Love in the city, this life is inseparable 53: I'm sorry, I died in memory
Chapter 475: Alluring Marriage and Love, Inseparable for Life 53: Sorry, Died in Memories
("Are you really his friend?")
After a long time, she murmured softly, her clear voice mixed with a little disbelief and harshness. Before Lu Xiangbei could explain, her voice came up again: "How could you do this to him? How could you... helplessly?
Watch him slowly destroy himself?"
My voice couldn't help but get louder at the end, and I couldn't hide my inner excitement.
Over the years, her emotions have already settled in time. Even if she is in pain and despair on the inside, she is used to being calm and calm on the outside, neither sad nor happy. It can make her lose control like this. It is conceivable that she has feelings for Jin Cunxu.
My feelings are far deeper than what the world sees!
Lu Xiangbei raised his eyes to look at her, with helplessness and gloom in his eyes, "There is only one person in this world who can change your decision, and that is you, madam!"
"Everything is moving in a good direction now. If Madam brings up the old matters again at this moment, it will not be good for you."
"If I want to bring up old things again, I won't see you today!" The voice was sharp and solemn, quite like Long Pei's demeanor.
Lu Xiangbei kept silent, speechless.
"Is it related to the scar on his back?" Long Ziqi asked uncertainly.
There are many scars on Jin Cunxu's back, some are very shallow and cannot be noticed without looking carefully under the dim light, but three scars are so deep that it is difficult not to notice them.
The first time she had a skin-to-skin kiss with him, she was too shy and didn't dare to look at him carefully. The second time after that, she touched the scars and saw them. It hurt her heart, but she never asked.
He, where did those scars come from, she didn't mention it, it's not that she didn't care, she didn't want to know, she just didn't want to bring up his bad memories!
Everyone has an unknown secret, either warm or cold. If it's warm, that's it. If it's cold, what can she do for him?
The past is a word that makes people powerless.
"Unless he wants to talk about your past, no one else will speak!" He knew it but couldn't tell it!
If you want your wife to know, she won't know it until now.
"What about the scar on the arm?" He didn't want to say it, and Long Ziqi didn't want to force him.
There is a scar on Jin Cunxu's right arm, which seems to have been caused in the past few months. It is difficult to find because he always wears a long-sleeved shirt.
Lu Xiangbei hesitated for a moment and said softly: "It's because of the slap Kou Jingning gave you! Your Excellency takes you too seriously and is more important than yourself. If you are even slightly injured, he will feel more uncomfortable than himself.
If you are here, he can still suppress himself, but once you leave, he will lose control..."
The scar on the arm was not man-made. It was probably caused by an accident. The person who caused the accident was none other than Jin Cunxu himself.
The sunlight outside the window slipped away little by little in the west, and the bustling city was shrouded in night. The psychedelic neon street scene fell into her eyes, but it was sad and cold. The tea in front of her completely cooled down, and her heart fell into the deepest and deepest state.
Cold lake bottom.
There was moisture in his eyes, because he was not willing to show his weak side in front of Lu Xiangbei.
She didn't know how much hurt and unbearable Jin Cunxu had suffered in the past, which made him so desperate and give up. He had lived like a walking zombie for many years. The only certainty was that someone must have hurt him. If he hadn't experienced the horrific grief, he would never have died.
I won’t give up hope of living!
Thinking of him holding her once, he choked and whispered: How could those people do this to her! How could they do this!
Every word is bloody, every sentence is full of tears.
Now she also wanted to hold Jin Cunxu and ask how those people could hurt him like this and almost ruin his life.
She can't do that!
Because he could be so kind to her in pain, how could she expose his scars again, embarrass him, and magnify his pain again!
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When Long Ziqi returned home, the lights turned on warmly. Jin Cunxu had returned and was preparing dinner in the kitchen.
I was changing my shoes at the entrance and saw his tall figure standing there against the wind. His black sleeves were rolled up to his elbows. He was handsome, elegant, and very sexy.
The tip of my nose felt inexplicably sore, and my eye sockets were dry and painful.
"I'm back." Jin Cunxu washed his hands, wiped them clean, walked up to her, and gave her a light kiss, "What did you do when you went out?"
