The countdown to the ending love is a game without regrets (2)
Chapter 275: Love is a game that you will never regret (2)
Bai Yan packed his things and took only a small box, two changes of clothes, two books, and some cash with him.
The furniture was all covered with white cloth, and the originally cozy house was now filled with incomparable desolation and desolation. Looking at the flowers and plants on the balcony, he lowered his head and lay lifeless in the flower pot.
The doorbell rang suddenly, disturbing his thoughts.
"...Mingxi" When she opened the door, she saw Gu Mingxi. Her black hair was still stained with crystal clear water drops. She looked at his haggard expression with a pair of bright eyes, trying hard to suppress her heartache.
She knew that Bai Yan didn't need anyone else's pity.
A confidant doesn't need to say anything. You can tell what the other person is thinking with just one look. Bai Yan welcomed her in, turned around and went to the kitchen to boil hot water. He watched the kettle emitting white mist and the water in the kettle gurgling as it was about to boil.
Rolling around, my thoughts slowly drifted away.
Gu Mingxi walked into the kitchen at some point, stood side by side with him, reached for the cup and put it away, "Do we have to go?"
"Yes." Bai Yan lowered his eyes and responded without hesitation. Mingxi's appearance was what he expected.
"Bai Yan, people can't live just for feelings." Gu Mingxi's sharp eyes shot at his pale profile, and his tone was solemn, "Think about this country, think about the citizens who need you, think about trusting you for so many years
Apei."
Couldn't everything be compared to Nan Si in his heart?
When the water boiled, Bai Yan poured the hot water into a transparent glass and dispersed the scented tea, "Mingxi, that's why I want to leave."
If we don't leave here, we won't be able to completely sever ties with Nansi. If we continue like this, the people across the country will know about their affairs. It will even become a stain on the presidential palace of country C, bringing shame to you.
Over the years, he has followed Your Excellency, performed his duties faithfully, and shared the heavy government affairs with him. He did not want to become a burden and scandal to Your Excellency in the end. He shouldered all the sins and made all the mistakes, and left alone before things became irreversible.
It's better than everyone being doomed in the end.
Gu Mingxi looked at him thoughtfully for a while, then suddenly said, "Is there any wine at home?"
As soon as she finished speaking, before Bai Yan could say anything, she walked to the refrigerator, opened the refrigerator and saw cans of beer. She took several cans and turned around and threw them to Bai Yan.
Bai Yan caught it in time.
"We will not drink tea today, we will drink alcohol."
Because the furniture was covered with white cloth, Gu Mingxi and Bai Yan sat cross-legged on the carpet, opened the ring of the can and took a big sip. The cold liquid poured down their throats and followed their esophagus, almost freezing their internal organs.
Abei hopes that she can keep Bai Yan, and she wants to, but Bai Yan has already decided to leave. Besides, she understands Bai Yan's feelings, just like Bai Yan was willing to take risks to let him go.
Falling deeper and deeper into the whirlpool of feelings, if you want to find an exit, you can only leave and use time to heal the wounds in your heart and dilute all the scars.
"Ayan, I hope this won't be the last time we drink." Gu Mingxi raised the bottle in front of him, his eyes full of reluctance.
The can in Bai Yan's hand touched her, "No."
The days ahead are still so long, maybe one day he will come back to drink with her again after letting go.
They are said to be close friends, but the time they have been together is too short, and many things always happen suddenly and catch them off guard. After all the years they have known each other, they have not even sat together to have a good meal.
Today I can only send him off with wine, hoping everything goes well for Bai Yan.
Several cans of beer were bottomed out. Gu Mingxi's pale face was stained with crimson. She wanted to open another can, but Bai Yan held her hand. She looked up and saw helplessness in his cold eyes, "Stop drinking."
"We're going to say goodbye today. I don't know when we'll see you again, so just let me drink." I don't know if there will be another chance to drink together in the future.
Things are unpredictable, and who can predict the changes in the future.
