Allure marriage and love, this life is inseparable 17: Don't touch me, liking is a sin
Chapter 439: Love in a beautiful marriage, we will never be separated for the rest of our lives 17: Don’t touch me, love is a sin
Ye Qingcheng raised her eyes and looked at his clear face. It had not changed much from when she was a child, but now he had become more cold, deep, and reserved. Sometimes she couldn't guess what he was thinking.
He looked at her with deep eyes, his eyebrows were slightly furrowed, and he was faintly tired.
His heart trembled, he pursed his lips and shook his head: "It's nothing! I'm probably used to living in the wild, and I feel uncomfortable after living in a mansion for a long time!"
Ye Qingcheng used to be like a princess, delicate and a little squeamish, but since she went to the military area, she has become strong and casual. In that difficult environment, no one took care of her like a princess, but like an animal.
train!
Long Lifei's thin lips revealed a faint smile, "Just wait, the matter will be resolved soon."
Ye Qingcheng nodded, stood up and stood beside him, and subconsciously opened her arms to hug him. This was like an instinctive reaction. Her favorite thing over the years was hugging him. She hugged him when she was in a good mood, and she always found reasons for being in a bad mood.
Give me a hug...
Long Lifei saw her arms raised, and before the words in her throat reached her lips, she suddenly lowered her arms quickly, as if the movement at that moment was his imagination.
Ye Qingcheng smiled slightly and said casually: "Go to bed, good night."
The sound fell, and he turned around and left. He put his hands in his pockets and clenched them tightly into fists, as if he was worried that if he opened his palms, he would be tempted to hug him!
Long Lifeixin's long figure stood there, his eyes following her back, and a trace of doubt and confusion quickly flashed across his eyes.
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Long Lifei went to see Lan Mufei as usual, but she was not in the room, and finally found her on the grass behind.
The moon was bright and the stars were sparse. She was sitting on the grass wearing thin clothes, looking up at the stars and the moon. Viewed from behind, she looked lonely and desolate.
The clothes were draped on her shoulders. Lan Mufei responded, turning her head to see his handsome face in the moonlight. Her eyes were rippled and hidden in the darkness, and she quickly returned to her original state.
"Brother Li Fei..."
Long Lifei sat next to her, neatly arranged her clothes, frowned and said in a deep voice, "Ye Liang, what are you doing sitting here?"
"Look at the stars." She has been in poor health and mental health recently. Her lips have lost their color and turned pale. She pursed her lips and said softly: "In the past, no matter whether I was in the capital or in France, whenever I missed you, I would look up at the stars.
Tell yourself, you and I are looking at the same starry sky."
Her eyes were dark, her big palms were gently stroking her hair, her heart suddenly tightened, and she had mixed feelings.
I should be happy but feel sad!
The starry eyes reflected the pale moonlight, and her face was also cold and moonlight. The fingers under her clothes pinched her palm tightly, and she mustered up the courage to speak.
"Brother Li Fei, do you like me?"
The cold outline was stiff for a few seconds, something quickly flashed across his eyes, and he stared at her intently for a while, silent.
"All these years, I have never been able to figure out whether you like me or not! If you like me, how can you bear to leave me alone all the time? If you don't like me, why would you rather make them unhappy or want to kill me?
Leave."
"Later I learned about Yi Ruo, and I began to understand a little bit about the look in your eyes when you looked at me. It was complicated, struggling, and entangled. It was like my heart was stuck in a swamp and struggling hard during that time. I desperately wanted to climb out of the swamp but couldn't.
I want to be dragged down! I know there will be no result, but I can’t let go! My biological mother is the eternal sinner of the Long family, and I...is destined not to be accepted by others! Sometimes I really don’t understand why you want to stay
Me, if you had not kept me, maybe each of us would be much better off now!"
If she had not met Long Lifei, she would not have fallen in love with him, nor would she have humbled herself into the dust and failed to bloom flowers.