Long Ziqi concentrated his attention, raised his eyes and looked at him: "I had tea with my friends for a while."
It's not a lie, Lu Xiangbei can be considered her friend.
Jin Cunxu didn't ask any more questions, smoothed her long hair with his fingers, and said tenderly: "Remember to bring your mobile phone next time you go out."
Before going out, she sent her address to Lu Xiangbei. When she was changing her shoes, she put her phone on the shoe cabinet and forgot to bring it with her.
"I remember." She pursed her lips and showed a faint smile, looking at the kitchen: "Do you need my help?"
"Need." Jin Cunxu took her hand to the bar and asked her to sit down on the chair. "You are responsible for sitting here and looking at me."
There was a flash of light in Long Ziqi's eyes for a moment, she said nothing, nodded with a smile, watched him walk into the semi-open kitchen, and continued to prepare dinner.
Jin Cunxu liked the way she looked at him, which was gentle and focused, as if he was the only one in her clear and dustless pupils.
He didn't treat her like a canary in a cage, raising her and giving her enough free space. He didn't send anyone to watch her every move, but that didn't mean that he didn't know what she did.
For the sake of her safety, he would not let her go out alone every time, but to prevent her from getting bored, he never wanted anyone to disturb her peaceful life.
When I saw Lu Xiangbei in the cafe, I heard that she looked very bad, even vaguely angry.
He could guess what the reason was, and his heart suddenly tightened with pain.
She didn't ask because she didn't want to remind him of his unbearable past. She carefully inquired from the sidelines. She wanted to know a lot. Her tact and caution really made him feel distressed.
After dinner, taking a bath and resting, she lay in his arms and placed her fingers on his heart. She felt that his heart was really beating with her fingertips, and the uneasiness in her heart subsided slightly.
In the darkness, he held her hand and said in a low, hoarse voice: "In a few days, you will accompany me to meet a friend."
Long Ziqi was startled. She had never heard him mention it before. He had other friends that she didn't know about. She responded after a moment, "Okay."
"Go to sleep." He held her in his arms, tilted his head and kissed her forehead, tenderly.
Compared with the inevitable love between men and women, Jin Cunxu also likes to hug her and rub her ears and temples together without any desire, but it is the most candid and sincere way to express his feelings.
I once saw this sentence in a book: I hope you really like me, so hug me.
Because we really liked each other, we hugged each other tightly without any effort, as if we wanted to hug each other forever.
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Spring in country A comes early, in early March, everything revives, willows ooze buds, bright green emerges from the moist soil, and the wind carries the smell of flowers and plants, full of vitality.
On the morning of March 4, the Jin family, including new member Long Ziqi, gathered in a place by chance.
We didn't go together, but we met at the destination.
Although there is sunshine, the cemetery is still damp and gloomy, which is depressing. The crows crow on the dead branches seem to remind people that death is everywhere.
The ground was desolate and the air was slightly cool. Long Ziqi and Jin Cunxu stood in front of the tombstone, looking at the photo posted on the marble monument. A girl was about 5 or 6 years old, with a bright smile, innocent and beautiful, untainted by this worldly thing.
There is no trace of dust, and a pair of black eyes are bright and shining.
Under the photo are engraved the words "Kou Jingwan", the date of birth and the date of death.
Fu Xiange was dressed in solemn black, wearing sunglasses, and holding a bouquet of lilies in his hand. The white petals were still stained with water drops, reflecting the sunlight and shining with broken light.
He leaned forward and placed the bouquet in front of the tombstone, and said in a very soft voice: "Jingwan, we are here to see you."
Long Ziqi could vaguely guess who this girl was, but she didn't know what her relationship was with the Jin family. Before she came to the cemetery, she never thought that Jin Cunxu would bring her to pay homage to his friends, not even a bunch of them.
I didn't bring any flowers.
Jin Xishuo's eyes signaled Jin Cunxu and herself to leave for a while, leaving space for the two women.
Although Jin Cunxu was reluctant to let go, he still let go of Long Ziqi's hand and whispered, "Wait for me here."
Long Ziqi nodded and watched his tall figure and Jin Xishuo walk away.
