After Xiyu opened the door, he looked back at me, "Liuliu, please pay attention to yourself."
"Don't worry, I'm fine."
"Don't drink too hard, okay."
"Don't worry, it's okay. You can go out first."
After Xiyu finished speaking, he sighed, shook his head, and went out.
I stared at the door in a daze for a long time, thinking a lot, all about Lin Ran. I was even a little unclear as to why we were like this. I suddenly felt a little uncomfortable. I lay down on the sofa and relaxed. I lit a cigarette and played with my mobile phone while smoking.
Looking at this very messy private room, I suddenly remembered that I used to be sweet with Lin Ran here, and my mind was always filled with Lin Ran's face, Lin Ran, Lin Ran, thinking about everything about her, but now suddenly she no longer When I'm around you, I always feel like I'm in a dream. Two people who are obviously sworn to each other, why is this happening? Do they have to be strangers?
I glanced at Lin Ran's thermos flask that was still on the ground, then sat up, picked up the thermos flask, and looked at it carefully. Thinking about it, the bow wrapped in gauze on Lin Ran's wrist was very cute. I also feel very distressed. How could she be so careless? The more I think about it, the more heartbroken I become. The more I think about it, the more uncomfortable I feel.
I kept playing with my phone in my hand for a long time. I looked at the position of my wife in the phone book and was in a daze. Then, slowly, I pressed the delete button. When I was sure, I hesitated for a long time. Finally, I smiled stupidly at the phone screen, tears slowly flowing down my face. Then, I pressed the cancel button, and then called Lin Ran.
"Beep, beep, beep, I'm sorry, the user you dialed is currently unavailable, please try again later." I looked at the phone, hung up, and continued to call, repeating the same words, and then I called again. In the past, this time, after a few rings, it changed to "Sorry, the user you dialed is currently on a call."
After Lin Ran hung up on me, I called again. She continued to hang up. I continued to call, but she still hung up.
I threw my phone on the sofa in confusion, picked up the cigarette from the table, lit it, and took a few puffs. After I finished smoking, the phone message notification sounded. I turned around, looked at the phone, and reached out to I picked up the phone. It turned out to be a message. It was from Lin Ran. Moreover, it was divided into several messages and sent. I don’t know how many words were sent in total. I was a little confused and read the messages one by one.
I started sending you this message when Mowan and I went home. However, you actually called me. This has already happened. Do you still want to redeem it? No, no. Liuliu, no matter what I say, I just want to tell you that I love you, really, I love you so much,
I have always stubbornly believed that we will go very far. I have always stubbornly believed that you are the one in my life. I have always believed that the man sleeping next to my pillow is the one waiting for me all my life. I have always believed that you are the one in my life. I stubbornly believe that we will keep going. I have always stubbornly believed that I will enter the marriage hall with you.
Liuliu, you know, you look so handsome when you put on that dress and take wedding photos with me. The day when a woman puts on the wedding dress again is the most beautiful day. How I hope that I can truly and legitimately follow you. You take the photo,
However, we are still young, and we don’t know how to love, but we all know how to hurt.
Liuliu, you know, I really want to be with you forever, I really want to stay with you forever,
However, no matter how hard I tried to protect our love and our feelings, I never kept it and let it slip away.
Liuliu, you know, every time you tell me about our future, our future, I feel so happy, so happy. I just don’t show it, so I always hit you.
However, in the future, we can only talk about it in the future. It is useless to say anything now.
Liuliu, you know, every time I hear you speak, no matter you are no longer by my side, I feel very confident and confident.
However, today, I was also on the phone and heard your words. I was so happy. I made soup for you and wanted to surprise you. But I saw another woman in your arms. What should I do?
Liuliu, do you know that everything you have done, I know, you and Chen Ran, you and Xiyu have had a relationship, right? Chen Ran, then we will have a conflict, Xiyu, then We will still be together. Is this a betrayal of me? I just pretended not to know anything because I scratched you. Therefore, I forgive you for that time with Xi Yu and for your relationship with Xi. Yu is openly and openly ambiguous in your school, but I still always remind you from the side that the problem between you and Xi Yu is not just a day or two. Moreover, in the beginning, it was because of my petty behavior that you were able to be together. There will be a beginning, but in the final analysis, I still make it my own fault,
But, do you know how much I regret now that I was so petty? If I could have had the thoughts I have now, I would have looked at you and guarded you tightly, and no one else would have had a chance. No way, really,
Liuliu, do you know that you are always entangled with the girls around you? Do you know how much I tolerate you now? Do you really think that I don’t know what you do? In fact, I just know that you love me. , I know you don’t understand what ambiguity is. You are flamboyant and noisy, and you don’t know how to restrain yourself. You never know how to deal with relationships with girls, and you never know how to say no.
