Half an hour later, Chang Xianzhang took Hong Yanwu and Chen Liquan outside the ticket gate of Yongdingmen Railway Station.
The time on the wall clock in the waiting room showed 15:35 pm, just as we were entering the station, passengers like donkeys and horses were rushing towards the ticket gate.
Chang Xianzhang, who was carrying luggage, saw this scene and took his schoolbag, kettle and washbasin from the hands of the two children, and said his final goodbyes to them solemnly.
"I have to go. You two must remember the teacher's words and go back."
Before this moment, because Chang Xianzhang's "walk" was just a kind of "walk" in language and had no practical meaning, Hong Yanwu and Chen Liquan had not paid much attention to it. But now that the matter was coming, the two children suddenly
Feeling something, they suddenly panicked, as if this incident was too unexpected, sudden, unreasonable, and unprepared for them.
Teacher Chang is leaving!
Teacher Chang, who used to tell stories together every day, eat big ribs together, and accompany them to brag and talk nonsense, just left!
Not for a day or two, but for a long, long time! From tomorrow on, they will never see him again!
They can't accept this reality no matter what.
"teacher!"
Chen Liquan suddenly understood. There was a strong contrast in his emotions. All the happiness he had gained along the way suddenly disappeared, and tears immediately poured out.
"You can't leave!"
Hong Yanwu also hesitated and didn't know what to say. But he suddenly remembered that Chang Xianzhang didn't seem to have brought a bed roll, so he immediately shouted excitedly. "You forgot the quilt! You didn't take the quilt! Let's go tomorrow!"
Unexpectedly, Chang Xianzhang shook his head. "I won't bring it anymore. It's enough to bring the book. I can go over there and buy the quilt."
"Then you..." Hong Yanwu stuttered, his face full of extreme disappointment.
Chen Liquan couldn't say anything and just kept wiping his tears.
"You two, just remember that there is a person like me."
Chang Xianzhang saw the two children's attachment to him, and his nose felt a little sour. So, he deliberately looked calm and generous, saying that there were his relatives in the northeast, and they had not seen him for a long time.
They met, and they were finally reunited. He also said that no one knew about his departure except them, not even the head teacher, and they had to keep it a secret for him until the end. He also told them not to be angry with the head teacher again in the future.
, otherwise I would not write to them, nor send them pine nuts, hazelnuts, pecans...
Finally, he said firmly again, "I'm leaving!" After that, he turned around and went straight to the ticket gate.
"No, no, no! You are our teacher, you can't abandon us!"
Hong Yanwu was panic-stricken, hugged Chang Xianzhang's arm, and held him tightly.
Hong Yanwu felt that he could not leave Chang Xianzhang no matter what. He suddenly remembered Chang Xianzhang's past feelings for them - the hot Russian tea, the wonderful storytelling stories every day, the sausages and sausages that made them so addicted.
Pickled cucumbers, that teapot that they always drank in advance, even Chang Xianzhang's bitterness and ridicule after being teased, and the way he slapped the table and glared when he was so angry, made him extremely friendly.
Because none of this will happen again!
Chang Xianzhang saw that Chen Liquan also wanted to imitate Hong Yanwu and hug him, so he quickly took out his arms and crossed them in front of him, stopping them in time.
"Don't be like this, I will no longer be your teacher from now on. Haven't you always called me Lao Chang behind your back? Now I officially approve it! We will meet again in the future. You must have grown up, so you really have to press
Let’s talk bro.”
As he spoke, he winked playfully, and deliberately imitated the rivers and lakes cut at the two children, "There is no banquet in the world that never ends, and a good man cannot be indecisive. The mountains will remain green and the rivers will flow forever. We will see you in the rivers and lakes in the future!"
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"Cocoa is..."
Hong Yanwu didn't feel any relief. He still couldn't bear to let go. Only now did he feel that Chang Xianzhang had given them so much affection, but they had given him nothing. No, it wasn't that they hadn't given anything. He gave it to Chang Xianzhang.
He caused a disaster and ruined his marriage! It was his mistake that forced Chang Xianzhang to leave his hometown!
Hong Yanwu suddenly felt a kind of regret and frustration that he had never felt before, from the bottom of his heart, as well as an indescribable discomfort and shame. This depression made him feel unexplainably heavy, and he vaguely felt that he had lost something.
I don’t know what it is, but it is the most important thing.
