Later, after Liu Meng's incident happened, I believed this even more firmly. I suddenly felt that everything was funny and full of dangers. I just felt that it was safest to dispose of all the money that should not be my own.
A large part of bank loans have also been repaid.
So from now on, I no longer care much about the project. In my heart, I have regarded the project as a tool for my father to have fun. As long as he feels fulfilled.
But there was one thing that I was not very happy about but had no choice about. Lin Yi transferred a large amount of funds from my two projects.
His reasons are of course very good. He said that he has recently launched too many projects, continues to recycle funds, and is also preparing to invest overseas.
I thought since we are a family, I didn’t say much. Anyway, I’m not short of money now.
Now I still need to do one thing, which is to hand over the principal and profits of Kang Demao, Lin Yu and Hong Ya to them as soon as possible. But after Lin Yi did this, I had to postpone it.
However, this result made me indifferent to the project, so I stopped asking too much about it. In the past, I was mainly worried about the loan. Now that there is no risk in that aspect, I just
There is no need to inquire too much. This will gradually reduce my contact with my father.
But now, I suddenly had a strong impulse, how much I wanted to say a few words to my parents, because I suddenly felt extremely helpless in my heart.
I called my home phone number. I knew that my father was not at work yet and my mother should still be at home.
The call was answered by my father, "Who is it?"
His voice was so familiar that it made me burst into tears, "Dad, Chen Yuan is no longer here... Wuwu!"
The father must have been shocked, because he said after a while, "Feng Xiao, tell me again, what happened to Chen Yuan?"
I couldn't control myself and cried "Wow!" "She, she is gone. She has been cremated. Woohoo!"
"When did it happen?" My father's voice suddenly became hoarse.
"Just the day before yesterday, she, she left. She woke up in the middle of the night and said a few words to me. Then she said she was so sleepy, but she fell asleep and never woke up again. Dad, I...
"I said, because I got someone to talk to, so my tears were flowing out more freely.
"Hey!" Father sighed, "Smile, are you okay?"
"Hmm." I said.
"Actually, this is also a relief for her. What do you think?" My father began to comfort me.
"Yeah." I said. In fact, I also know that Chen Yuan's departure is a kind of relief. Everyone has the same view on this. But I can never fully accept it emotionally, because my heart is stronger than other people's.
There is one more thing in everything, and that is guilt.
"Smile, your mother wants to talk to you." My father was silent for a while and then said to me. I could feel that he was sighing on the other end of the phone just now.
"Son, are you okay?" The mother's voice came immediately over the phone. She was not as good at controlling her emotions as her father, so she was crying.
During the phone call with my father just now, my emotions had been extremely vented, but in the face of my mother's crying, I could only calm myself down, "Mom, it's okay."
"How is my grandson doing?" My mother asked. Unlike my father, she was primarily concerned about Chen Yuan and I's children. Maybe my father felt the same way in his heart, but he wouldn't show it like that.
"Very good. Now he is at his grandpa's and grandma's house." I said.
"Why don't I retire early, and I'll bring my grandson back, and we'll help you take care of the child." The mother said, and she stopped crying when she talked about the child.
"Let's talk about it after I discuss it with my father-in-law and the others." I thought for a while and then said.
"No, he is our grandson, and I want to pick him up. Now that the child's mother is gone, I am worried," the mother said.
At this time, his father answered the phone, "Feng Xiao, don't listen to your mother about this matter. You go and discuss it with your father-in-law and the others first. We are a family. Although Chen Yuan is gone, we cannot let them do it because of this."
I feel that you have become separated. A person living in this world must be conscientious and not do things too much. Do you understand? You must discuss it with them. Of course, your mother and I also very much hope that the child can come to us.
. Do you understand what I mean?"
Of course I understand what my father meant. His words are actually based on one principle: Do not take the child away unless Lin Yi and Shi Yanni fully agree. In my heart, I am very grateful to my father for his generosity, because he thought of one thing: Lin Yi and Shi Yanni just
After losing their daughter, they would definitely have some thoughts if they took away the child again under such circumstances. It would be too inhumane and cruel.
Then my father talked to me for a while, mainly to comfort me and remind me to pay attention to my health. But now my mood is much better, and my heart is warm and I no longer feel as helpless as before.
