I will give you a lifetime of tea and millets in full bloom (3) I am very sad
Chapter 184: I will give you a lifetime of tea blossoms (3) I feel very sad
"I don't know." Long Pei was silent for a while, then spoke slowly, paused for a moment, and then spoke again when Gu Mingxi became more confused, "But Qin Zheng knows. You forgot how good our relationship is."
Gu Mingxi was stunned.
Qin Zheng! Qin Zheng actually told Long Pei all his preferences before she arrived!
Why!
Long Pei walked up to her and stood in front of her, his gentle eyes flashed through a hint of darkness, but it was no longer the hatred that he had suppressed all those years, but a very complicated emotion that was difficult to explain.
"Qin Zheng really likes you. As long as it's about you, he will whisper it in my ear more than ten times. How can I not know!"
There was a hint of awkwardness in his hoarse tone, as if he was jealous.
"Qin Zheng..." Gu Mingxi's heart tightened when she mentioned Qin Zheng, and guilt almost engulfed her, "Zheng is really good to me."
If A Zheng was still here, perhaps he would be his greatest support and warmth.
When Long Pei saw her thinking about Qin Zheng's lonely expression, the light in his eyes dimmed, and his heart was attracted by her, he hesitantly said, "I will be good to you in the future."
Although he didn't know how to be kind to her, he would try his best to be as kind as Qin Zheng was to her.
No, he should be better to her than Qin Zheng.
Gu Mingxi said nothing and raised her eyes to look at him. There was no disgust or hatred. She was calm and peaceful. She opened her thin lips lightly and said, "I believe you were kind to me before, but now... there is no need."
Long Pei frowned, but before he could speak, he only heard her calm voice.
"I thought you killed Yan'er for Yi Ruo. I hated you. I had a very bad life in the E country for two years. Hatred was like a vicious snake entrenched in my heart, swallowing up inch by inch day and night.
Because I set off the fire when I was eight years old, and I didn’t even have the qualifications and rights to make me hate you. Huo Linmo untied my knot, and it was he who set up a trap to let me know that Yan’er’s death was caused by Yi Ruo
It was caused by you not knowing anything from the beginning to the end, and you were also deceived by that woman..."
"I can't resent you in my heart, but I can't forgive you either. In terms of emotions and logic, you must bear the responsibility for Yan'er's death! Because you didn't handle your emotional problems well. As a president, you are not wrong and you deserve it.
A citizen of the entire country C; but in my eyes, you are not a qualified husband and father!"
Long Pei didn't say anything for a while, he couldn't deny her accusation.
I have failed the Long family, country C, and all the people, except her and my daughter!
He also failed himself.
"I am already a woman without a uterus." Gu Mingxi thought of how his wave of his hand had wiped away their child and destroyed her dignity as a woman. The memory of the past was still fresh in her heart like a knife stabbing her.
Her life was full of sin because of a fire, and full of grief and scars because of meeting Long Pei.
"I don't know why you want to pester me. You make me feel very tired. Now except for finding the murderer and A Li, I have no feelings for anyone! I only feel cold and afraid of you!
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"Afraid?" He knew and understood her coldness. He was also confident that he could warm her cold heart, but why should she be afraid of him?
"Yes!" Gu Mingxi nodded and bit his lip, "Because you are a man that no one can see through. No one in this world knows what you are thinking. You seem to be smiling at this moment, but deep down in your heart, you are probably plotting again.
I admit it, I am not as good as you in this regard!"
"Mingxi..."
"Don't come near me again." Gu Mingxi interrupted him coldly, her breath indifferent and distant, "Barefooted people are not afraid of wearing shoes. If you don't believe me, let's give it a try."
Before Long Pei could speak, she had already opened the distance between them, walked around him and strode away. Her thin figure was not warm at the end of this midsummer, which made people feel cold and distressed.
Long Pei turned around and looked at her moving back. He refused to move his eyes away until the back disappeared from his eyes.
