December 31, 1979. This was the first thing Chen Liquan said to Hong Yanwu after he came out of Beijing Railway Station.
In fact, Chen Liquan has said this to Hong Yanwu countless times with full emotion.
From the moment Hong Yanwu got off the plane after returning to Beijing from Bincheng two months ago, to when Yang Weifan drove him home while describing the situation.
When he first met his mother, when Zhang Baocheng led the police from the city bureau to take him away. And after he was released from the "Xuanwu Branch".
There were also every phone call he made from Shanghai to Beijing to find "Tang Xin'er".
Chen Liquan always said this with shame and regret, as if he was responsible for all the bad consequences.
What can Hong Yanwu say about this?
He could only pat Chen Liquan's shoulder affectionately and comfort him as always, "Don't say that, it's none of your business. This is a disaster, a man-made disaster! It was caused by those two bastards 'Shen Chenghuang' and 'Stretch Out'
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And Chen Liquan would sigh sadly and hang his head in self-pity. It seemed that he was even more sad to hear this sentence, even more depressed than himself.
No problem, his brother is just too kind.
He had no choice but to pretend to be relaxed and put his arm around his shoulders, deliberately asking about the situation at home or talking about what he had seen and heard in Shanghai, and then walked to the train square with Quanzi who took the luggage to hire a car.
Taxi home.
Of course, Hong Yanwu is definitely not as free and calm as he appears on the surface. In fact, he has been having a hard time every day in the past two months.
Every day when I close my eyes, either "Tang Xin'er" will be shot, and her beautiful face will become bloody and bloody, or "Tang Xin'er" will be miserable and tearful, silently stretching out her weak arms to him, as if begging him for help.
Like myself.
This made him often insomnia and even irritable and irritable.
To be honest, even if he was in the capital, he could not prevent such bad luck from happening.
So what makes him suffer is nothing else, but that he obviously has rich life experience and a forward-looking perspective on history, and thinks that there are no problems in life. But he still can't protect his woman. He doesn't even have a chance to meet her.
, they were forced to separate.
With this kind of resentment towards his fate and anger at his own powerlessness, when he was first sent to the branch detention center, Hong Yanwu deliberately refused to sign up for a number. Within half an hour after entering the number, he "turned over" (a slang term that means disobeying the cell leader).
authority, fighting with the cell boss).
As a result, he beat and knocked down two inmates in a row, becoming the first person in any detention center in the capital to beat thirty-nine inmates in all cells.
In the end, he even beat the "cell leader" to the point where he took the initiative to "explode the cat" at the risk of losing the trust of the government, and shouted to the guards to "help him." Four guards rushed in together, and he had to stop.
Although the guards shocked him several times and put him in restraints and solitary confinement, Hong Yanwu did not regret it at all.
Because he asked for it. If he didn't vent his anger on these people, he might really be furious.
Is he overbearing? No, he is not overbearing at all.
Is he a hero? No, he simply feels like a bear.
After being released from the detention center, the authorities had come to a definite conclusion that the persons involved in the case had fled the capital. Although Hong Yanwu was cursing the public security department for being useless, what could he do on his own?
The only thing I could do was to let the word out, saying that a reward of 5,000 yuan was offered in exchange for information on any one of these three people: "Hand Up", "Shen Chenghuang", and "Tang Xin'er".
He actually knew very well that the short-term possibility of expecting the three of them to return to the capital on their own was zero.
When faced with the "Tang Xin'er" courtyard that was closed down by the government, Hong Yanwu was also helpless. He didn't dare to get angry with the government.
In the end, I could only ask Zhang Baocheng for help in smoothing the relationship, and then I went into the small courtyard to take a look.
The things in the living room and bedroom are very neat, and the Romanian furniture that Hong Yanwu just bought is shiny. It was originally purchased for their wedding.
The only extra thing was a small frame on the white dressing table, with a color photo embedded in it - a photo of Hong Yanwu and "Tang Xin'er" sitting intimately together.
It was the Mid-Autumn Festival this year, when the whole family got together for the last time. My eldest brother took a complete family photo and just the two of them, jokingly calling it the "rehearsal of wedding photos."
As for the effect, Hong Yanwu went to Bincheng before he could see it. He didn't expect that when the photos were developed, he saw it under such circumstances.
Just like he was in a daze, the room was quiet and everything was still, as if frozen in a specific moment...
