Chu Bingyan still had some things to deal with at the Presidential Palace. Lu Banxia sat alone in the pavilion in the park and waited for half an hour. When Chu Bingyan arrived, he looked at her frail back from a distance and silently revealed a
Depression and desolation.
"Ban Xia, what happened to you?" Chu Bingyan walked to her and sat down, placing his hand on her shoulder. Thinking of what she said on the phone - something might have happened to me, Chu Bingyan was trembling with fear.
Shocked.
Lu Banxia slowly turned his head to look at her, his face was calm and indifferent, but his clear eyes could not conceal the panic and helplessness. He pursed his thin lips and said, "Bingyan, my depression seems to be getting worse."
"How could it be?" The last time they met, Chu Bingyan clearly felt that Lu Banxia's mood was stable and there was no need to worry too much. How could it have become serious after just a short time?
"I don't know what's going on!" Lu Banxia pursed her lips, with pain and weakness in her eyes, "Recently, I can't remember things more and more, many things, many people, and I don't sleep very well at night. Before I lose my appetite,
It was very good, but now it’s getting worse.”
She had never told Li Yueqi any of this. His operation was over and his daily rehabilitation was very hard. She didn't want him to worry!
She has worked very hard to stay in a good mood and take her medicine on time. Why is the situation getting worse?!
"Can't remember things?" A trace of doubt flashed across Chu Bingyan's eyes.
Lu Banxia nodded: "I even forgot about Murong Village last time, and today I suddenly can't remember how to cook! My mind is blank, there is nothing! I feel like I am going to become a fool or a madman!"
Thinking about a proud person like her, if she really becomes a madman, even if she has a moment of clarity, she will not be able to accept it. A life like this would be worse than death.
"Don't worry! There must be a reason why you are like this!" Chu Bingyan patted her shoulder gently to comfort her. She didn't know much about psychology, she only had a superficial understanding. Lu Banxia looked for herself, not for others.
Other psychiatrists explained that her heart must be very chaotic at the moment, and there is no one she can completely trust. What happened and what made her become?
"What medicines are you taking recently? Let me see if your current condition is suitable for taking the current medicines."
Lu Banxia took out the medicine box from her bag and handed it to her. The medicine Dr. Zhong gave her was to be taken once a day, one tablet each time. Now there were only two tablets left. Because of what happened today, she had not had time to take it.
Chu Bingyan took the medicine box, opened it, took out the pills with the letter "G" engraved on them, crushed them, sniffed them, her face suddenly changed, she glanced at Lu Banxia, and said in a solemn voice: "Banxia, who prescribed this to you?
medicine?"
"Zhong Jingnian." Lu Banxia's heart sank suddenly. It was hot in midsummer, but she felt as cold as summer snow. She tried her best to maintain her calmness in her voice: "Is there something wrong with the medicine?"
Chu Bingyan's eyes flickered, he hesitated for a moment, and said coldly: "This is a drug prescribed to patients with severe depression. It has just passed the test in the UK, but it has not yet been put into full use. Moreover, this drug can be used even for patients with severe depression.
It cannot be taken for a long time, and the dosage is very strict! This kind of medicine should be taken by ordinary patients. It can make people feel happy and increase their appetite at first, but long-term use will cause anxiety, loss of appetite, and temporary amnesia.
, in the later stages, you may even have auditory hallucinations and hallucinations, and then lose all memory, living in your own imaginary world and unable to escape. If the situation is serious, you will die unknowingly. It is impossible for Zhong Jingnian not to know about such a medicine.
It’s so harmful, why would it be prescribed to you for long-term use?”
Severely depressed patient! Those six words hit Lu Banxia's heart so hard that the pain was so intense that his internal organs were burning like fire.
Zhong Jingnian is an authoritative psychiatrist. It is impossible that he does not know the dangers of this drug, so why does he still prescribe it to himself?
His face was as pale as paper, bloodless, his eyelashes as thin as cicada wings were trembling slightly, and the light in his eyes gradually dimmed or even disappeared.
Chu Bingyan saw her expression turned ugly and bit her lip: "Could it be that the nurse dispensing the medicine made a mistake?"
With a layer of frost in her eyes, she looked at Chu Bingyan and asked in a cold voice: "Do you think the famous Zhong Jingnian Psychological Clinic would allow a nurse to make such a low-level mistake?"
Chu Bingyan retorted speechlessly.
The status of Chung King Nian Psychological Clinic in the country is no less than that of the Royal Hospital of the Presidential Palace. From doctors to nurses, everyone is top-notch. The clients they serve are either rich or wealthy. How could a nurse be allowed to make such a low-level mistake!
"Pinellia, no matter what the truth of this matter is, you have to stop taking the medicine immediately and can't take it anymore." Chu Bingyan told her seriously. Fortunately, it is still the early stage of Pinellia, and it is just a temporary forgetfulness.