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After the conversation at school that day, it was not that Long Pei was so busy that they had no time to meet, but that Gu Mingxi deliberately missed the opportunity for them to meet. She never went downstairs for breakfast and went back to her room early in the evening. Whenever she heard the sound of a car outside, she
I will never leave the room.
Even though Long Pei came back specially to have dinner with them at noon, Gu Mingxi stayed in the room and did not go downstairs.
Long Pei's sugar-coated bullets and gentle gestures of goodwill worked for Gu Mingxi two years ago. Gu Mingxi two years later will be confused for a while but will not fall headlong again.
Now she is like a person walking on the edge of a cliff. If she is not careful, she will fall into the abyss and be doomed. She has to admit that Long Pei's attitude is getting better and better. He is very good to himself and A Li;
It's a pity that she can no longer believe how good he is.
Because she didn't have a second uterus that they could take away.
Long Pei said that his patience was running out, and so was she. He wished he could immediately find out the murderer behind it so that he could avenge Yan'er and leave this place of right and wrong.
Nan Si's invitation was to invite you and your wife to attend the wedding, but Gu Mingxi had no intention of going. First, she was not familiar with Nan Si, and second, she did not want to appear in public with Long Pei anymore. Bai Yan asked her to give it to Nan Si's wedding invitation
As a gift, she gave Ru Bing and handed it over to Long Pei.
Ru Bing knocked on the door and handed the envelope to Long Pei, "Sir, Madam said this is a wedding gift from Mr. Bai to Mr. Qin."
Jian Mei frowned, a chill could not help but clenched his fingers tightly, his eyes darkened as he stared at the envelope. It's not that he didn't know she was hiding from him these days, but he just didn't want to push her too hard.
, but she seems to be getting more and more excessive!
Bo Lifei sat aside and noticed the strangeness of the past few days. The atmosphere was inexplicably solemn and he said bluntly: "Did you quarrel?"
Long Pei took the envelope and put it on the table, looked at him without saying a word, and waved to Ru Bing to go out.
Bo Lifei saw that his expression turned cold and looked at him again, as if to say, "You deserve it!"
"Have you taken care of your mother's side?" Long Pei avoided Gu Mingxi's topic.
"She must be busy with something big, she hasn't answered my call!" Bo Li was used to not being able to contact Bo Yixin.
Long Pei frowned and picked up the envelope on the table again, remembering that the day after tomorrow was Nan Si's wedding; Gu Mingxi would definitely not go. The corner of his eye glanced at Bo Lifei, who was lowering his head to read a book, and said calmly, "Please accompany me."
I’m going to attend Uncle Qin’s wedding.”
"I refuse." Bo Lifei replied without raising his head. He doesn't like crowded places.
"You have no right to refuse." Long Pei hit his smart head with an envelope, "From now on, you must get used to having your life exposed under the eyes of others."
Bo Lifei waved his hand to block the envelope and stared at him with cold eyes, protesting his "violence" against him!
Long Pei raised his eyebrows, looking like a proud father who had bullied his son.
Bo Lifei narrowed his eyes and asked coldly, "Do you want to make her happy?"
"Do you have any idea?" Long Pei narrowed his eyes. He was still undecided on how to deal with Gu Mingxi.
"Why should I tell you!" Bo Lifei raised his chin, snorted, stood up, took the book and walked to the door, "Good night, sweet dreams."
Long Pei's face darkened calmly. Where did Bo Yixin get the child? He is so smart and evil!
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Nan Si's wedding was held at noon, and Long Pei wanted to take A Li with him to avoid having to come back to pick him up. In the morning, he took him directly to the Presidential Palace and kept him by his side.
Gu Mingxi didn't come down to have breakfast, and didn't know that A Li had agreed to go to the wedding with him. He was thinking about Bai Yan, today was Nan Si's wedding, and he didn't know how sad he was. He didn't eat breakfast, so he asked Ru Bing to arrange the car.
, she wanted to go and accompany Bai Yan.
At least today, don't leave him alone with his thoughts.
