In fact, Xuan Tianyan came to Feng Fendai not once or twice, but Feng Fendai didn't know it. Most of the time, Xuan Tianyan came in the middle of the night and left before dawn, so he knew that Feng Fendai had been suffering from insomnia recently.
He always couldn't sleep in the middle of the night. He would either walk in the yard or sit with his knees in the house, all night long. He felt very sorry for Feng Fendai, and wanted to go up and hug her several times, but
He also felt that that girl had nothing to do with him anymore, and he was just asking for shame by showing up.
He came again tonight because he heard from Qi Fang that he had a concubine a few days ago and someone scolded Feng Fendai for two days and two nights. He thought, depending on Feng Fendai's temperament, he might be so angry!
But when he came over to take a look, he saw Feng Fendai still sitting quietly in the room as usual, with a calm face and no sign of anger at all.
He thought again, maybe it has been a few days and the anger has subsided? But that's not right. With Feng Fendai's temper, it can't be so easy to get rid of the anger. Normally, it should take a month of continuous scolding.
Finished. He came here earlier specially, before falling asleep, because he wanted to see the girl's condition, and also wanted to hear Feng Fendai's reaction after learning that he had taken in another concubine.
However, nothing could be seen. Feng Fendai acted as if she had never experienced those things. She had no reaction and lived quietly.
It's just that Xuan Tianyan still sensed that something was wrong. He didn't come here in the past few years. When he came before, it was mostly late at night, so he couldn't see the life in this yard. He came a little earlier today, plus
During the Chinese New Year, everyone goes to bed late. When he came, he happened to see Dongying feeding Xiaobao food. It was half a bowl of steamed meat, which had obviously been eaten and heated up. Xiaobao ate it deliciously every bite
, and would persuade Fendai to eat a little from time to time. But Fendai wouldn't eat, so she just sat there quietly and watched.
Later, when Xiaobao finished eating and went back to sleep, he heard Dongying say to Fendai: "Miss, I only ate half a bowl of noodles in the evening. How about I make you some food? The young master can't eat this steamed pork either."
Finished, there is some rice left in the kitchen, my servant will heat it up for you, can you eat some more with this steamed meat?"
Fendai shook her head and said: "Forget it, I'm not hungry. I can keep the meat if I can't finish it. It won't go bad in the winter, just in case the child still wants to eat it tomorrow! We can't let the child eat vegetarian food like us during the Chinese New Year.
, you can cook the remaining meat in a different way tomorrow and put some dried vegetables in it, Xiaobao likes it."
Dongying was a little helpless, "It's a pity that we can't afford a cook. How can I cook? This bowl of steamed pork is just put in some salt. Maybe the young master doesn't like it. Otherwise... or we can hire a cook."
Come? It doesn’t matter how good your cooking skills are, just a woman who can cook is just fine. The food will be better than the food cooked by the slaves."
But Fendai waved her hand, "No, even if you are an ordinary woman, you have to give me half a tael of silver a month. We can buy a lot of things with that half a tael of silver. Just for food, it is almost enough for a month!"
Dongying didn't say anything after hearing this. After finishing Fendai's affairs, she went back to accompany Xiaobao. Xuan Tianyan felt particularly uncomfortable listening to the conversation between the master and the servant. If he had known this girl earlier
Life is so hard now, he should have left more money for her when they separated.
Xuan Tianyan felt distressed, but now that the two of them were in such trouble, even if he wanted to give it, Feng Fendai would not take it. He had no choice but to hide in the corner of the yard and watch silently as usual
Fendai left quietly before dawn.
It can be regarded as spending a year with her! Xuan Tianyan thought that on the night of the first day of the new year, he was with her at least, so he would not let the girl live alone. Now she is the only one in the Feng family who is still in Beijing.
Here, this girl has a bad temper. She is always unwilling to reconcile with Feng Yuheng and Feng Xiangrong. She is always unwilling to say soft words. If he can have those two sisters by his side, he can feel more at ease. Just like now.
, so that he can feel at ease.
At dawn, Xuan Tianyan left. Feng Fendai stood up from the chair. Her feet were a little numb. It took her a while to stabilize before she could take a few steps. By the time she walked out of the house, the person who was secretly watching her was gone in the yard.
, even her breath was blown away by the cold winter wind. Feng Fendai didn't actually see Xuan Tianyan coming, but she just had a feeling that just last night, in a corner of the yard, there was a person quietly
She stood there and looked at it for the whole night. She wanted to come out and take a look, but her feet were touching the ground, but she took them back. She knew that it was Xuan Tianyan. In this capital city, how could she still think about it?
Xuan Tianyan was the only one who got up and secretly looked at her. But what could he do? Now they each have their own lives. She lives quietly in this small courtyard without fighting against the world, and he also vigorously
He brought women into his mansion one by one and continued his life as a ridiculous prince. Everyone has their own choice, but there should be no more intersections with each other.
