Chapter 398: You are the legend and destiny of my life 5
(Lu Banxia slowly woke up from her dream, opened her eyes, and looked at him little by little)
The eyes stained with joy froze into ice little by little, and then gradually shattered. The bright eyes looked around the empty living room behind him, and instantly dimmed, like a candle extinguished by the wind.
Her eyes were aware of the hot emotion in his eyes, and she realized that she had been holding his hand tightly. She suddenly let go, avoiding his sharp eyes, and said in a hoarse voice: "...I'm sorry!"
Xing Tian's hands were stiff and he looked at her with his eyes, not daring to be overt and aboveboard with his emotions, "You drank too much."
Drink too much?
Lu Banxia's body froze, she raised her head and looked at him again, and said in a positive tone: "He came back, right? He came back to see me and Xiao Douya, right?"
The tone of the statement is so sure!
She didn't even have three glasses of vodka before she was so drunk that people would admit her mistake.
Although her head was dizzy, she could still remember the feeling of hugging that figure. It was very familiar and real. Even if they were separated for so long, she would never forget the feeling when they hugged each other.
Lu Banxia stood up quickly and was about to find the "him" in her mouth. She stepped on the ground with her bare feet. As soon as she passed by Xing Tian, he suddenly stood up and grabbed her hand.
"Lu Banxia, when will you be able to recognize the truth? He has left and has never come back!"
Xing Tian looked into her eyes without a trace of dodge, and his voice was loud and clear. It seemed that there was conclusive evidence that the person she longed for was really gone.
Her eyelashes as thin as cicada wings suddenly trembled, and she glanced at him again with cold eyes, losing the gentleness and politeness of the past, "You go!"
Hand, forcefully pulled out of his palm.
"You're still waiting for him!" Xing Tian stared at her, with deep disappointment in his eyes, "You cut your hair. Do you want to continue to lie to yourself that when your hair grows long, he will come back to you?"
"If he is really alive, why would he be willing to leave you and the child alone?" As he spoke, he reached out to touch her ear-length hair, but Lu Banxia quickly dodged to avoid his hand.
Except for that person, she doesn't like to be intimate with anyone of the opposite sex!
Lu Banxia never knew how much her small actions made Xing Tian's heart hurt.
Lu Chuan never knew that his words hit Lu Banxia's most painful weakness. After persisting for so long, he did not die, and he would definitely come back. Whenever it was quiet at night, she would sleep alone in a dark room, and it was the same.
Ask yourself over and over again——
If he is still alive, why doesn't he come back to find himself?
When he thought Xiao Douya was not his child, he could take good care of himself. If he was still alive now, why didn't he appear in front of him?
She knew that she was withdrawn and arrogant by nature, her personality was not gentle enough, and she was not as gentle as other women. She was too demanding for perfection in relationships and could not tolerate sand in her eyes. She knew that she had given him very little in the past. She knew that she was wrong, she
Try to change yourself and stop being so cold and unlovable. She can also try to be nice to him, but all of this must be based on his return!
If it was just her, how could she possibly do it?
"Xingtian." Lu Banxia, who had been silent for a long time, spoke slowly and looked at him slowly, his eyes clean and emotionless, "No matter whether he will come back to me or not, from the day I decided to separate from him, I
I never thought about leaving with someone else in this life! You are right, I still love him, even if we make each other miserable, I still love him. He is the father of my daughter and the father of my life.
love!"
Xing Tian looked at her blankly, and finally heard her admit that she loved Li Yueqi, and heard her admit that the child was Li Yueqi's. Even though he had seen all this from the beginning, now that he heard her talk about it with his own ears, his heart still felt
Overflowing with sadness and loss.
Sometimes he would also wonder, if something really happened to them, would it be
But he never regretted that stop, because they couldn't get over the hurdle of their own conscience!
Just seeing how she looks now makes me feel sad, really sad.
