I don't know whether she was drunk and cowardly, or was infected by Li Qi, but Mrs. Qin blurted out such a question.
As soon as these words came out of her mouth, she felt dumbfounded and couldn't help but ask herself, did I really say those words just now?
Not to mention her, even Li Qi was shocked!
No matter which angle you look at it, this is definitely not what Mrs. Qin said.
The atmosphere seemed even more eerie under the hazy moonlight.
"I---."
"Good question!"
Mrs. Qin was about to say something to cover up, but Li Qi would give her this opportunity, and then said: "This question is very good, very profound, and very philosophical."
Mrs. Qin was even more embarrassed when she heard this. She couldn't help but feel faint in her cheeks, but she looked even more charming. Where could the depth and philosophy come from?
But Li Qi enjoyed it. As an actor, he would seize the opportunity to show off his acting skills. He pretended to be serious and seemed to have thought deeply before saying: "Well, if you didn't ask, I would really
I haven't thought about it, but now that I think about it, it's really a question. You name it, I really don't have any merits. I'm not as good as sister Qingzhao, not as good-looking as Shishi, not as smart as Qiniang, and not as strong as bones.
He is also nagging, nagging endlessly, loves to escape, and hides away from the slightest trouble, never thinking of facing it bravely, and is stubborn, and never wants to listen to others when it comes to certain things.
I advise you to have no sense of responsibility. To put it nicely, it means that nothing matters and the four elements are all in vain. To put it badly, it means that you are ignorant and do things without thinking."
Am I that bad?
After Li Qi finished speaking, Mrs. Qin had tears in her eyes. She originally thought that Li Qi would praise her no matter what he said. Although she didn't care that much, she never expected that Li Qi would praise her.
On the worst side, I don't know why, but I just feel extremely wronged. You---this is too bullying.
But Li Qi completely ignored Mrs. Qin's feelings and said to himself: "To tell you the truth, I didn't realize that I fell in love with you until you were kidnapped last time. Now that I think about it, it's a bit incredible, because you
His personality is completely opposite to mine. There is almost no similarity at all. Fortunately, it is like this, otherwise I would not succeed, so I feel that the problem you just mentioned actually exists.
In fact, the first time I met you, madam, you were a beautiful treasury in my eyes. Whether I can make a fortune depends entirely on you. There are only interests between us. Later, I moved into the Qin Mansion and since
Since then, I have been nagged by you all day long. My parents are not as nagging as you. But I am used to being nagged by you. Suddenly, I feel a little uncomfortable without your nagging. Although I have not discovered your advantages, I still feel uncomfortable.
I have become accustomed to your shortcomings, and after getting used to them, your shortcomings have become advantages in my eyes."
Are you praising or derogating? What do you mean by getting used to my shortcomings? Mrs. Qin originally never cared about other people's opinions, but it always felt a little weird to say it to her so directly. If it were Master Li,
, Feng Yinu and the others must have been scolding them with clever words, but she had never argued with others about this, and she didn't like to argue. So she didn't know how to reply at this time.
He is of such high quality that he can't even curse others.
Li Qi didn't know what was going on in Mrs. Qin's mind, and thought she had resorted to silence again. His interest waned and he stopped talking. Because he could no longer talk about the topic, he asked instead: "Madam,
Tell me about you."
Mrs. Qin was slightly startled and said, "Talk about me? What did you say about me?"
"Just talk about anything, such as the tangled past between you, Zheng Yi, and Qin Mo."
Mrs. Qin was stunned and said with a wry smile: "What else can I say about those adult past events? And don't you know them all?"
Li Qi said displeasedly: "This is too unkind of you. You asked me just now, and I knew everything and told you everything. Now I ask you, and you just refuse. Where is justice and where is the justice of heaven?"
Why did Li Qi tell Mrs. Qin everything he knew today? It was because he hoped that Mrs. Qin would be like him and open her clothes to him, oh no, open her heart and have a good chat.
Mrs. Qin said angrily and funny: "Where did you go when you talked about justice? What you said is really irrelevant."
"Then just say something marginal." Li Qi knew that Mrs. Qin had always been relatively passive, so he took the initiative to ask: "By the way, how did you and Zheng Yi meet?"