To the extent that auditory hallucinations and fantasies occur, if that were the case, the matter would be much more serious.
"Is it serious?" He asked in a difficult voice as he made a difficult swallowing motion as if it was a thorn in his throat.
Chu Bingyan shook his head: "According to your description, the situation is not irreversible. Now as long as you stop taking the medicine, those side effects will slowly disappear. Your health is not good and you have taken too many medicines. It is only 30% of the medicine."
The poison is too harmful to the body, so I still recommend that you don’t take any medicine at the moment, let your body recover slowly and naturally, and rely on metabolism to make the effects of the medicine disappear in the body.”
She no longer dares to take medicine.
"I understand, thank you!" Lu Banxia's slightly trembling voice gradually calmed down, extremely calm, without any ripples.
"As for whether this medicine has any other hidden dangers, I have to wait until I find someone to test the ingredients of the medicine before I can confirm it." Only when Chu Bingyan grabbed her hand did he realize that her hand was terribly cold, "Don't worry, there is
I'm here, and I won't let anything happen to you."
Lu Banxia's calm eyes fell on the pills in Chu Bingyan's hand. His face was expressionless and lifeless, like a sculpture.
The calmer she is, the more worried Chu Bingyan is. He would rather she cry, scold, or at least vent her unhappiness. Don't suppress your emotions like this, it's easy for something to happen!
"Pinellia, tell me that Zhong Jingnian gave you the medicine personally?" Chu Bingyan still didn't believe that Zhong Jingnian would treat Banxia like this. He had no grievances and no grudges, so why would he harm Banxia like this?
"Medicine..." Lu Banxia pursed her lips and paused. When he looked at her, a cold smile appeared on his lips: "Li Yueqi gave it to me."
Chu Bingyan's hand on her shoulder suddenly dropped, his amber eyes filled with incredulity and disbelief.
I even thought that Banxia had remembered it wrong.
"Did you remember it wrong? How is it possible?" How could Li Yueqi treat his wife like this?
Lu Banxia smiled slightly, with extremely cold eyes: "Do you think I'm crazy?!"
If possible, she also hoped that she was crazy, otherwise she couldn't believe that he would treat her like this.
Such cruelty to myself!
——I don’t know if I will become a fool who knows nothing in the future.
——Sometimes I would rather you not be so smart and be a little fool who doesn't know anything. That's fine too.
--Yeah?
——Yes! It will be easier to lie to you if you become a fool!
"Xia Xia!" Chu Bingyan held the medicine box tightly with her fingers, her eyes flickering and hesitating: "There is something I don't know whether I should ask you!"
Lu Banxia looked at her indifferently and asked: "Is there anything else that can't be said now?!"
She is close to becoming a fool who doesn't know anything.
"A year and a half ago, when you came back to the capital, Li Yueqi saw you, and he got into a car accident when he was chasing you. Why did you leave so resolutely when you clearly saw him?" Your Excellency has repeatedly said that this is not allowed.
It was leaked out, so Chu Bingyan kept it in her heart and never told anyone.
"A year and a half ago?" Lu Banxia's eyes flashed with confusion. When she returned to the capital, had Li Yueqi seen her?!
Chu Bingyan saw a trace of confusion in her eyes and asked doubtfully: "You don't remember? Or... you don't know at all?"
For a long time, not only her, but also Li Yueqi also believed that Lu Banxia saw him in the car accident, but he chose to ignore him ruthlessly and left resolutely.
One and a half years ago——
Lu Banxia tried very hard to recall all the details of what happened when he returned to the capital a year and a half ago. His eyes suddenly filled with mist, and moist heat rolled down from the corners of his eyes.
*****************The Cutting Line of Memories******************
The last time Lu Banxia returned to China was a year and a half ago. At that time, she had just had a miscarriage and was in a coma for three days. She woke up and rested in the hospital for a week. The doctor approved her discharge, but her body was still extremely weak at that time because of her tough attitude.
The hospital and the doctor had no choice but to agree.
She was alone in a foreign country, helpless, and suffered huge physical and mental trauma. At that time, what she missed most was her mother, whom she had been dependent on for many years. She booked a flight to fly back to the capital and went to visit her mother's cemetery.
She booked a round-trip ticket to arrive in the capital at noon and fly back to the United States at six in the afternoon. She stayed in the cemetery all afternoon and got up to leave at four-thirty.
Due to her weak body and exhaustion from a long flight, she fell asleep while sitting in the car. She suddenly woke up when she heard the faint sound of the earth shattering.
The driver reassured her that she was fine, but it seemed someone was driving fast behind her and something happened.
Lu Banxia looked back. The two cars collided together. The situation seemed serious. Black smoke was coming out, and the air was filled with a strong smell of gasoline.