In front of everyone, she pretended to be very good, eating and sleeping normally, taking care of the little bean sprouts, and she was calm as never before, but her eyes would still reveal her emotions inadvertently.
It is a deep longing and attachment for another person, which penetrates into the marrow and bones. It is obvious that it is almost on the verge of collapse, but it still continues to hold on.
While Lu Banxia was punishing herself, she was also punishing those of them who cared about her.
"Pinellia"
"Let's go!" Lu Banxia interrupted him. The light of the setting sun dimmed, and the wind blowing in through the open window brought a slight chill, sneaking into people's hearts. "If you don't want to sever the friendship between us, just
Walk!"
Xing Tian stared at her blankly for a long time, the dim light in his eyes almost despairing. After the dead room fell into darkness, he left silently.
Hearing the "bang" sound of the door closing, Lu Banxia came to his senses and hurriedly chased out.
However, she didn't come out to chase Xing Tian, but went next door.
Standing in front of the open door, frowning, holding his fingers on the cold metal for a long time, he mustered up the courage to open the door.
Since Li Yueqi left, she has never walked into this house again, not even when she gave the key to Xue Qian.
It's not that she doesn't want to come, it's that she doesn't dare. She's afraid of seeing the house where Li Yueqi lived and the things he used. The river bank overflowing with longing will eventually burst, leaving her with no way to save herself.
The whole world was denying her intuition. Everyone said he was gone, but she didn't believe it. She paranoidly believed that he was still fine and that he would come back.
The black-and-white style house couldn't be simpler, which is Li Yueqi's favorite style. White shirts are hanging on the balcony, clean, blowing in the breeze, and exuding a faint scent of laundry detergent.
Lu Banxia stepped on the cold ground with her bare feet and walked into the living room step by step. There was thick mist in her eyes. Her white teeth bit her delicate lips tightly. All the emotions were choked in her throat, making her feel uncomfortable.
ah!
Xue Qianrang had just taken a shower and had a bath towel wrapped around him. When he saw her raising his eyebrows: "Are you awake?"
The moment he saw Xue Qianrang, Lu Banxia's heart sank to the bottom of the deep and cold lake, and his red eyes were filled with moisture, stubbornly refusing to fall down.
Is it really not him?
Is it really just a dream?
I keep asking myself this question in my heart, but I can't get a definite answer.
"Xingtian is gone?" Xue Qianrang saw that she looked sick and approached her, "Hey! Are you okay?" She looked like she was about to cry!
impossible!
How could Lu Banxia, a woman made of diamonds, cry?!
"I'm not telling you. If you can't drink, don't show off and drink with that man named Lu! If you drink too much, you'll go crazy. One moment you'll be clamoring to shave your head, and the next moment you'll hug Xing Tian and call Li Yueqi. If I hadn't stopped you
Now I don’t have a hair on my head! And next time, don’t hug a man and call another man’s name. You haven’t even seen Xing Tian’s green face. Thanks to Xing Tian’s good temper, it would have been me if it had been me..."
Xue Qianrang scolded Lu Banxia while wiping his hair with a towel. He noticed that it was a bit strange that she had not made any sound. When he looked up, he was shocked.
Lu Banxia stood there as stiff as a wooden stake, her usually cold eyes already overflowing with tears. Bai Xi's skin was covered with teardrops. She cried without making any sound, but it made people's hearts clench into a ball and almost break into pieces.
"Why are you crying?" If Lu Banxia was still so cold and indifferent, Xue Qianrang would be fine. When he saw Lu Banxia crying, he was really frightened and didn't know what to do.
They had only known each other for a short time, but Xue Qianrang also understood that it was very difficult to make Lu Jingang cry, especially in front of others.
"You, don't cry..." Xue Qianrang held the towel in his hand and handed it to her. He didn't hand it to her either. He stretched out his hand to wipe away the cold tears on her cheeks. The coolness penetrated her skin and reached the bottom of his heart.