And he and Long Ziqi probably won't always be full of conflicts and disputes because of her existence!
"Feifei, I'm sorry!" Long Lifei pursed his thin lips slightly, and the distress and apology in his eyes were no longer suppressed.
Maybe what she said was right. If he hadn't been so insistent on keeping her, maybe her life would be harder now, but she wouldn't have suffered so much harm, and she wouldn't have suffered so much because of him.
"What are you sorry for?" Lan Mufei's voice trembled slightly in the wind, and her nasal voice gradually became thicker, "The person who is sorry to Madam and Long Ziqi is my biological mother, and the one who wants to compete with Long Ziqi for you is overestimating her own ability.
Me! And the relationship between you and me cannot be defined by the words "I'm sorry."
Yiruo had caused Gu Mingxi to commit suicide in the sea due to the pain of losing her daughter, and she had caused Long Ziqi to disappear for two years. No matter how tight they kept the news, if a child has been missing for two years, they can expect her to live well and not suffer.
, is whimsical. Her existence reminds Gu Mingxi and Long Ziqi of what happened back then, and evokes their sad memories. It is her fault!
But the problems between her and Long Lifei really couldn't be settled with just three words: "I'm sorry."
They all made mistakes. Their mistakes were that they liked things they shouldn't have liked, relied on things they shouldn't have relied on, and mistakenly regarded each other as the only ones. They knew things that couldn't be changed early on, but they were wishful thinking that they could have both.
"Fei Fei, you shouldn't be responsible for those sins." Long Lifei frowned, his eyes darkening.
Lan Mufei shook his head, "Brother Li Fei, stop lying to yourself. Even if everyone thinks the same rationally as you, they still can't accept it emotionally! I think maybe all this is retribution! I was born to atone for my sins, even if that
People don't give me any affection, but it can't change the fact that I am Yifei!"
He was silent, not knowing what to say.
Sometimes, he thinks that she is just Lan Mufei, not Yifei! In this way, is there a chance of a turning point between them?
"Brother Li Fei, do you really like me?" Lan Mufei looked at him and asked him again, wanting to hear him admit it himself.
"You have always been important to me." He couldn't say that sentence, but the meaning was the same.
Lan Mufei's heart sank, and she suddenly felt a little cold. The coldness spread from her bones to the outside, with the blood flowing through every corner of her body.
"Can I understand what you said that you like me?" The voice paused for a moment, and there was mist in the eyes for some reason, "Then do you dare to kiss my lips?"
Long Lifei was stunned, his eyes flicked up, and he stared at her for a moment, without any reaction, as if he hadn't heard anything.
Over the years, apart from occasional hugs, the most intimate experience he had was probably kissing her on the forehead! He never thought that she would make such a request to him, and he was at a loss for a while, not knowing how to react.
A slightly cool liquid came out of her pupils, and she cried and laughed, "Long Lifei, you don't really like me!"
He lowered his eyes, tears falling down, and stood up to leave.
The moonlight was hazy, cool and thin, and tears kept pouring out of the corners of my eyes. Many words were choked in my throat but I couldn't say them out! I just felt that my heart was being cut by a rusty dull knife, and slowly oozing bright red.
The blood was so painful that it was hopeless.
Long Lifei looked at her frail back, with uncontrollable emotions in his gloomy eyes. Every word she said hit his heart, but he didn't know how to explain or comfort her.
The tall and straight figure quickly caught up with her, grabbed her wrist with his big hand, and pulled her back hard, causing Lan Mufei to fall into his arms.
She raised her head and looked at him with eyes blurred by tears. Before she could see his expression clearly, the black shadow had already pressed down on her.
He held her cool and wet cheeks with his slightly cool hands, and pressed his lips against her pale, tear-stained lips, tasting her bitterness, which was so gentle that his heart trembled.