Fu Xiange stood upright in front of the tombstone, looked at the smile on the tombstone, slowly took off his sunglasses, and sighed with a heavy heart.
Long Ziqi walked to her side without saying anything. It seemed that Jin Cunxu wanted Fu Xiange to tell him the story of the owner of the tombstone.
The long silence made people a little anxious, but Long Ziqi has always been patient and calm, without any anxiety, and his expression was as calm as ever.
"Jingwan died because of Cunxu."
After a long time, Fu Xiange's low voice caused waves in Long Ziqi's calm eyes. For some reason, his hands and feet were cold, and his eyes looked at the innocently smiling girl on the tombstone with disbelief, and his thoughts changed a thousand times.
That should have happened many years ago, so far away that it seemed like it happened in a previous life. If Jin Cunxu hadn't wanted Long Ziqi to know about it, it would have been something Fu Xiange would never want to recall again in this life!
For Fu Xiange, the thing she regretted most was falling in love with a man named Jin Xishuo when she was 16 years old.
The love that only lasted a glance cost her a heavy price, destroyed the hands she was most proud of in her life, and caused her to fall from heaven to hell.
But now, what Fu Xiange regrets most is that she abandoned her son, Cunxu, many years ago.
Everyone has their own unspeakable pain. No one understands this more deeply than Long Ziqi, but she doesn't know that Jin Cunxu's unspeakable pain is so obscure compared to hers.
and tragic.
At least she still has the protection and love of her family, but what about Jin Cunxu's past?
There is endless despair and coldness.
Fu Xiange's voice was very soft, without any emotion. When it fell on Long Ziqi's ears, it was extremely heavy. There was always a voice in his heart begging not to speak anymore, but there was nothing he could do, as if he had lost his body.
Standing quietly in front of the tombstone, listening to the past of Fu Xiange and the past of Jin Cunxu.
The relationship between Fu Xiange and Jin Xishuo was briefly mentioned without saying much. Most of them talked about Jin Cunxu. Long Ziqi was heartbroken when he heard it. When he came back to his senses, he found that he had already burst into tears.
She has cried very rarely over the years, and even less sobbed uncontrollably like this. Today she couldn't help it because she couldn't imagine how Jin Cunxu gritted his teeth in those years, how he endured the humiliation and struggled to survive, and how he endured it.
Pain can be so good to yourself.
When Jin Xishuo and Jin Cunxu came back, Long Ziqi looked indifferent, with red threads in her eyes. She looked at him with complicated and obscure eyes. Before he could get closer, she had already gone to hold his hand!
Jin Cunxu held her hand and found that her hand was cold. He frowned with a cold eyebrow and said, "I'll take you back."
Long Ziqi nodded and said goodbye to Jin Xishuo and Fu Xiange. The two of them intertwined their fingers and walked towards the exit of the cemetery together.
Fu Xiange stood in the wind, watching their figures floating with a faint halo in the sun, feeling sad in his heart, "He has never forgiven us for so many years."
His voice was choked with sobs, and there was mist in his eyes.
Jin Xishuo stretched out his arms to take her into his arms and said in a low voice, "We are sorry for him——"
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The carriage was silent, and the shallow breaths were tightly intertwined. The partition board was raised, and she could hold him unbridled and snuggle in his arms without worrying about whether his clothes would be wrinkled or whether they would not fit.
When she got out of the car, she still leaned closely against his long and strong body and touched his warm chest. She didn't know how lucky she was that this chest had not cooled down after experiencing the wind and frost of the years, but was still warm.
Same as before.
As soon as the door closed, Long Ziqi turned around and hugged him, holding his strong waist tightly with both hands, leaving no gap.
She buried her head in his arms and said in a low voice, "You should have let me know earlier..."
Jin Cunxu's body visibly stiffened. He felt the dampness and heat in his chest, and his emotions were complicated. He gently held her cheek, lowered his head and gently sucked the tears on her skin. The salty feeling spread in her chest.
"Don't cry, I'm still alive." His voice was hoarse and had a strong nasal tone. He knew that she was hurting for him, but he couldn't bear it.
