Wait, this... this is very strange. I started to panic, but I could still maintain my thinking ability. According to common sense, according to common sense, since I am a living person, I must have parents, right?
No, I can't remember them. No matter how hard I try, I don't even have an impression of them, let alone their appearance or height.
Nothing, a blank.
All in all, calm down first. I continued to comfort myself, but controlling the spread of thoughts seemed to be much more difficult than usual. Ever since I discovered that I couldn't remember my parents, my panic has been unable to be controlled. It has even almost It's gotten to the point where it's getting irritating and irritating.
Being upset and angry because of fear is really a wonderful result.
Ah... No, if I continue to think like this, I probably won’t be able to come up with a clue in my life. I don’t know how long it took, but those scattered thoughts finally disappeared. It’s okay, okay, if I keep thinking like this, I might not be able to figure it out. Going crazy.
For a moment, I even began to seriously consider the possibility that I might be a robot and was sent to a repair shop for inspection because my brain was damaged by water.
I can still think normally and recall what happened to me this morning. But I shouldn't be an orphan... If I were an orphan, I should be able to know my situation directly and clearly, right? Instead of getting entangled in Troubled by "Why can't I remember my parents?"
After thinking about it this way, I suddenly felt that the heavy pressure on my heart was relieved a lot.
"Doctor Sun." While I was continuing to ponder, a voice suddenly sounded from beside the bed. "The patient probably hasn't regained consciousness yet."
I have recovered! I am conscious! When I recover, I will go out and file a complaint against you! Quackery!!!
I was yelling in my head, and when the poor little Dr. Sun saw me, he started staring at the spot ten centimeters above my head in a daze as before.
Can't you look down a little?
Hey, Thief Sun, look here! Look at my big eyes that move up and down!
I dazzled my eyes until I almost felt dizzy. Finally, like manna falling from the sky, I heard Dr. Sun's questioning voice of "Huh?"
"Sir, can you hear me?" Dr. Sun came over and looked into my eyes and asked, "If you can, please look down."
Great! I cheered in my heart, and then stared down hard, trying to look at my feet.
"Okay, you can come and see me." Dr. Sun's voice seemed to be very happy. "Please look at my fingers."
He stretched out an index finger, placed it in front of me, and then slowly moved it up, down, left and right.
"You can move up and down, but you can't move left and right..." He moved his fingers for a while, frowned and said to himself, "Can you blink?"
That's great. I blinked my eyes slowly and firmly twice, and then blinked a few times quickly to express, "I can still do this!"
"Then, please blink once to mean 'yes' and twice to mean 'no'." He made a suggestion. "Although there are communication devices specially designed for your situation, but Even if you just borrow it, it will still take some time."
Is this... something that needs to be answered? I thought about it for a while and blinked.
Dr. Sun looked very happy. He nodded and started to ask questions.
"Do you know you are in the hospital?"
Blink.
"If I touch your body like this, do you feel it?"
He touched my limbs, even my right leg. Fortunately, I could feel it.
Blink.
"Did you know you had surgery?"
I really don’t know this. I’ve already had the surgery? That being said, I do feel some dull pain in my legs and head. Of course, it’s much more comfortable than the previous pain that made me go crazy.
Blink twice.
"Did you feel any discomfort in your body before the car accident?"
Dr. Sun asked a question that surprised me.
Before the car accident? To be honest, I can barely remember the car accident. As for whether I was walking or riding a bicycle when I was hit by the car, I have no memory at all. And the memories from earlier need to be carefully considered.
It was really difficult to get up.
How many times should I blink at this time? Once or twice? I was a little confused, and then all kinds of thoughts came to my mind. It became difficult to understand what I was thinking.
Got up.
"Mr. Zhao, Mr. Zhao?" Just when I was lost in all kinds of strange thoughts, Sun Lien suddenly interrupted my strange thoughts with words in time, "Are you okay?"
I had to blink twice now. To be honest, there is definitely something wrong with my current state. Which normal person would not be able to even blink because he has too many thoughts in his mind?
"Did you just feel that you had so many thoughts that it hindered your actions, or was it because you had so many thoughts that you couldn't decide which one should be considered?" Sun Lien squinted and looked at the top of my head again,
It’s strange. Is there any instrument or brand there that shows my current condition? But these two questions he asked were very precise... Could this be some kind of sequelae of surgery?