Lan Mufei was stunned, his tearful pupils kept shrinking, and the tears fell even more. He stuck out his tongue, suppressing the intertwined desire and pain, and exchanged saliva.
Don't like her?
If you don't like him, why have you been stuck in the middle for so many years? Why send her to France with such reluctance, hoping that she can meet a better person, but fearing that she will fall in love with someone else.
He is selfish and greedy. He wants both love and family affection.
This was his first kiss, but it was not hers. There was no sweetness or joyful heartbeat, only pain and helplessness!
The love and attachment that had been suppressed for many years finally broke out in her sadness. He didn't know how sad and sad she was. How could he be less depressed and helpless than hers.
"Long Lifei, what do you like about me? Why on earth do you like me?" His shoulders were shaking so hard that he punched his shoulders with pink fists, "It would be great if you didn't like me... That would be great."
...How wonderful..."
If you don't like me, you won't leave me. You won't be in my life these years, and I won't like you so much and regard you as the only one in my life.
If nothing had happened and you wouldn't have waited any longer, we would have decided to be strangers and we wouldn't have the pain we feel now.
If you didn't know me and walked by in a hurry, you probably wouldn't have this result now!
"Brother Li Fei... Is it wrong for me to like you? I just want to be with you, am I wrong again? Why can't two people who like each other be together... Why can't we be together..."
There is nothing more painful than loving someone but not being able to be together. This is the most painful thing in the world.
"I'm sorry!" He held her in his arms, tightening his arms so tightly that there was no gap, wishing that she could be integrated into his own flesh and blood.
At first, he believed that what is great is emotion, but in the end he saw that what is powerful is fate!
The bright moon in the distant sky was gradually buried by dark clouds, and the dim light lingered on them. Her weak body leaned against his chest and she cried incessantly!
The window of a room not far away happened to be opposite, and you could have a clear view of the entire grassland, including the painful and *kiss.
The slender figure in the darkness leaned against the window curtain, and the light in his eyes was dimmer than the light outside the window...
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Lan Mufei asked him what he liked about her?
It's not that Long Lifei has never thought about this question, but he just doesn't have an answer.
When he first met her, she was just a little beggar on the street that no one cared about. She was so dirty that no one wanted to take a second look. Through the window, he saw those clean eyes, and his heart trembled inexplicably.
When he came to his senses, he had already asked the driver to stop.
Do you feel pity for her and feel sympathy for her?
Perhaps, after all, he took her back because he couldn't bear to see her enduring the wind and rain on the street, fearing that she would wither in the wind and rain.
Knowing that she was Yi Ruo's daughter made him feel very sad. She was still so young. If she was left in an orphanage, would she be able to live well? He was both reluctant and worried!
Later, when she was left behind, he could see her occasionally and see her grow up healthy and happy, which filled his heart with unreasonable joy and expectation.
I like her bright eyes, the way she smiles, and the sweet way she always calls him: Brother Lifei.
Subtly, she was like a small seed planted in his heart, slowly sprouting and taking root, becoming more and more important.
Knowing that Long Pei couldn't accept her existence, he didn't think about giving up, but if he couldn't do it, he couldn't let go!
I always feel that I don't know what will happen to her if I leave her alone, and my heart is hanging in the air with no place to settle.
He really didn't know what he liked about her. Maybe it was her cleanliness and purity that attracted him, or maybe he didn't need any reason to like someone.
But he never knew that his love would lead her to where she is today.
I never knew that liking someone too much is a sin and can harm others.
If meeting is a kind of fate, and it is destined that there is no way for them to have a result, then at least let him keep her safe and free until she meets a man who can bring her happiness instead of harm!
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There was only one day left before Long Lifei gave Louis Yingqi a week, that is, tomorrow he would hand over Lan Mufei to Louis Yingqi no matter what!
If you don't hand over Fei Fei, the only person who gets hurt will be Yan'er!
That night, at nine o'clock, the Haoting Garden was still brightly lit and faintly cool.