After all, language is not as fast as emotion. Just like being suddenly blinded, tears unknowingly occupied the eyes of Hong Yanwu and Chen Liquan. For a moment, they could not see anything clearly.
When they wiped away their tears, the two children discovered that Chang Xianzhang had disappeared from their eyes and turned around to enter the ticket gate. So they rushed to the ticket gate, but unexpectedly the ticket inspector with a stern expression stopped them and stretched out his hand.
Ask for votes.
Hong Yanwu and Chen Liquan said together that they were not taking the train. They just wanted to see off their teacher. But the ticket inspector didn't bother to pay attention to them and just waved them away.
The two children could not help but stare at the cement floor in the waiting room. They watched Chang Xianzhang walking further and further behind the ticket inspector. Suddenly, they felt unaccompanied, as if they were the only ones left in the world.
Especially for Hong Yanwu, a sadness surged into his heart involuntarily. One of the best teachers in the world had left him, and perhaps he would never be seen again in this life. Chang Xianzhang's generous smile always flashed in front of his eyes.
Especially the corners of his mouth when he smiles, it seems he doesn't care about anything and understands everything very well.
Suddenly, Hong Yanwu's heart suddenly moved again. He suddenly thought that he had not apologized to Chang Xianzhang in person. Chang Xianzhang tolerated all his faults, but left with nothing, which made him feel guilty in his heart.
One hundred, one thousand, ten thousand, sorry.
So, he suddenly went crazy and rushed to the ticket gate. But the ticket inspector hugged him and refused to let him in. If he was not really his opponent, he would definitely punch him in the chest.
"Old Chang! I'm sorry! Teacher Chang! I was so wrong! I'm sorry for you..."
Seeing that Chang Xianzhang was about to disappear, Hong Yanwu finally howled regardless. His nose and tears were streaming down his face, like a child who was being beaten by his parents. He publicly surrendered and begged for mercy in public. This was unprecedented for him.
It's embarrassing. But if he hadn't been like this at the time, he simply wouldn't be able to live anymore.
The ticket inspector was stunned, and so was Chen Liquan. Hong Yanwu's loud voice was as loud as killing a pig, which alarmed and shocked almost all the passengers who passed by.
However, Chang Xianzhang undoubtedly heard it. He finally turned his head in the surging crowd and waved to Hong Yanwu and Chen Liquan from a distance.
His smile was still so broad and friendly. But between his eyebrows, there was no longer the indifferent relaxedness of the past, but an inexplicable melancholy.
Then, he left. He completely disappeared among the crowd and disappeared under the attention of the two children...
On that day, Hong Yanwu and Chen Liquan waited until the train had left for a long time before leaving Yongdingmen Railway Station.
After that, they didn't go home immediately. Instead, they sat together by the moat, looking at the smelly green water covered with duckweeds, sitting there in silence. They had many unclear things that they needed to think about, and they no longer wanted to be confused.
live.
They seem to feel that there are always too many things hidden in the hearts of adults, and there are often many complex and unspeakable emotions behind every easily distinguishable expression.
And the world is not as bright and sunny as they imagined. Under the calm water surface of various human feelings, there are undercurrents. Just like this moat, despite the green moss on the surface, the water is calm. But
Below the river, it is full of filth, fishy smell, and disgusting. There is everything there, including dead cats, dead dogs, and dead children. Once you open it, it will definitely be shocking...
At this moment, they seemed to have really grown up.
Unlike the two children who burst into tears when bidding farewell, Chen Deyuan experienced another kind of silence, but even more heart-wrenching.
That afternoon, as soon as Chen Deyuan got off work from the coal factory, he remembered what Chang Xianzhang had asked him to do. So after returning home, he only drank water and didn't even wait for dinner. He took the food left by Chang Xianzhang.
The letter was delivered to the head teacher's house in person before the sun went down.
However, Chen Deyuan did not expect that the cold war was still going on at the head teacher's house. The head teacher had not eaten for two meals. The anger between her and her parents was at a critical moment. So the old couple saw Chen Deyuan, who claimed to be here to deliver a letter to Chang Xianzhang, and
Not very enthusiastic. If it weren't for the fact that he was still the leader of the school's publicity team, I would have kicked him out long ago.
Contrary to her parents' attitude, the head teacher was very happy to see Chen Deyuan. She was not willing to talk about Chang Xianzhang to her parents at all. When she saw Chen Deyuan, she kept asking about Chang Xianzhang's current situation, and when she heard that he was leading
After receiving Chang Xianzhang's letter, she couldn't wait to open it and read it immediately. It can be seen that she has been thinking about this person for a long time.