I blinked twice, with a long interval between the two blinks, to indicate that the answer to both questions was "yes".
"Appearing at the same time?" he asked with a frown.
Blink once.
Dr. Sun fell into a long silence, then he nodded towards me and whispered, "Your current situation is more complicated. As your attending doctor, I will briefly explain your current situation to you."
After seeing me blink once, he pulled out a metal folder from the bag on his hand and flipped through the contents.
Hey...since you are my doctor, please keep my condition in mind!
"First of all, you are now under the influence of a disease called 'Locked-in Syndrome'." Sun Lien glanced at the top of my head again, and then continued, "The main characteristic of this disease is that the whole body is paralyzed, and only the eyeballs can
Some patients can also blink their eyelids by moving them up and down."
Oh, how to cure it?
"Before that, due to the car accident..." Dr. Sun continued, "You had an open fracture of the femur of your left leg and a degloving injury on your left leg. At the same time, you had a fracture of the left skull."
So you performed the operation on me. I blinked to show that I understood.
So how to treat this damn syndrome?
"Currently we still need to do some other tests to clarify the cause of your locked-in syndrome." Dr. Sun put away the documents in his hand, "After the cause is clarified, maybe we can find a way to treat your disease."
Wait a moment, maybe? That means there is a possibility that we can’t find a way?
I started to panic.
My current situation is simply like a real representation of a nightmare. A living person is trapped in his own body, you know? I shook my eyes hard, trying to make the young doctor in front of me understand what I meant.
I don't want "maybe we can find a way", you have to treat me!
"We still need to observe your situation a little. If nothing happens, you can meet with them this afternoon." Dr. Sun obviously did not understand what I meant. He showed me a gentle smile. But in
In my opinion, this smile is no different from sarcasm.
"Your parents and wife have been staying in the hospital for two days." Dr. Sun suddenly said, "I forgot to tell you that it is the second day after the operation."
I didn't care about the time issue at all. All my attention was focused on the five words "parents and wife." How pitiful the god was, the excitement in my heart was simply indescribable. This kind of feeling that I originally thought I had nothing to rely on,
As a result, I learned that there were three people waiting for me... This feeling... was just like a person who was about to die of thirst while trekking in the desert, and suddenly found a can of ice-cold Coke in his hand. It was even more disturbing.
What's exciting is that this angel who brings sweet rain down from the sky tells you that there is a convenience store about 400 meters ahead, turn left, and there are 48 large refrigerators, and you can drink all the drinks in it.
If it weren't for the fact that I couldn't cry, I would really want to cry.
"I'll go arrange the next examination first." Dr. Sun patted my hand in a friendly manner, "At least you're awake, which is a good thing."
If we didn't have this can of Coke, maybe it would be better to just sleep and die. But since the convenience store is just ahead, let's hold on a little longer.
I started looking at the ceiling in a daze. The ceiling in the hospital always gave people a strangely boring feeling. There were at least some things on the ceiling in other places that could be used to observe, but in the hospital... there was nothing. I didn't even
I can find a lamp that I can use to look at.
After falling asleep several times and being frightened twice by the strange and uncontrollable thoughts in my head, I finally heard some noises. Some noises were different from the doctors and nurses coming to check on my condition.
"Son..." I heard a trembling voice from a woman who sounded a bit older, "You... don't scare mom!"
Who could I scare by lying motionless on the bed? Although this thought flashed through my mind, I could also guess that this person was probably... the mother who I had unfortunately forgotten.
"Keep your voice down, he needs to rest." This was the voice of a middle-aged man. According to common sense, this was my father.
"Husband..." The timid female voice sounded trembling as if she was about to cry, "You... wake up!"
Well...although I can't speak or move, I'm still awake.
Facing complete strangers, I fell into a state of panic that I cannot describe in detail. Reason told me that these three people were probably the closest people to me in the world. But emotionally I could not have any feelings for them at all.
The "sense of closeness". Rather than being a relative, it seems that I am receiving the passionate care of three strangers. And I can't move and can't speak, which makes me feel even more embarrassed.
Doctor Xiao Sun...didn't you tell them what my current condition is before letting them in?
"He can't speak or move now. He can only move his eyeballs up and down, and he can blink." Dr. Sun's voice came from behind. Did you... you really didn't explain it to them in advance?