It seemed that this past event really happened a long time ago. Mrs. Qin thought about it for a while and then said: "My second brother and I knew each other a long time ago. I was only ten years old at that time. I remember at that time,
I am very curious about everything outside. However, due to my father's strict upbringing, my eldest brother is not allowed to go out to play and has to study at home, let alone a girl like me. But the more forbidden my father is, the more I want to go out.
Play.
Until one day the second brother Zheng came to my house with his parents. At that time, the second brother was thirteen or fourteen years old. But the second brother had much more freedom than us. He could go out and play as he pleased, and he was already well-known in Bianliang.
Young people called him the little prodigy. After he came to my house, his father asked us to play with him. He told us a lot of interesting things outside that day, which made me very envious. Later he said he would take me to play. Of course I
I want to, but I think dad will definitely not agree."
Li Qi interjected: "But you never expected that your father would agree immediately."
Mrs. Qin nodded.
Li Qi smiled bitterly and said: "I didn't expect that Uncle Wang, Fatty, would start planning things at that time. He is really cunning and cunning. Oh no, he has good intentions."
Mrs. Qin rolled her eyes at Li Qi and said, "You are not allowed to arrange my father like this."
"Sexy, saucy, slip of the tongue, slip of the tongue."
Have you ever made a mistake in your speech? You clearly have this in mind. Mrs. Qin shook her head helplessly and continued: "I didn't understand it at that time, but I later learned that in fact, all the officials' children are like this. What matters is
We were well matched, and my dad just did what everyone else would do. But no matter what, I was really happy at the time because I could finally go out to play. From then on, whenever my second brother came to see me, my dad would do it.
I promised with all my heart, so every time my second brother sent me home, I would pray that my second brother would remember to go out with me.
From that time on, I became very free and could go out at any time. My eldest brother and the others were very envious of me. My relationship with my second brother also became very good and we could be said to be inseparable. During that period, I met my sister.
At that time, my sister had just married into the Zhao family, but she was already well-known in the capital. However, she usually sat with Su Shi, Huang Tingjian, and others, and seldom played with us. Among the younger generation, she was the only one who
Sister has this honor."
Li Qi immediately said: "This is necessary. Sister Qingzhao's talent is beyond words, and she is a woman. This makes it even more valuable."
Mrs. Qin nodded with a smile and said: "You won't believe it. At that time, just like you now, I admired my sister very much. In fact, my sister can also be said to be my teacher. Everything I know is
She taught it.”
Li Qi suddenly realized. "Let me tell you, Madam, you don't seem to be a very smart woman. How can you be compared with Sister Qingzhao? It turns out that Sister Qingzhao taught me this. I can understand it."
"I will not say anymore."
Mrs. Qin was really unhappy. If she had been in the past, she might not have cared about it, and Li Qi had ridiculed her a lot. But today she was particularly strange. Li Qi repeatedly attacked her, which made her a little unbearable.
Li Qi hurriedly said: "Don't bother me. It's my fault. I'll accompany you instead."
Mrs. Qin snorted and said with a hint of embarrassment: "Actually--what you said is actually good. My sister and I are indeed very far apart. The reason why they said that was because my sister had already jumped to the stage with Su
The bachelors went together, and there was no successor among the younger generation. So everyone pushed me forward."
It's good to be self-aware! Li Qi consoled him: "You can't say that. In fact, madam, you are quite powerful."
"hypocritical."
"Uh... I say you are bad and you lose your temper. I say you are good and you say I am hypocritical. What kind of trouble are you going to make!"
"It's best not to tell."
"Okay! I won't say anything, I'll listen to you."
After Li Qi said this, he immediately closed his mouth.
Mrs. Qin rolled her eyes at this hateful guy, and felt helpless in her heart. She could only continue: "As time goes by, we all grow up, and everything has changed. Those friends who used to look at me...
Their eyes changed. As soon as they mentioned their second brother, they would take me along with them, and vice versa. They spoke less casually than before and seemed to be somewhat respectful. I was really confused at the time. I didn’t know why they became like this.
In this way, I didn't understand what it was until my mother mentioned marriage to me, but I really would rather not grow up. I don't like them looking at me that way. I am who I am and I am not anyone else's."
I am who I am!
Li Qi thought to himself that this must be the real Wang Yao. He asked: "Don't you have any feelings for Zheng Yi?"
Mrs. Qin said: "I didn't know it at the time, but from that time on, I didn't really like walking with my second brother. However, my second brother still came to me every day as always. He seemed to regard me as a
His unmarried wife no longer asks me what I think about many things like before, but directly makes decisions for me, which makes me hate him even more.