"...Ming Xi!" Bai Yan's voice was low and sad. He was in a stalemate for a long time, but finally couldn't get over her and just gave in to her wishes.
Life spans decades in a hurry, but there are still a few years left to squander!
The beer in the refrigerator was finally finished, and the cans were all over the floor. Although Gu Mingxi's face was blushing, his mind was sober, and he understood clearly that things are ultimately determined by man's destiny.
Like her and Qin Yuan, like Bai Yan and Nan Si.
You can't go back to the past.
Bai Yan packed up all the garbage, bent down like an elder brother, and rubbed her head with his fingers, "Mingxi, it's time for me to go."
Gu Mingxi stood up and said, "I'll see you off."
Bai Yan hesitated for a moment and did not refuse her.
The two of them went downstairs. The drizzle that had fallen when Gu Mingxi first arrived gradually turned into a heavy rain. There was a car parked on the roadside. The man standing beside the car was tall and tall, as if he was standing alone. When his eyes locked on Gu Mingxi,
His sharp eyes couldn't help but soften.
"Why are you here?"
Regardless of the heavy rain, she ran towards him quickly, as if she couldn't wait. When Long Pei saw her coming, he immediately walked up to greet her, and Banxia, who was holding an umbrella beside him, immediately followed.
Long Pei had a beige coat draped over his wrist. He stood in front of her and touched her hand for the first time. As expected, it was cold.
"The weather bureau said an hour ago that the temperature will drop." He said warmly and had already put on a warm coat for her.
Gu Mingxi stood in the cold storm and felt only the intimate warmth, "You have been waiting for a long time?"
"Just arrived." Long Pei carefully buttoned her clothes and straightened her collar.
Although the umbrella is big, Banxia is holding it all for Madam and Your Excellency, while he stands in the rain. Hearing Your Excellency's words, Banxia's long eyelashes trembled slightly.
You have been waiting in the rain for nearly an hour.
I don't know when the rain above my head stopped. Banxia came back to his senses and saw Bai Yan standing next to him holding an umbrella. The next second he noticed the luggage in his hand, his expression turned gloomy.
Long Pei took Gu Mingxi's hair out of her clothes, held her slender shoulders with his big hands, smelled the smell of alcohol on her body, and frowned without saying anything. He looked at Bai Yan with his eagle eyes, there was no surprise, he had already
I know Mingxi can't keep Bai Yan.
"We'll send you off."
With these four simple and clear words, Bai Yan could hear the strength that could not be refused and accepted it happily.
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When Gu Mingxi walked out of the airport, she didn't know when the rain turned into catkins flying all over the sky. She stretched out her hand and a thin piece fell on her palm, and it melted into cool moisture in a moment.
"The snow came so early this year." The murmured tone could not hide the sadness of parting.
Long Pei walked up to her and put his arms around her slender shoulders. Banxia wanted to hold an umbrella for them, but after receiving Long Pei's look, he silently stepped aside as if he were invisible.
His eyes couldn't help but look towards the tarmac... He was gone after all.
The weather was cold and snowing heavily, and there were not many people outside the airport. The passers-by were in such a hurry that no one noticed the handsome man and beautiful woman standing at the door.
After a long journey, there is a farewell. Bai Yan's plane took off half an hour later, but Gu Mingxi did not continue to accompany him in the VIP room.
When leaving, she hugged Bai Yan gently in front of Long Pei and whispered a word in his ear.
Bai Yan's body was obviously startled. He patted her back with a warm hand and said only two words: Thank you.
Long Pei didn't mind their embrace. After they separated, he calmly held Gu Mingxi's hand and said goodbye to him.
Banxia and Bai Yan didn't say anything from beginning to end, nor did they say goodbye. It seemed that not saying "goodbye" meant that he hadn't left yet.
Bai Yan understands what it feels like to be unable to give up on someone. He is already unfortunate enough, and he doesn't want to leave any illusions to Ban Xia so that she ends up living as unfortunately as himself.
The night before, Banxia had sent him such a text message.