It was in the evening, the sun was setting, and the sunlight reflected on the glass. The face behind the glass was completely blurred. She couldn't see it clearly, and because she had to catch a plane, she didn't take this "accidental" car accident to her heart.
What's more, her situation is also very bad. She didn't catch the flight back to the United States on time.
Because she passed out at the airport.
Someone sent her to the hospital. Xingtian, who had something to do and returned to the capital a day earlier than she did, rushed to the hospital half an hour later and scolded her for the first time.
At that time, her body was extremely weak and she lay in the hospital for half a month. She insisted on leaving, and Xing Tian personally sent her to the United States, hiding her whereabouts.
From that time on, she fainted from time to time, and it took her more than half a year to get better!
"So...he hates me so much!" Lu Banxia burst into tears, her lips feeling extremely bitter.
Fate played a big joke on them. They were attached to each other and hated each other. They had to let them hurt each other black and blue before they could stop!
Chu Bingyan held her cold fingers, his eyes filled with distress, "Are there many misunderstandings between you two? Let's talk about it!"
Lu Banxia seemed as if he hadn't heard anything. The mist in his eyes kept surging, blurring his vision. His tears shone and broke into pieces, and his heart felt like a knife.
"You go back first, I want to be alone for a while!" A hoarse voice squeezed out with difficulty.
"But -" Chu Bingyan didn't trust her.
"Go back!" Lu Banxia bit her lip so hard that it broke. She looked at her with tear-filled eyes, desperate and helpless. She didn't want others to see her like this.
Chu Bingyan took a pack of tissues and put it in her hand, thought for a moment and said, "I'll go back and find someone to test the ingredients of the medicine first. If you have any questions, call me anytime!"
Lu Banxia didn't speak. Chu Bingyan took the initiative to reach out and hug her. She knew how strong Lu Banxia was. At this time, any words of comfort were useless, so he just left her alone to calm down for a while.
Chu Bingyan left, and Lu Banxia sat alone in the pavilion. The hot wind blew like a cold wind on her cheeks. She slowly leaned down and covered her face with her hands. The salty liquid couldn't stop leaking from her fingers.
come out.
She once thought that she would no longer shed tears for this man, and would no longer feel heartache for this man. Unexpectedly, time passed by and things were unpredictable, and she still could not escape the conspiracy and calculation in this mortal world.
…
In the evening, the phone was vibrating crazily. Lu Banxia held the phone and watched the name on the screen flashing. He didn't answer the call until the screen turned black.
Li Yueqi didn't get through to her the first time, so he was very worried. He called again, but no one answered. He kept dialing impatiently over and over again.
Finally, the call was connected, and he finally felt relieved, "Xia Xia, where are you? Why didn't you answer the phone just now?"
Lu Banxia held the mobile phone, and his warm voice came over the radio waves, and her eyes began to hurt again...
"...Xia Xia!" Li Yueqi heard her breathing, but remained silent, and began to worry, "Where are you? Do you want me to find you?"
Lu Banxia was silent for a moment, and in a low voice, he squeezed out two words: "No need."
"What's wrong with you?" Li Yueqi heard something wrong in her voice.
"It's just that my nose is a little stuffy..."
"Maybe the weather is too hot and you caught a cold. Come back in the evening and take some medicine. You'll be fine soon."
"Yeah." Lu Banxia responded vaguely, holding the phone and falling into endless silence.
Li Yueqi held the phone without speaking. He listened to her breathing through the phone and felt a strange feeling in his heart. He couldn't explain what it was, but her reaction made him feel too strange!
"Xia Xia, come back as soon as possible if you have nothing to do!" he said after a long silence.
Lu Banxia said "hmm" again.
"Then I'll hang up."
When Li Yueqi was about to hang up the phone, Lu Banxia suddenly said: "Yue Qi..."
"kindness?"
"Do you hate me?"
"Why do you ask that?" Li Yueqi seemed to laugh lightly. Although she had made him suffer and struggle a lot, he did not hate her. On the contrary, he liked her very much. He liked her enough that he could not hesitate.
Give up everything, "I don't hate you, even if you make me suffer."
"I have caused you pain." But you have never made me suffer.
Because I almost caused you to lose a leg, do you want to treat me in this way?
Lu Banxia wanted to ask him why he was so cruel, but she didn't. She just smiled and asked him: "Would you be happy if I turned into a crazy woman with dementia?"
Li Yueqi didn't understand why she asked like this. Could it be because of her illness?
"If you never leave me again after becoming a crazy woman, I will indeed be very happy!"
She was stunned, and a very long and thin needle was inserted into her throat. It was inserted very deep, reaching the place called her heart.
"Okay, don't think too much, come back soon, I'll wait for you!" After saying that, Li Yueqi hung up the phone.
Obviously he should be sad, but Lu Banxia raised the corners of his lips and smiled, his dry pupils almost bursting into tears.