Gu Mingxi arrived at the door before knocking on the door. The door opened, and Bai Yan, who looked good in an ordinary shirt and trousers, saw her. He seemed not surprised, "I thought it was time for you to come."
"I don't trust you." Gu Mingxi said frankly. Seeing him change his clothes, he asked, "Are you planning to go out?"
Bai Yan nodded, "I want to go out for a walk. Have you ever played in the capital?"
Gu Mingxi shook his head, "Why don't you take me to play today?"
"I'm happy to be your tour guide." The smile on Bai Yan's face was forced, and his delicate eyebrows were haggard and tired. He just didn't want to stay in the house where they once lived, guarding the loneliness and desolation alone.
Gu Mingxi followed Bai Yan into the car and drove around the capital. Whether Bai Yan was conscious or unconscious, the places the car drove past were places they had walked together before, and it was getting closer and closer to the hotel where Nan Si's wedding was held.
The sun was shining brightly, covering this bustling economic city. The car was parked at the intersection, waiting for the light to turn green.
Gu Mingxi was sitting in the car, looking at Bai Yan's side face. From the corner of his eye, he glanced at a tall building not far away. There was the man he loved, who was going to marry another woman today.
She placed her fingers hesitantly on his shoulders and said in a low voice, "Bai Yan, if you want to go, go ahead! I'll accompany you!" If you can only give up after seeing him with your own eyes, you are willing to accompany Bai Yan to face him.
pain.
Bai Yan's face gradually turned pale, and he couldn't help but clenched the steering wheel with both hands. The blue meridians on Bai Xi's skin were faintly visible. His eyes swept across the towering building from Gu Mingxi's face, and his heart suddenly tightened, and he bit his lower lip.
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When the light turns green, go straight to Nansi's wedding, and turn right to go back...
Whether to go or not is just a matter of his thoughts.
Gu Mingxi did not disturb him and stared quietly ahead. No matter what Bai Yan's choice was, as a friend, she would accompany him to face it.
The red light flashed, and Bai Yan's expression became more solemn. He almost held his breath and made no move. The whistle behind him sounded deafening, and he did not react. When he glanced at the towering tall building with his peripheral vision, his feet were already
If you step on the accelerator uncontrollably, the car will be like an arrow leaving the string, and there will be no room for turning back.
The car was parked opposite the hotel. Across the road, Bai Yan saw the screen at the entrance of the hotel playing the message that today was the wedding day of Qin Nansi and Huang Rongrong, as well as their wedding photos. They looked like a very sweet couple.
Gu Mingxi just glanced lightly and her eyes fell on Bai Yan. She didn't care whether Nan Si wanted to marry Huang Rongrong or Yang Rongrong. She only knew that Nan Si had failed Bai Yan after all.
The two of them sat in the car without saying a word. Bai Yan kept staring at the opposite side. Guests arrived from time to time, and they started to rush towards the wedding little by little.
Bai Yan felt that his heart was being hurt by him. He knew it would be painful, but he couldn't help but look away.
People, do they all like to belittle themselves like this? Even though they know that he is married, and they know that the person will never be themselves, they still want to see it with their own eyes, and they still want to see him happy.
The wedding car drove slowly from the opposite side of Bai Yan's car to the hotel, only a short distance away from him. Bai Yan stared at the wedding car, feeling a big emptiness in his heart, empty and numb, there was a cold wind whistling through but there was no
Any echo.
Nan Si and Rongrong were sitting behind the float, with the glass windows lowered. When they looked outside, their eyes fell on the cars on the roadside. Their eyebrows moved slightly, and their entire backbone stiffened involuntarily.
Bai Yan's eyes seemed to meet each other through the glass for a moment. He even felt that Nan Si had seen him, and his fingers on the steering wheel tightened tighter and tighter.
When their positions were about to overlap and their eyes were in the same straight line, Rongrong beside him suddenly tugged at the corner of his clothes and said, "Honey, I'm so nervous. What if I forget my words?"
Nan Si's eyes suddenly retracted, meeting Rongrong's nervous and expectant beautiful eyes, and a comforting smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, "It's okay, I'm by your side."
