This is actually the issue that I have always been most concerned about.
There are many issues that everyone is concerned about in their daily life, but most of them do not make them very curious. In other words, many issues can be ignored, but some issues will always take root in their minds.
Germination, maybe we can still ignore it during this process of taking root and sprouting, but we can't help but ask it when we have the opportunity, just like after a seed is planted, when it finally feels like it one day
Just like when you can break through the ground, at that moment, you will rush through the last layer of obstacles regardless of the matter.
Now, this is my problem. I have been paralyzing myself. I clearly know that a woman will not have such a relationship with me for no reason, but as a matter of lust, I have adopted a very confused attitude.
I make love with them again and again but never ask them why.
But the situation at this moment is completely different, because we have talked a lot, and because the atmosphere is so harmonious. Therefore, I feel that it is just the right time to ask this question, and I also feel that I must ask this question.
ask.
Because, I am worried that I will never have the courage to ask this question again in the future.
As a man, you will always ask why like me, especially when it comes to such inexplicable issues about the relationship between men and women.
It is indeed an inexplicable relationship between men and women, because although I know that Liu Meng has a purpose for me, I still can't understand it. Especially when she specifically told me today that she used to hire girls from nightclubs to accompany clients.
After the incident.
She said to me: "Don't be ignorant of blessings when you are in the midst of blessings. Not everyone wants to accompany me. You are the first one."
What she said surprised me and shocked me at the same time. Because her words were completely opposite to my previous judgment of her.
In the past, I always thought that she used this way to conduct business, so even after I had that relationship with her, I just thought it was a very normal thing, and I even felt that I was hers.
It was just a customer, so I suddenly became calm and calm in my heart.
But later on, as we came into contact and became happy again and again, I gradually developed a certain emotion for her in my heart. This emotion did not come just by saying it, but through the spiritual process during the process of our relationship.
Through the contact with the flesh, I slowly gained understanding. From the contact between the spirit and the flesh outside, I could know that she should not just be a relationship of use to me.
This feeling cannot be explained clearly in words, but I can feel it through my heart. Because of this, I also have different emotions towards her.
Especially in this case.
When the matter between Zhuang Qing and I was noticed by the media, and when Chang Bailing treated me in that way, I found that I felt more and more special about her.
Maybe I can understand Chang Bailing's current situation and difficulties, maybe I can understand everything she has done, but my heart cannot accept it. Because after all, I am still a very simple person, and a person with a simple heart can only
Value real emotions.
This thing is very simple to say, but for those complicated people, they may not be able to understand it. This is the world: simple people cannot understand rational people, but they can forgive them.
As for whether rational people can understand simple people like me, it's hard to say.
Therefore, there may always be some fairness in this world. Whether it is the issue of rich or poor, or the so-called fairness and justice. This is the world, and I believe this world will always be like this.
During the conversation between Liu Meng and I, I suddenly felt such emotion in my heart. I found that a person is often prone to such emotion when he encounters something unpleasant.
Now, the question I am most concerned about is: since she said that she came to accompany me not just because of profit issues, so I am even more eager to know why she is so good to me. What does this question mean to me?
Maybe it wasn't important in the past, but now, after I encountered Zhuang Qing's problem, I had to think about it.
No, this should be a very important thing to me, because I found that I really had different emotions for her.
It is because of cherishment that I am so eager to know the truth. This is the difference between my concept now and before.
Of course Liu Meng would not know the complicated emotions in my heart at this moment. She was still joking with me with a smile, "Feng Xiao, do you really want to know?"
I said: "I really want to know. Because I hope to be friends with you for a long time."
She smiled charmingly and asked me: "Do you hope that I will be your lover for a long time?"
I immediately said to her seriously: "Not only that, we don't have to be lovers, but we must be friends. Especially this time, when I didn't know who to find to accompany me, I suddenly thought of
You. Because in my heart you are the only friend I can rely on at the moment. So, I think we don’t have to be in love when we are together, but we can’t live without the emotion of friends.”
She smiled and said: "Feng Xiao, have you watched too many movies? Why do I think you speak so sourly?"
