Allure of marriage and love, this life is inseparable 12: In alienation, it is you who do not want him
Chapter 434: Alluring Marriage and Love, Never Separate for Life 12: Alienation, Do You Want Him?
Long Lifei looked at her, his thin lips pursed in a thin line, and he hesitated to speak. There seemed to be warmth in the corners of his eyes, and all the emotions were blocked in his throat, like a lump in his throat.
Do you blame her or hate her?
It is undeniable that when he heard Chongjian's words, he was shocked and angry. His Yan'er answered the phone call, and she also had the opportunity to tell him that night.
If she didn't want to go with Fei Fei, she could tell him directly. Even if he didn't go, at least he could call Fei Fei back or ask Chong Jian to take care of her, but how could she hide herself...
But when he saw Yan'er, he realized that... he could never do this with Yan'er.
But sometimes, sometimes blame without blame is the cruelest punishment. As people often say, the best way to retaliate against a person is to ignore her existence!
As far as Long Lifei was concerned, what was the difference between not complaining and indifference?
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Xu Chengdong hoped that Long Lifei could take a good rest for two days, so that his exhausted body could rest and recover.
But when Long Ziqi got up the next day, Long Lifei was no longer in Mingzhengju.
Qingfeng said that Your Excellency left before dawn, apparently to go to the Presidential Palace.
When Long Ziqi arrived at the Presidential Palace, Su said that Long Lifei left the Presidential Palace at eight o'clock and it seemed that he would not come back today.
After the rain, the sky cleared, and the sunshine outside the window was quiet. Long Ziqi stood beside the window, feeling that his whole body was surrounded by cold, so cold that he felt suffocating.
Su looked at her worriedly. In the past two days, Long Ziqi was more silent than ever before. Sadness spread between her brows, and the coldness on her body became an inaccessible desolation that threatened to drown her.
She didn't know what happened specifically, but vaguely guessed that it was related to Long Lifei, so she called Chongjian, but Chongjian was cryptic on the phone and refused to say anything.
She didn't know whether Long Lifei felt sorry for Long Ziqi like this, but she felt sorry for her. Long Lifei was not in the presidential palace, and Long Ziqi handled most matters on his behalf. He was so busy that he didn't even have time to drink water.
As night falls, the lights begin to turn on, and the Presidential Palace is brightly lit amidst the silence and coldness. The lights in Long Ziqi's office are still on, and the documents on the table are moved from one side to the other. I don't know which cup of coffee has bottomed out again.
She asked Su to give her another cup of coffee. She took a sip and realized it was juice. She looked up at her.
"You've had five cups of coffee and some juice today. Go back after finishing the work." Su just calmed down and didn't have the usual smile.
Long Ziqi came back to his senses, glanced at the clock hanging on the wall, and whispered softly: "It turns out it's already ten o'clock."
"You go back first, and I'll go back after I finish processing these documents."
"Your Mightiness……"
"Go back!" Su wanted to say something more, but was interrupted by her two faint words. Su took a deep breath and looked at her helplessly, "Okay, then you promise me to go back and rest early."
Long Ziqi nodded and watched Su Jiu's figure disappear from the door, the smile on his thin lips slowly dissipating.
After finishing the business, Long Ziqi went downstairs. Her security guard and driver were already waiting for her.
There is a fleeting light outside the window, and there is silence inside the window. The shallow breathing seems to be absent, and the curled eyelashes cover the vague and uncertain eyes. Silence is also a kind of fatigue.
Occasionally, she looks back at the twenty-three years she has lived, and it seems like twenty-three light years ago. During the days when she forgot about Gu Mingxi and herself, she was like a living dead, relying on deceit, abduction, and theft every day.
Maintaining her breathing with a few mouthfuls of smelly and rotten food, she lived a more humiliating and humble life than any other living being in the world.
After returning to Gu Mingxi, she couldn't remember her parents or who she was. The first person who broke into her memory was Long Lifei, and it was Long Lifei who gave her warmth and safety.
Love and hate are a kind of spiritual sustenance for people, but she was young and ignorant and did not understand love and hate. Her spiritual sustenance was only three words - Long Lifei.
When she thought of the warm and happy family life she had experienced, who she was, and who her parents were, she truly realized that happiness would always belong only to the little girl named Su Yan, and Long Ziqi was destined to have no chance of happiness.
of.
Even Long Lifei couldn't make her return to the innocent and carefree Su Yan she was at the beginning.
The reality is often so cruel.
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In the Haoting Garden, Long Lifei finished handling the matters at the Presidential Palace in the morning and brought the rest to the Haoting Garden. As for the meeting that he had to attend, he asked Chongjian to move it back a few days.
It is Fei Fei who is worried.
