I smiled and said, "That's true, otherwise we wouldn't be called humans. Humans are animals with emotions. If they have emotions, they will inevitably have desires, and desires are the source of troubles. It's good to have troubles, at least it means that you are still alive."
She kept laughing, "You're so funny. But what you said seems to be right."
I smiled and said, "That's how it is."
She opened the office and asked me to go in. I was immediately surrounded by the warmth inside. The air conditioner was always on in her office. Maybe she was drunk, and then she suddenly entered such a feeling from the cold outside.
In the warm environment, I couldn't help but shudder.
She noticed how I was shivering, "I'll twist a hot towel for you and you wash your face. If you catch a cold, I'll be guilty of a big sin."
I smiled and said, "Why am I so squeamish?"
She smiled and said: "You have to listen to me on this. We women are sometimes more sensitive than you as doctors. To be honest, I am most afraid of you as doctors. When I was a child, when I saw anyone wearing white clothes, I thought they were doctors.
, I cried when I saw it.”
I couldn't help but laugh, "Is it that serious?"
She put a towel into a plastic basin, then took the basin to the water boiler and filled it with water. The steam from the hot water began to swirl in front of her. She said: "I am also most afraid of going to the hospital. Now
I'm still afraid. So I usually don't go there. Besides, I didn't dare to come to see you after I heard that you were the director of the hospital."
I laughed again, "So that's why you came to toast so late today."
She smiled and said: "That's not true. I am indeed too busy."
She had already wrung out the towel and handed it to my hand, "Wash your face and you will definitely feel more comfortable."
Indeed, when the hot towel reached my face, I immediately felt a comfortable feeling that warmed my heart.
Then he handed the towel to her, "Manager Zhong, I think I should remind you that your body won't be able to bear it if you drink every day like this. Isn't it necessary?"
She sighed: "My place has not been open for a long time. At the beginning, the people who came to take care of my business were friends and leaders I once knew. It would be unreasonable for me not to propose a toast."
I said: "Actually, it's just that you feel sorry for yourself. For example, if you don't come to toast me today, I won't feel anything wrong at all."
She sighed: "I do believe this, but other people don't think so. There's nothing I can do about it."
I suddenly realized, "Who told you to be so beautiful? It seems that many people come to your place to eat because they are drunk and not interested in drinking."
I regretted just after saying this. I found that I was really a little drunk today, so that I was so arrogant and what I said seemed a bit frivolous, so I hurriedly apologized: "No.
Sorry, I was joking."
But she sighed softly, "This is how society is now. It's difficult for us to be women!"
I didn't expect that my unintentional joke would cause her to have such a reaction, so I hurriedly said: "Manager Zhong, let's stop talking about such heavy topics. Don't you want to know about my female patient?"
?”
She shook her head, "I don't want to ask. In fact, you made it very clear when we were outside just now. You said that she and I look so similar, and I envy her. If only I could be as open-minded as she is.
Okay. So, two people may have the same appearance, but their personalities cannot be the same at all."
I said: "I don't think so like you. In fact, the most important thing for people is to let go. But many people are reluctant to let go. Even my female patient, didn't she let go at the end? Maybe she
I am still traveling abroad and enjoying the exotic customs. And myself, in fact, there are many things that I can’t let go of. People are like this, it’s easy to say it, but it’s difficult to really let yourself do that.
.But I believe I can still let go when I encounter certain things."
She had already made tea, and then came to look at me, "Dean Feng, can I ask you? What does your lover do?"
My expression suddenly became sad, "She has left this world."
She immediately said to me apologetically: "I'm sorry, I don't know..."
I smiled bitterly, "It's nothing. In fact, every one of us is the same. We have faced death from time to time since the day we were born. It's just that everyone leaves this world at a different time. Some people leave this world earlier, while others
But it will be later for others. It doesn’t make any difference.”
She looked at me in surprise, "Dean Feng, do you really think life and death are so simple? Are you not afraid of death at all?"
I shook my head and said: "Fear of death is human instinct, unless a person has a firm belief that allows him to despise death. But I think fear of death is one thing, and how to view death correctly is another matter. For
In fact, if you think about death, you will feel more at ease. If you think about it, if you die, it will be like falling asleep and never waking up again. The only people who are really afraid are others. Because the living people
I will think of myself because of the death of others, and think that I still have so many things that I have not done, and there are still many things that I have not experienced, as well as my own children and parents, and there are still many delicious things that I have not eaten, and good-looking clothes that I have not had.
