So far, Yang Weifan had not finished his complaints. He was followed by another article about his depression in the army. The deeper reasons for these things were even more difficult for Hong Yanwu and others to imagine.
"Also, maybe you also think that it is a good thing that I have such a father. I can join the army and my future is like a safe. But you don't know that this kind of future is not comfortable."
"First of all, I have loved painting since I was a child. My personal ambition has always been to go to an art school and become a professional painter. Even if I can't go to college or become a famous artist, I can still become an art teacher. But in my family
Here, this is not allowed."
"My father believed that his children should become soldiers. And my mother, she was even more enthusiastic about it than my father. Because she only had me as her only child, she hoped that I would have a brighter future than my brothers and sisters.
In this way, she can only raise her head in this home and have someone to rely on when she is old."
"Our Chinese people believe that filial piety comes first. Well, for the sake of my mother, I am willing to give up my ideals. So I came and enlisted in my father's old army. But what I didn't expect was that there would be calculations here.
and exclusion.”
"I went to the Naval Academy at first, and after graduation I was supposed to be a member of the boarding force. But I never expected that my brothers and sisters seemed unwilling to see me graduate smoothly. I don't know who was behind it.
He took advantage of me and ordered one of my classmates to deliberately get me drunk outside the school, causing me to be expelled from the school for staying out all night."
"After my mother found out, she used some connections to transfer me to the grassroots force. Unexpectedly, it was even worse. Because the story of my expulsion from the naval force spread not long after, and the grassroots leaders didn't know what I was doing.
They all regarded me as a backward example among the back-door soldiers, and they were unwilling to hire me from the bottom of their hearts. Although I worked hard in everything, they were prejudiced and disliked me no matter how they looked at me. I usually treated me coldly and did not provide guidance in everything.
And they just try to hold me back from committing crimes. If there is a small problem, they will stir up trouble and make everyone want to take me somewhere else."
"I was not convinced at first, and I made a point of reporting this differential treatment to my superiors once. But I didn't expect that the company I was in was a place where Shandong people gathered together. From the instructor to the company commander, platoon leader, and squad leader, they were all fellow countrymen. I directly
I was severely criticized and I saw what it means for officials to protect each other."
"Actually, it would be okay if only the cadres were like this to me, but ordinary soldiers also have feelings of repulsion towards me. One thing you may not know is that in the army, rural soldiers and urban soldiers are extremely difficult to deal with, and there is a huge disparity in strength.
Just because of the differences between urban and rural areas, urban soldiers are regarded as "alien" in the army where rural soldiers are dominant. If they want to be promoted and join the party, urban soldiers must first put their tail between their legs, and then work harder than rural soldiers.
You have to be more positive. But even so, because of different living habits, such as urban soldiers washing their faces with soap, loving to wash clothes, being picky about eating, etc., they often get ridiculed by the 'young master lamb'."
"My company, including me, had no more than twenty city soldiers, so it was one of the hardest-hit areas. I was also the focus of the leadership's deliberate care, and as time went by, I felt like I couldn't stay any longer. My mother fell down.
He once told me that as long as I got through the recruitment period, I would be fine. When I thought about it, I might as well hide. So I offered to do the dirtiest and worst job, raising pigs for the army. The idea was to run without having to do any exercises.
, no one is pointing fingers anymore. This is exactly what our company leader wants, and we will approve it immediately."
"In this way, I started to raise pigs. I was really willing to live a very practical life. But I didn't expect that my mother's words had other meanings. I was able to get a job just after I was a recruit. The deputy commander of the military region accepted my mother's advice.
He asked me to join the company specially for me and wanted to see me by name. When he saw my situation, he was naturally furious and punished all my company leaders directly. Then he immediately arranged for me to join the party and be promoted. But it’s true.
Because of this, my reputation in the army was completely ruined."
"First, this incident made many grassroots cadres hate me. In their eyes, joining the army is a very honorable thing. Many outstanding young people cannot win this opportunity, and it is even more difficult to be promoted.
For me to achieve it all so easily makes them feel very unbalanced. To be honest, I also feel unequal, but this matter is not something I can decide. This is by no means an unfounded moan, I am really forced."
