Zhuang Qing stopped talking here, and there was silence on the table. I suddenly felt sore and uncomfortable in my throat.
At this time, I heard Zhuang Qing continue to say, in a soft voice, "This is the story of my parents. I didn't think it was anything when my father told it to me before, but today I discovered that their story is really true."
It's very touching. Who said it's hard to take it back? It's just that some people don't want to take it back. Okay, I'm full. Feng Xiao, let's go."
After she finished speaking, she stood up.
"You guys go first, Xiao Zhong and I will sit here for a while." Song Mei smiled at us, and I found his smile was ugly.
Zhuang Qing took my arm as soon as we left the restaurant. I felt very uncomfortable. Judging from her behavior tonight, I clearly felt that she still had Song Mei in her heart. But why did she continue to be with her?
Will I get better? Is it still because of that project?
Sometimes people are like this. They clearly know that the other person is interacting with you for a certain purpose, but they always hope that the other person is doing it out of the same true feelings as themselves. This kind of self-deception will always appear naturally, and always
It leaves people with a lingering pain.
"Is the story you told true?" I found a topic. To be honest, I doubted the authenticity of the story she just told, because the regret she told about the restaurant owner at the end made me feel false -
—How did her father know about that process?
"Feng Xiao, do you think I can just make up a story like that?" She asked me back.
I think so, "Zhuang Qing, are your parents okay?"
"Hmm." She said, "Feng Xiao, do you know what I'm most afraid of right now?"
I was startled, feeling that her thinking was particularly free today, "Zhuang Qing, what's wrong with you today? Why can't I understand what you are trying to say?"
"I'm most afraid that my parents will know about my divorce. They have experienced something like that, and although everything has changed because of that bowl of wontons, I can still feel the rift between them. Now, I'm divorced,
I really can't face them, because in their eyes, my life is happy. I feel that I am really unfilial now, because my marriage finally disappointed them. At first, my father was firmly opposed to my marriage.
Song Mei is married. My father told me that Song Mei is the kind of person who is too smart and realistic. He also said that he is not a man that ordinary women can keep. Of course I understand what my father means. He means that I
I simply didn’t have the ability to control Song Mei. Of course I didn’t believe it, so I stubbornly married him. Who knew it would be like this in the end, my father really predicted it.” She said,
The sound was very miserable.
"Zhuang Qing, your father was also doing it for your own good. He is a man, so he can see other men clearly. However, he is your father after all. The best people in the world for you are actually your parents.
No one will treat you better than them. So, even if they know your current situation, they will not blame you. I believe that they will love you and care about you more. Do you think so?" I said, in my heart
Suddenly I thought of my parents. Why weren't they like this? It's a pity that although I was aware of this, I couldn't understand them. In my heart, that strong sense of rebellion still existed.
"I don't blame him." She said suddenly, "Today I realized that if something is not yours, it will never be yours. Even if you use extraordinary means to obtain it, it will only be a short-term possession. That little clock, she seems to be better than me.
It needs to be better."
I can understand her current mood, and I can also know very clearly that she is still in a bad mood. Although she said it so easily, she must be particularly uncomfortable in her heart - seeing a woman who is better than herself fall in love with
What would it be like to fall in love with the man you once liked?
"Zhuang Qing, whether a woman is excellent or not cannot be distinguished simply by a long time. Every man has different evaluation standards for women, and their concept of excellence or not is completely different in their eyes. For example, I think you
Very good. People, don't live so tiredly, just be happy at any time. Do you think so?" I comforted her.
"Feng Xiao, you said it easily. There are so many beautiful women around you, of course you can be happy at any time. But what about me? None of the men I like want to grow old together with me. It doesn't matter that I am still young now. In a few years,
Who wants me? I never thought that I would fail like this and become a divorced woman at such a young age. Hehe! I never thought that I, Zhuang Qing, would be so sad." She said with a sneer, and immediately withdrew her hand from my arm.
go out.
I suddenly felt embarrassed, "Zhuang Qing, I don't mean anything else. You know my situation. Although I really like you, but something like this happened to my wife now, I can't be with her again at this time."
