Chapter 1176 I don't want to die, and I don't really want to live
Ji'an County
Because Concubine Yun said she wanted to have lunch together, An went to the kitchen herself and made several special dishes. However, Concubine Yun was extremely fickle and her temperament was difficult to predict. She had clearly agreed to have lunch together, but in the end
When it was time to eat, she suddenly said she wanted to go shopping on the street, but only Anshi and Xiangrong were left on the table.
Anshi said helplessly to Xiangrong: "Let's eat! I left some for Concubine Yun, so she can eat it when she gets hungry and warmed up when she comes back. Although she stayed in the county, she was still very busy during this period.
I have less contact with you and me. Thinking about it, there is still a gap in my heart because of the matter between you and His Majesty Seventh Prince. Today, 80% of the time, I regretted it temporarily. This situation has not happened once or twice. Don’t take it to heart. Eat one more time before you lose weight like this.
It’ll be hard to see people when you get down there.”
"Am I... very thin?" Xiangrong asked softly, stroking his cheek, then shook his head with a wry smile, "Isn't it said that girls need to be thinner to look good? Being thinner will make your waist more visible. In the homes of those wealthy families in Beijing,
The young ladies are trying their best to lose weight. In the past, when my eldest sister was here, in order to make herself look slimmer, she would not eat a bite of food for five days in a row, only eating some fruit and drinking some tea."
"But what happened later? I was so hungry that I fainted. I asked the doctor to prescribe medicine. I took it for half a month before I had some strength." An became angry when he mentioned Fengchenyu, "Why don't you just imitate her?
What?" But when I think about the final outcome of Feng Chenyu, I sigh with regret. Compared with the life in Feng Mansion in the past, the years now are like the past and present. If I had known that there would be such a happy situation today.
, maybe she would have lived more vigorously in the past. "Eat quickly! Don't think about what you have and don't have." As she said that, she put another spoonful of rice into Xiang Rong's bowl.
Xiangrong watched Anshi push the rice hard for her, then sighed softly, picked up the bowl, picked up a chopstick and brought the rice to her mouth, but she couldn't swallow it down. She finally took two mouthfuls,
But for some reason, she suddenly felt a burst of sadness. The sadness was so intense that she could hardly hold it back. Even though she tried her best, she couldn't help but shed tears.
She put down the bowl and chopsticks, covered her face with her hands and kept crying. An was frightened and asked, "What's wrong? My child, what's wrong with you? Why are you crying all of a sudden?"
Xiangrong cried and shook his head, choking and saying: "I don't know, mother, I don't know what's going on. I just feel so sad. It happened suddenly. There is no reason. Mother, my heart hurts so much. Why does it hurt so much?"
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An didn't know why. She wanted to cry, so she could only comfort her gently along her back, and comforted her from time to time: "Perhaps this period of time is too depressing. Concubine Yun refuses to leave, and you still have to deal with it."
Go to her yard to say hello and apologize. Although she won't say anything, your mother can see that you are feeling aggrieved. You can cry if you want to, but you have to think about yourself after you cry.
, It is impossible for a person to die alone in this life. Your mother will always pass away before you. If you never have someone by your side and never have one or two children by your side, how can you let your mother feel relieved?
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Xiangrong listened to An's words and tried very hard to hope that the reason for her crying was what she said, but no matter how she leaned up, nothing was quite right. She had no choice but to shake her head in the end, "No.
"Mother, it's not what you said. I will cry, not because of that. Mother..." She was stunned, and suddenly asked: "If I die one day, won't you shed tears?"
Anshi was stunned for a moment, then nodded: "Yes, I will shed tears, and I will feel distressed. Even if you are far away from me, I will still feel distressed, because we are mother and daughter, and our hearts are connected."
"That's right!" Xiangrong thought for a moment and wiped away her tears with all her strength. Although they would still flow out after drying, she no longer just covered her face and cried. Instead, she picked up her rice bowl again and tried her best to
He stuffed two mouthfuls of rice into his mouth, picked up a chopstick and put the meat into the bowl, and then said to An, "Then I can't die."
An's was confused by what she said. Then she saw Xiangrong eating very hard, and she didn't understand why. She kept staring at Xiangrong until Xiangrong filled the second bowl of rice and finally couldn't help asking: "Why did you suddenly say
What's the matter with death? Why do you have to eat so much food? You always only eat a small bowl, and these days you can't even eat half a bowl of rice. What's wrong?"
"It's nothing." Xiangrong shook his head stubbornly, "I just want to live a healthy life for my mother." After saying that, he stuffed another big mouthful of rice into his mouth. But as he ate, tears started to flow from his eyes.
What's more, it finally flowed into the food, and he swallowed it mixed with tears, which was slightly salty. "Mother," he said, "Although I wish I wouldn't die for my mother, I don't really want to live. What should I do?"