——If one day you put him down and come back, if there is no one else around me, can we try it once?
When he saw the text message, Bai Yan almost burst into tears. He seemed to see another version of himself.
Heartbroken but powerless.
He knew Banxia had put aside his self-esteem and pride and mustered up the courage to send him such a text message. Any other man would have been moved to give her the long-awaited promise.
Bai Yan thought about it all night, and finally replied with three words to Banxia in the early morning.
--Can't!
I have seen my heart and feelings too thoroughly, and know that no one can do it except that person, so I live in despair.
Banxia's obsession with herself is like her infatuation with Nan Si. If she can't stop it, she should at least let Banxia stop those thoughts, so that she can see other scenery and have other happiness.
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The VIP room was peaceful and warm, with new coffee placed in front of it, steaming out, and there were no other passengers except Bai Yan.
Bai Yan sat in the same posture for a long time without moving, until the attendant came to remind him that it was time to board the plane.
He said thank you, picked up the passport and boarding pass on the table, stood up, and when he turned around, he inadvertently saw a familiar face on the other side of the glass, and his body froze instantly.
I don't know who informed Nan Si. He stood on the other side of the glass wall, his deep eyes filled with water, grief and reluctance intertwined.
Bai Yan was still thinking just now that if he could see him again before leaving, there would be no regrets even if he died immediately.
God was not kind to him and finally fulfilled his last wish.
Nan Si opened his thin lips and could not say a word, but the white mist covered the glass with a thin layer of mist, and his fingers wrote something on the mist one stroke at a time.
Bai Yan walked to the glass with very small steps. Every step seemed to be stepping on the clouds, and he would fall at any time and be doomed.
I watched him write on the glass stroke by stroke:
I love you!
Nan Si had never said these three words to him. He had never said it out loud after being together for so long, whether they were lingering until death or rubbing shoulders with each other.
On the occasion of parting, I didn't expect him to say it, as if he wanted to let Bai Yan leave without any regrets.
After Nan Si wrote these three words, he placed his slender fingers on the glass and stared at him, feeling like a thorn in his throat and unable to say anything, just hoping that he would understand.
Bai Yan's fingers slowly covered the position where his hand was on the glass. Looking at the blurred words on the glass, tears fell from his eyes inadvertently, and a faint smile curled up at the corner of his mouth for no apparent reason.
"I... love... you." Nan Si spoke, his mouth was very small and slow, so slow that the words could be discerned from his silent lips.
Bai Yan nodded vaguely, his eyes were blurred by the water waves, his inner lip was bitten and bleeding, and he pursed his lips silently, with only two words: Goodbye!
Being able to see him for the last time, being able to hear those three words from his own mouth, making sure that all this was not a wishful dream, knowing that he loved me in his heart, I no longer felt so painful or had any regrets.
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It is better to miss each other than to meet each other, and it is better to forget each other in the world than to help each other.
If they could understand this earlier, they might be able to avoid tragedy!
Goodbye, Nansi.
This time, I really can't wait for you any longer. I have a lot of reluctance and unwillingness in my heart, and now I can only let it go. In the past, I always believed that asking for things is hard, but now I understand that asking for things is hard.
——More bitter.
Loving someone should not be selfish and possessive. If you can live happily and peacefully, then I will stand at the end of the world and look at the corners of the sea from afar, which is not a happy thing.
I once had a dream. In the dream, I had no place to go. I kept walking and walking, but I couldn't get to where I wanted to go.
In the dream, you asked me if I wanted to have an afterlife, and I said yes. You said that the afterlife cannot carry the memories of this life. Even if you carry the memories of this life, those who have been close to you will not know you very well.
Sad?
I answered with a smile, it doesn't matter, I will get to know them again with the memories of this life. The regrets that cannot be made up for in this life, let me take the memories of this life with me to the next life and make up for them one by one.
Nan Si, don't hate this society, don't hate those people who can't accept us. We are not wrong and they are not guilty either.