Put it on... Just thinking about it makes me scared. This is why people are afraid of death. According to philosophy, I don't know where 'I' will go next... Yeah! We are
What's wrong? Why did you bring the topic to this? There are so many beautiful wintersweets outside, your office is so warm, and the tea you just made is so fragrant, I can smell it. Such a topic
Isn’t it too disgraceful?”
She also laughed, "That's true. Dean Feng, this is the first time I know how interesting it is to be a doctor. The tea is ready, you can try it."
I picked up the tea cup and took a sip. I immediately felt the fragrance, and the fragrance penetrated directly into my internal organs. All the pores in my body suddenly opened completely at this moment. This feeling of pleasure is really
Indescribably wonderful.
"How's it going? Isn't it good?" she asked me, looking at her expression as if she was waiting for my praise.
I smiled and said, "Of course it's good. But it takes a lot of effort for you to collect so much dew, right? To be honest, I can't bear to drink tea like yours."
She suddenly burst into laughter, "Collecting dew is actually to calm yourself down. It feels so good."
I nodded, "From a psychological point of view, people like you should be relatively nostalgic and have a fragile heart."
She looked at me in shock, "Why do you say that?"
I replied: "It seems that in ancient times, only girls living in boudoirs liked to collect dew, right? It was actually to relieve the loneliness in their hearts, and also to pursue a kind of poetry. After all, we are not in ancient times anymore, so
I think you are a little nostalgic. In addition, women who pursue that kind of poetry often have a love that is hard to remember, which will make a woman always immersed in that time in the past, and women with such a character often
It’s also vulnerable because you don’t really want to face reality.”
She was stunned for a moment and murmured: "You doctors are really terrible sometimes..."
Once again, I found that I talked too much tonight. After all, she and I were not particularly familiar, and such psychological analysis should never be said to her face to face.
So I took another sip of her wintersweet tea, then stood up and said, "I'm sorry, I drank a little too much today, and a lot of what I said was nonsense. I'm sorry. I have to go home, and there will be more tomorrow."
What's going on?"
She hurriedly said to me: "Sit down for a while. I have to finish this tea? It's not easy for people to collect such a cup of tea."
I drank the tea in one gulp, and immediately felt a bitter taste in my mouth, "Is this good? Thank you for the tea. It tastes great."
She immediately smiled bitterly and said: "You, such a good tea, you drank it like this."
I also laughed, "This is called cow drinking, right? Come on, thank you very much. My drunkenness has gone away a lot now."
She looked a little helpless, "Okay, I'll take you out."
I shook my head and said, "No need to trouble you. Thank you very much."
Immediately, I left her office on my own, and quickly passed the piece of wintersweet, quickly leaving the strong fragrance behind.
However, as soon as I arrived outside the restaurant, I saw Wu Yaru. She was standing next to my car, looking at me and smiling.
I suddenly understood: It turned out that Zhong Feng left me to drink tea for this purpose! She must have secretly sent a text message to Wu Yaru.
I looked at her, a little embarrassed, "I just finished eating."
She walked towards me, "Come on, if it weren't for Zhong Feng's beauty, I might not be able to keep you. Feng Xiao, what's the matter? You don't want to talk to me anymore?"
I was even more embarrassed, "Didn't you say it yourself last time, that we should never meet again in the future?"
She said: "I regret it, can't I?"
I quickly reminded her: "You have a boyfriend."
She sighed quietly, "I really can't forget you."
I immediately understood that for me, the last thing I want to happen now is that I might be jealous of others. This is not that I am ruthless, but I think that if such a situation happens, I will be laughed at. Of course it is sentimental.
No problem, but it’s not worth it if it causes trouble. Besides, I don’t want to destroy her existing life. So I hurriedly said to her: "Sister Yaru, don’t be like this, okay? Don’t you just
Do you want to live alone like this for the rest of your life?"
She looked at me, her eyes full of sadness, "Then, you and Dong Jie should get married, so that I can see you more often."
I immediately couldn't laugh or cry, "I said, I will not get married again. Sister Yaru, why are you so unrealistic? Don't be angry if I say something? Think about it, how old are you?"
Why are you still acting like a child?"
She stopped talking, so I left hard-heartedly, and then drove away from the restaurant quickly. When I left, I saw her still standing there in the rearview mirror, and the wind in the winter night made the hem of her clothes flutter.
.At this moment, I suddenly felt a feeling of heartache. (To be continued)