She did not avoid my eyes, "Since you were so bad, then why did you treat me... Dr. Feng, please forgive me for being young and naive. Maybe I shouldn't ask you such a question, but I am a woman, you
Do you understand me?"
I nodded, "Of course I understand. You have always had a defensive attitude towards me, and I have noticed it a long time ago."
She read without saying a word and lowered her head to caress the hem of her clothes.
I turned my eyes, then looked at the colorful night in front of the car, and sighed softly: "Chenchen, to tell you the truth, your eyes are so much like my ex-wife's eyes. Alas! It's a pity that it's me.
I didn't know how to cherish her. It wasn't until she left this world that I realized how much I loved her. Unfortunately, it was too late."
She suddenly raised her head, "Dr. Feng, aren't you preparing to pursue me? Hehe! Your method is too old-fashioned. But I must tell you that it is impossible for us. The white horse in my heart
The prince is not like you."
I sighed: "Chenchen, you misunderstood me. I am a man with many flaws, and I have been married twice and have a son. You are so young and beautiful, and you are still so simple and full of dreams.
, how am I qualified to pursue you?"
She looked at me in shock, "Do I really look like your ex-wife?"
I shook my head, "No, you are not similar to her at all, but your eyes are very similar to hers, they are really similar."
She immediately laughed and said, "I believe you. No man would compare her with his ex-wife when chasing a woman. Doesn't this make girls jealous? Haha! Doctor Feng, it's better now.
, I can finally feel relieved. To be honest, I am really worried that you have such thoughts, so I want to take this opportunity to explain to you today. Great, I can treat you as a friend in the future."
I felt that she was really too naive, that is, she just met me. If it were another man, wouldn't it be so easy for her to fall for her? So I immediately said to her seriously: "Chenchen, a girl can't
You should trust a man so casually, especially a married man like me."
Her expression suddenly changed, "Did you lie to me just now?"
I shook my head, "Of course I didn't lie to you. Because of your eyes, I will never lie to you. But this society is not so pure. Didn't you just say it? Many rich men are actually very
Bad. So I'm really worried about you."
She pursed her lips and said: "Do you think I just trust someone casually? Many of the people who come to our place to listen to music are rich men, and some people have expressed that kind of meaning to me, but I don't think so at all.
Will believe them. Dr. Feng, it’s just that I think you are different from them. Maybe it’s as you said. I have never seen anything evil in your eyes, but all I see is your sincerity.
."
I couldn't help but feel ashamed, "Thank you, Chenchen, thank you for your trust in me."
In fact, her direct rejection of me made me very frustrated and sad, but her eyes and sincerity made me even more ashamed. As I said just now: I am not qualified at all.
to pursue her.
She immediately came to me and asked: "By the way, Dr. Feng, you just said that you have been married twice. Did you get divorced recently? Oh, I'm sorry, maybe I shouldn't ask you this question."
I shook my head sadly, then continued to drive the car forward. After a while, I said sadly: "It's not a divorce, it's my wife. My wife passed away from this world because of illness."
She let out a slight exclamation, "Ah... I'm sorry..."
I shook my head with a wry smile and stepped on the accelerator harder. The car roared quickly and flew forward. She shouted to me loudly: "Don't be so fast! Slow down, please slow down?"
I relaxed my foot on the accelerator a lot, and the car's speed gradually became normal, "I'm sorry."
She said softly: "Dr. Feng, I should be the one who should say sorry. I shouldn't ask you that question. Dr. Feng, I finally know why you like to listen to that song, and I also know why you were listening to that song just now."
Sometimes I will shed tears. I’m sorry..."
I stopped talking because my heart was filled with sadness.
Soon, we arrived at the gate of the Conservatory of Music. Although it was already midnight, there were still many small restaurants open outside the school gate. If there is a need, there is a market. I saw many small restaurants.
There were students eating inside. I slowed down the car and moved forward slowly. Finally, I saw a man and a woman eating in a small restaurant, so I went to ask Chenchen: "Is this restaurant
May I?"
She said: "I still want to eat barbecue."
I was startled and then said: "Okay, but you'd better eat less of that stuff from now on."
She said: "I will no longer eat mutton kebabs, I will only eat vegetarian food."
I immediately laughed and said, "Okay, that's fine."
She also laughed, "It's really troublesome for you to be a doctor. Why do you have so many taboos?"
I couldn't help but smile bitterly.