I went to Lin Yi's house that day, mainly because I wanted to see Shi Yanni and my children.
When I arrived at Lin Yi's house, I saw Shi Yanni feeding the child. The child kept shaking his head, but Shi Yanni did not force her, so she went to get some toys for the child to play with.
I found that Shi Yanni's face looked good, and her mental state was not as bad as I thought. After entering, I greeted her directly, and she enthusiastically asked me to sit down.
"Your father-in-law has gone to the company." She said to me immediately.
"I came over to see you and the kids," I said.
"Xiao Nan is gone. This child has given me a lot of fun." Her expression suddenly became gloomy.
"You are usually so busy, I'd better take the child back." I hesitated for a moment before saying to her.
But she was shaking her head, "I'm sorry for Xiaonan, but I can't be sorry for her child anymore. Feng Xiao, just let this child stay in my home, okay?"
What else can I say? So I said, "Whatever you think is good."
"Thank you, Feng Xiao." She smiled at me.
"Let me feed the child." So I said to her, "Don't spoil the child when feeding him. Feed him with big mouthfuls. Only in this way can he develop a good habit of eating."
"How can I bear to force my child?" she said.
So I smiled and said: "Forcing is also a kind of love for him. Do you think so?"
She also laughed and said, "Then you come and demonstrate." Then she gave the child to me. The child was very happy when it came into my arms and immediately started jumping up and down.
"Don't move and obey!" I said to the child seriously.
The child was still the same, so I spanked him gently, and it was better. The child immediately opened his mouth and started crying, and he cried very wronged and sad. Shi Yanni was also dissatisfied, "Feng
"Smile, why are you beating the child? Give me the child, seriously!"
I hurriedly said: "You really can't get used to the child."
"Give it to me! Why do you hit the child so often?" she said angrily.
I could only smile bitterly. This is always the case in children's education. The truth is that you cannot dote on her. Then I handed the child over to her, but I still said in my mouth: "The child is too used to it. If you want to educate her in the future, just teach her."
It’s not easy anymore.”
But she started to cry, "You hit the child just after Xiaonan left. You are so cruel."
I didn't expect that she would say this, so I immediately became embarrassed and apologized to her hastily, "I was wrong. I was wrong. Isn't that okay? Yes, I went to work."
She said: "Go ahead and come over to see the children when you have time. Don't do what you did before...forget it, I don't want to talk about you anymore. It's all Xiao Nan's fate."
I suddenly felt sad and embarrassed, so I hurriedly and awkwardly said goodbye to her.
When I got outside, I suddenly felt bored and very lonely. Although I often went to parties or did other things alone in the past, I always felt that I was not as lonely as I am now. After all,
I always think that there is another person at home. Even though she has been unconscious for a long time, she has always been my wife. But now that she is gone, my heart suddenly becomes completely empty.
This is a psychological state that is difficult for others to understand and feel. Only my heart knows how lonely I am now. This is completely different from the loneliness I felt before.
I actually felt that I had nowhere to go, so I started to yearn for places with many people. So I drove to the city center, parked the car and went outside the crowded downtown shopping mall. But I found that I was still lonely.
, and even more lonely——
The people in front of me are very busy. There are several people walking together, there are men and women in love walking closely together, and there are also single people looking around in the crowd... But none of them have blank eyes like me. Here
In the crowd of ants, the result was that it brought out the more intense feeling of loneliness in my heart.
I ran away quickly and then aimlessly went to shopping malls. I watched others choose clothes, eavesdropped on the whispers of lovers... I squatted in front of a beggar outside the shopping mall to observe him, but what happened
After being scolded, I laughed loudly, took out a hundred yuan and handed it to him, and then left quickly, but I heard the beggar say behind me: "This is a lunatic!"
I was stunned immediately because I found that my spirit seemed to be a little abnormal.
But I still don't want to go to the hospital because I don't want to see the sympathetic eyes of my colleagues.
I really wanted to go to that stone house, but I was more afraid of being enveloped by the loneliness there. I also thought about calling Hong Ya, but a feeling of guilt for Chen Yuan suddenly emerged in my heart. So, I drove there
When we arrived at the riverside, we entered a restaurant, ordered wine and food, and drank there alone.
Now I know that only alcohol can make me feel less lonely. (To be continued)