I recall that the last time I saw Jun Xuanji was in the so-called nightmare of original sin.
Jun Xuanji said that there is a lot of blood of original sin between heaven and earth, and there are also many people who are guilty of original sin.
She herself is one of them. Not only is she a person of original sin, but she has also been fused with the blood of original sin.
The only difference is.
Jun Xuanji said that the blood of original sin that she fused was the only drop of original sin blood that had mutated, and was also the only drop of original sin blood that was alive.
At that time, Gu Qingfeng asked what the difference was between the two.
Jun Xuanji said that only the living blood of original sin is the blood of original sin in the true sense, and only the living blood of original sin has life.
Jun Xuanji also said that if she awakens this drop of living blood of original sin, it will awaken the spiritual will of original sin, and may then become the incarnation of original sin and the source of the second original sin.
Jun Xuanji also said this.
I have no previous life, and all unrighteous people have no previous life, and are cursed by cause and effect.
She also said, don’t believe in cause and effect, cause and effect are false.
She said that some people want to become the embodiment of original sin.
Or cause and effect, or fate, or original sin, she didn't know... She forgot, she only knew that everything had already begun, when Gu Qingfeng merged with that drop of original sin blood, and when she embarked on the path of searching for cause and effect.
By that time, it had already begun.
She also told Gu Qingfeng not to get lost, especially not to get lost on the road of cause and effect. Once lost, he would become the incarnation of original sin.
Gu Qingfeng didn't understand what Jun Xuanji said at the time.
But after awakening the blood of original sin in his body, he seemed to understand.
Because he can feel it.
Although it was very vague and weak, Gu Qingfeng could really feel it.
And this feeling becomes increasingly clear as the blood of original sin continues to erode his body and soul.
Perhaps it is as Jun Xuanji said, when he awakens the blood of original sin, this drop of original sin blood comes to life. When this drop of original sin blood is resurrected, he may really become the incarnation of original sin.
"You can feel it, right? You must be able to feel it, you must be able to."
Jun Xuanji looked at Gu Qingfeng and murmured softly: "It's doomed, everything is doomed."
Gu Qingfeng also looked at her and said: "If you want to kill me, you can do it now, without waiting for Wudao Mountain to come."
"Kill you?" Jun Xuanji shook her head slightly, as if she was very hesitant, and said: "I don't know if I want to kill you, I don't know if I should kill you, let alone whether I want to kill you, I don't even know that I will.
It won't end. I want to end it, but I don't want it to end... I know why I want to end it all, but I don't know why I don't want it to end."
"I forgot... and was lost..." Jun Xuanji's eyes were very empty, and she looked at Gu Qingfeng quietly, and said softly: "Perhaps it is because of this confusion and hesitation that I choose to forget, and I choose
Lost…”
"You are also confused and hesitant, right? You don't know how to make a choice, right?"
Facing Jun Xuanji's inquiry, Gu Qingfeng fell silent.
indeed.
Today, Gu Qingfeng is indeed confused and hesitant. The fact is just as Jun Xuanji said, he doesn't know how to make a choice.
He asked himself more than once in his heart.
If when Wudao Mountain comes, my existence will really cause the black hole of cause and effect to open, it will really cause the curse of cause and effect to be shrouded, and it will really be the incarnation of original sin, what will I do? Let it happen, or what?
to be honest.
Gu Qingfeng doesn't care about cutting off these three thousand avenues, nor does he care about destroying this world.
He only cares about the people he cares about.
If these three thousand avenues are cut off and this world is destroyed, where will the people he cares about go?
Will it be affected by the black hole of cause and effect and the curse of cause and effect?
have no idea.
Gu Qingfeng really doesn’t know.
"Can you agree to my request?"
Jun Xuanji suddenly asked.
Gu Qingfeng was puzzled and asked: "What is the request?"
"When Wudao Mountain comes, no matter what you choose, you must kill me first, okay?"
Hear the words.
Gu Qingfeng was suddenly startled.
This sentence was so familiar to him, yet so strange.
He still clearly remembered that Yun Nishang once said such words to him.
Feng Zhuyue also said this to herself.
Tang Hengxi also said it.
Even Setting Sun Wuyou said it.
Now Jun Xuanji also said this.
"Why?"
"I want to be free..."
"Can I be freed by killing you?"
"Maybe."
"perhaps?"
"perhaps."
"Even you yourself are not sure. What if I kill you but you cannot escape?"
Jun Xuanji did not answer this question. She still looked at Gu Qingfeng, her eyes became more complicated, and she became more confused and hesitant. She shook her head and said "I don't know."
"If I die, will you be free? Will all this end?"
"have no idea……"
After saying that, Jun Xuanji added: "I won't allow you to die either. I said that I will wait for you in Xuwu Mountain. I will always wait for you. I know and firmly believe that you will come back one day."
This sentence is both familiar and unfamiliar to Gu Qingfeng, because in the original sin nightmare, there was such a voice that kept repeating this sentence. Gu Qingfeng still doesn't know who that person is.
She just said this, looked at it like this, and said: "My true self told myself that I want to wait for you, waiting for you to come back, but my self told myself that I don't want you to come back... I want to end it.
Of all these, I don’t know which one is the real me, I am lost...really lost..."
"You...will also be lost..."
"You will too..."
What Jun Xuanji said was always so incomprehensible and blabbering that Gu Qingfeng had never understood it before, and this time was no exception.
"Kill me before you get lost, okay? Just treat me as your whole self, okay?"
Jun Xuanji begged again.
Gu Qingfeng shook his head and said, "I don't know how."
"Why?"
Gu Qingfeng stared at her and said solemnly: "I can't do it."
"Why can't you do it?"
"Reluctant to give up."
"Why don't you give up?"
This time Gu Qingfeng did not respond.
But Jun Xuanji didn't ask any more questions, and looked closely at Gu Qingfeng. After a long time, she gently closed her eyes, turned around, as if she was about to leave, and said, "You know what? If you even connect me
If you are not willing to kill, it means that you have bowed to fate."
"You are a variable, a variable. The world is unknowable, destiny cannot be determined, and cause and effect cannot be followed. The only one who can know, determine, and follow is you."
"As a variable, you value love and righteousness more than anyone else. Fate may have seen through this a long time ago, so you and I will meet each other in this and ancient times."