But she was still shaking her head, "This is incredible. How did the murderer know that Sun Lulu had clothes at home? How did he know that Sun Lulu had to go home after seeing the clothes falling from upstairs? This is not certain.
It’s a matter.”
I suddenly felt a headache, and then I realized that my thoughts seemed a bit unbelievable. However, I am a bit stubborn and always felt that this possibility existed, so I added: "Maybe the murderer just wants Tong Yangxi to die."
, as for other things, he may not even think about it.”
She suddenly laughed, "Is there such a murderer? Then let me ask you again, what was the murderer's motive for killing Tong Yangxi? Generally speaking, crimes have motives. Tell me, why did the murderer kill Tong Yangxi?
Where is Yangxi?"
I was stunned again, "How do I know? I don't know much about Tong Yangxi. Who knows who he offended? But I think that if Tong Yangxi's death is most beneficial to someone, then who should be the murderer.
"
She was stunned for a moment, and I could clearly see her "stunned" expression, but she immediately looked at me and said, "Feng Xiao, I think Yang Xi's death is best for you."
I never expected that she would say this, and I immediately became angry, "Tong Yao, if you think I am the murderer, you can also investigate me."
Her expression suddenly became serious, "I'm sorry, Feng Xiao, I shouldn't make such a joke with you. Don't be angry. But the idea you just had was too unbelievable and too subjective. It's impossible.
Because generally speaking, crimes like this are premeditated and it is impossible to adopt such a luck-based approach. No criminal would do that."
Seeing her say this, I was no longer angry with her. After all, she was joking. At the same time, I felt even more nervous that I was really nervous, so I said embarrassedly: "I'm sorry, after all, I'm not a policeman.
Tong Yao, I'm sorry to call you here so early... However, there may be another possibility, that is, the criminal was originally planning to adopt another plan, and then adopted it temporarily because of Sun Lulu's change of schedule.
That way."
She shook her head and said: "Stop talking, how is it possible? To temporarily throw clothes upstairs? To bring Sun Lulu home in that way? Isn't this too unreliable?"
Just now, I only thought of that possibility temporarily, but after what she said, I suddenly felt that it was really unlikely, so I said with shame: "It seems so?"
She finally said to me: "Feng Xiao, although your idea is a bit appalling and out of tune, I am still very grateful to you, because after all, you are kind-hearted in providing me with clues and ideas. But this matter is over
That's it, don't tell anyone, so as not to cause unnecessary confusion. Okay?"
I nodded to her sheepishly and awkwardly.
Later, I watched her leave. Today she was wearing a police uniform, her back was straight, and she had a graceful posture unique to women when she walked. I was suddenly stunned.
She opened the car door and was about to get in the car, but suddenly turned around and waved to me, with a beautiful smile on her face. I couldn't help but raise my hand, and waved to her stiffly. She said the car drove away.
, I am very ashamed because of the dream last night.
It seems now that my analysis of myself at the beginning was correct.
When I got home, they had not sent Chen Yuan and the children back, but I felt very tired.
I thought maybe it was because my heart was too tired. In the morning, I suddenly became excited and excited because I suddenly had such an idea. When people are excited and excited, they will secrete a lot of adrenaline, but then
However, my excitement and excitement immediately left me. This overdraft of adrenaline caused my current fatigue. This is a physical factor.
And in my heart, because my inference was rejected, it was no longer possible to overturn the case for Sun Lulu. Thinking of the friendship I had with her, and thinking of her serving a sentence in prison for accidentally injuring her husband, I felt very sad.
and disappointment.
Although Murong told me last time that Sun Lulu could come out earlier if done properly, I know that many things are subject to variables. In the final analysis, it is still unknown whether Sun Lulu can come out earlier. So I feel
I feel very sad and lost, and my heart is very tired.
Also, I feel ashamed about the dream I had last night. This shame actually started from the moment I woke up this morning and recalled my dream. I originally thought that my dream represented another
I mean, this made me excited and excited for a while, but now I understand that I am actually that nasty and shameless.
Feng Xiao, how could you have such thoughts about Tong Yao? Are you still a human being?!
He threw himself on the bed, put on his clothes and closed his eyes to sleep.
But I couldn't sleep because I couldn't help but despise myself. I think it's time to take a good look at my past. Lin Yi is right, a person should always mature as soon as possible, but I don't like it very much.
He was so mature that he made so many unpredictable mistakes.
When did it become what it is now? I first asked myself this.
