"Then what do you mean?" Wang Xudong was anxious, "I know you won't give up, and I agree with your compromise. What do you mean by giving up now? You are unwilling to give up your career and your ideals. Could it be that you
Do you want to give up this child?"
His mind was in a mess right now, and he had no idea how a good relationship could suddenly become like this. Why would two people who were good people get into a fight when they have a meal together.
"I didn't say I would give up this child, let alone my job because of the child or for any reason." Zhang Xiaoyun said decisively, "There is nothing that can make me give up. I promised you to make compromises, including being on time.
I want to take maternity leave and get a clerical job after giving birth, but you can't go too far and ask me to give up what I'm doing."
"Xudong, I think two people should respect each other, and even more so when they get married. I know there is a huge gap between the two of us. I don't know what I can do, but I can only help you as much as possible.
, I will try my best to understand you and not interfere with any of your work matters or decisions."
"But you didn't support my work from the beginning. I understand and know that my work is indeed dangerous, and I have tried hard to make changes. But you can't see anything and only think that I don't
Listen to you, you made me feel that I was wrong all along and that this was a mistake from the beginning to the end."
Zhang Xiaoyun shouted regardless: "All your decisions now are based on your children. Everything is because of your children. If there were no children, you and I would not be where we are today. And this child should not have existed from the beginning.
Now all this proves that it was a mistake in the first place.”
"Maybe you shouldn't have forced yourself for this child in the first place. If you hadn't chosen me, you wouldn't have to bear the risks and worries caused by my work today. You could be with someone who loves and understands you more."
Wang Xudong's heart went cold when he heard it. He did not expect Zhang Xiaoyun to say these words. These words were like a knife, cutting his heart with pain.
"Xiaoyun, I didn't expect you to say that."
Wang Xudong said calmly. In fact, his heart was churning and in great pain, but he couldn't say it, let alone complain. Because he was a man, he had to be responsible for his own choices.
"I also said that I have always known what kind of person you are. You are always full of a sense of justice and very persistent. You can risk everything for your ideals. I know, but I still choose you, or
I’m willing to be with you, but what man wouldn’t worry about his wife and hope that she can do an ordinary job in peace, without danger and without too much hardship?”
"But I don't want you to think that this marriage requires you to give up and sacrifice too much, so I would rather be busy at work every day and come home late, and I would try my best to prepare meals and wait for you to come back or pick you up. I want to use my
Ways to share it for you.”
"You have a case, and I'm more worried and anxious than you. I don't want you to be too tired, so I stay with you for so long. I don't like to get involved in other people's work, but I still follow to analyze the case and help you sort it out.
Clues, I know what I can do is really limited, but if I do more, I can help you share some of the burden and make you have less hard work."
"In my opinion, these are all things I should do, but maybe I haven't done enough, so you don't feel happy, and you still feel that you have to give up a lot."
"We have agreed a long time ago that even if it was indeed a mistake at the beginning, we will use our future happiness to correct and make up for this mistake. During this time, I have always thought that we have done it, but I didn't expect that in your mind
It turns out that I am so bad, and you never said that I have caused you such great injustice."
"You can regard this child as a mistake, but don't forget that he is innocent. If you have to say that it is a mistake and you must be held accountable, then it is also my fault and I should bear the responsibility. I can't say that I let you
It is even more impossible to let this child bear the responsibility and face all this."
Wang Xudong said: "You tell me, whatever you want me to do, I will do it in the future, including that I will no longer interfere with your work or block your ideals. As long as it is what you want to do, I will do it."
I support you, as long as you feel happy."
Wang Xudong felt deeply confused for the first time since his marriage. He had been trying his best to maintain this relationship, but the result was that he did everything he could, but in the end what he got was Zhang Xiaoyun's sudden outburst. It turned out that
She was so aggrieved.
This was the first time after marriage that a suspicion flashed through Wang Xudong's mind: Did he and Zhang Xiaoyun not understand each other too well and lack acceptance and tolerance?
Zhang Xiaoyun was a little dazed for a moment, but Wang Xudong had already stopped her: "Stop running around at night and have a good rest. Don't go out when you are angry. This is your home, and it will be there at all times."
After he finished speaking, he went to the study to be alone in a daze. His mind was very confused now and he wanted to be alone for a while. There was such a sudden quarrel for no reason, and it was not even a quarrel at all, but it made him feel very
depression. At the same time, he also realized that this was the first time the problem between him and Zhang Xiaoyun broke out, and everyone had selectively ignored it before.
Wang Xudong was smoking a cigarette in the study. He didn't know how long he sat there until the study door was pushed open and Zhang Xiaoyun walked in. He immediately started coughing because the room was filled with the choking smell of cigarette smoke.
Wang Xudong kept smoking.
"Why did you come in?" Wang Xudong quickly put out the cigarette, fearing that it would be bad for Zhang Xiaoyun's health, "Don't stay here, it's not good for your health."
Zhang Xiaoyun still stood without moving: "Can we have a good talk?"
"Then go out and talk. This place smells of smoke." Wang Xudong stood up and pulled Zhang Xiaoyun out of the study.
The two of them sat down in the living room. Zhang Xiaoyun said calmly: "Xudong, I'm sorry..."
Wang Xudong smiled bitterly and waved his hands: "Don't say sorry to me. I never want to hear these three words in my life, and I don't want to say these three words again, because once they are said, it means that the damage has been caused, and there are many more.
It is irreparable harm."
"And you don't feel sorry for me in any way. In fact, I should have said this first. I didn't do a good enough job. I didn't consider that you were a pregnant woman, and I didn't consider your mood and feelings. I knew that pregnant women had physical problems.
, the pressure and suffering you endure are beyond the imagination of ordinary people, so it is normal for you to have some emotional fluctuations, but I didn’t even notice it.” (To be continued)