Later, she asked me a question, "Feng Xiao, are you still ready to fall in love and get married?"
I shook my head, "Let's talk about it later. I really don't feel like that anymore. Besides, I think it will be difficult for me to meet the right person again."
She asked me again: "Do you think Zhao Menglei or Chen Yuan are suitable for you? I'm sorry, I seem to have drunk too much. I shouldn't ask you this question."
I shook my head, "It's okay. Tong Yao, I said you can ask me anything. I know you want to know more about marriage from me. After all, you are not young anymore. It's okay, I can answer
you."
Her face blushed slightly, "Yes. I am very confused, and I really can't imagine what it will be like if I get married in the future, and I don't know who I will marry."
I smiled and said: "A person's marriage is actually an unknown. Just like when I was admitted to college, I started to fill in the application form after the college entrance examination. It was as if I had fallen in love with a certain girl and was full of expectations. Of course, one choice
This is what I hope for most, and I have to settle for the next best thing. The scores in the college entrance examination are equivalent to my own conditions, and then I use those conditions to pursue the girl I like. However, I am still very nervous during this process, because
I don’t know which school will take a fancy to me in the future. However, when the admission notice comes, I always feel a little regretful. Even if the school that admits me is my first choice, I will still have that feeling in my heart.
It's a pity. At that time, I thought to myself: It would have been better if I had applied for another university at that time. Haha! Tong Yao, isn't this marriage also like this? I don't know the future, so I feel uneasy in my heart, but once that happens
When the day comes, I will feel at ease. Although I may still be a little dissatisfied, I will eventually continue along the path God has arranged for me."
She immediately laughed, "This is the first time I've heard the college entrance examination be used as a metaphor for marriage. It's funny, but I think what you said makes sense. So, can I understand it this way? In fact, you are very fond of Zhao Menglei and Chen Yuan.
None of them are particularly satisfactory. Is that so?"
I smiled bitterly, "How can anything in this world be 100% satisfactory? Zhao Menglei...she is my middle school classmate. I remember that when I was in high school, I thought she was so beautiful, and I always secretly liked her. But at that time, I was timid.
I didn’t dare to tell her my love at all. But I never imagined that I would see her again after so many years... Hey! You know what happened next."
She asked me: "Have you ever thought about it? Did she do that thing because of you?"
I shook my head and said: "I have been thinking about this issue, but I don't think it is the case. For a woman, once she marries a man, she will not betray her marriage under normal circumstances.
Let alone doing something like that. It was obvious that the man had abused her for a long time. Of course, she has feelings for me, just like I like her, which is the basis for our marriage.
.But there are still some regrets in our hearts. For her, she may feel a little ashamed of me. After all, I never even had a relationship before marrying her. That’s why she would accommodate me in everything.
Even though she knew that I had done some things that I shouldn't have done, she pretended not to know. As for me, to be honest, I did feel a little unbalanced later on because she was married. Alas! Now that I think of this
I feel ashamed when I come here. I can’t bear to look back on the past.”
She sighed, "It seems that you have to think carefully before getting married, and don't be impulsive."
I shook my head and said: "How can we get married without impulse? Marriage is originally the product of impulse. The problem is that after the impulse, you should calm down and face your marriage, and you should not complain anymore. Between me and Zhao Menglei, including later
The biggest problem with Chen Yuan is here. Because they all have one thing in common, that is, they feel guilty. But what about me? I am always dissatisfied and dissatisfied in my heart. So, now I have a deep feeling for them.
Deeply ashamed."
She put down her chopsticks, then held her cheek with one hand, and looked at me like this, "Feng Xiao, I can't tell that you still have the temperament of a philosopher. What you just said was so good."
I shook my head and said, "What kind of philosopher? A person will gradually understand after experiencing it, but by then it will be too late to regret."
She asked me: "Do you still hate your father-in-law now? Sometimes I think for you, if Lin Yi didn't force you to marry Chen Yuan, maybe the current situation would not be like this."
I shook my head, "I don't have the right to hate others. The person I should hate the most is myself. In the past, I was too absurd, and I have continued that absurdity to this day. Alas!"
She sighed softly.
I raised my glass to her, "Do you still want to drink?"
She was still holding her chin with her hand, and she was shaking her head, "I don't want to drink anymore, I want to listen to you."
I couldn't help but laugh, "Tong Yao, you look like a little girl, so cute. In fact, you are very cute, but you always like to pretend to be fierce. Haha! You are actually afraid of cockroaches! Originally, you are very cute.
I wanted you to help me today, but I ended up scaring you like that."
She suddenly took her hand away and said angrily: "You!"
I hurriedly said: "Forget it. Let's not talk about it. If you don't want to drink, just eat something. You made it yourself. If we don't finish it today, we will just throw it away tomorrow. What a pity."
She immediately shouted: "Don't pour it, you can still eat it tomorrow morning."
I said: "Let's go out to eat tomorrow morning. Breakfast is still porridge, steamed buns or something like that."
She said: "It's too wasteful. It seems that poor craftsmanship is also a waste. It's just like leaders who make wrong decisions and there will be huge waste."
I couldn't help but laughed again, "Tong Yao, you speak very well today."
She also smiled, "I learned this from you too. By the way, Feng Xiao, let me ask you a question, if you want to get married in the future, what kind of girl are you going to find?"
I smiled bitterly and said, "She's still a girl. It will be good to find a middle-aged woman from now on."
She burst out laughing, "I don't believe it. Don't I know you yet? No woman you know is ugly. Tell me, what do you want? Maybe I can do it for you.
Introduce."
I was silent for a moment, but an impulse suddenly surged in my heart.
She continued to ask me: "Feng Xiao, what's wrong with you? I'm not joking with you. I really want to know what your wife should be like."
I found it a little difficult to speak now, "Tong Yao, what about you? What do you think your future husband should be like?"
She smiled and said: "Let me...hehe! I won't tell you. You haven't answered my question yet."
I said, "I won't tell you if you don't tell me first."
She pursed her lips and said: "I hate it! You are still a man, why are you like this? Well, let me tell you. In my mind, my future husband should be particularly considerate to me. No matter how bad I am, he will always come to talk to me and comfort me.
Me. And he should be very enterprising, and it would be better if he has money. Yes! He should also accompany me on a trip every year, to the beach or to Tibet. By the way, Feng Xiao, I remember you seemed to have promised it before
I went to Tibet together, do you remember?"
I looked at her in shock, "Have I promised you? No? Why can't I remember? You must have remembered it wrong. Someone else must have promised you."
She suddenly became confused, "Really? How do I remember it's you?"
I couldn't help but find it funny, "Tong Yao, it must be a man you like, and he promised you."
She suddenly became anxious, "How could it be? Impossible! I rarely talk about such things with other men except you."
I thought it was even more funny, "Really?"
Her face suddenly turned red, "I hate it! I won't talk to you anymore. Huh? Feng Xiao, wasn't I asking you that question just now? Why did you bring the topic to this? Answer me quickly, boss
Answer honestly, what kind of woman do you like?"
At this moment, the impulse in my heart suddenly burst out, "If I really want to marry a wife, then I will marry someone like you!"
She looked at me in astonishment, then her face turned red, "Feng Xiao, don't make such a joke with me! How is it possible? I don't like a man like you to be my husband! Didn't you say that? We
It’s best to be friends.”
I was almost ashamed and felt extremely regretful, but I tried my best to hide it, and then said sarcastically: "I was talking about a woman like you. I didn't say it was you."
She breathed a long sigh of relief, "That's it. You scared me to death. But Feng Xiao, why do you think I'm so good? Why don't I think I'm good?" (To be continued)