She had said this to him before, and now he said it to her again.
Both of them are people abandoned by fate. Time has left scars on their bodies. When they don't meet each other, they can only hide in the darkness and lick their bleeding wounds.
After meeting each other, they endured the pain and hugged each other, letting the flowers of love bloom on those wounds. Maybe one day the flowers will wither and become the best healing medicine, making every inch of the skin smoother and softer.
"How could they do this to you? How could they do this? You are their child -" she choked, not because she hated those who had hurt Cunxu, but because she couldn't help but be angry at Fu Xiange and Jin Xishuo, who had never fulfilled their responsibilities.
Parental Responsibilities.
When Gu Mingxi gave birth to her in prison, he was forced to hand her over to someone else to raise her. As soon as he was released from prison, he immediately took her to his side and took care of her personally.
And what about Fu Xiange?
Why did she give birth to Jin Cunxu and not want him? Why did she abandon him in an orphanage, leaving him with a mother to rely on and a father to rely on, and allowing him to suffer so much innocent bullying and abuse?
"It doesn't matter, it really doesn't matter -" Jin Cunxu hugged her tightly, as if he was holding the only salvation in his life, "I have you now..."
To him, Long Ziqi was already better than countless others in the world.
"Cunxu, my heart hurts..." The left side of her chest felt like it was being cut with a blunt knife. It wouldn't kill her, but the pain became more severe each time. When she thought about it, if she wasn't young and kind,
Kou Jingwan blocked the vase for Jin Cunxu. The person lying under the cold tombstone today is Jin Cunxu.
"Qiqi, it's okay, don't think about it, it's all over."
Jin Cunxu lowered his head and pressed his forehead closely against hers. There was moisture in his eyes, which blurred his vision. "I will not leave you, don't be afraid-"
In Jin Cunxu's limited memory when he was young, he didn't know why he was abandoned by his mother in the orphanage. She would not visit him often, only once in a while. A week, a month, or half a year...
She is a woman who likes to laugh very much, but every time she sees him, there is strong pain in her eyes. Laughing is uglier than crying.
She had never hugged him, or even dared to hold his hand. He never understood why she was so indifferent to him. If she hated him, there was no need to come to see him. If she liked him, why did she abandon him?
In this hell on earth.
He was born smarter than other children. He started talking very early, learned to walk very early, and also saw the faces of adults earlier than other children.
His beautiful appearance did not bring him many benefits. On the contrary, it was the source of his being ostracized.
It doesn't matter, the dean's mother loves him very much and is very good to him. He doesn't want that woman who will look good when she smiles. He thinks having a dean's mother is enough.
However, since when did the dean's mother start to change, she no longer loved him, no longer hugged him, no longer smiled at him, and even began to beat her mercilessly.
Once, twice...four times...five times...
The pain of such beatings seemed to never end.
From the beginning of crying and asking for help, to the end, I gradually gritted my teeth and silently endured the physical pain. I closed my eyes in the dark and made myself feel like I was dead. I couldn't feel the pain. I couldn't feel it.
Cruel and cold.
The dean's mother was still the same dean's mother, who was gentle and compassionate towards all the children, but she was no longer gentle towards him, and was almost cruel.
Since when did he start to miss seeing that woman who loved to laugh. She didn't talk much, she just liked to look at him quietly and laugh quietly, with countless sadness and sourness in her smile.
He knew that she didn't like to be close to him very much, and was even indifferent, but if he could live with her, she wouldn't hit him.
After waiting day after day, month after month, he finally saw her. She looked thinner than before, and her thin lips smiled softly, and her smile became more sad.
Sitting under the big tree at the entrance of the orphanage building, she still said nothing and stared at him quietly.
He saw the dean's mother playing with the children not far away. The children were smiling happily in the sunshine. The dean's mother looked sideways at them from time to time, with a smile on her face.
Such a smile looked gentle and compassionate in her eyes, but looked extremely vicious in Jin Cunxu's eyes.
After a long time, she was about to leave again, but he couldn't help but asked in a low voice: "Can I live with you?"
She seemed to be stunned for a moment, and then her thin lips fainted into a faint smile. She looked at the innocent children and asked, "Isn't it good to live with friends?"
ok?
