The first thousand four hundred and thirty-eight chapters people laugh at me and I am crazy
"Sir, we have arrived outside the city now. Where do you want to go?"
The driver drove for a mile and after leaving the Zuixian Villa, he stopped, turned around and asked inside the car... Read the latest and most complete novel
Sitting in the car was a woman disguised as a man. A self-deprecating smile appeared on her lips. Where do I want to go? This is really too luxurious for me. Where can I go? Although the world is huge, but
Where can I be tolerated? No matter where I go, I am always causing harm to others, and my beauty is a disaster. I really do my duty to do so.
"Master, Master."
The coachman called twice more.
The woman was slightly startled and said, "Go to the West Lake."
“Where is the West Lake?”
"Anywhere."
"oh."
An hour later.
"Uh---! Sir, we have arrived at the West Lake. Do you think we can do it here?"
The woman sighed slightly, opened the curtain, looked at the calm lake in the moonlight, nodded, and said, "Okay." She got off the carriage, took out a bulging money bag from her bag and handed it to her.
He gave it to the coachman and said, "Take it."
The driver hurriedly waved his hand and said: "No, no, the young man in front has already given me the fare."
The woman said: "Take it, I won't need it in the future anyway."
"this---."
The coachman hesitated for a moment, then took it with both hands. He felt it was heavy and was secretly surprised at how much money it cost. He hurriedly said: "Sir, this is too much money."
"You go back."
The woman replied absently, then turned and left.
It was already midnight, and there was no one around. It was quiet, and only the night wind could be heard rustling the leaves.
The woman was walking aimlessly alone on the Su Di, her back was very lonely, like a lonely ghost, or like a walking corpse. Suddenly, a gust of night wind blew, and she seemed to feel a little cold, she couldn't help but fold her arms, and there was the sound of a piano.
It sounded like laughter, singing, and praise.
Suddenly, someone seemed to be yelling, "You are a temptress who brings disaster to the country and the people."
She was startled suddenly and stopped. She turned around and stared blankly at the lake, the moonlight shining on her face, filled with tears.
The roots of troubles.
A temptress with a heart like a snake and a scorpion.
The woman seemed to be among thousands of people and being pointed at by thousands of people. Her whole body began to tremble slightly. She covered her ears with her hands and cried out as if begging for mercy: "Please, please, don't say any more.
Stop saying it, I am not a fox demon, I am not a witch."
As she was talking, she suddenly broke down and squatted down. She burst into tears and the Dongpo scarf on her head suddenly fell down. In an instant, three thousand black hairs broke free. They poured down like a waterfall, covering them.
Covered her entire back.
The louder she cried, the sadder she cried. It seemed that she had exhausted all her strength.
Yue'er seemed to be unable to bear it, and quietly hid in the clouds.
The night gradually dimmed.
The woman cried loudly for nearly half an hour. Her tears had dried up and her innate voice had become hoarse before she was willing to give up.
After a while, she stood up and looked at the lake. Her mind kept flashing back the scenes of her life. She suddenly found that none of the scenes were worth remembering. She couldn't help but feel sad, "How on earth did I survive these years?
What on earth am I living for?"
At this point, she laughed loudly again, and her laughter was very shrill, like a ghost. After a while, she stopped her crazy laughter. She stood there blankly for half an hour, and suddenly moaned softly.
Said: "The fragrant and cold golden cat is rolled over by the red waves. I get up and comb my hair lazily. Ren Bao's dowry is covered with dust and the sun is hanging on the curtain. I am afraid of the pain of separation and separation. There are many things that I want to talk about. I have just lost weight. It is not because of illness.
It's not a sad autumn.
Come on, this time I go back and read "Yangguan" thousands of times, but it's hard to stay. Thinking of Wuling people are far away, and the smoke locks the Qin Tower. Only the running water in front of the building should remember me, and stare at me all day long. The place where I stare is added from now on,
A new sorrow."
