a father.
Since the child was six months old, he has clearly shown his curiosity about the world: he is learning words "yah" and looking at everything around him with so much curiosity. Not long ago, I found that he began to learn to use a spoon to eat.
He thought happily: The child has finally become a human - according to Marx's theory, learning to use tools is one of the differences between humans and animals.
And today, when I heard the child clearly calling out the word "Daddy", exciting emotions such as surprise, excitement, joy, satisfaction, happiness, joy, etc. suddenly hit my heart violently!
The child calls me "Dad"!
All along, I have always imagined the day when the child can grow up to speak, and now, this day has finally arrived. I imagine, I hope, that Chen Yuan can wake up to the sound of the child's call. Because I firmly believe in one thing
: The hearts of mother and child are connected, and the call of the child will definitely wake up Chen Yuan!
"Son, call mom, hurry up, call mom!" So, I couldn't help shouting to the child excitedly, and at the same time, I carried the child to Chen Yuan on the hospital bed.
However, the child did not call out the sound I hoped for, and he burst into tears suddenly.
Then I suddenly remembered a fact: most children are called "Dad" first. According to superstition, whoever the child calls first will have the hardest work, fatigue and even misery in the future, but I know that this is not the case in reality.
, most children call "Dad" first because the sound "Dad" is easier to pronounce than "Mom".
I was too impatient, so I could only face disappointment again. At the same time, I felt guilty for the child and Chen Yuan. Haste makes waste, so long time has passed, why do I care about this moment?
?I said to myself in my heart, and at the same time, my inner expectations became stronger. I still believe that when the child can call "Mom", when that day really comes, Chen Yuan will definitely wake up.
I firmly believe it.
I must firmly believe in this, otherwise, the last straw deep in my heart will break ruthlessly. I dare not imagine such a terrible result and possibility.
When Zhuang Qing came to Jiangnan, Lin Yu and I, as well as a deputy director of the Provincial Department of Culture, personally went to pick her up at the airport. Of course, Shangguan Qin also went with us, because Zhuang Qing didn’t eat well after arriving in Jiangnan.
Accommodation and transportation will be arranged by her.
When Zhuang Qing came out of the airport exit, I saw her at first sight. I thought it was a little funny because it was night but she was wearing a pair of big sunglasses. But to be honest, she looked very beautiful with her sunglasses on.
She has the temperament of a star. Today she is wearing a set of white clothes and pants. Her hair is black and straight, and she looks pure and lovely. (To be continued)