How could she know that he had never had any friends here? How could she know that the children in the orphanage had long lost their innocence and simplicity in order to win the favor of adults.
How could she know that the dean's mother was no longer the gentle and kind woman, but a complete lunatic and violent maniac.
How could she know how much pain was growing in every inch of his skin under his clothes, but it couldn't hurt more than the pain of being abandoned.
He looked up at her, as if smiling at her for the first time, "It's good -"
As he spoke, he pulled down his sleeves without leaving a trace, covering the bruises that were about to be exposed to the sun.
She left, taking his hope and the last light with her. From then on, no matter what she did to make up for it, she could not get into his heart.
That night, he curled up on his bed, his body shivering instinctively, because he knew that after everyone fell asleep, the dean's mother would come and carry him to her room.
That*, he didn't know how many times he had been beaten. Every part of his body was hurting, but he couldn't tell where exactly it hurt. His thin body lay lifeless on the ground, his eyes looked blankly at the dark sky, and his soul seemed to
He also died completely from his body.
For some reason, he suddenly wanted to laugh, his pale and bloodless lips slightly raised, a few wisps of disdainful sneer at fate...
While beating him, the dean's mother cursed him with all kinds of unpleasant words, such as "evil", "wild", "violent", many, many, so many that I can't even remember them.
After beating him, she hugged him full of scars and cried uncontrollably. Those tears drowned the wounds and hurt her bones.
He didn't understand why she cried so desperately when he was the one being beaten!
Later, a family named Kou came into his life. They brought their daughter Kou Jingwan to the orphanage every Sunday to visit the children. He knew that Kou Jingwan had been looking at him, but he had never spoken to her.
Until one time Kou Qikuan and his wife brought their daughter to the orphanage. Chen Roujia, who was pregnant, suddenly had a stomachache. Kou Qikuan was anxious to send Chen Roujia to the hospital. It was not convenient to take Kou Jingning with him, so he entrusted her to the director to take care of her.
One night.
Although Kou Jingwan was young, she was very sensible. Moreover, she wanted to get close to Jin Cunxu, so she agreed to stay until her parents came to take her home the next day.
But she didn't have that luck and waited until Kou Qikuan and Chen Roujia took her home.
Because she slept with all the children that night, when the dean came to hug Jin Cunxu in the middle of the night, she was still asleep and followed him secretly.
Through the crack in the door, she saw the usually gentle and compassionate dean beating Jin Cunxu severely, even harder than her mother usually beat herself when she was angry.
She ran in angrily and did not allow the dean to hit Jin Cunxu anymore.
The dean's eyes were already scarlet, and he was like an irrational beast, madly torturing Jin Cunxu. He casually picked up the vase on the table and tried to smash it on Jin Cunxu.
Kou Jingwan was only thinking about how painful it would be if that thing hit her body. She didn't want to cause Jin Cunxu any more pain, so she ran over and hugged Jin Cunxu without hesitation.
The vase hit Kou Jingwan on the back of her neck, and the flying fragments cut her aorta. Blood overflowed like a bursting river, dyeing Jin Cunxu's pale and colorless face red.
Maybe you don't know what death is, but the fear brought by the blood makes people desperate and crazy.
The dean did not expect that things would develop to this point. He stood there in a daze, looking at Kou Jingwan who fell to the ground and was bleeding profusely, and was so frightened that he was out of his mind.
Jin Cunxu didn't know where he got the strength to push away Kou Jingwan, whose body had gradually cooled down. He grabbed the fragment on the ground and used all his strength to insert the fragment into the dean's body.
The sinful blood bloomed in the dean's abdomen, and the blood dropped drop by drop on the ground, reflecting the light, causing all the sins to be swept away and consumed by death.
The next day, people from the orphanage came to see the director and saw such a tragic scene.
A girl fell in a pool of dried blood, her eyes wide open, with a ghastly look on her face, while the dean fell stiff on the ground, with blood stains all over her body.
The only boy alive was covered in blood and curled up in the corner, his eyes dull and his expression numb, like a soulless walking dead!