Lan Mufei was in the room from beginning to end, unwilling to step out of the room. The food was brought in and then brought out as it was. When Long Lifei saw it, his face became even more ugly.
He wanted to smoke, but Chongjian put away all the cigarettes.
How could he have concealed what happened to him when he fainted in Mingzhengju last night from Chong Jian? When I saw Long Lifei, if it wasn't for his status as your Excellency, I really wanted to punch him.
If you feel uncomfortable in your heart, just talk about it and vent it. If you just hold it in and feel it without saying anything, it doesn't matter.
No one needs his pretense of greatness, not Fei Fei, and even less Yan'er!
But Jiang Chongjian knew better that if he said it, he would not be Long Lifei. Fei Fei and Yan'er were like Long Lifei's left and right hands, they were both part of his body and could not be separated, let alone harmed.
Feifei is the girl he cherishes, and Yan'er is his relative. Love and family affection are always dilemmas. Why can't he see it clearly after so many years?
Maybe he is unwilling to give up like this!
Lan Mufei fell asleep in the room. Long Lifei looked at her quietly for a while, pressed the quilt on her and left the room silently.
He went downstairs, covered his lips, and tried his best to suppress the sound of coughing, for fear of waking up Lan Mufei, who rarely fell asleep.
Jiang Chongjian took a coat and put it on his shoulders personally, "Go back and rest. It's useless for you to stay here with her like this."
Long Lifei frowned, and after a moment of silence he asked, "How are you handling the news?"
"All the news on the Internet has been cleared. What is difficult is the newspapers on the market! However, I have blocked the Internet dissemination and will not let the French media spread the news in a wider way!"
Feifei's school should not be affected. Once everything gets better for her, she can still return to France to continue her studies if she wants.
Long Lifei said nothing and walked towards the car that had been prepared outside the door.
Jiang Chongjian got into the car and told Ming Zhengju.
When the driver started the engine, three words came from behind him: "Presidential Palace!"
Jiang Chongjian was startled, looked at the driver, nodded invisibly, and went to the Presidential Palace.
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For a week, Long Lifei was at the Presidential Palace in the morning and evening, and stayed in the palace garden during the day. All the urgent meetings were moved to the morning, which made those political officials miserable and had to show up before dawn every day.
In the conference room of the Presidential Palace, my mind was still awake.
But it is obvious that their President is always in good spirits. Even if his brows are slightly tired, he can still point out the mistakes and deficiencies sharply.
He even started to get angry.
Long Lifei's anger was different from that of Mr. Long Pei. When Long Pei was angry, there was a sneer on his thin lips and his sharp eyes scanned everyone present, as if he wanted to see them feel ashamed until they could no longer lift themselves up.
When Long Lifei was angry, his face was expressionless, his eyes were as sharp as knives, and every word was laced with poison. Usually, one sentence could humiliate them completely!
So they knew that their President was in a bad mood and deserved their misfortune, even though they didn't know where his bad mood came from.
During the day, Lan Mufei would lie on the bed and sleep. In fact, she couldn't sleep most of the time and was even afraid to close her eyes.
Once I close my eyes, that chaotic and wild desire keeps reappearing in my mind, reminding myself every second of what a stupid mistake I made.
However, in just one week, she lost a lot of weight, her hair withered like lifeless grass, and her complexion turned an unhealthy yellow color.
Even if Long Lifei and Chongjian tried their best to get her to eat, she would still vomit after eating obediently. At first, she would vomit all the food, but later she would get better, but her condition was still very bad.
The weather forecast says it will be sunny this week. In autumn, the sky is clear and the air is crisp, which is perfect for the autumn chrysanthemums to bloom.
In the afternoon, Long Lifei walked into the room and opened the curtains to let the golden sunlight pour into the dark room. Dust was rolling in the air and making a noise.
He turned around and walked to the side, gently smoothed the hair covering her face with his fingers, and said in a gentle voice, "The weather is very good today, would you like to go out for a walk with me?"
Lan Mufei slowly opened her eyes, looking at him with empty eyes without any waves. Now she didn't even know what sadness was.
When Long Lifei saw that she didn't speak, a faint smile escaped from his thin lips: "I'll get you some clothes."
She stood up and walked to her closet.
Lan Mufei slowly looked at the window, stood up, went to the window barefoot, and walked to the window. She hadn't faced the sun for too long, and her eyes were so stimulated that she couldn't open them, but she didn't close them or use her hands to block them, letting the strong
The irritated eyes want to cry...
Suddenly there was a faint smell of mint under her nose. His slightly cool fingers fell on her eyes to block the dazzling light. His gentle voice sounded in her ears: "Don't hurt yourself!"
His fingertips were very cold, touching the skin, slowly penetrated deeply into the skin, and flowed into the heart along with the blood flow.