At that time, the Yuanyou Party broke out, and the Su family suffered unprecedented heavy losses. The city was full of bloodshed, and everyone began to feel insecure. Even my father was restless for fear of being implicated. Sister Li's natal family did not flee.
Doom, you should know the story that happened here, but compared to the political storm you launched this time, Yuanyou’s party membership is just insignificant."
Li Qi nodded. Yuanyou's party membership only involved a few people, and it only targeted Cai Jing's enemies. However, the political storm launched by him and Zhao Kai targeted the former emperor's old ministers, and almost wiped out the entire government and opposition.
At one point, there was no one available. He said: "You were very scared at the time."
Mrs. Qin nodded and said: "At first I didn't understand what happened, but during those days, I heard my father and my mother talking about it every day at home, and everyone in the family was panicked. Although I didn't know what happened, What was going on, but I also felt very uneasy. It wasn’t until my sister came to see me later that I understood what was going on, which made me even more scared.”
Li Qidao: "It was precisely because of this incident that prompted you to marry into the Qin family."
Mrs. Qin shook her head and said: "This is just one of the reasons. If I don't love my husband, then I would rather become a monk."
"But I think you feel more guilt than love for Qin Mo."
Mrs. Qin was stunned and said, "Why do you say that?"
"Because when you mention Qin Mo, you feel more guilty than happy."
"I am so ashamed of my husband."
"What are you ashamed of him for? Didn't you leave a descendant for the Qin family? Or did you kill him? Or did you bring a lot of trouble to the Qin family?"
Mrs. Qin asked: "Isn't it?"
Li Qi sighed and said: "For Qin Mo, to be more realistic, he is not worthy of you at all, no matter which way you look at it, but he has embraced this beautiful woman. This is God's mercy. He I also know what kind of difficulties he will face if he marries you. But he is willing to accept it. He has no regrets or regrets. I think at the moment of his death, Qin Mo was just grateful because he married you. You. So you don’t have to feel guilty about this at all, you paid for it, it’s just God’s will.”
“God’s will plays tricks on people.”
Mrs. Qin murmured to herself, can these four words really mean everything?
Maybe.
Maybe not.
Li Qi added: "But Madam, compared to Qin Mo, there is such a person. From the beginning to the end, you have been ashamed of her because you have been hurting her."
Mrs. Qin looked at Li Qi.
"I'm not talking about me, you're not that powerful." Li Qi rolled his eyes and said, "I'm talking about Wang Yao."
“Wang—Wang Yao?”
Mrs. Qin didn't seem to have reacted yet, thinking to herself, isn't Wang Yao me?
Li Qi nodded and said: "Actually, you have been hurting yourself. You suppress your emotions. You try to change yourself, and even hope to use Buddhist scriptures to clear everything, including yourself. Think about it, before you married into the Qin family , you can still insist that I am who I am, but after you married into the Qin family, you have never had any persistence. You have given up on yourself. Life and death have no difference at all to you. To put it bluntly, , you are just waiting to die.
Why do you become like this? Because you don't want to hurt anyone, or you are afraid of hurting others. The most effective way not to hurt others is not to have any contact with the outside world. You have no way to build a fortress to protect others, so you can only wrap yourself up. , but in doing so, you have hurt yourself, and the woman named Wang Yao has been murdered by you."
Wang Yao was murdered by me?
Li Qi's words seemed to suddenly hit Mrs. Qin's heart hard. Mrs. Qin's pupils suddenly enlarged, and her hands began to tremble uncontrollably. Thinking back to the Wang Yao back then, and then thinking about the current one. She suddenly felt that Wang Yao had gradually faded away, but now she seemed very strange, and she no longer knew who she was.
who I am?
Who am I again?
Who is Wang Yao?
If this were Mrs. Qin in the past, she probably wouldn't have much reaction, but since her heart had gradually opened earlier, Li Qi's words could quickly touch her heart, and the hot tears fell silently.
She fell down, but whether she was crying for herself now, for Wang Yao back then, or for Qin Mo, she didn't know. As if she had lost her soul, she picked up the wine glass and took another sip of wine.
Li Qi saw the crystal clear teardrops through the moonlight, and felt an inexplicable pain in his heart, but he had to continue talking, because he felt that it was time for Mrs. Qin to face Wang Yao, and said: "Madam, avoid Absolute
It is not a solution to the problem. Now you should learn how to face it. Life is about facing various difficulties.