"Secondly, everyone in our company, after knowing that I was related to the higher-ups, thought that I was the one who had done something wrong and retaliated against the company leaders. There were constant rumors behind the scenes that I was a man with a rich background and was deliberately setting up a trap.
The company leader got in. As a result, even the city soldiers who were doing well with me at first started to avoid me."
"In anger, I simply broke the can and went to the deputy commander again, begging him to give me a place to stay. Just like that, the deputy commander asked me to come to the shore troops of 'Laotieshan'
The warehouse is here. The company commander is responsible for the lighthouse on the mountain. The responsibilities at the bottom of the mountain are not important. They are all under my control. As a deputy company commander, to put it bluntly, I only have a name, so that I can suppress the platoon leaders under me.
.Essentially, I am still a platoon-level cadre who gets fifty-two yuan.”
"But you also saw it just now. Cui Tiezhu, for example, is from Shandong and still has a lot of opinions about me. He probably thought that I missed his promotion opportunity. So since I came here, he gave me a report to the superiors.
It’s been at least ten times. It’s a pity that he doesn’t understand that I came here to be self-motivated and to be at ease. Although I don’t do business and only get drunk once a day, no one can do anything to me. And I find that the less motivated I am.
, my brothers and sisters are nicer to me. They send me food, drinks, clothes, and all my necessities by mail, and they also send me money. Are you envious? How wonderful it is to be a cadre’s son.
You can get whatever you want..."
At this point, Yang Weifan became excited, and his voice actually rose a little higher, as if he wanted to take the opportunity to vent all the depression in his heart.
"I have told all my story. You can all analyze it for me now. Who should I be? A son of a cadre? No! No one in the compound cares about me. My brothers and sisters also regard me as a child.
A thorn in the side. Alley kid? No! Those buddies from the past have become strangers to me. Where are the coastal defense soldiers? Both urban and rural soldiers are avoiding me! What’s more, I can’t protect my family just by being a drunk cat looking after a warehouse.
Weiguo! What I didn’t expect is that even you two fellows from the capital despise me... Why am I so disgusted by people? I’m not a thing, right? I’m nothing! I shouldn’t be
live……"
Listening to these emotional words, the other four people present felt extremely uncomfortable.
This kid is so pitiful! So pitiful that no one can tell how pitiful he is.
Especially Hong Yanwu, from a certain aspect, Yang Weifan is so similar to him.
This is not to say that the specific life experiences are very similar. It is the helplessness of being ignored by others and the loneliness of not being understood! Even from the bottom of my heart, I am trying to anesthetize my own emptiness and confusion!
This gave him an immediate experience of "empathizing", and it also made it difficult for him to remain calm and watch.
He picked up the wine bottle and poured half of it into the bottle. Sympathy and understanding were released in an instant. The ice of inherent prejudice and precaution also began to melt.
"Brother, my judgment of people is too limited! Can I take back what I just said? I am offering you this wine to apologize, can I drink it all?"
Yang Weifan drunkenly grabbed Hong Yanwu's hand to drink. "No, you don't mind me?"
"You're not interested anymore. Okay, do you want to hear it? Now I have to say that you are indeed a person worth getting along with. You are quite temperamental! The problem is, I am a 'Black Category 5', and you are still willing to be with me now?"
Be friends?”
Yang Weifan finally turned from anger to joy, laughed loudly, and picked up the bottle of wine.
"I don't care if it's black or red! Well, I won't say anything. Just for your sincere words, treat me as a friend! Drink, I'll accompany you! Not only are these two bottles of wine going to be drank today
End, I still have 'Bincheng Laobai' in the car, no one should pretend to be a bear!"
Chen Liquan, the "general" and the "dead body" looked relieved, and they all raised their wine jars one after another.
The "general" even joked boldly, "Drink! Get drunk and you'll be done with it! We 'Hai Pengzi' know how to repay our friends, as long as 'Yang Zi' can still get up and return to the army."
Yang Weifan said coaxingly, "Don't worry. It doesn't matter if you can't get up. Whoever is still awake will help bring a message. Just say that the uncle drank too much and won't go back today. What's wrong?"
Hong Yanwu smiled.
"What do you think you are? Aren't you just a little platoon leader?"