In the final analysis, we are destined to be together but not destined to be together.
This time it was Bai Yan who turned around first, his lonely and desolate back showing unprecedented determination, fading away in Nan Si's eyes.
Nan Si watched his back leave but did not catch up with him, and had no way to keep him. The moment his father fell, it was destined to be impossible in this life.
One hand was supported on the glass, and the other was covering his lips. After all, he could no longer hold himself up and slowly squatted down. He lowered his head and ignored the surprised looks of others, sobbing.
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On the way back, Gu Mingxi kept leaning in Long Pei's arms. Probably due to drinking, her head was a little dizzy and she was not clear-headed. She grabbed his clothes with both hands and refused to let go, like a kitten that was always begging for attention.
Fortunately, the partition board in the middle had already been raised, and no one except Long Pei could see her charming and tender look. Her heart felt like it was being gently scratched by a cat's claws, and it was unbearably itchy.
"...Mingxi." His big palms ran through her silky hair, and his deep voice was mixed with emotion and distress.
Bai Yan's departure made her feel sad, how could he not understand.
She has almost no other friends except Mo Xiaobai in country E. She is a close friend with Bai Yan, but Bai Yan is her right-hand man. He is busy on weekdays and does not even have the chance to sit down and talk to her.
Once Bai Yan leaves, she will feel even more lonely, without even a single friend to talk to.
"From now on, I will be your confidant." The low and hoarse voice was full of affection and doting.
They are all people who were born in the swamp and struggled hard. They lived without fathers and mothers when they were young, relying on others, experiencing the warmth and coldness of human relationships, and experiencing the loneliness and helplessness firsthand.
Gu Mingxi's originally closed eyes slowly opened and fell into his deep pool-like eyes. A faint smile appeared at the corner of her mouth, which was cooler than the autumn wind.
The slender fingers let go of the wrinkled suit and wrapped it around his neck, and he lowered his head naturally...
The red lips took the initiative to kiss his soft and cold lips...
Long Pei's eyes lit up. She rarely kissed him proactively like this, especially with such a charming look. She wanted to torture him to death.
Lips and teeth chattering, breathing heavily, she leaned into his arms with the utmost femininity and charm of a woman, and even made his cold body begin to feel warm.
The car stopped at some point, and Yu Si did not take the initiative to open the door. The bodyguards were guarding outside the car. The two people in the car kissed each other so passionately that they wished they could swallow each other into their stomachs.
The temperature inside the car was already high. As the two hugged each other, Gu Mingxi felt even hotter and couldn't help but want to take off her coat...
Long Pei paused in the kiss and held her hand, "Don't take off your clothes, it's cold."
Gu Mingxi came back to her senses and looked outside, only to see the bodyguards standing in the snow, while she and Long Pei had forgotten their love in the car, looking stunned.
Long Pei held her hands that were about to withdraw, "Now you know how shy you are?"
The tone was obviously teasing her. She frowned and withdrew her hand, "You know I'm drunk." You didn't even stop her.
Long Pei laughed out loud and received Gu Mingxi's coquettish eyes.
"I can let you drink some in the future." Gu Mingxi won't act drunk after drinking, and he doesn't talk much, but he is very clingy. Like a kitten lying on his chest, it softens his whole heart.
"Aren't you worried about my health?" She looked down at Long Pei who was smiling like a spring breeze.
"Don't throw dirty water on me." Long Pei hugged her and pecked her red and swollen lips, "What I said is appropriate."
I like the way she clings to me too much, her little girly side is really vivid.
Gu Mingxi didn't want to argue with him on this topic anymore. Anyway, she couldn't win him by talking about words.
"I'm back, you can do your business."
As soon as his hand was taken out, it was held by Long Pei again. Gu Mingxi raised her head and looked at him, what's going on?
"It's snowing." He stroked her hand with his thumb, with a deep smile in his eyes, "When will the two compensations you owe me be paid?"
His ears turned red for a moment, and he pretended to be calm and said, "Mr. Long, national affairs are more important."
