Fat, black, lazy, greedy, stupid, stupid, dirty and smelly.
This sentence refers to other people's evaluation of her. For example, her mother always said that she was lazy, greedy, stupid, and stupid. Her classmates' impression of her was that she was fat, dark, dirty, and smelly. She was not ashamed but proud.
I happily accepted this nickname with a self-deprecating spirit.
That winter, it was a cold night, the street lights were dim, and it was snowing.
Bayouwen was in the first grade of junior high school. The girl was in a low mood for some reason. She squatted on the street, wearing a thick black down jacket and a woolen hat, and scratched the snow on the ground with her fingers. In the milk tea shop on the corner of the street, there was a soft whisper.
Here is a song, the lyrics are simply written for her, every word hits her heart.
That song is Xue Yihan's famous song. She has been circulating the single for a long time. From then on, she had an idol.
It is undeniable that worshiping idols has a positive meaning. Fans can absorb the positive energy brought by stars, so that they can work hard and strive for future success.
There was a man who, when he was a boy, swore that he would either become Chateaubriand or achieve nothing. This man later became a world-famous writer, his name was Victor Hugo, and his achievements far exceeded those of the idol he admired when he was a boy.
There was another person who admired Jordan and took Jordan as his example and goal. Later, this person joined the NBA. His name was Kobe.
If you worship and have a crush on a person just because he is handsome, then this kind of behavior is very superficial, and the brains of such fans are incomplete.
Ba Youwen is such a "brainless fan". When she looked at Xue Yihan's photos on Weibo, it was no exaggeration to say that her mouth was wide open and she couldn't help drooling. The wallpaper on her phone was changed to Xue Yihan's photo.
, her bedroom bedside was covered with posters of Xue Yihan. When she became a fan of Xue Yihan, Xue Yihan was going through a scandal, and public opinion tended to accuse.
Ba Youwen posted several Weibo posts to support her idol. The excerpts are as follows:
No matter you are the center of attention or the target of thousands of people, I love you dearly.
I never came here admiring you when you were at your peak, nor will I leave you when you are at your lowest. The whole world likes you, you are my stars and the sea, you are my king, you are a man like Emperor Qin and Emperor Wu of Han. I love you.
All my life, I will have black hair and gray hair.
If you take off fans, I lose! If you take off fans, I lose! If you take off fans, I lose!
Like many fans, Ba Youwen browses her idol's Weibo every day, forwards comments and likes, and goes to Xue Yihan's post bar every day. Later, she became the owner of a small bar. Ba Youwen collected Xue Yihan's photos for several years.
She printed out all his photos into a thick album and placed it next to her pillow. Her Weibo and WeChat were all forwarded photos of Xue Yihan.
Every Christmas, Spring Festival, and birthday, she makes a wish: Santa Claus, Guanyin Bodhisattva of the South China Sea, Jesus appears, please let me go to one of his concerts.
When Bayouwen begged,
He knelt on the bed very devoutly and kowtowed three times very solemnly.
From the first day of junior high school to the first year of college, from the first love to the longing for marriage, she set a lifelong goal for herself - to marry Xue Yihan. At first, she did not dare to have the idea of marrying him. This happiness was too great, just like
An ant encounters a big mountain and it is difficult to possess it. She feels that having such a thought in her heart is a kind of disrespect. Her idol is a god, a belief-like existence, so how can she marry a mortal!
Later, Jay Chou married Kun Ling, and she suddenly realized that idols can really marry fans.
Her QQ signature was updated to: What kind of fans are fans who don’t want to marry their idols?
When Ba Youwen was admitted to a junior college and applied for a major, she was torn between business administration and accounting. She thought: Which one is better? If you study business administration, you can work as an agent for Xue Yihan in the future. If you study accounting, you can work for Xue Yihan in the future.
He works as an accountant in his company. Then I can see him and get close to him, even if I don't pay him a salary, because this is such a great honor.
She began to consciously search for some posts: teaching fans how to push down their idols, and marrying a male idol is not a dream.
She began to call Xue Yihan her husband in the comments on Weibo, and became jealous of other "brainless fans" who called her husband.
When she was a sophomore, a male classmate actually pursued her. The last character of that boy's name was Tao. It would be no exaggeration to call him Si Youtao - poor, ugly, short and thin. This boy's purpose was not
Purely, out of boredom, he wanted to find a random girl to play with, but Ba Youwen rejected him without hesitation.