However, everyone has a bottom line that they can bear in their hearts, don’t you think so? I have tolerated you once, twice, three times or four times. Can I tolerate you for the rest of my life? Every time a conflict occurs, you never think about your own problems first. You will definitely say something about me. Although you bow your head every time, the conflicts are accumulated bit by bit. I can't keep silent, can I?
Liuliu, you know, although I insist that we don’t want to be together anymore, I feel so uncomfortable. I really can’t tolerate your behavior anymore. Really,
However, you will definitely recover before me, right? When men and women have sex, the ones who get hurt the most in the end are women, right? Why do you do this? Why don’t you know how to cherish it?
Liuliu, you know, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you,
However, I really don’t want to live like this. I hope you will remember better in the future, be brave, face your future life well, and treat Xiyu well. You will definitely live a more free and happy life than me.
Liuliu, you know, from now on, I, Lin Ran, have nothing. You used to be my everything, everything. Now, I let go. No matter what, I admit it.
However, you have to remember that there was once a girl who stayed with you for four years in your life. There was once a woman who was by your side and lying on your pillow when you were just a blank sheet of paper. , you have to remember, the first woman who took wedding photos with you, and finally, you have to remember, my smile,
Go to bed early, Liuliu, and stop drinking. Always smoking and drinking is really not good for your health. Also, don’t hide everything in your heart from now on. You can hide it so well. You are very tired.
good evening,
Lin Ran,
I looked at the piles of text messages, imagining how Lin Ran would look when she sent text messages. She must have cried too. I read the contents of the phone over and over again, and finally I suddenly felt like throwing the phone down. Feeling the urge to drop it, I raised the phone high and thought hard for a long time. After all, I didn't drop it. I threw the phone on the sofa.
I held my head and thought about the text message just now. The more I thought about it, the more uncomfortable I became. The more I thought about it, the more headache I got. My whole mind was filled with Lin Ran, Lin Ran,
Lin Ran's bright smile, the little pear nest that made her laugh,
Lin Ran's coquettishness and snuggling into my arms,
Lin Ran's concern for me, those little bells and instructions,
Lin Ran's naughty, cute and ridiculous actions,
Lin Ran's stubbornness, his character of accepting death and refusing to look back until he hits the wall, and refusing to admit that he is clearly wrong,
Lin Ran's love for me, to this day, I also believe that she loves me. I also know that she doesn't want to be like this. I understand even more that it is all caused by me.
Lin Ran has changed me from a person who used to be so petty, to now, he is tolerant and understanding of me.
Until now, Lin Ran's departure has made me confused and uncomfortable.
I understand very well that Lin Ran really decided to let go this time. She is really tired and really doesn’t want to live like this. Didn’t she make everything clear about what she wanted to say? To put it bluntly, she really left, completely walked out of my life,
I felt very uncomfortable. I picked up the beer and drank it very quickly. I drank one bottle in a few sips. Then I continued drinking for a few minutes. I drank several bottles in a row until I drank half of it and spit it out. When I did, I threw the wine on the table,
I picked up the microphone and shouted loudly, "She's just a fucking woman. I'm not lacking, and I'm not bad either. If you want to leave, just leave, go, go as far as you can." Never come back again, never let me see you again, just go away, it doesn’t matter, it doesn’t matter, it’s just a woman.” The more I spoke, the lower my voice became, and in the end, I started talking nonsense to the big screen.” Come back, I was wrong, okay, I love you, I will change it in the future."
I don’t know why, while I was talking, tears started to flow from my eyes. I don’t know how long I kept talking nonsense to the big screen. I put the microphone aside, picked up the songbook myself, and started to turn page by page. Find all these sad songs, whether you have heard them or not, start one by one, and select them from the big machine.
The accompaniment played one by one, and I followed the accompaniment without using a microphone. I just roared at the top of my voice,
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