【616】There is nothing to get past, just never go back
When I arrived at the gate of No. 2 Middle School, there was no one in their school. Since my car window was open, it was really not very warm. From a distance, I saw Lin Ran standing at the gate of the school.
She still has her flowing long hair, wearing a small black coat, with a small white shirt leaking out of it, a big bow on the chest, a small denim skirt underneath, and pure black pants underneath. It looks like long johns or stockings, but much thicker than stockings. At the bottom is a pair of yellow small cotton high-heeled boots, and he is holding a white leather bag in his hand.
She does look beautiful, and you can tell that she put on makeup today. I rarely see her wearing makeup. In so many years, I saw her standing in front of the school no more than three times, looking so lonely.
I don’t know why, but I suddenly feel sorry for this girl who has spent so many days and nights with me. I don’t even know why we have reached this point.
I parked the car next to Lin Ran. After parking, I rolled down the passenger window, turned around and said, "Come on."
Lin Ran has been staring at this car. She should have seen that the person in the car was me.
I didn't say anything when I saw her, she just quietly opened the car door, got in the car, and closed the door.
I rolled up all the windows, then turned on the heater.
Lin Ran was stunned for a moment, then turned to look at me,
I didn't look at her and just said calmly, "It's cold now. Just hold on and it'll be fine in a while."
Lin Ran leaned back and looked out the window.
Then the car was surprisingly quiet, and I was silent for a while, and then said, "You put on makeup today, you look so beautiful." After I finished speaking, I smiled,
Lin Ran still didn't speak,
The two of us were in a stalemate for a while. I felt that it was warmer in the car, so I took off my coat. Then I turned my head away, "If you don't say a word, then we can just stay here." , sit there until 12 o'clock, and then I will take you home."
Lin Ran glanced at me, and then looked out the car window.
I was a little helpless and said calmly, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean it."
"Haha" Lin Ran smiled now, "I called you last night to tell you. We agreed. If you want to say that you didn't remember, is that possible?"
I sighed "I didn't mean to."
"Whether you did it on purpose or not, it has nothing to do with me, right? In fact, you are quite awesome. I have my birthday today and I wanted you to come and spend it with me. You actually made me wait for you for so long. In fact, you don't have to be like this. Yes, if you directly say you don’t want to come, wouldn’t I go out of my way to beg you to come? I wouldn’t be that lowly.”
I thought for a moment, "I'm sorry."
"Can you say something else? After all these years, I've heard enough of your words. I'm tired of hearing them, and I'm tired of hearing them."
"I went to borrow a car from Lin Yifei, so I was delayed for a while, or it wouldn't be so late. I didn't mean it."
Lin Ran laughed after hearing what I said, but there was no sound.
I turned around and said, "Why are you laughing?"
"It's so warm in the car. It was really cold outside just now."
I was stunned for a moment and then didn't speak.
Then Lin Ran turned his head and looked at me, "Wang Yue, even after this, you are still lying to me."
I shook my head, "I didn't lie to you."
"Haha" Lin Ran said, "No, women's intuition is very accurate. You should have borrowed your car a long time ago. When I called you just now, wasn't Xiyu with you?"
"Not here." I said silently,
"Liu'er, you know, you have been like this for so many years. Every time you lie, you dare not look into my eyes. You always look in front of me indifferently, just like when you said that just now. ,Can’t you, change it?”
I turned around and looked at Lin Ran, "I'm really not here."
"Okay, you swear, I'll listen."
I was stunned for a moment, "Do you still believe this?"
"It's just a psychological comfort, isn't it?"
"I just don't understand why you still believe this."
"Do you dare to post it?"
I didn't say anything and leaned on my seat,
Lin Ran then said, "Actually, you don't have to lie to me. If she is next to you, just say so. It won't really matter. We are just passers-by A and B passing by. I am not Who is yours, you are not mine. Everything in the past has passed, hasn’t it? In fact, I would be satisfied if you could come and spend my birthday with me. Really, I don’t have any other ideas. I just want you to spend my birthday with me."
I sighed and said nothing,
Lin Ran then said, "Xiyu will let you come to my place."
I turned around and asked, "What do you want to eat?"
"Answer my question, Wang Yue, don't always treat me like this."
I suddenly remembered what Fei Ge said that time, and what Fei Ge taught me.
I tried my best to calm down and smiled at Lin Ran, "I should celebrate your birthday with you. I owe you. I will do whatever you ask me to do."
When Lin Ran heard this, he asked, "Really?"
I nodded, "Well, if you ask me today, I will do it. As long as you are happy, spend this birthday well."
After Lin Ran listened, he was silent for a while, "Actually, I also hope you are happy. I don't know what else you can do for me. If you are happy, that's fine. I will watch you not far away and keep you company." Looking at the traces of our past, silently praying and blessing."