Rongrong hugged his arm and rested her head on his shoulder, "I feel that I am the happiest woman in the world. Nan Si, thank you for giving me another chance. I will be a good wife and be filial in the future."
Parents, take good care of you and be your strongest support!"
No matter how you look at it, the smile on Nan Si's face seems to be covered with a veil and blurred. He patted her hand with his fingers, as if to comfort her.
At that moment of separation, Bai Yan seemed to hear the heart-breaking sound of his own heart, which was fierce, ferocious, and desperate. The knife was cutting him one by one, but he couldn't see the wound and couldn't hear the blood.
The sound of a river flowing.
He can still look back at Nan Si's wedding car and see that he and Rongrong are about to enter a happy marriage together with everyone's blessings and take the path that he thinks is easier; but he also sees Nan Si's wedding car.
Si's life and his own life are two intersecting lines. There will be a focus in the middle. After the intersection, there will never be any intersection.
Once upon a time, I worked overtime very late, and the two of them just spent the night on the sofa in the office. In his sleep, Bai Yan called his name very loudly, and then woke up and heard him vaguely agree from the sofa opposite.
He said, "Yeah."
Knowing that he was there, I felt very relieved at that moment, turned over, and fell asleep again.
When her sister gave birth to her nephew in the United States, she had a caesarean section. Bai Yan was busy with work and did not go back. Her parents and brother-in-law were by her side to send her to the delivery room. Later, she called Bai Yan and said, "I had to know that your brother-in-law was there at that time to feel relieved. In fact,
Even if he can't control anything anymore and he's not a doctor, if you just take one more look at him, he won't be so scared."
This is what husband and wife mean to each other. In the name of husband and wife, whether they love each other or not, they are inherently different from others.
I have heard many stories like this. No matter how bad the relationship between husband and wife is, the woman just won't divorce. Because occasionally she wakes up at night and knows that there is someone beside her, a living person who can breathe and pant, even if it is no longer useful.
, no matter how bad he is, he is someone closer to himself than strangers and friends.
Sometimes, just having him there is a deep comfort.
At this moment, Bai Yan was really scared. Family and children were all bonds that were difficult to let go of. If one day, he really didn't intend to leave her and just lived like this, what should he do?
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Long Pei showed up at the wedding with A Li. Nan Si did not invite those high-ranking officials, and there was not so much red tape. After a brief introduction, he and A Li stood in the corner and looked at the group of people with expressionless expressions.
Nan Si came over from a distance with two glasses of wine and handed him one, "Your Excellency, thank you for coming to my wedding."
The two raised their glasses and took a sip. Long Pei lowered his eyes and glanced at Bo Lifei, "Go and get something to eat."
How could Bo Lifei be so smart not know that Long Pei was deliberately leaving him, so he didn't say anything and went to get the food alone.
Long Pei took out the envelope from his pocket and handed it to him, but Nan Si didn't take it and looked at him with a confused look, "Your Excellency." The gift money had already been given.
"Bai Yan."
Nan Si's expression froze, and he became unnaturally pale. He stretched out his hand to take the envelope, as if he was holding something weighing a thousand kilograms in his hand, as if he could no longer hold it and would drop it at any moment.
Opening it, there was only one receipt besides a greeting card. When he saw the model number, he couldn't help but smile sadly. Why was Bai Yan still treating him so well at this moment?
They saw this sofa together at that time. They liked it very much, but there was only a sample exhibition. The actual product was imported from Italy. It needs to be booked one month in advance. It will take about three months before and after it arrives. Bai Yan even joked that he would buy it as a gift.
He made a wedding gift. He glared at Bai Yan fiercely and said nothing. He thought it would be troublesome so he didn't ask for it.
Unexpectedly, Bai Yan secretly ordered it later and actually gave it to himself as a wedding gift.
When I open the greeting card, there is no title, just a simple sentence - I hope this world will be stable and the years will be peaceful.