Go back early and continue taking medicine, and then completely turn into a crazy woman. Is this your revenge and punishment for me?
Li Yueqi!
She had always found it strange why she could suddenly accept him staying in her house. It turned out that everything was part of his plan. He first used drugs to anesthetize her nerves, and then gradually turned into a demented mad woman.
Looking back at this life for more than half a month now, it seems so unreal, like a gorgeous mirage.
She thought it was a new beginning, but she didn't expect it to be another carefully crafted dragnet by him, just to make her fall into hell completely.
——We don’t want children in the future. I am your child and you are my child. I will help you remember the things you don’t remember... Even if you forget the whole world, I will not let you forget me!
Is this really just a dream of mine?
*********************The dividing line for young master’s recommendation votes********************
Li Yueqi cut off the phone and when it was almost time, he washed and cooked the rice first. He turned and went to the balcony to collect the washed clothes. He sat on the bedside and slowly folded the clothes neatly and put them in the closet.
He turned around and saw that her dressing table was a little messy, so he tidied it up without noticing that his injured leg hit the cabinet. He frowned in pain and bent down to rub his knee.
When he stood up, he accidentally saw paper protruding from the gap in the cabinet under the dressing table. Like a pull from somewhere, he reached out to open the cabinet door and took out the pile of information that Lu Banxia had not yet had time to destroy.
I just want to help her tidy up her rear.
But when I saw what was on the paper——
Qing Jun's face turned pale gradually, and then gradually became gloomier. His dark eyes were full of disbelief. He took the information and turned around to go to the living room to get his cell phone and dial Lu Banxia's cell phone.
"Sorry, the user you are calling has shut down..."
Before the cold voice could speak, Li Yueqi immediately cut off the call and dialed Qin Nansi's number, with uncontrollable anger in his voice: "Is Lu Banxia at your place?"
"She didn't come to my place, what happened?" Qin Nansi felt strange and guessed that something must have happened.
Li Yueqi didn't say anything and just cut off the call.
Qin Nansi held the phone and looked at the darkening sky outside. His heart was beating, and he had a bad feeling. He immediately called Xingtian: "Have you seen Pinellia ternata?"
"No." Xing Tian was at the Presidential Palace all day.
"Li Yueqi is looking for Pinellia ternata. There is something wrong with his voice. I am worried that something will happen to Pinellia ternata."
Xing Tian was almost done, "I'm going to find her now."
"I'll look for her after I pick up Xi Feng."
Cut off the phone and the two of them went their separate ways.
***
The person everyone outside is looking for is sitting in the bar drinking glass after glass of whiskey.
The changes in her family and her upbringing environment since she was a child have made her a master of emotions. She habitually guards all her emotions and does not let anyone touch her. No matter how painful and embarrassing things have happened over the years, she can still endure them calmly and let go.
Slowly digest it in your heart, transforming those sorrows into a kind of calmness.
However, this time she found that she couldn't do it. Her riddled heart seemed to have been hollowed out, but the pain still remained in every corner and every cell of her body.
When love is beautiful, it is like a mouthful of honey, which can be sweet to the bottom of the heart when held in the mouth; when love is cruel, it is like a sharp sword, which pierces the heart decisively and is vicious and fatal.
She thought she could control this love and prevent it from getting out of control, but in the end she failed miserably.
Eternal disaster!
Her empty stomach was burned by the strong alcohol, and she seemed to be unconscious, numbly pouring cup after cup into her throat.
She remembered that some people said that wine is a poison that penetrates the intestines. Her thin lips couldn't help but smile sarcastically. The real poison that penetrates the intestines is love.
If time could go back seven years, she would definitely tell Lu Banxia back then not to marry a man named Li Yueqi under any circumstances. If she really had no choice but to marry, she would definitely not fall in love with him.
If you fall in love, you must not believe him. If you believe him, then leave him and leave him forever.
***
The first person to find Lu Banxia was Xing Tian. He stood at the door of the bar and saw her drunk, with a cold and aloof look on her face, but an extremely lonely figure from behind.
He first called Qin Nansi to reassure him that he would take good care of Lu Banxia.
After cutting off the phone, he walked up to Lu Banxia, held her wrist, took the wine glass from her hand, and said in a low voice: "Stop drinking..."
Lu Banxia half-squinted her eyes and looked at him in confusion for a long time. Then she asked the bartender for another glass of wine and drank it all in one gulp.
"Lu Banxia..." Xing Tian called her in a low voice.
"If you are drinking with me as a friend, please sit down. If not, please don't disturb me!" His lips, which were moistened by the alcohol, were crimson and moist, and his voice was calm and deathly silent.
Xing Tian said nothing and sat next to her. Her expression and voice were calm, but he knew that she was suffering from pain in her heart and there was nothing she could do.