Break up? She is a woman, and she has suffered so much pain. If I do that, won’t I push her into the abyss? "
"So, if you have settled the matter with your wife, if you are truly single now, then tell me, are you going to marry me or Chen Yuan?" she asked me, her voice so cold that it made me tremble.
A chill.
"I..." I was suddenly speechless. Her question hit the core of my heart, making it difficult for me to answer and avoid it. She had told me more than once before that she didn't care whether I would marry her or not. But now
It seems that what she said before was not her truest thoughts. I understand her because she is a woman and cannot be content with her current situation.
The body belongs but the heart cannot belong. This is one of the greatest sorrows for women.
But she came and held my arm again, "Okay. I'm just talking. I really don't mean to be jealous of Chen Yuan. Really. Hey! What on earth is love?"
"You don't believe in love anymore?" I asked.
"No, I will always believe in love, but I don't believe in love forever." She said with a faint voice.
I was immediately infected by her, by her deep melancholy. I reached out and hugged her slender waist, "Zhuang Qing, I think we both need time and waiting. No one can say what will happen in the future.
Not sure. Do you think so?"
She turned around suddenly and stared at me, her pupils shining in the reflection of the street lamp, "Feng Xiao, are you ready to give up on your wife?"
I was startled, "When did I say this?"
"Feng Xiao, do you know why I like you so much?" She did not answer me, "Because I think you are a conscientious and emotional man. Although something happened to your wife, you are still unwilling to abandon her. I
I think this is what a man should do. Alas! Now it seems I was wrong."
I was confused and asked again: "Zhuang Qing, when did I say I would give up on her?"
"Forget it, let's not talk about it. Feng Xiao, let me tell you, you have to help Song Mei win that project. I have nothing now, but I must have money. When I have money, I will take care of it.
A pretty boy to support. Humph! I don’t believe it anymore, no one in this world wants me!” she said, bursting into laughter.
I looked at her, dumbfounded and stunned.
"What? Are you stupid?" She came over and stopped me, "Feng Xiao, are you hungry? Come on, let's go drink!"
"Aren't you going to drink anymore? Let's go back." I said.
"You are boring, do you know that? I am a woman, a woman who has a special relationship with you. You can't stay with me forever, but you can stay with me for a short while, right?" She said displeasedly.
I was so ashamed, "Zhuang Qing, why did you say that? I don't want you to drink too much. You are also a doctor and you know the harm of alcohol to people? Well, since you said so, I will accompany you."
You."
"This is my good big brother." She suddenly became happy and kissed me suddenly on the cheek. I didn't know whether to laugh or cry.
We went to a food stall by the river. We had a few cold dishes, a pot of boiled frogs, and a box of beer.
"Feng Xiao, come, let's drink." She raised her glass to me.
"Drink." I said, then smiled at her and said, "Zhuang Qing, do you want to get drunk today? If you want to get drunk, I will accompany you."
She glared at me and said, "If I just want to get drunk, you can't just say it? There's no point in saying it. You're boring."
I laughed "hehe" and said, "Okay, let's not talk about it."
But she was sighing, "It would be great if Chen Yuan were here today. Alas! It's not fun if she's here. She can't drink anymore."
I feel like I don’t understand her at all now, and I don’t understand what she is really thinking. "Zhuang Qing, do you feel uncomfortable now? In fact, some things just need to be opened up. Song Mei already has a new
I have a girlfriend, and she is getting married soon. Don’t think about him anymore. In fact, you should know that he is not suitable for you. I know that what you can’t let go of is actually your initial feelings for him.
, maybe to save your face. Zhuang Qing, this is the first time I speak like this in front of you, please don’t be angry. I don’t mean anything else, I just don’t want you to be sad for a hopeless relationship. I
Think about it, my wife's matter is not a trivial matter. Even if Song Mei does the work for me, she will be sentenced to at least ten years. Although I will not divorce her, I will not leave you. I will always live with you.
Together. I know what you meant by what you just said to me. Do you think that when I said "No one can tell the future," I want to give up on my wife, right? Do you think that
Is it my subconscious thought? Actually it’s not, because we can’t predict the future so accurately. Therefore, I think we should all live our life well every day. Life is too short, there is no need to screw yourself up
It’s so hard and tiring. Do you think so?” (To be continued)