"When I was a child, I almost died in an accident." Xu Wu stared at the same place without moving, as if he had penetrated some space and returned to his memory. After a few minutes, he said: "My hometown
There is a well, which is a dry well. Children in the village like to go there to play. As a result, I was very unlucky. When I was five years old, I accidentally fell into the well when I went to play by myself. At that time, I could only use one sentence:
The sky does not respond, and the earth does not respond."
"At the bottom of the well, I was sleepy for more than ten hours. It was not until my parents discovered that I had not returned home since daytime that they mobilized the people in the village to come out to look for me. When they found my body in the dry well,
By that time, I was already exhausted, both from fear and from hunger."
Qin Fei listened quietly. Xu Wu's personal experience must be related to his subsequent stories.
If you were to suffer an experience like Xu Wu's in childhood, the blow to your soul might be fatal.
"But fortunately, I recovered quickly and there was no major problem. After a few days, I was active again and the matter seemed to be a thing of the past."
He shook his head with a wry smile.
"It wasn't until high school that I went to the city with my father to do errands. When we arrived in a building, it was the first time I took an elevator. It was also this time that I realized that I was a little different from ordinary people..."
"When I walked into the elevator for the first time, I felt like I was sweating all over my body, my heartbeat was racing, and it felt like the walls of the elevator were squeezing towards me. The moment the elevator door closed, I collapsed and felt like I was breathing
I couldn't continue, I was about to suffocate, so I made such a fuss in the elevator that I almost cried."
Qin Fei blurted out: "You were frightened in a well when you were a child, and you developed claustrophobia?"
Xu Wu nodded: "Yes, my father later took me to see a doctor, and it was the first time I heard this word from a doctor."
After a pause, Xu Wu continued: "However, my father was relieved, and I didn't take it to heart. After all, my claustrophobia is not serious. Unless I am in a confined space, I usually don't have it.
It was a problem, so I didn’t take it to heart. There were no elevators in the countryside anyway, and I never thought I would work in a big city, so I just ignored it.”
Qin Fei seemed to understand in his heart that Xu Wu's elimination was probably directly related to this mental illness.
But now in the submarine, why does he act like nothing is wrong?
"Old Xu, your illness..."
"You mean now? Why is everything okay in the submarine?"
Qin Fei said: "Yes, if you feel uncomfortable in the elevator, then you will definitely not be able to stay in the submarine, but I think you are fine."
"Let me first talk about why I can participate in the second selection." Xu Wu said: "The first time I participated in the selection training, He Ping passed the test. I was eliminated at this stage. I didn't even dare to go on the submarine.
...As soon as I came up, I was very frightened. I couldn’t even walk, let alone the tube climbing training. When I was in the brigade, underwater training was not a compulsory subject. The brigade leader felt that although I had problems in this area
, but I am very good elsewhere, so I am not forced to participate in this kind of training..."
"Is this how you were eliminated back then?" Qin Fei asked.
Xu Wu nodded and said: "Yes, that's it. I chose to quit and returned to the original army."
"But……"
"But why are you here again now?"
"Um."
"Originally, a student who failed to be selected and has a mental illness would not have the chance to come back here again." Xu Wu said, "This is the unwritten rule about Unit 203 that I told you just now."
"What does that rule mean?"
Xu Wu covered his face in pain, his shoulders twitched a few times, and finally he had to take several deep breaths to stabilize his emotions.
"The rule is that if a member of Unit 203 dies, the requirements mentioned in his previous will can be met as long as they are not excessive..."
Qin Fei was shocked. He seemed to have guessed something, but he was unwilling to say it.
"He Ping died during a mission. In his will, he made a special note asking the army to give me a second chance. He knew that I wanted to join Unit 203, but I just struggled with not having the chance..."
"When the Lei team found me with this will, I looked at it... I have never cried once in my life. When I was a child, my father beat me with a cane and I never cried. In the army, I was eaten
I went through everyone's hard work several times before I won the title of "King of Guns". In order to train to shoot quickly, I wore off several layers of skin on my tiger's mouth. I didn't cry. In the military competition, I applied my tactics and won the first place.
One person, no one knew that I wore out 7 sets of camouflage uniforms, my elbows and knees were all worn out, but I didn’t cry. That day I held He Ping’s suicide note and cried the whole day... My good comrade...
…My silly comrade…he didn’t make any demands for himself, but he asked Unit 203 to open a backdoor for me so that I could have a second chance to stand for election…”
Xu Wu could no longer control his emotions, covered his face and started sobbing.
Qin Fei's throat felt like a piece of lead was blocked, he felt unspeakably uncomfortable, and the corners of his eyes became wet without realizing it.
Xu Wu did not describe the comradeship between him and He Ping, but just by looking at this clause in He Ping's will, you can know the depth of the relationship between the two.
The relationship between them is like a real life-and-death friendship. There is no need to say anything, just keep it silently in your heart. I trust you just like I trust my own hands; I care about you just like I care about my own life; you live a good life.
Well, I think everything in the world is beautiful.
Hold!
Qin Fei cursed himself secretly. He originally thought that after what happened to his father, he had enough emotional resistance. Unexpectedly, Xu Wu's story broke down his defenses in an instant.
"Lao Xu, don't be sad. I think you won't let He Ping down. Now you've made it this far? Besides, you're in the submarine now, aren't you okay?"
"In order to be worthy of He Ping, I ordered myself to overcome this phobia and break this psychological barrier. After Captain Lei left, I began to train myself. I don't need a psychiatrist. I told myself that since He Ping sacrificed his life to help
If I only get a chance, then even if I don’t die, I still have to deal with this stupid disease. Not to mention what kind of mental illness it is, even if it’s cancer, if He Ping lets me not die, I will still try my best to live!”
"Old Xu! You can definitely do it!"
"Now it seems that entering the submarine is no problem."
"Xu Wu said: "It took me a year to ask my comrades in the team to lock me in a small private room in the middle of the night. From there, the space later shrunk to the tunnels we used for training, those narrow tunnels.
, I specially made two iron doors, and people would lock me in if they had nothing to do. I stayed there all day long, and finally they locked me in a large iron box containing equipment. No matter how much I shouted, they would never let me in.
Open the door, it won’t open until one o’clock.”
"Now it seems that it is very effective." Qin Fei said.
Xu Wudao: "It seems like this for the time being, but I have been unsure about the pipe climbing training the day after tomorrow. You have to know that the pipe climbing must be at least 30 meters underwater. Maybe the standard of the 203 unit is higher, the pipe is 8 meters wide and
It's only 533mm, and you have to carry a diving suit on your back. It's a long process to climb out from there. You can only move forward by picking at the wall of the torpedo tube little by little. Underwater, the terrifying silence is not comparable to that on land.
…”
He sighed and wiped the tears from his eyes.
"What I'm most worried about is that I can't climb out of the tube and will drown alive in it... Team Lei also talked to me privately. He said that my situation would be very risky and I might die..."
"Then how do you decide?" Qin Fei asked.
"I told him that he can do anything if he wants me to sign a life and death certificate, but if he wants me to give up, I only have two words - never! If I die, I have to die on the training ground! Otherwise, even if I go to hell, I won't have the shame to see him.