At the age of 28, his parents began to worry about Lu Shu, and even took him to see a doctor, a psychiatrist, and a psychologist.
When Lu Shu faced the psychiatrist, he told the psychiatrist what he had been thinking for many years. He was waiting for someone.
The psychiatrist comforted him for a long time, and then wrote in the medical record that he had delusional disorder.
At the age of 29, Lu Shu's best friend got married, and Lu Shu was the best man.
The bride's family brought a car as a gift. Lu Shu asked his good brother, "Do you love her?" The good brother said, "I love her or not, just live life. There is no need to talk about love in this era."
When you were five years old, you could run to a field a kilometer away just to catch a butterfly.
When you were ten years old, you could run to all the shops in the streets just for an ice cream.
When you are nineteen, you can go to a strange city alone for the person you like.
When you are twenty-nine, you can find someone to live with for the rest of your life just for the sake of living.
The good brother said that he was getting lazy, too lazy to love and too lazy to be loved.
Lu Shu looked at the bright red groomsmen's flowers on his chest, and then at the beautiful bridesmaid beside him. His good friend the bridegroom whispered to him: This girl is single and very good. She has a house at home, her parents have stable jobs, and she is a teacher.
The wedding was lively and noisy. A group of strangers were sitting at the banquet, drinking and drinking, making jokes about the bride and groom, and talking about the talent and beauty of the best man and bridesmaid.
Lu Shu felt a little confused. Maybe the girl next to him was not bad? He sensed that this bridesmaid was a little interested in him, because the bride had told the bridesmaid that Lu Shu's work had been going smoothly in recent years. He was working hard when others were in love.
He was working hard while others were getting married and having children, and now he earns a lot of money every year.
The male emcee wearing makeup held a microphone and asked about the oath. The groom said I love you, and the bride said I love you too. Lu Shu couldn't even be sure whether they said it to each other.
When it came time to throw the bouquet, whoever got it would have good luck in marriage. Lu Shu's good brother deliberately told the bride to throw the bouquet to Lu Shu.
However, when the bouquet was thrown in front of Lu Shu, it fell to the ground. The bridesmaid picked it up, leaving Lu Shu standing there alone in a daze.
He suddenly felt a little sad in his heart, where are you?
The emcee suddenly laughed and asked: Best man, why are you crying?
Lu Shu suddenly understood: Oh, I am happy for my good brother.
The emcee applauded: What a good brother.
After the wedding, Lu Shu came to the groom's home. He saw the beautiful bride sitting cross-legged on the sofa, like a philistine little woman.
At the age of 30, my good brother's wife got pregnant, so he quit his job and went home to give birth and take care of the child.
The good brother asked Lu Shu why he wasn't married yet. Lu Shu said he was still waiting. The good brother laughed: Lu Shu, you are so interesting.
When he was 31 years old, his good brother asked Lu Shu to borrow money, saying that it cost more than 100,000 yuan to have a baby and a confinement center, and the family could no longer support it.
Lu Shu lent him the money and said with a smile: I don't really need the money anyway. You can pay it back slowly, but if you don't pay it back, there will be no next time.
The good brother said, don't worry, when I see the child now, it's like seeing my own new life!
Lu Shu felt a little envious, but he still wanted to wait.
This wait is fifteen years.
When I was 46 years old, my high school classmates reunited. During the banquet, the class beauty gained a lot of weight. The class beauty looked at Lu Shu hesitantly and smiled bitterly: You are still the same.
Lu Shu looked at himself in the hotel bathroom mirror, as if time had played a trick on him, punishing him for spending his whole life waiting for someone until he died.
During the banquet, someone asked Lu Shu how old the child was, and Lu Shu said that he was not married yet.
Everyone was surprised: Are you still waiting for that person?
Lu Shu was silent for a long time and said, yes, still waiting.
The good brother asked: Does it have to be her?
Lu Shu hesitated in his heart for a long time, but finally said, yes, it must be her.
At the age of 47, the economic situation was not good, and Lu Shu was unemployed.
The juniors in the workplace are all very enthusiastic. Lu Shu is no longer at that hard-working age and cannot compete with those young people.
When Lu Shu was 50 years old, he was drinking with his good brother. The good brother came to Lu Shu's house. They no longer needed to drink and feast. They had passed more than half of their lives and it seemed that they could understand everything. Two bottles of white wine was enough.
After the good brother drank, his face turned red and he said that his health was getting worse and worse, his life was just plain firewood, rice, oil, salt, soy sauce, vinegar and tea, his wife's parents were always dissatisfied with him, and his children had to attend so many cram schools.
There is money to be spent here, and there is money to spend there. Sometimes in the middle of the night, he almost collapses when he watches his wife who says "It's okay with you" silently calculating the family accounts with him.
Kindergartens cost more than a thousand or even thousands a month, and tutoring classes too. The child said he wanted to go abroad, and he spent hundreds of thousands a year on it. But when he looked at the child's expectant eyes, he really didn't want to admit that he couldn't afford it. He also
I want to have my own life.
The good brother said that his child was striving for success and his studies were much better than his own before, so he wanted to create good conditions for his child.
It's just that when applying for a volunteer, he said that your child must apply for a job that will help him find a job, but the child was unwilling to listen. It was like there was a huge gap between parents and children that could not be crossed.
The child looked at his useless father and said, I don't want to live like you.
My good brother said that after my son started working, he began to understand me slowly, but I wanted to tell him not to compromise with life or the world.
My eyes turned red as I spoke, and my good friend said this wine was really spicy.
When the 56-year-old was drinking, the good brother was silent for a long time. He said to Lu Shu: Actually, I'm a little envious of you, you know, you are alone and never compromise.
Lu Shu was a little bitter. In fact, I also thought about compromising, but after waiting for so many years, I still have the last bit of life.
The good brother asked him if he hadn't waited until the end.
Lu Shu, who was originally hesitant, suddenly said, then wait for a lifetime.
At the age of 80, my good brother was seriously ill. Lu Shu came to the hospital bed. He pulled off the oxygen and said, these eighty years of my life are like a slide show, showing them one by one.
Those who regret it and those who don’t regret it are all vivid in my mind.
Lu Shu held each other's hand, and the skin on each other was loose, like a piece of skin covering the body that might fall off at any time.
The good brother suddenly cried and said, I had a dream last night. I dreamed that I was back on our playground. In the late spring season, everyone was playing basketball. Do you still remember the girl who confessed to me? She was holding a bottle of
The mineral water was handed to me, and I looked back at the playground where the grass grows and the orioles fly.
People around me are shouting excitedly, and the noisy and prosperous world is shouting, together, together.
At the age of 90, Lu Shu was also lying in the ward, and no one came to see him. Lying alone in the hospital bed, Lu Shu was like a lonely city. A person, a city, and a lifetime of heartache.
On this day, a mysterious young man suddenly came to his ward. He looked at the aging Lu Shu and said, "Do you understand what you want?"
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There are still two chapters left. These two chapters are very emotionally draining to write. I will take my time. You can read the rest tomorrow morning.