What should she do? She was asking An, and she was also asking herself. There was a kind of uneasiness in her heart, which came from a person she had hidden deep in her heart. She was once out of reach, and once close at hand. She was only one step away from being with her forever, but in the end she still chose
The person who returned to the original distance. In this world, there is only that person who always affects her heart. Just like An said, she will feel it no matter where she is in the world. But what can she do? There are thousands of rivers and mountains, and she can't walk away.
Go to him.
Xuan Tianming took Feng Yuheng and led the army back to Bincheng. As they were walking, Feng Yuheng suddenly realized that someone was missing. She asked Wangchuan: "Have you seen Feng Zhaolian?"
Wangchuan shook his head, "I didn't see it. It seems I haven't seen King Lotus since the incident this morning."
She asked others again, and the news she got was that she had not seen Feng Zhaolian again this morning. Feng Yuheng frowned, several guesses turned over in her mind, and finally sighed helplessly. That's all, that person couldn't be just for Xuan Tianhua.
Later, he had his persistence and his hatred. Feng Zhaolian should have understood it ever since she stayed in the palace in an almost rogue way and even lived in the Queen's Jingci Palace.
That man followed her to the capital. After all, he couldn't just want to start a new life. He had a blood feud with Duanmu Anguo, and he had to do everything he could to get the whereabouts of Duanmu Anguo. Now that he had hope, how could Feng Zhaolian be safe?
Stay safely in the capital.
That's all, I hope he is safe! If not, then it is fate. Who can escape the cycle of cause and effect?
The army finally arrived at Bincheng before dark the next day. Xuan Tianhua left 50,000 troops to garrison the city. When he saw that his own people had withdrawn, he quickly opened the city gate and looked at Xuan Tianming and Feng in confusion.
Yu Heng and his two men brought back hundreds of thousands of troops.
The army was stationed in Bincheng again, and Feng Yuheng was still uneasy. After entering the city, she climbed up the east city wall and kept looking towards the direction where the city was built. Unfortunately, after looking for half a night, she still couldn't see what she hoped to see.
people.
After Xuan Tianming entered the city, he made urgent arrangements. The combat meeting lasted for three hours before it ended. Bai Ze told him that Feng Yuheng had been on the tower. When he passed by, he saw the girl's thin body standing in the corner of the tower.
, he would fall down just half a step forward, which really scared him into a cold sweat.
He hurried forward and pulled the man down, but before he could speak, Feng Yuheng said: "Xuan Tianming, you are here just in time. I also want to talk to you about something."
"Are you going back to Jiancheng?" He knew this girl very well. If it was an enemy, this girl would never show mercy and would definitely deal with it with the most violent means. But if it was someone she really cared about, then
She had to protect her even if she risked her life. Even if her wings were not full, she still had to use her slender little arms to protect the people she cared about behind her.
Feng Yuheng nodded, "Seventh Brother hasn't withdrawn yet, and I'm really worried. Xuan Tianming, let me go back and take a look! I will definitely be fine, you should understand." She winked at him,
Then he shook his left wrist and said, "Don't worry, as long as we find Brother Seven, we will return immediately. Moreover, I am just looking for someone, and I will never have a head-on confrontation with Duanmu Anguo."
Xuan Tianming had no choice but to say, "Go! Even if I don't agree, I can't stop you. You just have to be careful. In addition, you must not drink the water used to build the city, understand?"
"I know!" the little girl laughed happily, "Don't worry, I will come back as soon as I go, and I will be safe." As he said that, he ran down the tower and shouted: "Xuan Tianming, lend me your horse to ride on."
, I will hide the horse in a safe place and promise to bring it back to you." After saying that, the man had already run downstairs.
The city gate opened a small crack, and Qian Li personally let her out. Then he saw their princess riding a BMW and whipping away alone. She couldn't help but grin. She is really tough! The enemy is still here.
In the enemy's territory, a little girl came out of the cave so arrogantly. No man could match her courage. Looking back at Xuan Tianming who had also come down from the tower, he asked worriedly: "Won't the princess do it?"
Is something wrong?"
Xuan Tianming followed the gap in the city gate that had not yet been closed to look at the back of Jue Chen, who was leaving, but did not answer Qian Li's words. This was not a question of whether something was wrong, but that it was not difficult to save her life knowing that the girl had space in her hands.
, but I still feel uneasy...
Ten miles away from the city, where the Dashun Army once stationed, it was already noon when Feng Yuheng arrived. Although it was freezing cold in winter, corpses were strewn in the fields, and there were mutilated limbs and pieces of meat everywhere, which still made this place a world of peace.
Even the air became turbid.
She got off the horse and rushed into the broken corpses like crazy. She staggered and was almost knocked down several times. Once, she put her hands on the ground and just pressed them on the head of a dead man. She didn't care about her nausea and tried her best.
I searched that piece of land, checking every tent that I couldn't put away in time. Unfortunately, I still couldn't find Xuan Tianhua successfully.
She wanted to shout, but was afraid of an ambush around her, so she searched for nearly an hour, searching through the remaining camp, but Xuan Tianhua was nowhere to be seen. However, she found a large pool of blood in the commander's tent...