This poem was written by Li Qingzhao, and it's called "Recalling the Flute on the Phoenix Platform. The Fragrant Cold Golden Elephant". This poem was written when Li Qingzhao was in extreme grief. However, the woman felt that this poem seemed to be for her at this time.
It was custom-made, and every word touched her heart. The difference was that the sadness in her heart was far greater than that of Li Qingzhao when he wrote this poem.
The grief in Li Qingzhao's heart at that time only came from Zhao Mingcheng, but the grief in her heart came from thousands of people, from all over the world.
"Xiuxiu, it's time to go back. Xiuxiu, it's time to go back."
The woman nodded vigorously a few times and said: "You are right, you are right, I live to harm others and myself, and that is fine, I will do what you want in this life, since you think
If I stay, I will bring harm to you. I leave because I just want to be a free bird in the next life. Farewell to those who hate me."
Thinking of this, she closed her eyes, stepped on her feet, and flew up into the lake.
Suddenly, she felt an arm wrap around her waist and pull her back. Before she opened her eyes, she heard someone say: "Wow! Are you serious? It seems you are far better than me."
It's much more fragile than imagined."
It's him!
The woman opened her eyes suddenly and saw a delicate face close at hand, with a pair of narrow phoenix eyes holding a stream of sad tears.
This woman is Li Shishi, and the person hugging her is Li Qi.
The four eyes facing each other contain too much meaning.
"You---why are you here?"
Li Shishi looked at Li Qi blankly and asked in disbelief.
"You cried so loudly that I woke up to sleep." However, this time Li Qi's humor could not make the beauty laugh, and he was asking for trouble. He had to say: "If death can solve the problem, then I am afraid that there will be no solution to the problem in this world."
There will be no one left alive.”
Master Li closed his eyes, turned his head and said, "You don't understand."
Li Qi lightly shrugged his shoulders and said: "I really don't understand, because I only know that living means making money, and conversely, dying means losing. So I cherish every day I live, and I have never sought death in my life.
Thoughts."
"You can benefit the common people by living, but I can only harm others and myself by living in this world."
"I am over-flattered."
Li Qi said seriously: "When it comes to harming people, you are far behind me. My parents worked hard to train me to be a talented person, but now I can't fulfill my filial piety around them. The Supreme Emperor, Grand Master Cai, and Lieutenant Gao,
Including Zhao Huan, they were all very kind to me, but I forced them to lose their official positions. Qiniang loved me deeply, but I almost caused her father's life to be lost, as well as Wang Fu and Li
I killed Kuni Yan and others to death. Besides, I was responsible for this southern expedition. Those soldiers who sacrificed their lives should all be attributed to me. Didn’t I harm so many people?
And there is you. In fact, all this happened because of me. It was me who caused you to be scolded by others. It was I who caused you to be cast aside by everyone in the world. You must understand that everyone's happiness must be based on the pain of others.
The happiness of those who are on the gold list is based on those who are not on the list. If you are happy, those who hate you will definitely suffer. Even Buddha has people who hate you. Not to mention us mortals, this is the law.
Compared to me, have you really harmed anyone? You have not harmed anyone. These are other people transferring their own sins to you. It is others who base their happiness on your pain. In fact,
There are a lot of people in the world who scold me, at least more than you, and there are countless people who want me dead. And it’s not all smooth sailing for me. To put it harshly, I was Li Linfu back then.
In order to survive, even when facing some people I hate very much, facing their ridicule, sarcasm, and sarcasm, I still have to smile and flatter them. If you ask me how I felt at that time, of course I
It was hard, but I never thought about giving up, not even for a moment, because I have my goals, I have my ideals, and I have to live to accomplish all of this, and for this I gave up a lot, including my dignity.
The world is like this. If you want to get, you must learn to give. My father-in-law, an elder, once told me that time is the only magic weapon to win everything, because time can change everything. Look at what I have done in the past ten years.
