Allure marriage and love, this life is inseparable 26: Rejecting love, he lives in the dark
Chapter 448: Alluring Marriage and Love, Inseparable for Life 26: Night Dreaming, Rejection of Love and Being Loved
(After eating, Long Ziqi was about to clean up the dishes, but Jin Cunxu reached out to take the bowl, and his fingertips accidentally touched her hand. The touch was slightly warm, and both of them were stunned.)
Long Ziqi quickly withdrew his hand subconsciously, and glanced at him from the corner of his eye.
Jin Cunxu didn't react much. He took the bowl and said warmly: "I'm going to wash the dishes. You go take a shower first."
Long Ziqi nodded.
There is no bathroom available here, so you have to boil hot water every day and then mix it with cold water to take a shower!
The small shed built next to the toilet has a faucet, and the ground is paved with blue stones. The ground is uneven, and the water falls on Bai Xi's skin, and flows down the long body, with some dripping water.
It fell on the rocks.
Jin Cunxu, who was washing the dishes, could vaguely hear the sound, and his breathing became heavy involuntarily. He wanted to outline something in his muddy mind, but he suppressed it.
Some things shouldn't be rushed, he didn't want to scare her away!
Long Ziqi took a shower and put on very conservative cotton pajamas with mid-sleeves and trousers. They were not exposed at all, but the neckline was slightly low. Looking down from a high angle, the hair underneath was vaguely visible.
She didn't have men's clothes here, so when she borrowed quilts, she specially borrowed Calu's father's clean clothes for him.
If he is willing!
Jin Cunxu naturally did not refuse. He was mentally prepared when he came here. Since she can live here for half a year, why can't he?
Kalu's father is not as tall as him, and the gray clothes are slightly smaller on him, with a large portion of his arms and legs exposed, making the picture look a bit funny.
When he walked in, Long Ziqi had already laid the floor for him, with clean sheets. She looked up and saw him, with a smile in her bright eyes.
"Good night."
Jin Cunxu pulled back the quilt and lay down. When he saw her hanging the simple curtain between them, his thin lips couldn't help but curl up.
This curtain is obviously to protect against gentlemen, not villains.
Long Ziqi did not turn off the lights immediately because she had the habit of reading before going to bed. If she did not read for a while, she would not be able to fall asleep.
Jin Cunxu saw her sitting on the bed reading a book through the gap, with a calm expression and focused eyes. Her long hair was casually scattered on her chest. On Bai Xi's skin, it was like a pleasing painting engraved in the bottom of her heart.
His sleep has not been very good over the years, otherwise he would have to see a psychiatrist, but this time, he slept unusually calmly.
There was not much verbal communication, and there was no sexual entanglement like in the TV series. It was a quiet, ordinary night.
Because he slept so deeply, when he woke up the next day, she was no longer in the room.
He had no idea when she woke up or when she left.
There was a note she left on the table. Breakfast was only a few pieces of bread and hard-boiled eggs. If he wanted to drink coffee, there was instant coffee in the drawer.
Jin Cunxu held the paper in his hand, Juan's beautiful handwriting came into view, and a faint smile overflowed from his thin lips.
She prepared brand new toiletries for him. After having breakfast and changing into his own clothes, he went out and asked all the way. He finally found the classroom, which he had to walk for almost half an hour.
There were several shabby and precarious mud houses, with more than a dozen children sitting in the classroom. Her slim figure was outlined in a simple white T-shirt and smoky gray jeans. Her hair was still braided loosely and put aside, holding a hand in her hand.
She takes the students to read together, she reads a sentence, and the children follow.
Her moderately gentle voice floated in the morning wind, and her delicate face showed seriousness and concentration, and each of those children was very serious.
That morning, Jin Cunxu did not come close to disturb them. He stood outside and quietly watched her every move and every interaction with the children. His heart had already been sewed and mended with thousands of needles and threads, and he was filled with warmth and affection.
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If he had not met her, he would have been a monster living in the darkness in this life. He is still dealing with a psychiatrist. In the eyes of everyone, he is a terminally ill patient. But since meeting her, he knows that he will not be a patient.
Even if the whole world says he is a monster, he does not have to be afraid...
Because the whole world is not her!