Nan Si held the greeting card tightly with his fingers and looked sideways at Long Pei who said sadly, "Sir, how did you choose such a fool in the first place?"
Long Pei's dark eyes glanced at him calmly, then looked at Huang Rongrong, who was accompanying the two elders, and raised his lips, "There are many women in this world, why is it her?"
Nan Si's eyes followed his, and Rongrong's eyes happened to look over, and she nodded to them with a gentle smile; he tried his best to maintain the curvature of the corners of his mouth, and his voice was filled with incomparable sadness, "Since it can't be him,
It doesn’t matter who you marry.”
To outsiders, Nan Si was crazy for marrying a woman who had betrayed him. But he knew very well in his heart that marrying Rongrong was no different from marrying someone else. Some things that have passed can never come back.
He doesn't have Bai Yan's bravery and purity, nor does he have the courage and majesty of Your Excellency; he can't leave the two elders alone, and he can't be the enemy of the world; he can only choose a path that is not too hard and not too difficult.
Walk.
Selfishness is human nature!
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Gu Mingxi glanced at the watch on her wrist and saw that the wedding had already begun. She looked at Bai Yan with a dull expression and patted his shoulder, "How do you feel?"
Although he knew about his relationship with Nan Si, he actually mentioned it very rarely. After all, homosexuality was an anomaly in country C. Gu Mingxi never asked about the details of their relationship, fearing that Bai Yan would be embarrassed and that he would be awkward; Bai Yan also never asked about the details of their relationship.
I didn't say anything, probably because I was afraid that she would be uncomfortable and bored.
But apart from Gu Mingxi, Bai Yan had no other person to talk to. Hearing her pitiful tone and thinking of Nan Si's move to leave him immediately because of Rongrong's move, tears suddenly burst into tears and he couldn't control himself.
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I have been suppressing my patience and trying my best to pretend as if nothing has happened. My mood is always gloomy. It has become a habit. I can no longer cry loudly and happily. I just have tears that keep pouring out. I am choked and unable to breathe, and my voice is trembling softly.
, "I feel so uncomfortable..."
Gu Mingxi had nothing to say. Relationships are like people who know whether the water is warm or not. In the affairs of two people, even the best friends can only intervene to a limited extent.
Bai Yan lasted for more than half an hour, his emotions completely collapsed, and even he couldn't control himself.
Gu Mingxi didn't want him to stay in this festive scene and asked to change seats. She sent Bai Yan back.
Everyone knows about Nan Si's happiness, but only a few people know about Bai Yan's suffering.
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Gu Mingxi picked two bottles of red wine from the wine rack in the living room, went to the kitchen to get goblets, sat on the carpet, opened the wine and said, "Let's have a drink. Drinking will make you feel better."
He raised the glass filled with wine in front of Bai Yan. Bai Yan glanced at her, sat down from the sofa on the floor, took the glass and drank it in one gulp.
Gu Mingxi poured him another glass, "What are your plans for the future...?"
Bai Yan finished his second cup and murmured, "I want to wait for him until he is forty."
Gu Mingxi stopped pouring the wine and looked at him with cold eyes, "Bai Yan, don't be stupid! This is not realistic at all. If he can come back to you in the future, why would he leave now?
"
She really didn't expect Bai Yan to still want to wait for Nan Si.
Is it worth it?
Bai Yan took the cup and poured the wine into his mouth with a wry smile, pursed his lips, and looked at her with misty eyes, "Mingxi, I have lost the ability to love others."
It's not that he doesn't have the ability to love, it's just that he can't do it if he's not that person. He can't imagine being with another woman in the future, let alone a man.
What he likes and loves is just that person, regardless of gender or identity.
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The finished work of "Yaoyao Escape":
Brave series: "The President's Rich Ex-Wife", "Sleeping with Cops and Robbers: My Wife Does All Evil", "Contract Lover: Women Can Only Love Me"
Healing Series: "Debt Collection Treasure: Pay My Mommy Ten Dollars", "Master Devil, Please Spare Me", "The CEO's Little Sweet Wife"