"My brother was hospitalized. After I found out, I went to the hospital with my mother and others to see my brother. When I went there, there were several people with my brother in the hospital. I didn't arrange flowers, so I just listened to them talking there. One of them said that he had gone to school to look for you before, and then he said some things, and the more I heard them, the more they sounded like you. Later I asked Sunset, but he refused to admit it. I went home at night and lay on the bed by myself, unable to fall asleep no matter what. I called you to trick you. In fact, when I called, I still had a glimmer of hope. The hope was not yours. Who knows, but you didn’t refute it and just admitted it. Why, why.”
I looked at Xiyu and said, "Why, you don't know."
"Why do I need to know? Don't evade my questions or change the subject. I just want to know why. Why did you fight with my brother?"
I shook my head, "There's no reason. Aren't you here to take revenge? Since you've come to take revenge, you'll have to take revenge. Once you've finished your revenge, just tell me and I'll take you home. It's too late now. You're a little girl, so why not?" Running around."
"Stop avoiding my questions and answer me."
I smiled "Why should I answer you."
"You have to answer me. I'm very confused. Our family is very good to you. How come you always harm my family like this? Isn't it enough that you harmed me alone?"
After listening to Xi Yu's words, I didn't know why, but I felt very painful inside. I just looked up at her with a smile on my face, then picked up a cigarette, lit it, and took a few more puffs without looking at Xi Yu. , looking at the ceiling, blowing smoke rings one after another, feeling uncomfortable, but not saying anything, and, I am still laughing,
Xiyu walked up to me and snatched my cigarette away with his skill. "Stop smoking. You're still smoking after this."
I turned to look at her and said, "Give me the cigarette."
"You're escaping again."
"What am I running from?"
"You don't escape or explain, so you just let me misunderstand you, right?"
When I heard this, "Since you know you misunderstood, why do you insist on my explanation?"
"I want to understand, I want to understand why you always harm our family like this."
I really couldn't bear what Xiyu said, so I got out of bed and stood up. I shouted at Xiyu, "I'm fucking harming your family. Xiyang is so easy to harm."
Then the stab wound on my back suddenly hurt a little, and I pointed out the door, "I'm crazy. I've had nothing to do and I'm full. I'm dragging down a bunch of brothers like me to follow me to mess with Sunset and fight with Sunset." Do you know how critical our situation is today? Among us, who is not injured? Let me ask you, who of us is injured and suffers less? If I am fucking sick, I will go to Sunset, and I will mess with Sunset."
I took a deep breath, "You damn well know how to blame me, blame me, yes, it's my fault, I'm sorry for you, I always bring trouble to you, I admit it, but I didn't mean it, I also want you well in my heart, Go back and ask your brother, ask Xiyang, ask how he forced us, how he forced me. If it weren't for Li Feng today, if Brother Feng hadn't saved a hand, what the hell would I be able to do now? I can’t even stand here and talk to you. It’s unknown. You picked up the phone and scolded me. You just talked to me in such a joking voice. You don’t know anything at all. Look at me, look at my back, look at me. on the arm"
Then I lifted up my hair and pointed at my forehead, "Look, go and see Brother Xu, look at Chen Yang Xiaochao and the others, look at them one by one, and look at us. injured, go and see Sunset and his group, there are a few injured, you are a blind man, nothing I do is fucking right, you know how to blame me, you know how to criticize me, you know how to misunderstand me, Who the hell did I provoke?"
The more I spoke, the softer my voice became. Then I squatted down and held my head. "What should I do? I don't want to appear in your world all the time, and I don't want to interfere with your life all the time. But I can't help it. I They are all passive. I shouldn't be like this. I should have a good life with Lin Ran, but you are so good to me and have always been so good. I love you. Is it wrong? I want to occupy you. Is it wrong? I am such a selfish person. I have always been like this. You know me very well. Can you please stop blaming me? Stop blaming me. I am under great pressure. Really, I don’t know how to deal with these relationships. "
I squatted on the ground holding my head. After saying these words, Xiyu suddenly stopped talking. He just squatted down quietly, stretched out his hands to hold my face, and looked into my eyes, suddenly very gentle. He said "Sixty-six."
I was stunned for a moment and looked at her, a little at a loss.
"You finally admit that you love me. After such a long time and so many years, you finally admit that you love me. You can't resist anymore."
After listening to Xiyu's words, I didn't say anything, and I didn't want to say anything, but Xiyu still squatted next to me, "You finally don't run away from this problem, you finally know how to say you love me."
I cheered up hard and looked at her, "Do you still want to take revenge? Over there."
Xiyu smiled, "Can you please stop being so stingy."
