The road of life is never smooth sailing, full of ups and downs but also full of opportunities. In the same era, some people will have regrets about love due to the tricks of fate, and some people will rekindle the courage to love because of the persistence of the other party...
Three days after Hong Yanwen arrived in the capital, Chang Xianzhang, who was far away in the "May 7th Cadre School" in Xingkai Lake, also had to face his true feelings.
Chang Xianzhang really didn't expect that in addition to a sister who stayed there, there would be many people who were thinking about him deeply. They were his two former students, Hong Yanwu
He took the initiative to cut off all contact with Chen Liquan and his former lover, who he thought had already married someone else.
On the table were eighty-nine letters written to him by the "head teacher", which Hong Yanwu and Chen Liquan specially brought to him. According to them, they were unable to be sent by the head teacher, and in order to express their thoughts, they had to keep them in old books at his home.
A small part of it.
Yesterday, whether out of fear or guilt, he did not dare to look at it at that time, or even ask in detail. It was not until this morning, after he put two students who came to visit him on the train, and returned home that he finally had the courage to
Courage opened these letters.
It was uncontrollable at this sight, and he did not miss every word. It was simply tears and sincerity, which brought a great impact to his soul.
"...I know you love me, and I love you crazily. Love is a flower that has been watered since the beginning of mankind. Why should we suppress our respective emotions and make this flower wither?
You said that our situation is bad, but no matter how bad the situation is, it can always accommodate this little flower of love. Do you know? When we are separated in two places, I often lose sleep all night. The only hope is your reply, but you are so
Cruel, you stopped writing to me and sent all my letters back. Let me tell you, I can’t find other happiness at all as you said..."
"...My family forces me to meet a lot of people, but it doesn't work. I will think of you every time I see you. You should know that emotions cannot be fake. True love only comes once in life, except for you.
, I can never fall in love with a second person again..."
"...I advocate freedom, and first of all I advocate the freedom of love. Petofi's poem pitting love against freedom is so ridiculous. This world full of thorns is indeed too bad, but do you know there is another word called 'duel'
?This kind of courage is the test of the authenticity of love. Why can't we duel with the hateful external world? For love, we should break through all cages. Frankly speaking, even if you are not willing to fight hand in hand with me, I have decided
I have declared war on the world, even if I am the only one fighting alone! Even if you are willing to start a family with someone else in the end, I will never marry another person. This may be what you often say is my stubbornness..."
In a daze, Chang Xianzhang recalled many long-lost past events. Those memories were only indifferently avoided but never forgotten. They seemed to be illuminated by a bright light source at the same time, all of which were presented as vividly as movie scenes.
in front of his eyes.
He thought of the whispers he had with her under the old elm tree on campus, he thought of the joy of watching lotus flowers with her by the Tongzi River, he thought of the small boat with her on Fanzhou Lake in Beihai, and that day.
The rain, the umbrella that day, the two hands holding each other, and the sweetness that forever lingers in my heart...
Yes, he finally thought clearly about the emotion that had been plaguing his soul. It was clearly a kind of separation and regret. What shocked him was that he had never experienced such a feeling in his whole life.
The feeling came so suddenly and so strongly that it made him unable to control himself for a moment.
He thought that returning the letter from the "head teacher" would change the girl's mind. But who would have thought that the "head teacher" would be such a passionate woman with such a strong and colorful relationship. So long time has passed.
, she is actually still waiting for him impatiently.
To be honest, for so many years, he has been "for her own good" to strengthen his belief. But now that he thinks about it carefully, I am afraid that the truth is not that he has the courage to sacrifice for love, but that he is avoiding love out of an unbearable burden.
He not only broke her heart, but also delayed her youth! What he did was so cowardly, so low-level, and so bad.
Chang Xianzhang couldn't stand it when he thought of this. He suddenly felt a lump in his throat, and a hot stream of heat spurted out from the depths of his heart. At this moment, his stubbornness over the years completely collapsed...
He had never cried like this before. It was a heart-wrenching pain. He tried his best to suppress himself and bit the corner of his mouth to prevent himself from crying. This feeling was too uncomfortable. He felt that he
It was difficult to breathe, and he couldn't breathe at all. The heat that was eager to spurt out couldn't find an outlet, so it surged and surged in his body, causing his body to twitch violently. And he couldn't control it in the end.
I couldn't help but howl...
Chang Xianzhang's father, Chang Zhongkun, and his mother, Xu Meimei, entered the house at some point. When they saw the letters on the desk, they couldn't help but look at each other. In fact, through Hong Yanwu, they also learned something about this matter yesterday.
The situation is not unknown now.
Xu Meili couldn't help but comfort her son, "Xianzhang, just cry. It will feel better if you cry. Men have to cry too. It's not a shame."
Chang Zhongkun also said, "It's not shameful. It's worth it for such a girl. What's her... name?"
"Gu Lingye, her name is Gu Lingye."
Chang Xianzhang finally had enough crying, wiped away his tears and calmed down. He was silent for a while and made up his mind completely.
"Dad, Mom, I have to go back to the capital to find her."
But unexpectedly, it seemed that his parents had anticipated this and were very supportive.
Chang Zhongkun even said in agreement, "In my opinion, it's time for you to go back. Didn't your two students say that the capital is going to change drastically? Maybe you can go back and try your luck. Maybe my hat is really good."
Take it off as soon as possible. If so, the matter between you and that girl will not be a problem."
Chang Xianzhang was very surprised when he heard this and couldn't help but ask his father.
"Dad, aren't you the most disgusted with running relationships and using the back door? Why are you now..."
Unexpectedly, Chang Zhongkun sighed softly and said in a low voice, "I think so now, and I am opposed to relying on favors to get things done. However, there will be exceptions in life. It was your student named Hong Yanwu who sent me to the hospital yesterday.
That makes sense. If I don’t think about myself, I have to think about you. If I don’t think about you, I also have to think about that girl. You will be forty in a few years, and the girl is also over thirty. I can do it step by step
You and that girl can't wait for redress, but you and that girl can't afford to wait. After all, I am a human being, so how can I let you two completely waste your life? It's a pity that friendship alone is not enough for a relationship, but our family is now
Condition……"
"Dad, don't worry. I have money. When my two students left today, they left me five hundred yuan and one hundred catties of food stamps, just for me to go back to the city to run connections..."
Chang Zhongkun and Xu Meimei were again surprised. After looking at each other again, they couldn't help but sigh sincerely together.
"Son, your job as a teacher these past few years has not been in vain. We have never met a student like this in our half-life education..."