Who could have imagined the changes in the Song Dynasty ten years ago? When you live longer than others, you have greater hope of success than others. A temporary failure cannot represent a lifetime failure, because no one knows what the world will be like ten years from now.
What will happen?”
Li Shishi stared at Li Qi blankly, with a trace of emotion on her face. After a moment, her expression became firm again and said: "Maybe you are right, but now I will only hurt others. That is the fact. I don't want to do it anymore."
I have hurt others, I have no love left, and I don’t have the courage to live anymore. I want to die. You can save me once, but the next time--well---"
Before she finished speaking, a hot mouth appeared on her lips. Her heart skipped a beat and she wanted to push Li Qi away, but she couldn't muster any strength. Tears welled up in her dry eyes again, and they fell like rain.
, but her heart felt even more sad. She didn't know where this sadness came from.
Maybe it comes from low self-esteem.
Although she has an appearance that captivates all living beings, she also has a past that is difficult to look back on.
God is fair.
You can't have all the good things by yourself.
Thinking of this, she suddenly turned her head away, avoiding Li Qi's lips, and sighed: "Why are you doing this?"
Li Qi was stunned, suddenly put her in his arms, hugged her tightly and said: "I'm sorry. In fact, I should have stood up at that time, because this incident originally happened because of me, but--but I backed down.
, I had already guessed that you would definitely choose to leave, but I was still struggling in my heart. I didn’t know whether I should keep you, so I never showed up, but chose to follow you. Even if you cry to your heart’s content, I won’t.
Dare to stand up. It wasn't until you were about to jump that I understood my heart. You sought death for the second time for me, but I still wanted to let you bear all this alone. To put it nicely, it was for the sake of the overall situation, but
In fact, it's just selfishness. Maybe--maybe I can't change the world's view of you, but I can bear all this with you."
Master Li was heartbroken when he heard that, tears couldn't help falling, and said: "Why do you treat me so well? The more you treat me like this, the more uncomfortable I feel. I--I don't deserve it. I would rather you look down on me.
"
Li Qi asked: "Then why do you treat me so well? Do you think a selfish person like me deserves this?"
Master Li was startled when he heard this, and then heard him say softly: "Decades of life pass by in a blink of an eye. If you think about everything before and after everything, and struggle with it, you will achieve nothing in the end."
At this point, he suddenly smiled and said proudly: "When will we drink and sing happily? People laugh at me and I am crazy. Huh, didn't those people say that you confused me with your beauty? I want to make you confused. They
The more we want to laugh at us, the more we want to live a better life than them and be happier than them, but what can we do about them?"
People laugh at me for being crazy and I am crazy. Li Shishi was excited when she heard this, and a smile slowly appeared on her miserable face. However, the tears were not dry yet, and her hands trembled slightly, thinking to herself, I can really raise my hands to hug her.
Do you want to keep him? I'm afraid that if you lift him up, you won't be able to put him down anymore. So, just treat him as a charity to me, and I will repay him well in the next life.
So she finally raised her arms and hugged Li Qi's waist. She felt an unprecedented happiness well up in her heart. She burst into tears and said with a smile: "Why do you say it as if you are vindictive?"
Li Qi smiled and said: "Then let me put it another way. People in the world slander you, bully you, humiliate you, laugh at you, belittle you, despise you, hate you, and lie to you; but you only need to tolerate them and let them be free.
He, avoid him, be patient with him, respect him, ignore him, wait for a few more years and you can see him."
Li Shishi thought silently in his heart, and suddenly felt a bright light coming into his heart. The smile on his face became sweeter, and he said, "Isn't this also fighting spirit?"
Li Qi shook his head and said: "This is not grudge, but because I believe there will always be someone who understands your tolerance, tolerance, and waiting. Maybe not tomorrow, not next year, but ten or twenty years? If you don't want to worry, you have to wait.
You must first have a tolerant heart. Happiness is not because you have more, but because you care less." (To be continued...)
ps: It's been a long time since I updated the third update. I feel a little sorry for everyone. There will be another update in the afternoon...