"It's been important for more than 20 years, so I should be allowed to do something I want to do." Someone replied without changing his face.
As the president, he never had his own private time. Before Gu Mingxi and his daughter, he lived a step-by-step life every day. He got up at 6 o'clock every day, exercised for an hour, ate for half an hour and read the newspaper, arrived at the presidential palace on time at 8 o'clock, had lunch and
I take a half-hour lunch break and work until ten o'clock in the evening.
If there is any emergency, he has to rush to the first scene at any time; there are also receptions for important guests, interviews and exchanges, not to mention military negotiations and various trivial but necessary issues that have to be dealt with!
Although he tried his best to arrange time for Mingxi and Yan'er after the marriage, in fact, during those three years, they spent less time together and more separation. Most of the time, Mingxi and Yan'er were alone guarding the mansion garden.
Day and night are opposite each other, we don’t have to be tired of being together 24 hours a day. It’s really just “morning” and “evening”.
Twenty-four hours, nine hours for work, one hour for driving, eight hours for sleep, and deducting some miscellaneous things, the real relative time is less than four hours, which is very short.
Gu Mingxi felt compassion. No one understood Long Pei better than her! Behind many of his cruel methods, there was often loneliness and helplessness.
Long Pei took her into his arms and told Yu Si to drive to the Star Picking Palace.
It snowed heavily all day, but in the evening it stopped and the ground was covered with thick snow.
In the warm room, Gu Mingxi's whole body was sore, her tired eyelids couldn't be opened, she lazily curled up on her strong chest, and fell into a drowsy sleep.
Long Pei stared at her sleeping face for a long time, and a silent smile appeared on his lips. He didn't know whether he was laughing at her or himself.
There is obviously a presidential palace and a luxurious garden, but why does it seem like they are having an affair every time!
This can't be blamed on Long Pei. The child lived in the Haoting Garden. He didn't want Ming Xi to feel uncomfortable when she saw her. When she returned to the Presidential Palace, her heart was focused on Yan'er and A Li, so she had no choice but to come here.
After drinking, Mingxi is extremely well-behaved and obedient, and can even be described as "enthusiastic".
As long as he did a little foreplay, her body would give him the most realistic reaction, responding enthusiastically. Usually, she always felt too ashamed and unwilling to do the postures he wanted to do, but today she cooperated with him,
There was no trace of reluctance.
She has never felt such satisfaction and happiness. When he puts her on top, she will be at a loss. She bites her red lips and looks at him with innocent eyes. He laughs at her youthfulness, and she doesn't want to be outdone and lowers her head to bite him.
His top...
A man doesn't really like having the top of a woman's chest touched, but he loves her nibbling, which hurts and makes him happy.
He couldn't help but twitch against her scorching heat, and he clasped her slender waist with his big hands and pushed her down. She almost lay on top of him, moaning softly, her long hair spread all over her back, as beautiful as a
painting.
Wanting more, he hugged her and sat up, his eyes fixed on the point where the two people joined together, his blood surged, and his movements became more fierce.
Gu Mingxi was so ashamed that he died of shame. She covered his eyes with her palms and was out of breath. "No... no... don't look..."
He took her hand away and kissed her white shoulder, "Mingxi, you are my life."
Don't feel lonely because of the people who left you, don't feel helpless because of the hurt of those people, don't feel confused because of the past.
Because you still have me in your life, you once said that I am the last light in your heart.
Mingxi, you are my life.
Gu Mingxi's body was swaying in lust, and he recited every word of his words over and over in his heart, pondering the power of every word, and the corners of his eyes suddenly became wet.
She raised her head and kissed his lips.
The world outside the window is covered in snow and freezing; inside, however, it is charming and warm.
Some people say: The vagina is a woman's soul. To occupy a woman's vagina is to occupy her soul! But the burning heat of a man is not the second soul.
Long Pei is using his soul to blend with hers.
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The finished work of "Yaoyao Escape":
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