She didn't reach out to take his hand away. She just turned around and raised her head to touch the bridge of his nose. The distance was so close that she could even feel his heartbeat. It was very different from the man that night.
It was obviously different, how could she admit her mistake?
How could it be....
If she hadn't been so sad, if she hadn't finished the bottle of wine, wouldn't everything have happened?
What she thinks about most these days is how wonderful it would be to turn back time, how wonderful it would be if she had not returned to China, how wonderful it would have been if she had not drank that bottle of wine?
It's just that the more "what ifs" she thought about, the more pain she felt inside. So she understood that time would not go back, and if she thought about it too much, it would only make herself more painful and tormented.
"Brother Li Fei..." For the first time in so many days, she took the initiative to speak to him. She looked at him with pain and emotion in her eyes, but more of them were empty. "If you receive that call, you
You will come to the hotel to find me, right?"
Long Lifei frowned, pursed his thin lips into a thin line, and remained silent.
Lan Mufei lowered her eyes, raised her lips, and smiled self-deprecatingly: "I want to spend the 17-year-old coming-of-age ceremony with you. I secretly returned to my country. I was afraid that they would find out and be unhappy and embarrass you, so I didn't dare to return to the mansion.
I didn't dare to go to the private residence you gave me, so I could only hide in the hotel. Being 17 years old means growing up and becoming an adult. That night I prepared cake, red wine, and... a confession.
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When the muttered voice said the last two words, his eyes suddenly changed, and the pain and shock disappeared in an instant! The hands hanging by his side tightened silently...
"Actually, even if I don't say it, you should be able to feel it after so many years. After all, you are so smart, and my brother Li Fei is the smartest man in the world! But I still want to tell you personally, I want to be with you
I want to eat my coming-of-age cake, I want to drink my first sip of wine with you, I want to dance my first dance with you, I want to experience many firsts in my life with you!
But now...there is nothing left...My life is completely over, I have nothing left."
In the past five years in France, it’s not that no one has pursued her, but in her heart, who can compare to her brother Li Fei? She doesn’t participate in any activities at school, doesn’t make any friends of the opposite sex, and only eats, sleeps, studies and practices every day.
Qin, she spent all her time missing her brother Li Fei.
Her only good friend would always ask her, is that brother Li Fei really so good? Is he worthy of being remembered so much?
She never answered because she had nothing to answer.
There is no one in this world, no one who can compare with her brother Li Fei!
Her friends laughed at her because she lived in this romantic city but did not fall in love or participate in any social activities. She had never seen a girl who could resist all kinds of temptations better than her.
She said: Because there is a beautiful city in my heart that no one can reach.
So what if France wastes more? What if the people who pursue her are rich and handsome? Her heart has been very small for so many years, and it can only pretend to be the next person. After years of passing by, she can't forget or let go.
Even if she knew there would be no result, as long as she could stay by his side for one more second, she would still be willing to work hard and fight for it!
Just like her favorite poem: I don’t ask for eternity, I wish I had it once!
Fate was very harsh on her, she had lost it even before she had it.
When the words were spoken, his lips rolled around the tip of his tongue and he swallowed them back. He couldn't even hug her with his clenched hands. He didn't know whether this would be good for her or hurt her!
"Brother Li Fei, let's go. Please leave me some dignity, okay?" Lan Mufei glanced at him, with a smile on her thin lips, but her eyes were particularly empty and obscure, "I feel dirty, no.
I know how to face you. I can't bear the way you look at me every minute and every second. Sympathy? Pity? Contempt...or shame..."
Before he finished speaking, he suddenly loosened his clenched fists, grabbed the back of her head with his big hands and pressed her face against his chest.
"I don't allow you to talk about yourself like this! My Fei Fei is not dirty!"
She is the child he raised with his own hands. In his eyes, she will always be so clean and beautiful.
Lan Mufei did not raise her arms to hug him. What kind of posture would she use to hug him now? No matter what posture, it would hurt.
"Then who is Long Ziqi?" Lan Mufei pressed against his chest and could clearly feel his heartbeat. His words did not make her happy, on the contrary, they were bitter.
She is his Feifei, so who does Long Ziqi mean?
He has been kind to her and protected her for so many years, but he has always stayed by Long Ziqi's side. What does this mean to her?
Long Lifei's body visibly stiffened and he said nothing.
"Actually, no matter whether this happened or not, you can never choose me, right!" She said with certainty. She was young but she didn't mean that she didn't know anything.
The strength in Long Lifei's fingertips was gradually withdrawing. He let go of her and stopped talking: "... Fei Fei!"
"My mother owes her something, and I'll pay it back. She and I are clean!" She seemed calmer, so calm that it was incredible.