This incident once caused a sensation in Jincheng. Some people even took pictures of the scene and published it in newspapers. The headlines of the newspapers were: Is a child killing his benefactor a tragedy for society or a satire of human nature?
No one cares about the truth. In order to be topical and increase newspaper sales, they pushed an innocent and humiliated child to the forefront, suffering abuse and criticism from everyone!
What is really sad is not this society or the children whose hands are stained with blood, but those clowns who are so funny and evil and appear in disguise!
There was a Korean movie "Sowon" based on a real case. The protagonist of the movie is a five-year-old girl named Sowon. One day, she was kidnapped and sexually assaulted on her way to school. She suffered multiple trauma and lacerations in her large intestine.
Part of the small intestine was necrotic, and after it was amputated, there was an extra stool bag around the waist.
However, Suyuan, who suffered such a nightmare, did not receive tolerance and gentle treatment from society. The media swarmed into the hospital, took pictures, and conducted interviews, forcing Suyuan's father to hold her and hide in a corner of the hospital. Suyuan watched.
Father, with tears rolling down from the corners of his eyes, he asked a question that made those who heard it cry.
She said: "Dad, did I do something wrong?"
My dear child, there is nothing wrong with you, just like there is nothing wrong with being kind, innocent, beautiful, and Jin Cunxu, whose hands were forced to be stained with blood, was nothing wrong.
What is wrong are those who did not protect him, what is wrong are those who continue to inflict harm on the victim, and what is wrong are the murderers who intensify all the evil consequences on the child!
Kou Jingwan was not killed by him, but died because of him!
He is alive, but life is worse than death.
Until he was ten years old, he had never spoken a word, and there was no expression on his pale, almost sickly face.
Fu Xiange and Jin Xishuo invited the best doctors, psychiatrists, and psychotherapists for him, but to no avail. He lived alone and desperately in his own world, accompanied by the despair and loneliness in his heart, and the scars on his body gradually
Well, my heart is already rotten.
When he was eleven years old, the servant broke a vase and went downstairs to get tools to clean up the broken pieces. He walked over the broken pieces with bare feet, feeling no pain, and was extremely numb. The bloody footprints under his feet were shocking.
Fu Xiange knelt beside him, crying and confessing for the umpteenth time. Tears fell on his hands. His expression was numb and indifferent.
Late at night, Fu Xiange was forcibly taken back to the room to rest by Jin Xishuo.
Jin Xishuo sat in Jin Cunxu's room, stared at him for a long time, and murmured softly: "If living really makes you suffer like this, I am willing to free you."
Jin Cunxu looked at him with calm eyes, which seemed to have some fluctuation. Jin Xishuo said again: "Do you know why your name is Cunxu?"
"Xu means light and warmth. She hopes that no matter what happens in your life, you will always have light and warmth in your heart!"
Many years later, Jin Cunxu finally understood why she never reached out to hug him.
Because her hands...are disabled.
If you can't even pick up the most basic tableware to eat, how can you pick him up?
If you know it, what can you do?
There is no way to turn back time, and nothing can be done over again. The disasters he has experienced, and the nightmares he has had, have been ingrained in his bones, and will follow him through the marrow until he stops breathing, and will disappear with time.
Since then, he seems to be normal and living a good life, but he has never really felt better. He has never hugged Jin Xishuo or Fu Xiange, has never been close to anyone of the opposite sex, and has even been exposed to some news about child abuse.
He will be unable to control his thoughts and actions, and often performs extreme behaviors when alone.
He looks more and more like Fu Xiange, with a smile on his lips all the time, but his eyes are unfathomable. No matter the city or strategy, he is exactly the same as Jin Xishuo. He begins to have his own strength, avoiding Jin Xishuo's people's attacks on him.
A peek into the inner world.
The years after he left Jincheng and studied in England were the loneliest and most painful years for him. He was struggling between life and death. Whenever he lost control of his emotions and couldn't control himself, he could only rely on drugs.
The medicine he took had serious side effects. The longer he took it, the greater the harm, and he might die of heart failure before he was thirty.
Lu Xiangbei knew it, Jin Xishuo knew it, and Fu Xiange knew it, but no one could stop him.