Fendai sat down in the yard, and the stone bench that had been cold all night made her shiver, and her whole body felt cold. But she did not get up, and she just let the coldness spread until her fingertips were cold, until winter
Ying Ying was here, and she said to Dong Ying who persuaded her to go back to the room and sit down: "It doesn't matter, it's better to be cooler. A cooler place will clear my head, and I can tell who is right and who is wrong, and what kind of
Life is what I should have."
She was very satisfied with her current situation. Although she was a little poor, even though the money at the bottom of her bank account was about to be empty, and although she would soon have to find a way to make a living to keep her life going. But Feng Fendai thought, even if she continues to be like this
Although she was poor, her life in Feng Mansion was much better than before. She couldn't understand why she liked fighting so much in the past, and why she cared so much about the position of a legitimate daughter of the Feng family. Now
Looking back, what if she became the legitimate daughter of the Feng family? Now that the Feng family is gone, she is just the legitimate daughter of a failed family, and she will never become another Feng Yuheng.
.In the final analysis, she does not have the ability of Feng Yuheng, nor the good temperament of Feng Xiangrong, nor can she be far-sighted. She was on the wrong team from the beginning, and now she has no relatives or friends.
But what can she do? She smiled, and there was Xiaobao! No matter who the biological father of that child was, the mother was still Han, her biological brother.
"It feels so good to have a relative by my side." She smiled at Dongying, but the smile only lasted for a moment, and soon dimmed again. She said to Dongying: "After this year, I will sell myself to Dongying.
I'll give it back to you. You can go! You don't have to wait on me anymore. I'll find a good-natured master to follow you. At least you don't have to be like now, without being able to eat a bite of meat for ten days."
Dongying was stunned, Feng Fendai was willing to return the deed of betrayal to her? This was what she had dreamed of! This Miss Feng Si had a bad temper and was unpredictable, and she always hit and scolded her. She once thought so
After being able to get back the deed of betrayal and gain freedom, I once thought that no matter what kind of master I was with, it would be better than Feng Fendai.
But now, when Feng Fendai really said that she wanted to return the deed of betrayal to her, Dongying was a little at a loss. She forgot to be happy. Instead, she froze in place with a sore nose. Suddenly she felt that she didn't want to leave.
, I don’t really want to abandon Feng Fendai and start a new life. She is used to following Feng Fendai. Her life has been completely integrated with the Feng family and Feng Fendai. If she leaves again, it will be like being kicked out by her parents.
It's like going home, I feel uncomfortable.
She shook her head and said to Feng Fendai: "I don't want to leave. If the young lady wants to save money, then there is no need to drive me away. I don't want the money, I just want to accompany the young lady and the young master. Life is hard now, but this
It’s nothing. What hardships can a servant have to bear? You, a young lady, can live such a life, what’s wrong with a slave? Besides, when times were good in the past, the lady did not treat her slaves badly. She had good food and good drinks.
I have tasted it, and I have no regrets in this life. Miss, you don’t have to worry about the future. You have already thought about it. After the Chinese New Year, I will go out to do some needlework. If you can’t make more, you can’t make less. Let’s live a simple life.
Yes, at least I can eat enough."
After she finished speaking, without waiting for Feng Fendai's reply, she turned around and went into the house. When she came out again, she brought a cloak for Fendai to wrap up. Fendai was stunned and said, "This cloak is made of fox fur and is worth some money. I remember
I asked you to take it out and pawn it, why are you still there?"
Dong Ying sighed softly, "I'm not willing to give it up. Miss brought not many things from Feng Mansion. You have always liked this cloak. We can still live now. There is no need to sell it for money."
Fendai was stunned for a while, then reached out to touch the cloak. The snow-white fox fur was a birthday gift given to her by Feng Jinyuan when the Feng family was prosperous. She was still young at that time, almost nine years old, and her stature was not as big as it is now.
With such a high profile, the cloak now looks very stingy when worn. But she has always treasured it tightly and is reluctant to use it. The color of her coat is still shiny to this day, which is very beautiful.
This was the only time Feng Jinyuan gave her such a good thing, and it was Han who helped her beg for it after coaxing and fussing. In the eyes of that father, there was always only the incredibly beautiful Feng Chenyu, and the other daughters
In his eyes, they were just stones to pave the way for Chen Yu. Now, those once glorious people were dead, but she survived. Thinking about it this way, Feng Yuheng was still good to her, at least she had been with her before.
Among those who opposed her, she was the only one left alive.
Feng Fendai smiled bitterly. If she had known that her mood would change like this today, she should not have done anything against her will for a legitimate daughter. However, there is no medicine for regret in the world. The truths she understands now are all earned by the mistakes she made in the past.
Yes, time cannot be reversed, and nothing can be returned.
"My hope is gone," she murmured softly, "Second sister, I can't let you have no hope anymore. Come back quickly! I always feel that this capital is not as peaceful as it appears!"