Whether it's Sister Qingzhao, Miss Shishi, or even Qiniang, they are all facing it. Don't they want everything to go as they wish? But this is beyond their control. However, whether to face or escape, this is what they can do
Decided, they all chose to face it, and you, you don’t even dare to face it yourself, let alone other things, but you have to understand one thing, whether you face it or escape it, difficulties will always be there
If you don't face it there, it means someone must be helping you face it.
Let's just say that you insisted on marrying into the Qin family. Your idea was actually just to avoid it. The rest were all excuses. You had never faced it before, and you had no responsibility. The difficulties caused by you were caused by Zheng Yi and Qin.
Mo, your parents took it on your behalf. What you did was very selfish, both to you and to others.
You always say that you do this and that, and you stick to your own ideas, but this is just an excuse for you to shirk responsibility, because from the beginning to the end, you have not taken any responsibility, and you can even get drunk
Xianju was given to me directly, which shows how weak you are. Persistence is a good thing, and principles are also a good thing. Whether you swear not to marry the son of an official or you want to stick to the chastity arch, there is nothing wrong with it. No one is qualified.
Make irresponsible remarks, but the problem is that persistence is based on yourself, not on your guilt and fear. Only when you are Wang Yao are you qualified to talk about persistence, otherwise, everything you say is
A shameless lie.”
"Tick tock!"
A teardrop fell into the wine glass. Mrs. Qin was seen slumped on the chair. The tears flowing from those empty eyes contained endless sadness. It was wrong, wrong, from beginning to end.
Wrong, I was all wrong. He was right, I am a selfish woman, I am a weak and incompetent woman.
Thinking of this, she felt her heart ached, and tears poured out like a flood. This was all because the wall in his heart had gradually collapsed.
Li Qi breathed out softly and said: "The reason why I said this to you is actually to save you, because the end of escape is suicide. Once you get used to escaping, something suddenly forces you to do it."
Face it, your fragile heart simply doesn’t know how to face it. Then death becomes the only solution in your mind.
Now you still have your father, you have me, and you have Zheng Er here to protect you. You can continue to escape. But sooner or later your father will leave one day, and I can't always stand in front of you. Zheng Er now has
Your family can no longer be dedicated to you. You must quickly learn to face it, learn to be strong, and learn to overcome your own demons. Only by living your own life can you have no regrets in this life. In fact, if you dare to take this step, you will
I think it’s actually not that difficult to face.”
This is really not Li Qi's intention to scare Mrs. Qin. In fact, his confession today is false. The real purpose is to help Mrs. Qin overcome her inner demons, because the end of everyone's escape is a cliff. To be sure, it is
A cliff that is easy to ignore. When you feel there is nowhere to escape, you will jump off the cliff.
But everyone's distance from this cliff is different. A strong person is farther away from this cliff, but the distance can still be measured. Even a very strong person will suffer various blows in an instant.
, he will still stand on the edge of the cliff, but the chance of him jumping off is relatively small.
Li Qingzhao, Bai Qiannuo, and Yelu Guyu belong to this category. They are all very strong. They have suffered far more setbacks than Mrs. Qin, but they all continue to overcome difficulties.
Especially Li Qingzhao, why Li Qi admires her so much is because she has been able to overcome so many difficulties in her life. You must know that she is still a woman. Even Li Qi, I am afraid he will have a short-term crisis.
collapse.
The most talented woman of all time does not just refer to her talent.
And a person with a fragile heart, even if he receives a small blow, will immediately choose to jump, because death is the end of escape. This kind of person is a very dangerous kind of person, and can even be said to be a kind of illness. He needs to
The intervention of doctors is easy to be ignored.
Health refers not only to the body, but also to the mind.
A strong heart can make you have more wealth.
Mrs. Qin is a high-risk patient among this group of people. She almost grabs the edge of the cliff with one hand. If her hand is loosened, she will fall.
The last time Li Qi rescued her in West Lake, he could see this kind of illness in her, because during that period, she hardly faced it, and her will to survive was very weak. It was the same before, whenever she suffered a little setback
, I will become a monk.
At that moment, Li Qi was very worried that Mrs. Qin would jump off that cliff one day. He had nightmares about this for several days. He had been thinking about it just now. He hoped to help Mrs. Qin stay away from that cliff.