If you want to warm someone, you must learn to warm yourself. For her, he is willing to break the prison of the earth, walk out of the darkness, bathe in the sunshine, embrace her, and warm her.
So, at this moment, he stood under the high temperature of the sunrise clouds, looking at her, his warm eyes full of passion.
After finishing a morning class, Long Ziqi discovered that he had been standing outside. The sun was glaring at the moment. She paused for a few seconds, looked at the watch on her wrist, and announced a fifteen-minute break.
The children rushed out of the classroom with a "boom" sound.
Long Ziqi arranged the books and put them on the podium. He had already walked in. He probably stood outside for too long, and his forehead was covered with thin beads of sweat and shimmering.
She took out a tissue from a canvas bag and handed it to him: "You can go back first."
"I want to wait for you." He took the tissue naturally and wiped the sweat from his forehead.
"What I mean is that you go back to China first! As for the clothes, I will wait for Qu Yan to come back and ask clearly. If it doesn't work, I will buy one and return it to you."
Seeing that he misunderstood her, Long Ziqi patiently explained.
Jin Cunxu's hand holding the tissue paused for a second, his face sank calmly, and he pursed his lips and said, "No!"
Long Ziqi raised his eyebrows and looked at him in confusion.
"I've been waiting for half a year, but you didn't come back, and you even ran away secretly." Jin Cunxu said extremely seriously, as if she was really avoiding him for that dress and sneaking away to this place.
Long Ziqi: "..."
It's just a piece of clothing, so why is he like this?
"I'll pay and let Aunt Fu buy another one for you."
"It's not the original one." Jin Cunxu frowned, very dissatisfied with her solution!
Long Ziqi was silent. She had never met anyone more difficult to deal with than him. He was the one who wanted to lend her clothes at first, but he didn't ask for it. How could he now chase him all the way to Africa for a piece of clothes?
"Then how do you want to solve it?"
Jin Cunxu threw the crumpled tissue into the trash can, thought seriously for a while, and said: "You follow me to country A and you are responsible for finding the clothes!"
Long Ziqi's eyes were startled, her curled eyelids trembled slightly, she avoided his dark eyes, her fingers were under the table, clasping the podium secretly, and did not speak for a long time.
Jin Cunxu was not in a hurry and waited patiently for her to think about it and tell him the answer.
Outside the classroom are the innocent smiles of children, chasing each other, playing, sweating profusely but not tired. Their small bodies seem to contain endless strength.
In the classroom, they faced each other but were speechless. Dust was floating in the air and there was endless noise.
He stared down, tenderly and affectionately. There was only a podium distance between them, and the two people's breaths were shallowly intertwined, inexplicably *.
Long Ziqi deliberately avoided his gaze, pretending not to know how much affection was in those deep eyes, nor why he traveled across thousands of mountains and rivers just to find her that piece of clothing that was readily available.
He looked at the children with clear and bright pupils, pursed his thin lips slightly, and said in a graceful voice that was cold and distant, "I'm sorry, these children can't live without me!"
Jin Cunxu frowned, but before he could speak, he heard her say again: "You are the crown prince of a country, and as the future president, you will not understand the sorrow of these children who have no one to teach them. Because no one wants to go there.
Coming from such a remote place, until I arrived here, they were illiterate and ignorant, and they danced with mud and branches all day long. Jin Cunxu, they can't live without me, and I can't live without them. There are many important people in this world.
There are things for you and me to do instead of dwelling on what has been lost.”
These words had profound meanings. Firstly, she did not want him to continue to pester her about that dress. Secondly, she hoped that he would leave as soon as possible and not disturb her and her children's lives.
He is the noble Crown Prince. He should not waste time on such trivial matters, but should deal with important national affairs.
As soon as she finished speaking, she walked straight out of the classroom, leaving only a depressed figure for him.
A faint smile appeared at the corner of Jin Cunxu's mouth, which was not as deep as the bottom of his eyes. It was mixed with a bit of vague sourness. He raised his thin lips and murmured softly: "You are not me, how could you know? I don't understand!"
His narrow eyes lowered for a few seconds, and when he raised them again, he looked out the door without any emotion.
Long Ziqi leaned over and wiped the sweat from the children's foreheads with a towel. Each of them smiled happily. She looked at them with gentle eyes, and a slight curve at the corner of her lips.