Lan Mufei sat in a daze on the tatami in the room, her long hair scattered casually, her pale face without any color, and her originally bright starry eyes under her eyelashes as thin as cicada wings were now like a pool of stagnant water, without any ripples.
Long Lifei knocked on the door of the room. She came back to her senses and looked up at him. He was wearing casual clothes, holding a glass of milk in his hand, and his eyes were warm.
"Drink the milk and go to bed early."
Lan Mufei took the warm milk and looked at him, as if she wanted to stop talking.
"What's wrong?" Long Lifei's fingers habitually fell on her soft long hair, and his tone was concerned.
Lan Mufei shook his head, lowered his head and drank the milk silently.
Long Lifei supported her* and covered her with a quilt considerately, "Go to sleep."
Lan Mufei reached out and held his hand, "I'm going to get rid of the baby tomorrow. I'm a little scared! Can you wait until I fall asleep before leaving?"
Something flashed across the eagle's eyes so quickly that she couldn't catch it.
"Okay!" He lowered his head and kissed her lovingly on her forehead, clasping his fingers with hers.
Lan Mufei's thin lips concealed a slight smile, she closed her eyes, gradually breathed evenly, and fell into sleep.
Long Lifei sat by the bed for a long time, staring at her sleeping face. The apology gradually emerged in his eyes. He could no longer suppress it and stroked her hair with his fingers.
The sound was too soft to be heard.
--sorry.
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It was 9:40 when Long Lifei went downstairs. A dark figure was sitting on the sofa in the living room. Qing Jun's face showed little emotion. His eagle eyes glanced at Long Lifei and he raised his eyebrows inconspicuously.
He walked to sit opposite the man and looked directly at the man opposite: "Will you marry her?"
As if he had heard a big joke, Louis Yingqi raised his lips and smiled evilly: "Are you kidding me?"
It was just an accident. If his mother hadn't sent someone to spy on him all the time, and even kidnapped the girl to check whether she was pregnant, he really had no interest in knowing whether she was pregnant or not!
It's not so much that he wants this child, it's more that his mother wants it! From the beginning to the end, he never thought about having a child with another woman. Even if Grace couldn't give birth to a child in her life, he never thought about borrowing it from her.
Other women’s bellies.
But now that the mistake has been made, after this child is born, Grace can become his wife openly. No matter how disdainful he is, for the sake of Grace's future, he can only promise his mother that he will let this child be born no matter what!
In fact, he doesn't know what that girl looks like until now!
"After this child is born, no matter what she asks for, I can satisfy her!" Louis Yingwidow saw him frowning, feeling faintly angry, and spoke softly!
Although it was an accident, since she gave birth to a child for him, he would never treat her poorly!
Long Lifei's eyes became colder and colder, with a sneer on his thin lips. He was silent for a while and said, "Chongjian, take him upstairs."
Jiang Chongjian, who had been standing next to him, nodded, and as soon as his toes moved in one direction, he was stunned——
Seeing that he hadn't left, Long Lifei looked up and his face suddenly changed, "——Fei Fei!"
How could she wake up?
Lan Mufei was wearing a thin pajamas underneath and a light-colored coat outside. She stood barefoot at the top of the stairs, her face as white as a female ghost. She looked at him with pain, more than hatred, and despair.
Long Lifei's heart suddenly became dull and breathless. He stood up and stopped talking: "——Fei Fei."
At this time, she should be sleeping very peacefully, and there is no way she would wake up!
With metal-like cold eyes, he shot at Ye Qingcheng, who was standing in the middle of the long staircase behind Lan Mufei! When he was giving Lan Mufei warm milk, only Ah Qing had been to the kitchen, and she was the one who touched the glass of diazepam.
milk!
"Long Lifei, you still chose Long Ziqi after all!" When Lan Mufei said this, her voice was as light as catkins. The mist in her eyes gradually dissipated, her soul was shattered, and her body was so soft that she seemed to collapse at any time.