I said: "Liu Meng, please be serious! What I said is the truth, and these words are the truest thoughts in my heart."
Only then did she become serious and serious, "Feng Xiao, you are not joking with me, are you?"
I said: "If you still think I am joking with you, I feel very sad. Liu Meng, I tell you the truth, what I said before is true. If there is one sentence in what I said before,
If it is false, then one day I will be struck by thunder from heaven."
She suddenly screamed, "Feng Xiao! Don't bet on such a curse! I'm scared if you say that! I was always joking with you, why did you suddenly become so serious?"
Hearing her say this, I suddenly felt a little uncomfortable and sad. After a moment of silence, I whispered softly: "Liu Meng, every word I said to you today is the truest thought in my heart.
Every sentence is true. But I didn't expect you to think so. Liu Meng, I'm very sad."
She came to look at me, looked at me closely, and after a while she sighed softly: "Feng Xiao, I understand. I'm sorry, I have always thought of you wrong. I was wrong too."
I also looked at her, but I didn't say anything. In fact, my eyes were already asking her: Why?
I believe she will be able to understand the look in my eyes.
She then said to me softly: "Feng Xiao, I went through a struggle when I decided to be with you. I hesitated for a long time. When Yu Min told me that I would come to accompany you, I didn't
Promise her immediately."
I didn't say anything because I knew she would continue talking.
Sure enough, I heard her continue to say: "Yu Min and I have always been good friends, but she doesn't understand me. When Yu Min and I were in the same company, she... forget it, I won't talk about you.
I know. In fact, I understand her very well when she does that. For her, she can only make money by doing that. In fact, everyone in our industry is like that. Feng Xiao, don’t say that I am very
I want to say how noble I am, and I don’t want to declare that I am different. Women in our industry are actually just like young ladies, but they are much more dignified. In fact, I have also accompanied a client, only once. I said before
I'm lying to you. That time I knew I had to do it because the dean said it very directly. He said: If Liu Meng doesn't sleep with me, this list will never be given to you. I also went to ask for it at that time.
I married a beautiful girl in a nightclub, but the dean only wanted me. At that time, I needed money the most, so I could only give myself to him. Because of this, when Yu Min told me
Although I hesitated when you were there, I quickly made up my mind because I knew that maybe you were the person in my life who could really change my own future. Yu Min made your situation very clear.
I have to agree to her. Feng Xiao, do you think I am despicable?"
I said, "When you put it this way, I think it's very logical."
Although I felt that everything could be explained logically, I suddenly found that my heart was filled with sadness: It turns out that this world is really such a reality!
It's like this many times. When you don't know the truth, you are so eager to know the truth, but when the truth is placed in front of you, you find that the truth is so cruel.
Liu Meng glanced at me, and then continued: "Feng Xiao, you feel very uncomfortable now, don't you? I know that you will definitely feel uncomfortable after I tell you all this.
But I also want to tell you that after I have been in contact with you for a while, I discovered that you are really someone who can be friends. You may not be particularly good to Yu Min, but you are always there for her.
Help her at the most critical moment
.Also, every time you are with me, I can feel that there are not so many false things in your heart. On the contrary, I think you are so kind. Really, believe it or not, it’s up to you. So I
I began to slowly use my heart to get close to you, to understand you, and even to feel you. Later I discovered that your heart is so fragile, sometimes even as fragile as a child... and there is innocence
.
Later, I discovered that you are different from other men because you are very sincere. Although I was joking with you, there is one sentence I said that is true. Feng Xiao, you are so good to women, you can
Let any woman slowly develop an uncontrollable good impression or even emotion towards you. Feng Xiao, maybe you may not believe it. Now, sometimes when I dream, I always dream that I am not married yet, because my
In my heart, I still hope that I can have the opportunity to be with you forever. Unfortunately, this is not reality. Hey! Feng Xiao, look what I said? Do you think I am ridiculous today? Do you think I
Very fake?"
Her words shocked me, and even gave me a feeling of shock, because I could clearly tell that her words were true.
It’s absolutely true! The knowledge of psychology tells me this. (To be continued)