.
Mrs. Qin gradually fell into deep thought. She began to think about the decisions she had made in her life. As she thought about it, she had touched her inner demon. She couldn't help but murmured: "Escape, die, escape is death."
Seeing that she was thinking, Li Qi breathed a sigh of relief, with a happy smile on his face. Being sick is not scary, but not knowing that you are sick is scary. He believes that once Mrs. Qin can discover her illness, it will be the beginning of recovery, because
Mrs. Qin's inner demons are not innate, but caused by the outside world, so once she figures it out, she can be cured immediately. She suddenly smiled and said: "I have a trick to overcome the inner demons."
Mrs. Qin subconsciously asked: "What?"
Li Qi chuckled and said: "The first thing is to face your own inner demons. Aren't you afraid of marrying into an official family? Then you prefer Hushan Travel. I can help you with this. If you marry me, I guarantee that you will be seen every day.
You can't hide from these troubles. When you experience it more, you will naturally know how to face it. What's the idea? "
"Pfft!"
Mrs. Qin burst into tears and smiled. At the same time, her heart suddenly became enlightened. The haze surrounding her heart was swept away. Even her demeanor changed. Her smile was very bright, making her look even more dazzling, beautiful and moving.
In fact, as long as you dare to stand in front of your inner demon, he will automatically disappear. However, some people dare not take this step, which is the most regrettable thing.
Obviously, Mrs. Qin did not let Li Qi feel this regret, and said with a smile: "So that's what you had in mind!"
Mrs. Qin, who had overcome her inner demons, was able to deal with Li Qi's teasing calmly.
"Oh, what can I do if you see through it?" Li Qi said very "annoyed", but he was very happy in his heart. His efforts tonight were not in vain. This bottle of wine was really worth it.
.
Mrs. Qin couldn't help it anymore and giggled. After a while, she stopped smiling and looked at Li Qi for a while before saying: "Li Qi, thank you, thank you very much, thank you."
You can tell me this. You are right. I have been escaping, and I did have thoughts of suicide. This is very selfish. But my intention is not like this, as you said
In that case, it was just that I was relatively ignorant and thought it was the right thing to do. Now that I think about it, I was really wrong. Yes, it is time for me to learn to face it."
After hearing this, Li Qi almost cried with joy. He was so excited that he shouted: "Thank God, thank God, you finally woke up, and I can finally leave with peace of mind."
"leave?"
Mrs. Qin asked in astonishment: "You---where are you going?"
Li Qi said angrily: "Please, I'm not here just to enjoy the scenery. I also have the emperor's mandate on my back."
"Yes---yes, if you didn't tell me, I would have forgotten it."
"What? You can't bear to leave me?" Li Qi said with a smile.
Mrs. Qin blushed and spat: "I wish you could leave early."
"Don't worry, I will leave regardless of whether you hate me or not." Li Qi said and muttered depressedly: "It's really unethical. I'll dump you when you're done."
Although Li Qi's voice was low, because the surroundings were so quiet, Mrs. Qin still heard it clearly. Her throat felt sweet and she almost vomited blood. She just wanted to throw the wine glass in her hand towards her.
Li Qi saw Mrs. Qin's impulsiveness, and he also knew that Mrs. Qin might really do such a thing at this time. He quickly said: "Madam, since you have to learn to face it, there is a more difficult matter now. Wait.
I want you to face it, just treat it as a test for you."
"What?"
"It's just between us!"
"Between us?" Mrs. Qin hummed, "There is nothing between us."
"For now, I agree with your statement, because I don't have time to think about this now, so I'll just let you be arrogant for a while." Li Qi changed the subject and said, "But when I come back, what I will do
The first thing is to submit a report to Qiniang and apply for her qualifications to pursue you. If she agrees, huh, then you will be in trouble.
But you can rest assured that I will not be like Zheng Yi, doing things that have no technical content, crying, making trouble, and hanging myself. This is too low-end. We are taking a high-end route and doing technical work.
I don’t know what the result will be, but you will definitely enjoy this process---Hey, madam, where are you going? I haven’t finished telling you yet.”
Even though Mrs. Qin had drank to be brave, even though she had learned to face it, she still couldn't stand Li Qi's straightforwardness. Even if it were Master Li, he would have gotten up and fled the scene.
"Damn it! Aren't you? We agreed to meet you on the opposite side."
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