Went. "Don't cry, I won't scold you anymore, okay?"
"I hate you! Xue Qianrang, I hate you!" The choked voice escaped from her throat with difficulty, and liquid continued to overflow from her eyes. This was the first time she said it nakedly and unabashedly.
The truest emotions in your heart.
When she said her first sentence, Xue Qian let the towel in his hand fall to the ground and stood stiffly, looking at her with uneasiness and guilt in his eyes.
She hated herself, he knew it, but now that he heard her say it with his own ears, he felt sad.
Xue Qianrang sadly realized that he did not want Lu Banxia to hate him at all!
"Yes, yes, I'm sorry..." Xue Qianrang stammered an apology, feeling helpless in front of her. Apart from being sorry, he really didn't know what else he could do for her.
I don’t want your apology, I want him back! Why did it have to be you who hurt him so badly? Why did it have to be you who made it impossible for him to come back to me?
Do you know that without him, I would eat and sleep with Xiao Douya and live an ordinary life?
But when I live like this, every day has nothing to do with happiness!
Xue Qianrang stood in front of her, his arms hugged her mechanically and unnaturally, "I'm sorry, sister..."
This was the first time he hugged Lu Banxia and the first time he called her - sister!
…
In fact, Lu Banxia knew it in her heart. She hated Xue Qianrang more than she hated herself. When Li Yueqi chose to stay with her again and again, she didn't think about their relationship properly. She embraced her self-esteem and face and rejected him in her heart.
Outside the door, until I really lost him, I regretted it so much.
Xue Qianrang didn't know the relationship between them at all at that time, let alone that she was his sister. He had his own stance on life. At that time, they were both strangers to each other.
If we could have predicted this scene today, maybe everyone would have taken a step back and left a beautiful foreshadowing for each other.
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After she was drunk and sobbing that afternoon, Lu Banxia was still the same Lu Banxia, indifferent, distant, strong and proud, nothing was different. Even if Xing Tian came, she could handle it calmly.
Xue Qianrang said that she was drunk that day, hugged Xingtian, called Li Yueqi's name, and cried on Xingtian's neck.
Lu Banxia didn't fully believe this!
Whether you say she is stubborn or stubborn, or you say she is superstitious, there is a voice in her heart telling herself that Li Yueqi is still here, and he has really come back!
With this belief, Lu Banxia ushered in the wedding of Lu Zijin and Lu Chuan.
The wedding is a month later, the weather has entered early summer, the sky is clear and the wind is sunny. The wedding venue is set in the green space of a private club, with Western food.
Lu Banxia still didn't bring the little bean sprouts with her that day, so the driver Xue Qian asked him to continue following her and was also her male companion.
Maybe it was because Lu Banxia cried in front of him that day. Xue Qian had been very good to her this month. Although he still scolded her and complained that she ruined his home, he became more considerate in life and would
He takes care of people and treats Xiao Douya like a 100% qualified uncle.
Lu Zijin got married, and Yao Yu smiled happily no matter how unhappy she was. With her previous experience at the full moon banquet, she did not target Lu Banxia at the wedding. She was polite and spent most of her time greeting the guests and had no time to pay attention to Lu Banxia.
Lu Banxia and Xue Qianrang found a quiet place. She reached out for the champagne. Before her fingertips touched the glass, a glass of juice was already thrust into her hand.
"What kind of wine should I drink? Juice!" Xue Qianrang raised his eyebrows in a commanding tone.
Lu Banxia thought about her previous drunken gaffe. Talking too much after drinking will lead to mistakes. It doesn't matter if she doesn't drink. She quietly sipped the juice. When she saw the bride and groom appeared, she thought of a sentence - the most beautiful moment in a woman's life is to do it.
The bride's day.
This sentence is indeed true.
Lu Zijin was dressed in a holy wedding dress, with light makeup, her long hair was pulled up and she wore a diamond crown. She had a bride's shy smile on her lips. She was indeed stunningly beautiful.