Ba Youwen said: "Sorry, thank you, I have a boyfriend."
Si Youtao said: "I never heard that you have a partner."
Ba Youwen said: "Xue Yihan is my boyfriend, and I will marry him in the future."
Si Youtao said: "Who is Xue Yihan?"
Ba Youwen said: "A star, a big star."
Ba Youwen missed the only chance of love in her life.
During college, her living expenses were limited, so she lived frugally and bought peripheral products endorsed by idols. Some things were simply not suitable for her, such as facial masks, hats, keyboards, etc.
She doesn't have a computer, so she bought a keyboard just to look at the sender's name on the express delivery note and feel very close to her idol.
Wearing a hat and disheveled hair, she ran like a female bandit.
She put on the mask and said nonchalantly to her roommate: "This is my male idol's facial mask."
Roommate A said: "Why don't you take a shower? A girl's house is so dirty. She doesn't wash her body and only puts on a facial mask. What's the use?"
During her sophomore year, Ba Youwen was expelled from the school. The cause of the incident was that Xue Yihan released a new album. She played Xue Yihan's new songs all day and night. Her roommates were very annoyed, and the quarrel escalated to attacking her idol.
The five roommates made sarcastic remarks and accused her idol.
Roommate A said: "Xue Yihan is just a scumbag and cheats on her."
Ba Youwen said: "If you haven't understood it, you have no right to say it!"
Roommate B
Said: "He has no musical talent at all, and the new songs are so ugly."
Ba Youwen said: "Why do you say that my idol is qualified? Do you want to be famous?"
Roommate C said: "I never thought he was very popular. His popularity was all due to hype. Do you dare to say that he has never done any hype?"
Ba Youwen said: "Do you know that Xue Yihan works so hard? Do you know? I will support Xue Yihan to the end!"
The roommates talked a lot and took turns attacking me.
Ba Youwen's spirit collapsed. She stamped her feet and covered her ears and said, "I won't listen. Please don't insult me anymore. I'll kneel down for you. You can scold me, but don't scold me."
Ba Youwen lost her mind because she defended her idol. She scratched five roommates, scolded the teacher, and was expelled from the school.
After returning home, Ba Youwen was locked in her room by her mother, and she gradually became depressed. The room looked like a garbage dump.
Her father suffers from mental illness and has been missing for many years and his whereabouts are unknown.
Mom pointed to the poster on the wall and asked, "What do you like about him?"
Ba Youwen said: "I like people who are handsome, beautiful and have long legs, right? Do you know how hard he works?"
My mother said: "Whether he works hard or not has nothing to do with you. You two will never have any intersection in your life."
Ba Youwen said: "Okay, okay, don't talk about it. In short, I won't marry him unless I do."
Mom said: "Wake up, stop dreaming, people need to know themselves, and you don't even look in the mirror."
Ba Youwen's uncle worked as a supervisor in a logistics distribution center in Shanghai, so her mother sent her to work there.
Her workplace was not far from the airport. Finally one day, she met Xue Yihan at the airport.
Across the crowd, Xue Yihan appeared, wearing a mask, and the bodyguards and staff around him put up a human wall to maintain order.
Ba Youwen stood with a group of fans who were picking up the airport. She used all her strength and shouted loudly: "Husband, husband——"
The female fans around her rolled their eyes at her and then screamed.
Ba Youwen shouted until her voice became hoarse, and her vision was blurred by tears of excitement. She rushed up to ask for an autograph, but the bodyguard pushed her to the ground and viciously told her to stay out of the way.
Since then, airport pick-up and drop-off has almost become the most important thing in her life. She works rain or shine just to catch a glimpse of her idol.
Later, Ba Youwen got Xue Yihan's signed photo, became the owner of Xue Yihan's post bar, and was the administrator of several fan support groups. She knew Xue Yihan's movements better than anyone else, and she upgraded from a "brainless fan" to
He has participated in the "illegitimate meal", followed the photos at the airport, and stayed in the hotel, constantly trying to get involved in the idol's life.
In Ba Youwen's eyes, her idol comes first, stray cats come second, and her mother comes last. She hates her mother.
When she was twenty-two years old, her mother fell into a river while riding an electric bicycle and drowned. When she heard the news of her mother's unexpected death, she was only sad for a short while, cried for a short while, and then burst into laughter.
. She thought: Now no one objects to my marriage to Xue Yihan.
She couldn't wait and decided to buy a wedding dress.