Long Lifei's entire expression changed, and disbelief flashed in his dark eyes.
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What Yiruo did to Long Ziqi back then was not too secret. Most people working in the presidential palace knew about it, but they all knew that they should never say anything that should not be said.
But after Gu Mingxi personally killed Yi Ruo in front of Lan Mufei, Lan Mufei fell seriously ill and she couldn't remember anything.
What exactly did she know, and how much did she know?
Long Lifei had no way of knowing.
After Lan Mufei said those words, she walked barefoot to the backyard in cotton pajamas and stood on the green grass. In the sun, she was like a flower that withered before it bloomed. She was thin and weak, and her soul was oily as she walked.
Outside the body.
As the president, he seems to have supreme power and status, but he has no way to protect his girl. It's ridiculous to think about it!
The one who is ridiculous is no one else but himself.
The bright moon was in the sky, and the car stopped at the door of the office building. When Long Lifei got out of the car, he saw Long Ziqi sitting on the steps.
The moonlight was hazy, blurring the outline of her facial features and her expression.
Long Lifei glanced at Chongjian, who shrugged innocently.
Long Ziqi stood up from the stairs, walked up to him, and said in a cold voice: "Are you hiding from me?"
"No." Long Lifei answered quickly, looking at her with deep eyes, sincere and frank.
Long Ziqi knew that he would not lie to herself, even if he was unwilling to explain, "I'm not in good health, so pay more attention to rest. I won't disturb you anymore."
Long Lifei nodded, "Go back and rest early. Chongjian, you can send Yan'er back."
She responded, and he had already passed by her and stepped onto the high stairs. His back became increasingly cold and lonely in the moonlight.
Chong Jian walked to her side and said, "I'll take you back."
Long Ziqi didn't respond until Long Lifei's back disappeared from sight. She said, "Chongjian, sit with me for a while."
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Two people under the moonlight, a cup of hot cocoa, the loneliness all around, and the moonlight within reach are all so poignant and beautiful.
Jiang Chongjian looked sideways at her and couldn't help but ask: "Why don't you explain?"
He didn't know what was the reason why Long Ziqi answered the call but didn't tell Li Fei, and what was the reason why Long Li Fei didn't receive the call or text message afterwards, but he absolutely believed that Yan'er didn't mean to hurt Fei Fei.
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Long Ziqi lowered her eyes, the heat of the hot cocoa blurring the coldness in her eyes, "Explanations cannot change the facts!"
Jiang Chongjian's eyes darkened: "Yan'er..."
Since she became vice president, he had never called her by her nickname like this. This time he was really anxious. He was willing to believe her, but she was unwilling to explain.
"We have known each other for many years. Don't I think my position in your heart is enough for you to tell the truth?"
Long Ziqi looked at him calmly and pursed her lips: "What truth do you want me to tell you? Let me admit that I answered that phone call knowing that the child was waiting for Li Fei to celebrate her coming-of-age ceremony, and
Did I deliberately not say it out of jealousy and revenge? Or should I say that I was sick and I didn’t mean it, please forgive me? Chongjian, which truth do you prefer?"
"...Yan'er!" Jiang Chongjian looked solemn. He did not expect Yan'er to say such words, let alone that she deliberately did not tell Li Fei.
"How did you become like this?" He couldn't accept that time will change a person, including his heart.
Long Ziqi looked at him expressionlessly and asked softly: "What kind of person should I be in your heart?"
Jiang Chongjian stood up, looked down at her, and said disappointedly: "No matter how much you hate Lan Mufei, she is still just a child after all!"
Long Ziqi looked at him blankly, not expecting that he would speak for Lan Mufei.
Jiang Chongjian himself never thought that such words would come out of his own mouth. He was angry, very angry. Who was he in Long Ziqi's heart? Could he not even be a friend who could tell the truth?
Why is her heart so tightly closed that no one can get in except Long Lifei? No, maybe even Long Lifei has never entered her heart.
Now, he understands Long Ziqi less and less.
The Long Ziqi now and the Long Ziqi back then in the United States are completely two different people!
Long Ziqi placed the cup in his hand on the stone steps, stood up and looked at him levelly, his voice was very soft but extremely sharp.
"Chongjian, the balance in your heart has tilted!"
Jiang Chongjian was speechless. He looked at her for a long time and said in a deep voice: "I'm not complaining about Lan Mufei. She's not one of my people. If I want to complain, it's not my turn! But as a man, I looked at Li Fei.
I feel uncomfortable being caught between you! Long Ziqi, do you want him or not? Isn't it a good idea to give him a quick word? Hanging him like this, not wanting him, and not letting him want anyone else, makes him feel uncomfortable.
Are you really happy in your heart?"
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