She was looking at me, "Dr. Feng, tell me about your two wives later, okay? I really want to hear it."
I glanced at her and found that her eyes were full of expectation. I couldn't help but sigh in my heart and nodded towards her.
She said: "Thank you."
Then we got out of the car. I felt like I was in a dream now, because I really didn’t understand why she took the initiative to come and have supper with me today. Although she had already given the reason before, I still felt
It's weird because I still feel like it's too much like a dream.
We sat down at a small table outside a barbecue restaurant. She ordered the dishes herself, and she also brought a few bottles of beer. It was a bit cold in the night. Just like that, we sat opposite each other, and she picked up the wine glass and made it to me.
Made a "please" gesture.
We clinked glasses and drank. The beer was very cold and irritated my throat, making it almost difficult for me to swallow. After I finally swallowed it, I immediately felt a chill in my stomach. This feeling was very uncomfortable. But she was drinking.
She didn't seem to feel anything after drinking that glass of wine. I immediately guessed that she might have been living this kind of life all the time.
"Chenchen, your living habits are not good. You are still young now, so you may not feel anything wrong with your body, but over time you will have problems. I am a doctor, and I hope you can listen to my advice."
So I couldn't help but advise her.
She seemed not to hear my words, "Dr. Feng, tell me about your wife, okay? Maybe I am really too naive, so I really want to hear their stories. Maybe their stories will be helpful to me in the future."
."
But I didn't want to say it anymore, "Chenchen, I'm not in a good mood today. I'll tell you later. Okay?"
She didn't say anything, but immediately asked me: "When will it be in the future?"
I replied: "In a month, I will be back from abroad."
She looked at me in shock, "You want to go abroad?"
I smiled bitterly and said: "As a doctor at the Medical University Affiliated Hospital, going abroad is a very common thing, although it is the first time for me."
She nodded and said: "That's right. Okay, let's wait until you are in a better mood. I'm sorry, I shouldn't have repeatedly asked you to tell them things today. It seems that I am still too naive. In fact, I voluntarily know myself.
Sometimes I am very ignorant. Doctor Feng, you must forgive me."
I shook my head and said, "It's okay."
She was raising her glass to me, "Dr. Feng, thank you for your generosity. Now I know that you are actually a good person."
I drank the wine and suddenly felt that I was getting used to the coldness of the beer. After drinking it, I asked her: "Chenchen, you haven't told me yet, what happened to Doudou and the others?"
She sighed: "Doudou...hey! She actually went to work as a lover for an old man. I really didn't expect it."
I was so startled that the chopsticks in my hand almost fell to the ground!
I should be able to think of this ending, because she once asked me like that. But when I really heard this thing coming out of Chenchen's mouth, I was still shocked. At this moment, I suddenly had a strange idea
:What would have happened if I had agreed to her at the beginning? Then I felt that my idea was too ridiculous.
This matter is inherently absurd. Doudou took this step, which is inherently absurd, but I don't know whether it is she or this society that is absurd.
"Is there someone else with you?" I asked. She once told me the girl's name, but I never remembered it. Things that I don't want to remember can never enter the memory of my brain.
, which is also one of the results of memory training.
"She went back to her hometown to get married." She sighed.
I couldn't help but sigh, and after a while I said: "Chenchen, I have something to advise you. I hope you won't be angry with me after listening to it."
She came to have a beer with me, and then said: "Go ahead, I'd like to hear your opinion. In fact, I regret not listening to your advice now."
I nodded, "Since you already feel regretful, I won't say more. In fact, my advice is still what I said to you before. It is a good thing for a person to have a dream, but you cannot force others to do the same as you.
Dreams, unless you can meet the minimum material needs of others. As I said, dreams cannot be used as food or clothing. Not everyone will be as persistent as you. Today I saw the business in your music bar
If it's not good, I'll be even more worried about the future of your place."
She was silent, and then drank two glasses of beer alone, and then asked me: "Dr. Feng, is there anything you can do?"
I said: "The only way is to commercialize. Integrate your dream with business. For example, you can move your bar to a prosperous area near the city, and then increase investment in advertising. People in the city need
It’s a place where you can get some peace and quiet amidst the hustle and bustle. Your place is too close to the suburbs. Who would go there unless they are people who really like your songs? But you are not celebrities, how can you have so many fans? Chenchen
, I’m sorry. But I think the most important thing to realize your dream is not just persistence, but more importantly, being accepted by others and being accepted by more people. Do you think this is the case?” (To be continued)