Fortunately, thanks to Zhang Baocheng's efforts that day, Hong Yanwu was finally able to take away the only photo of him and "Tang Xin'er".
In addition, there is another situation that makes Hong Yanwu slightly relieved. That is that the place where "Tang Xin'er" hid his things is empty. And it was not the police who did it. Because listening to the police officers present chatting, they all inferred that Tang Xin'er was
There were some things that my son took away.
This at least shows that "Tangxiner" will not be short of money to spend.
Not to mention anything else, his two stamp albums were later placed in the hands of "Tang Xin'er". Even if the money was spent, the stamps that continued to increase in value were enough for her to cope with all situations.
After that, Hong Yanwu went back and hurriedly packed his bags and set off alone again. This time he went to "Shanghai". Not only did he meet "Aunt Bao", but he also walked around the streets and alleys of the city of "Shanghai".
He believes that the most likely possibility for "Tang Xin'er" after leaving the capital is to come here to find her "host mother".
Although he believed that she must know very well, and the police are not stupid, there will definitely be public security personnel who will follow and keep an eye on everything here. But his hope is that "Tang Xin'er" may be hiding nearby, using a
A special way is also silently paying attention to this place.
In this way, she will know how much he hopes she can come back. He is sure and confident to turn the situation around and solve the difficulties. He doesn't care what her face looks like. He just wants to stay with her for the rest of his life and make up for the suffering she has suffered.
, face everything in the future with her...
But he was unexpectedly disappointed again. He tried every means to convey such information frequently, but it was like throwing stones into the sea. Although he broke two pairs of leather shoes, he became unshaven and unkempt, and his belt was tightened by two buckles. "
"Tang Xin'er" never appeared.
She would never disbelieve him or not meet him. This result could only mean that she was not here.
In this way, he could only say goodbye to "Auntie Bao" with tears. He left a letter that he hoped "Tang Xin'er" could read, and then he was disappointed with "Auntie Bao"'s overwhelmed tears and said to "Nanny"
Why is life so miserable?" The lament returned to the capital.
But this doesn't mean that he has completely given up hope.
During the time he spent on the train back to Beijing, he was indeed lost, tired, depressed, desperate, and drank to drown his sorrows.
But "Tang Xin'er" and the bits and pieces he once had merged into a ray of light.
Whenever he was sad and melancholy, and talked with tears, he would recall the day they first met, the sunny day when they met again for stamps, and the night when he sent her home for the first time.
, recalling the excitement of them hugging each other in the pouring rain, recalling the tears that revealed her heart after she handed herself to him, recalling every moment they spent in the small courtyard of "Qifenglou Hutong"...
So he gained strength again. He began to believe that with the affection between them, "Tang Xin'er" would never give up on him easily or forget him. No matter how big the world is, they will be reunited one day. He
I firmly believe that as long as they are both alive, they can hold two people's hands together again.
Yes! She must be living somewhere, maybe she is hiding secretly to recuperate, maybe she doesn’t want to get involved with him, maybe she doesn’t have the courage to face everything yet...
But as long as she figures it out and gets in touch with "Aunt Bao" in the future, once she sees the letter he left, she will definitely show up and come find him again.
Yes! The arms of the two people bent together in the dark night, the figure of them becoming one in the cozy cabin, the promise of each other, and the touching feeling of no regrets and no complaints have all firmly connected them together.
.Even if thousands of rivers and mountains pass, spring passes and autumn comes, I will never forget it!
So he will never give up searching and persevering. Finding his "sugar heart" and living happily together is his only dream in the future.
As he wrote in his letter:
"You must believe me, don't be afraid! I have everything!"
"No matter how your appearance changes, no matter how many hardships reality brings, in my heartbeat, I will always burn and radiate the sacred word "love" for you!"
"I'm waiting for you to go home. The home in Beijing, the home of the two of us, will always be there!"
Hate is locked in the rain of flowers in the courtyard, and sorrow is trapped in the water and smoke. I don't care about the shadows of the mandarin ducks across Nanpu, outside the flower branches. I'm waiting to knock the hairpin sideways and call out the parrot's language, and I'm looking at the picture of a plain girl under the blanket. I'm a new couple.
In an instant, the people in my eyes were gone, and the luan was alone in the mirror.
——Lyrics by Huo Xiaoyu from Kun Opera "The Purple Hairpin"