So, under the inspection of the old couple with noses that were not noses and eyes that were not eyes. Under the expectant gaze of the head teacher, Chen Deyuan took out the letter in embarrassment.
The envelope was not thick, but it was much larger than a regular envelope, and it seemed to contain something similar to a postcard inside.
The class teacher couldn't wait to tear it open as soon as he got the letter in his hand. He didn't expect that as soon as he opened it, the first thing he took out was half of a 12-inch photo.
Yes, it's the photo of Chang Xianzhang in the photo frame. However, now Chang Xianzhang's part has been cut off by scissors, leaving only the head teacher's half.
While everyone was stunned, the head teacher's expression changed even more. This clearly gave her a very bad premonition. So she quickly took out the letter inside and read it anxiously.
She didn't know what was written in the letter. Anyway, her hand holding the letter was trembling due to excitement. And while reading, her tears rolled down like broken beads.
Under this situation, everyone, the old couple and Chen Deyuan, stared at the change in the head teacher's expression without blinking.
Soon, they saw the pain, the loss, and the complete collapse of some thoughts. It collapsed into tatters and was difficult to clean up!
And until they finished reading, the most shocking situation occurred. Before the class teacher could say a word, he suddenly fainted and fell to the ground!
The old couple were shocked and quickly helped their daughter up, and hurriedly helped her to a chair. They were squeezing her, and applying a towel, and it was like an earth-shaking chaos and busyness.
After a while, the head teacher finally woke up, but she had become completely limp and powerless. The only thing she did was to lean on the chair, bury her face in her hands, and silently let her tears flow out.
The stunned Chen Deyuan was already full of suspicion. He quickly picked up the letter on the ground and read it. What he never expected was that it turned out to be a scorer's letter written by Chang Xianzhang.
Only then did he understand what kind of grief the head teacher had just experienced. It was like seeing the possibility of clearing up in the continuous rain, but an unexpected hailstorm mixed with thousands of sharp knives rained down from the sky.
The space was smashed down.
The content of the letter is actually very simple. Chang Xianzhang said that he has no future and will never have a future. If they continue to date, he will only bring unnecessary disaster and pressure to her, so he will never see her again after he leaves.
Contact her. She should find a suitable person, forget him completely and pursue her happiness.
He also said that people like him were not worthy of the class teacher, or even worthy of marriage. Therefore, he felt guilty for letting down the sincerity of the class teacher, and he was also grateful for the happiness she had given him, and he would always remain silent
I wish her a safe life.
In addition, at the end, he said that the class teacher in that photo was the best one among the photos he took, so he cut himself out and sent it back. This was because he was afraid that it would be inconvenient for the class teacher to keep it in the future...
Chen Deyuan is a careless and outspoken person, and his cultural level is not high. He only learned to read in literacy classes. Therefore, although he can recognize the words on the letter, he does not understand the content.
In his opinion, Chang Xianzhang was too hasty and pessimistic to make such a choice. He could just wait for a while and see before making any further decisions. In addition, he also felt that Chang Xianzhang was too heartless to treat such a good girl.
He said that he would never see each other again or contact him again. This was completely different from the teacher Chang in his impression, who was always kind, funny and gentle.
In the end, he couldn't understand why the head teacher's reaction was so violent. For him, getting married was essentially about having children, which meant living together with each other through hardships and hardships. Naturally, he met something pleasant.
It's a good thing, but it doesn't really matter if it doesn't come true. Just like he and Izumi's mother, they have decided to get married since they were young. There is no relationship at all, but as long as they have good character and can care about each other, isn't it possible to live a happy life?
But even so, for some reason, Chen Deyuan still felt an inexplicable sadness because of this incident. It seemed that once Chang Xianzhang or the head teacher really separated, there would still be something not quite right after all.
He always couldn't help but think about how well-matched these two people were. It was just like what the play said, a talented man and a beautiful woman. If they could become a couple, they would definitely be happier than many people.
But what kind of thing is this? Just because of a broken book, such a good couple was broken up alive?
He really didn't understand, why did fate prefer to be manipulated in the way that people wanted it to be?
To be honest, Chen Deyuan really felt that today's matter was a bit "left". He was upset about it for a long time after that. He felt that he was too hasty and thought of the matter a bit too simply. If he had gone to the head teacher first,
If my parents say hello, maybe it won't end up like this.