Compared with Lu Zijin's beauty, Lu Chuan looked much colder and silent. Not only did he have a cold face, he even frowned, which did not let anyone feel the joy of being a bridegroom.
Xue Qianrang saw her eyes staring at Lu Zijing and thought: "What? I regret not having a wedding with Li Yueqi?"
Lu Banxia glanced at him and didn't answer. In fact, she didn't mind at all whether there was a wedding or whether she wore a wedding dress. What she cared about was that the person was not by her side, and they seemed to have never really made any commitment to each other.
For example, the promise to stay together forever!
Lu Chuan knew that Lu Banxia must be back today, and she must be standing in a corner watching all this happen. Therefore, he did not look for Lu Banxia's back, but in his heart he thought that she had been looking at him, deceiving himself that she was going to attend this wedding.
I still feel a little sad for myself.
"How long do you plan to stay in the capital?" Lu Banxia thought carefully about the fact that Xue Qianrang had been in the capital for more than two months, almost three months, and he had been doing nothing. He couldn't continue like this.
"I don't know." Xue Qianrang answered casually. Seeing her look at him, he shrugged innocently: "My mother and my father divorced, and now all her thoughts are on the company. She is a person who doesn't like others going against her will.
I made her very unhappy because I was dissatisfied with her arrangement of my marriage. I guess now I am waiting to see if I have no choice but to draw a clear line with my father, go back to England to beg her, and then obey her arrangement to marry a noble daughter, and then let me
Take over the company!”
"Then..." Lu Banxia hesitated and paid attention to his words: "How is Mr. Xue doing now?"
Xue Qian smiled disapprovingly, "My dad has tolerated my mom for so many years. If you think he is just a freeloader, you are totally wrong! Over the years, he has often invested in friends' companies behind my mom's back.
, find another woman! Now that he is divorced from my mother, I guess he is living more freely than before!"
Although Xue Qianrang's words belittled Xue Zhiwen, but tolerance is not a skill!
After all, not everyone can tolerate it for a lifetime.
Lu Banxia's eyes inadvertently glanced at Yao Yu, who was chatting among the crowd, and a complex emotion surged into his heart. How did Yao Yu endure it with gritted teeth for so many years?
The oath-taking and ring-exchanging ceremony is over, the bride is going to the lounge to change, and the groom is greeting the guests.
At this time, a servant came over and said that the bride asked her to go to the lounge.
"Weasel has no good intention of paying New Year's greetings to Rooster. I'll go with you!" Xue Qian let her see Lu Zijin alone.
"Don't you keep calling me Lu Jingang, and are you afraid that I will be bullied?" Lu Banxia drank the last half of the glass of juice in one gulp, and stuffed the empty glass back into his hand.
Xue Qianrang raised his eyebrows: "I'm afraid you will embarrass me."
"My surname is Lu, and your surname is Xue. No matter how embarrassed I am, I can't disgrace you!" Lu Banxia said something that seemed to be true or false, and walked to the bride's lounge with the servant.
"A dog bites Lu Dongbin, but it doesn't know a good heart!" Xue Qianrang stared at her back and cursed, with a smile on his face. What she said is right, Diamond is still afraid of being bullied by someone, but she is too worried!
He turned around and picked up the wine glass beside him and started drinking. Anyway, Lu Banxia's physical condition was good recently and she had never fainted again. It shouldn't be a big problem to let her drive when he goes back.
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When Lu Banxia arrived at the bridal lounge, Lu Zijin had just changed into a red dress. The makeup artist wanted to help her touch up her makeup and change her look. Lu Zijin waved to the makeup artist to go out for a while.
"Sit down and chat with me for a while." Lu Zijin walked to the table and poured two glasses of water, one for Lu Banxia and one for herself.