I shook my head, "Forget it, you go home. If you don't take revenge, I will send you home. It's so late." After saying that, I stood up and reached for my coat.
Xiyu grabbed me and said, "Wait a minute."
I turned to look at her and saw Xiyu walking around in front of me very quietly, grabbing my left hand with both hands and saying, "I'm sorry."
I was stunned for a moment and looked at Xiyu, "What did you say?"
"Sorry, I'm not going anywhere today. I'll just stay here. I'll stay with you."
"You go."
"I'm not going anywhere." Xi Yu said firmly, "Stop resisting. I know you feel uncomfortable. I can see it from your attitude, eyes and expression when you spoke just now. Don't resist."
After listening to Xi Yu's words, I didn't know why, but I suddenly felt very uncomfortable. Tears flowed down uncontrollably. I didn't know why I was crying, but I couldn't stop it. I tried to wipe my tears. But it's no use, it keeps flowing down,
When I reached out to continue wiping, Xiyu grabbed my hand and pulled me back to the bed. Then she naturally hugged me up and put my head on her chest, hugging me like that. Hold me, hug me, "Cry, don't feel bad, don't resist, if you have any grievances, just say it, don't always pretend to be strong, you are not really made of iron, don't try to hide it, who They all have this side.”
Listening to Xi Yu's words, I didn't know why, but I wanted to talk, and I couldn't hold back my tears. I cried and said, "I don't know why, I just can't let you go, I can't let you go. I don't want to interfere with your life. I don’t want to stop you from being with other boys, but every time I know you are with a boy, I feel very uncomfortable. I dare not admit it. I am afraid that I will be sorry for Lin Ran. I have a responsibility to her, but I feel like I really love you so much. I'm even used to you being tolerant of me and being kind to me. I'm always afraid of losing you completely. I'm afraid that I'll never meet a girl as good to me as you are in this life. , I don’t know why, I really don’t know why, why I would do this.”
"You know how I felt when we were fighting today, when I watched Sunset's machete slash at Chen Yang, and when I watched Xiao Chao rolling around on the ground, with several people surrounding him beating him, do you know how I felt? When I saw Brother Fei's face covered in blood, and when I saw Brother Xu unable to stand still, raising his head and shouting loudly, and then rushing up with us, how did I feel? Do you know how I felt when I saw that I knew us? A month old brother Ze, covering his arms, giggling, saying it doesn’t matter to me, and shouting at me to let us run first, how did I feel?"
"You know that the best and best brothers who are always inseparable from you, talking and laughing together, eating steamed buns and mustard vegetables together, and playing games online together, will never leave you one by one when you are in the most difficult time and when you need the most help. , and then during the fight, how did I feel when I saw that my brothers were injured all over because of you, and they were covered in blood?"
"You know I didn't tell Fanfen, and Fanfen came for me himself. He knew that Xiyang's gang of gangsters were not easy to deal with, but he still insisted on joining us. I told Brother Feng about this, and Brother Feng would rather do it for me. How did I feel when I broke up with Sunset?"
"You know, I feel very sad. I feel very sorry for my brothers. I didn't mess with Sunset, and I didn't dare to mess with him. From the bottom of my heart, I didn't want to mess with him. It was him who pushed us endlessly. He was the one who looked at you. If you don’t go to class or go to No. 1 Middle School, you’ll find trouble with me and scold me on the phone. Do you know how I felt at that time?”
"Do you know how I felt after Brother Fei and Brother Xu said those words to me when I was in the KTV yesterday, and I was flirting with Sunset, and then he refused to do anything, and I thought about giving in to him."
"Do you know how I felt when I was in the clinic just now, looking at the injured brothers one by one? Although we people are always criticized by others, we live our lives, and there are many feelings between us. Outsiders can't understand it at all. I also received two stabs on my body, and I felt pain, but I just didn't show it. I felt uncomfortable inside, and I was also afraid."
Then I shook my head in Xiyu's arms, still choking and said, "You don't know, you don't know anything, you only blame me on the phone, you blame me, I regret it myself, I blame me "Myself, I feel sorry for my silly brothers, but do you think I'm really not afraid? My heart is also made of flesh. I'm afraid, I'm really afraid."
I don’t know why, but after I said all this in one breath, I suddenly felt a lot more comfortable. Xiyu listened to me from the beginning to the end without saying a word, just listened to me quietly,
After I finished talking, Xiyu was quiet for a long time, just holding my head and patting my shoulder gently,
After a while, I heard Xi Yu's voice, which was also a little choked with sobs. "Liu'er, after so many years, you are finally willing to show your weakest side in front of me,"
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