Taking medicine can help him calm down slowly. If he doesn't take it, he may kill himself in the next second. In order to let him live one more day, everyone pretends not to know and choose to deal with it in a white-washed manner.
If he hadn't met Long Ziqi in the United States, if he hadn't fallen in love with her irresistibly, Jin Cunxu might have continued to eat and rely on medicine, but everything became an established fact, and he seemed to have found a reason to live.
While alive, he could love her, but after death, there would be nothing.
In order to continue to love her, he began to slowly reduce the dosage of medicine. His emotions were out of control and his behavior was uncontrollable. He would miss her and try hard to calm himself down. His nine-death struggle was just to make himself normal.
, at least like a normal man, loving a woman.
No one has ever known that he was once almost unable to become a man. He has never had any desire for any woman over the years. If he hadn't met Long Ziqi, what would be the difference between him and a sexually impotent person?
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Jin Cunxu's chest was burned by the hot tears, and he was anxious inside. Her tears made him at a loss, so he had to lower his head and kiss her tears dryly, kiss her lips, "Don't cry-"
I never knew that someone as cold as Long Ziqi would be even more unbearable when she cried. I wished I could give her the whole world and my life, as long as she stopped sobbing.
Her watery eyes were red and swollen, and she didn't know that one day she would be so crying. She couldn't stop her tears, and her voice was hoarse and trembling: "Shall we go to the hospital?"
His body really made her worried and uneasy!
Jin Cunxu hesitated for a few seconds. He really didn't want to make her cry in worry, so he nodded: "Okay."
In fact, he had already checked with a doctor beforehand and confirmed that the medication had a certain impact on his body, but stopping the medication now and cooperating with treatment would have no impact in the future.
But if he tells her directly, he is afraid that she will not believe it. Now everything can only go according to her. In order to make her feel at ease, he is willing to do it even if it is unnecessary!
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Long Ziqi saw the doctor's report and confirmed that the medicine had not continued to cause more harm to his body. She also carefully asked the doctor what he should avoid in daily life. When the doctor said it, she looked calm and focused for fear of missing something.
Character.
Jin Cunxu sat aside, looking at her nervous side face with gentle eyes, his heart was warm, and his palms kept wrapping her catkins. He was very happy in his heart that he chose to give birth and continue to love her...
Otherwise, how could we be happy now?
Long Ziqi kept the doctor's words in mind, and when she got home, she took out all the incense from the bedroom and put it on the balcony. She also bought a lot of books about medicinal ingredients and recipes.
Because Jin Cunxu has been taking medicine for many years, he is poisonous by medicine. The medicine has already penetrated into his body functions and he has developed a drug-resistant body. Currently, it is not recommended that he continue to take medicine, but instead switch to diet therapy. From his living environment, food and
Mental state improvement issues.
But this is a very slow process, and it cannot be completed overnight. It may take five, ten, or twenty years longer...
Long Ziqi doesn't care how much time it takes. She has a lifetime to do these things, but the premise is that he must live well!
Jin Cunxu saw everything she did without any dissuasion and cooperated with everything she did. What was she worried about and afraid of? He understood what she had to do to ensure that he was safe!
During the day, everything was as usual. She never mentioned the past, but every night she would hold him tightly involuntarily. Even after falling asleep, her fingers would clutch his pajamas tightly, not daring to relax at all. It seemed that as soon as she let go, he would
will be gone.
It's night.
The LCD TV was playing the evening news. It was rare for Jin Cunxu to have no work, so he watched the news with her.
News about young children being sexually assaulted was playing on the TV. Jin Cunxu frowned slightly and used the remote control to turn off the TV. However, Long Ziqi held his hand in an instant, with clear eyes and pupils watching him quietly.
,"It's fine--"
Jin Cunxu looked at her for a few seconds, then turned off the TV. The living room suddenly became quiet, and he could hear each other's heartbeats, high and low.
"I'm sleepy, go to sleep."
He stood up and reached out to pull Long Ziqi to stand up. She put her hand on his palm but did not stand up. She looked up at him and said in a calm voice: "Some words may be selfish to say, but I still want to tell you!