One thing I am sure of is that before I started working, I was innocent. I was so innocent that I never had any deep interactions with women. At that time, whenever I saw a beautiful woman, I would
I can't help but blush and my heart beats faster.
My first time was given to Zhao Menglei, the first love in my heart. I have never regretted this matter. Not only that, I also thanked God in my heart for a long time for giving me the love.
grace.
If we really want to find the source of why I became what I am now, it should be Zhuang Qing. She was the one who seduced me for the first time, and she has made it difficult for me to extricate myself since then.
You know, I was already engaged to Zhao Menglei at that time. Then came Lin Yu, Hong Ya, Su Hua, Sun Lulu... and other women. Although Chen Yuan was also one of them, she later became my
's wife.
Cheating can be addictive, especially when there is no danger. It is a kind of wanton indulgence without any restraint on oneself.
In other words, since the incident between me and Zhuang Qing, I have degenerated, from being a "human" to the most basic attribute of an animal. From then on, I have a strong possessive desire for women, and I have indulged myself to pursue them again and again.
Low-level sensory stimulation to obtain sensual satisfaction. In the final analysis, that's it.
And now I realize the serious consequences of indulgence. Fortunately, the consequences are not terrible. As far as my current situation is concerned, the direct consequence is that I encountered several troubles and my moral degradation. Suddenly
Thinking of my classmate Ouyang Tonglai, his consequences should be called terrible.
In addition, there are money issues.
I can be sure that when I was studying, or even when I first started working, I didn’t pay much attention to money. My parents were just ordinary workers in a small county town, and many families around our home were related to my parents.
The economic situation is about the same.
Therefore, I took my financial situation at that time very lightly and took it for granted. So, what happened that stimulated my desire for money later?
I suddenly remembered it. It was the first time I went to Zhao Menglei's home. When I saw her home was so spacious and bright, I immediately felt an inferiority complex in my heart. That was the first time I felt that life
The sense of superiority brought by being able to own such a house in the city. At that time, my heart was shocked.
As a doctor at the Medical University Affiliated Hospital, I know that my income should be relatively high among my peers, including those of my classmates, so I have always felt complacent about it, and at the same time I am very calm and satisfied.
However, when I saw Zhao Menglei's house that day, I immediately felt unbalanced. At that moment, I realized that I was so poor.
Later, I remember that during a night shift, Zhong Xiaohong seemed to have talked to me about the house. She told me that I could use a mortgage. At the time, I thought it made sense, and I almost did what she said.
Already.
But soon, something happened to Zhao Menglei’s ex-husband. She immediately bought a new house and married me. When I saw how easily and quickly she bought the house and decorated it, I felt a sense of inferiority in my heart.
It became even more intense. Although I never mentioned this matter in front of her, I cared about it in my heart because I felt that I was a man and buying a house should be my responsibility.
Therefore, when Song Mei proposed to cooperate with me on that project, I did not object in particular. Of course, Zhuang Qing was a factor, but later, even after I knew it was a conspiracy, I still agreed to continue.
Cooperate with him.
Then came the contacts with Si Weimin, Lin Yi, Ning Xiangru and others, and of course the contacts with Lin Yu and Hong Ya. In fact, thinking about it now, when I went to associate with them, there was only one real reason for the contact, that
Just to make money.
Emotions arise slowly later. I know this better than anyone else.
I lay in bed and recalled the scenes I had experienced, especially the scenes that made me fall. However, when I recalled everything, I was surprised to find: It seemed that I had done nothing wrong, because
I feel that every action I take is inevitable.
Just imagine, if I didn't have such close contact with Zhuang Qing, how would I know the wonders of the outside world? If I didn't accept Lin Yu's friendship, how would I know the charm of the power in her hands? As for my acquaintance with Chen Yuan, I think
That is completely a kind of fate.
And my contact with Lin Yi. Without that process, how could Chen Yuan find his mother? And how could I live the life I do now?
Therefore, I was immediately confused, and I was so confused that I didn't know what to do - it was obvious that I had fallen, it was obvious that I had become completely opposite to my previous state, and I even witnessed the death of several people, and their death
They all seem to have some connection with myself. Why is this? Why?! Is there really God’s will in this world that controls our lives, preventing us from choosing our own path? Is it true?
Is that so?
No, that's not the case, Feng Xiao, there must be something you haven't figured out. I thought so.
Of course, there was a reason for me to think about this issue this way, because I found that when I was in front of Lin Yi, I could accept every word he said, and he also pointed out the crux of my problem.
But...why do I always feel confused and confused when I think about these issues? (To be continued)