Lu Banxia did not refuse and sat down on the sofa. As for the glass of water she poured, she glanced at it but did not drink it.
Lu Zijing sat down opposite her. Seeing that she didn't drink water, he showed a bright and charming smile: "Are you afraid that I will poison you?"
"If you have anything to say, just say it." Lu Banxia changed the subject.
Lu Zijin pursed her lips and smiled but did not speak immediately. She drank some water to moisten her throat. She had not eaten anything since this morning. Now she was so hungry that she could not eat and could only drink water.
"Actually, there is nothing very important. I just want to talk to you. After all, we will leave the capital soon and be far away from your world." The voice was clear and calm, which could not be said to be good or bad. "Congratulations.
Lu Banxia, you successfully expelled us from your world."
Lu Banxia didn't say anything. She was wearing a dress today, with her knees together and tilted, her arms casually folded across her chest. She looked at Lu Zijin with inquiring eyes. She always felt that something was different about her recently!
Lu Zijin knew what she was wondering about and had no intention of explaining, because they said they were sisters, but they couldn't even be considered friends.
"Before last night, I actually thought about running away from the wedding. I didn't want to have this wedding today, because he married me for you. This is a great humiliation for me!" Lu Zijin said slowly,
He didn't put down the cup in his hand, "But in the morning I changed my mind. Even if he doesn't like me or hates me, I have to keep him by my side for the sake of my children. Even if he is pretending to be me, he has to pretend."
What a good father and husband look like! Moreover, as time goes by, he will change my mind without you. I am willing to change for him and make changes for my children to have a complete home!
"
"What does this have to do with me?" Lu Banxia said indifferently after hearing this.
Lu Zijing chuckled: "It has nothing to do with you, but I am still somewhat grateful to you! Without you, he would not marry me! I have always wanted to compete with you, but you have never taken me seriously in all these years.
Here, no matter what I have touched, you can easily throw it away. This really makes me very angry and I have always resented you."
You only want to compare with the other person, compete, and win or lose, but the other person never takes you seriously. This is a very hurtful thing!
If Lu Banxia had taken her seriously and truly had a win or loss with her, maybe she wouldn't have persisted for so many years!
"I don't fight with anyone, and I don't care to fight with anyone!" Not just Lu Zijin, but anyone. In Lu Banxia's understanding, there is no need to fight for what belongs to oneself. Others also fight for what truly belongs to oneself.
If you can't get it, you can't take it away.
"I know." Lu Zijing took a sip of water, paused for a few seconds and then said: "You have always been arrogant, and your pride and self-esteem are more important than life. Otherwise, you would not lose Li Li now."
More prayers!"
How should a person who values self-esteem more important than life choose between love and life?
When Lu Banxia heard the second half of her words, his eyes couldn't help but become cold, and there was a hint of uneasiness in his expression. He picked up the glass of water on the table and sipped lightly.
Her expression was as usual, but this subtle movement showed that Lu Zijin's words touched a weakness that she didn't want others to know.
"Are you finished?" Lu Banxia gathered his attention, put down the water glass, and said in a deep voice: "After you are finished, can I go?"
Before she even got up, she heard Lu Zijin speak impatiently: "Lu Banxia, I really don't want to fight with you anymore, I also want to have a new beginning! I hope you will keep your word, those things should be my children
Possessed.”
Lu Banxia's share of the Lu family's shares is not small. She is not from the Lu family and does not deserve to own this share. Lu Zijing wants to leave something more for her children!
In fact, Lu Banxia can understand Lu Zijin's mood at this point, and what Lu Zijin values is actually nothing in his eyes. His thin lips curled slightly: "I will let the lawyer handle this matter as soon as possible!"
When the sound falls, get up and leave
Lu Zijing stood up, looked at her back, and asked abruptly: "Don't you want to know what happened between me and Li Yueqi?"
Her words successfully made Lu Banxia stop and look back at her, his cold eyes filled with confusion.
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