I suddenly felt a little uncomfortable, so I interrupted Lin Ran, "Stop talking about this."
Lin Ran was stunned for a moment, and then did not continue.
I shook my head, "You are not that kind of girl. The more you say that, the more uneasy I feel. Stop saying that."
Lin Ran said calmly, "People will always change, and they all need an opportunity. Therefore, there is nothing wrong with me being like this now. My life is peaceful, right?"
I looked at Lin Ran and thought for a moment, "Just calm down. Don't you always like this kind of life?"
"But the man sleeping next to my pillow is no longer here, so what's the use of being calm."
I sighed, "Tell me, where do you want to eat."
Lin Ran did not continue to pursue my question, but just followed my words and said, "Tell me what you want to eat. I have been with you for so many years and you have never said what you want to eat. Just tell me today."
"Since I haven't said it in so many years, I don't want to say it this time. You know, I am a person who likes habits and I don't like changes."
"But you changed everything that shouldn't be changed, didn't you?" Then Lin Ran didn't give me a chance to reply, "I don't want to eat, I want to go back to our junior high school, the place where I met you, you said Yes, you will do whatever I say today."
I gripped the steering wheel tightly, but it didn't move after all.
After being silent for a while, Lin Ran smiled and said, "What I just said doesn't count. Can it change so quickly? Can you give me a period of adaptation?"
I didn't say anything, stepped on the accelerator, and drove towards our junior high school. When I got to the school gate, I parked my car and got out of the car.
I unbuckled my seat belt and looked at Lin Ran, "Get out of the car." Then I opened the car door.
I saw Lin Ran sitting there, very quiet, looking at the school, not moving.
I was a little helpless, so I sat back in my seat and closed the door. "Why don't you get out of the car?"
Lin Ran turned his head, brushed his hair behind his ears, and smiled at me, "I'm just going to take a look here, and I won't go in. I'm afraid that if I really go in, I won't be able to help it. I It's finally getting better, I don't want to fall in again."
"Then let's go."
Lin Ran shook his head, "I won't leave, let me watch for a while."
I was stunned for a moment, then opened the car window, picked up the cigarette, lit it, and looked at the guard at the door. It was neither Brother Wang nor Brother Li. I don’t know where they went. Maybe they changed shifts. ,maybe, asked for leave, maybe, left,
When I was halfway through smoking, Lin Ran spoke next to me, "Liuliu, I remember you didn't smoke before, right?"
I thought for a moment, "No one smoked at first. They started smoking slowly and became addicted. Now that I have been smoking for a long time, I naturally can't quit. I spend money to buy the pain, haha."
Lin Ran smiled slightly after listening to what I said, "Actually, it was me who caused you to embark on this path. If I hadn't been so willful about you and hadn't written these things to you, maybe you wouldn't be like this now. I won’t embark on this road either.”
I thought about "Which way."
"Don't you understand?" Lin Ran then turned his head. "Actually, you are a good boy and a good student. You have always been very good at studying, right? Now, are you still studying? Which way do you think it is? .”
"These have nothing to do with you," I continued, "All problems are my own and have nothing to do with others. Moreover, there is nothing wrong with me being like this now. If it weren't for you, I wouldn't have encountered this." Helping brothers who share life and death, maybe I will never experience this kind of happiness in my life. I am telling the truth, don’t get me wrong."
After listening to this, Lin Ran said calmly, "Have you ever thought about your own future?"
I took a puff of cigarette and smiled nonchalantly, "Let's talk about it later."
Lin Ran was silent for a while, "If you say I'm crying now, will you cry back to me?"
I turned my head, glanced at Lin Ran, and then shook my head,
Lin Ran smiled, "Don't be so determined, because you don't have such a strong heart, right? I know you too well. To be honest, I really want to cry, but I can't. I've shed all my tears for you, and I can't shed them anymore." Lin Ran said and was silent for a while, then looked at me, "Liu'er, am I right?"
I was a little helpless, just smoking silently,
Lin Ran smiled again, "This school is so beautiful. I remember at that time, we used to sit there and watch the night sky and chat in the small garden. You would give me my favorite snacks and drinks, and you would learn all kinds of ridiculous things. Make me happy, we are all carefree, how nice."
"Yeah" I sighed "How good."
Lin Ran smiled, "But now, two people have their own destiny, right? Tell me why God likes to tease people so much. Tell me why this is like this."
I looked at Lin Ran and thought for a moment, "There's nothing I can't live with, it's just that I can never go back."
Lin Ran fell silent after listening to what I said.
After a while, Lin Ran raised his head and smiled at me, "I want to eat something vulgar."
"What to eat."
"KFC, I want you to treat me."
I nodded "Yeah, okay"
"Then let's go."
"Walk."
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