The sunlight scattered down without reservation, lingering around her. From a distance, a pair of glowing wings seemed to grow on her back.
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Long Ziqi accompanied the children back to the classroom. Jin Cunxu was no longer there. He subconsciously searched around with his eyes, but saw no figure, and secretly breathed a sigh of relief.
Every proud man will probably not stay after listening to her words. This is her purpose.
Long Ziqi opened the book and continued where he left off last time.
For more than half a year here, she lived a very peaceful life, with a calm mind. Looking back on all the past events, she was in vain sentimental. She only complained that she was too persistent and couldn't distinguish between dependence and emotion.
Watching your parents grow from young to old, experiencing too much hurt and grief, and going through life and death, can any couple in this world of love persevere? Most relationships are squandered on passion and then submerged in the trivialities of life. There is no
People can integrate all their emotions into the ordinary and trivial life like Long Pei and Mingxi, and they will love each other more every day.
She said that she couldn't bear the heavy and intense feelings like her parents'. It was too grand and huge for her to afford! The feelings she prayed for were just ordinary, without any harm or conspiracy, and Long Lifei was the one in her heart.
The most reassuring thing to rely on is an existence that will not cause harm to you no matter what.
So she confused her emotions, walked into an alley with no way out, lost her direction in the fog, stumbled, bumped, and suffered a bloody head.
The past six months were enough for her to let go of the past and see clearly that there had never been any mortal feelings between her and A-Li, but only the trust and dependence between relatives and the special affection between twins.
If a sister from an ordinary family sees her brother, who has always loved her, sharing his love for her with another strange woman, she will be jealous and angry; not to mention that they are still twins, she will naturally be concerned about someone taking away A Li's love for her.
Love.
That care has nothing to do with deep love or jealousy, it is just the sister's possessiveness (desire) for her brother's love!
It's a pity that she saw it too late. She and Qingcheng jointly sent Feifei away to the end of the world. She wanted Ali to find Feifei back. She would try her best to turn those objections into blessings, but——
A Li has completely given up.
Not only did he give up on Lan Mufei, he also gave up on his own feelings. From then on, his emotional forbidden zone was feared to be one that no one could approach again!
After saying goodbye to her unclear and cruel upbringing, she sadly discovered the reality that she did not understand love and could not love, as if a man had the most unspeakable disease - (xing) incompetence!
If you can't give others a response, then don't give a glimmer of hope, because hope will only bring despair.
As for the taste of despair, she had tasted it so many times in nightmares that she couldn't remember what it felt like to have hope, so that at least she would prevent others from being swallowed up by despair like herself.
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In the evening, the younger children were sent home respectively. Unable to refuse the parents' enthusiasm, they slowly walked back with a bag of food.
I received a call from Ali on the way.
"I'm fine, don't worry."
"..."
"I've been here before, I should leave today..."
"..."
"You are thinking too much..."
Long Lifei didn't know how he knew that Jin Cunxu had arrived in Africa, so he subconsciously called him, assuming that he was here to see Yan'er. He couldn't help but tell Yan'er to go home early!
She refused to go home for the same reason. These children couldn't live without her, and she couldn't live without them.
In the end, Long Lifei was convinced by her. He cut off the phone with a sigh, looked up at Jiang Chongjian who was standing in front of his desk, his eyes were knowing, he hesitated a little, and finally said: "Go and see her."
Jiang Chongjian was silent for a while, "What are you worried about?"
Long Lifei leaned back on the chair, cast his gloomy eyes at Jiang Chongjian, and said in a cold voice: "We are all worried about the same thing."
Jiang Chongjian took a deep breath and exhaled slowly, but still couldn't get rid of the knot in his chest. He murmured to himself: "Maybe I should tell her."
Ming Xi was in pain after one Yi Ruo had been harmed, and they would not let the second Yi Ruo harm Yan'er in the slightest.
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Long Ziqi walked home alone. It was already dark when he reached the door. He opened the door and turned on the light.
The quilt on the floor was neatly folded and placed on the chair. A note she originally left on the table was missing. She put down her mobile phone and food, and sat by the bed, looking at the new towels hanging on the washstand.
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What happened yesterday was like a dream.
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