But she can't!
Long Lifei's thin lips were tightly pursed in an emotionless arc, his brows were filled with coldness, and his hands hanging by his sides were tightly clenched into fists, with looming veins.
The atmosphere was low-pressure, with coldness flowing everywhere. When Long Lifei's stern eyes came towards him, Ye Qingcheng couldn't help but avoid his gaze, either apologetically or feeling guilty.
"Between me and my wife, Long Ziqi, or even the position of president, your choice will never be me!" Lan Mufei smiled softly, but the smile was more heartbreaking than crying.
"Madam is very important, Long Ziqi is very important, and the identity of the president is very important, but I am not important." The trembling voice paused, and the eyes occupied by pain looked into his eyes, and asked softly: "Long Li
No, this is what you call liking!"
Long Lifei's face gradually turned pale when she questioned him, and he fell silent.
"Do you really like me? If you really like me, how could you not know that as long as you open your mouth... I will jump down willingly even in hell. It is necessary for you to use such a despicable method to sell me
?”
The word "sell" is particularly harsh!
"Fei Fei!" Long Lifei squeezed out two words with difficulty, strode up to her, and reached out to hold her hand.
Before his fingertips touched her sleeve, Lan Mufei moved to the side, avoiding his hand as if avoiding a snake or scorpion. His palm caught a handful of cold and hurtful air...
"Long Lifei, don't touch me, - I feel disgusting!" She looked at him, gritting her teeth, as if she was trying to bite out every word with all her strength.
Long Lifei's body visibly stiffened, and he looked at her blankly but didn't know what to do.
"Fifteen years ago, I didn't have the right to choose. It was you who chose my destiny, but now... I will not let you control my destiny again!"
She has been waiting, waiting for him to tell her personally, even if he just tells her the true situation, without his request or any words, she will take the initiative to leave with Louis Yingwidow, far away from the capital, and will not let them
Have any trouble.
He has protected her for so many years, can she bear to watch him being threatened and hurt?
But what about him?
He even lied to himself that he would recuperate before accompanying her to remove the child, put diazepam in her milk, and then packaged her up and gave her to the widow Louis.
What do you think of her? As a gift? Give her away if you want to, and throw her away as soon as you want. Don’t miss her old feelings.
Long Lifei, who am I in your heart?
"——Feifei, I..."
"I hate you!" Before Long Lifei finished speaking, she spoke again, like a knife stabbing into his chest, "Long Lifei, I never knew that loving you requires such pain...
"
"I don't want to love you anymore, I want to hate you, because it's much easier to hate than to love!"
The word "no" was stuck in his throat, and he couldn't spit it out or swallow it.
Lan Mufei looked away from his gaze with cold eyes, and looked sideways at Louis Yingqi, who was standing next to the sofa with an expressionless face, "I'll go with you!"
As soon as the sound fell, she was already walking towards Louis Yingwidow!
Long Lifei reacted, and finally couldn't help but reach out and grab her wrist, clasping it tightly. He stared at her with his deep eyes, but made no sound.
Lan Mufei turned around and found the strength to throw away his hand. She almost yelled in a broken voice: "Long Lifei, what do you want?"
He wanted to give her to Louis Yingqi, and wanted to save Long Ziqi's life. Now she took the initiative to leave with Louis Yingqi. He grabbed her wrist and refused to let go. What did it mean?
"I left with him not for you, let alone for your Yan'er..." The voice with tattered lips trembled, but it was as firm as iron, "I provoked this man myself, I will deal with it myself, no matter what
Thank you for your trouble."
"Long Lifei, no matter life or death, I only hope that we will never see you alive!"
When she left Louis Yingqi, she stood at the door, her pale and haggard cheeks half bathed in the light and half buried in the night, leaving him with the last four words.
——Farewell, forever!
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