Wang Xudong looked at Qin Kexin, but didn't know how to answer her. For himself, he could stay rational and face and deal with it calmly, but he had no way to ask Qin Kexin to do it.
Qin Kexin didn't look at him, she just stared at the ceiling silently for a while before saying, "I know, my mother is gone."
"From now on, I will become an orphan completely."
Wang Xudong's heart felt as if he had been stabbed hard by a knife, "Kexin..."
"Auntie will always love you..."
He also wanted to make Qin Kexin less painful, but the reality was that other than this pale comfort, he couldn't say a word.
Qin Kexin stared blankly at the ceiling and said slowly: "I know, I know that no matter whether she is alive or dead, or what state she is in, the person she cares about and loves the most will always be me, and she will always love me.
If people really have a soul, then her soul will look at me in heaven and love me forever."
"But what I want is for her to be by my side. I will accompany her, talk to her, tell her anything, push her out for a walk, and eat together, like all other mothers and daughters, family members, just like any other mother and daughter, I will tell her everything."
Together every day."
Qin Kexin just spoke slowly. She didn't shed a single tear, but her eyes were terrifyingly empty, as if she had no soul at all. Seeing her like this, Wang Xudong would rather she cry loudly and vent all her pain.
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"I told her that when she gets better, we will travel together, take her to see the places where my dad used to work, take more photos, tell dad that we are very happy, so that he can rest assured. But why
, I don’t even have this chance of happiness?”
"Why is it that my mother, who has worked hard and suffered all her life, can't even give her a little bit of happy time in the end?"
Qin Kexin's face was so painful that she was distorted, but she still couldn't shed tears. When people are overly sad, there are no tears, only the endless pain in their hearts: "My mother is dead, and I will never have a home again.
It is impossible to have happiness. Every day from now on, I will only live in pain and regret, because when I think of everything I enjoy, my mother will not be able to enjoy it. Every day, I will regret not cherishing it when she or I
When I was with her, I quarreled with her, and I was separated from her for so long..."
"If I knew that my time with her was so short, then I would never be separated from her for a day. I would give up everything, no career, no ideals. Because at any time, I can start over.
But her life will never have a chance to start over... I will return to her, help her realize all her wishes, lead her to do the things she wants to do, and make her happy every day."
All Wang Xudong could do was hold her hand and listen to what she said. Qin Kexin's words and her pain were all torturing him. In fact, anyone who heard it would feel the same sadness.
"But I haven't given her anything. I only gave her a little bit. Why can't she wait for me?" Qin Kexin asked painfully: "Mom, why don't you wait for me? I would rather you take me with you."
...At least I can still be with you in the future, I don’t want to lose you, and I don’t want to be an orphan..."
Qin Kexin, who was already an adult tomorrow morning, was as painful as a child at this moment. However, children still have the right to cry, but she wanted to cry but couldn't. She just held it in,
Then he passed out again.
Wang Xudong panicked. He had seen such a situation before. He knew it was due to excessive mood swings, but he was still scared when he saw Qin Kexin fainting again and again. The life and death he experienced this night and the death of Qin Kexin's mother left him helpless.
Don't worry about Qin Kexin's condition.
He hurriedly called the doctor, and administered oxygen and first aid. Finally, Qin Kexin's condition was stabilized and she continued to fall into a coma. This was the best situation. It was better to let her rest at this time.
Wang Xudong could only sit silently beside Qin Kexin's bed to accompany her to prevent her from waking up again or other situations.
In this way, Wang Xudong sat for a whole night. This night was so long and difficult. In fact, he knew very well that what was really more difficult was the life after this night. For Qin Kexin, this was the case.
At this moment, Wang Xudong never dreamed that after this night, his life would become equally painful and difficult. He also did not expect that what happened this night would change the fate of many people.
Qin Kexin slept for a very long time this time, and she finally woke up slowly in the morning. Seeing Wang Xudong still guarding the bedside, her tears slowly fell: "Thank you."
Wang Xudong said nothing and held her hand firmly. This was Qin Kexin's most painful time. He must protect her and accompany her through this difficult time.
After Qin Kexin woke up, she had become much more sober. Her mother's death was the most painful and heaviest blow to her, but she had no choice but to face it.
"Xudong, I'm fine, don't worry. I know that no matter how painful I am now, I have to face this fact. After all, I will be buried in peace. I can't let my mother lie in the morgue so deserted... I still have to face it.
I want to send her to reunite with my father."
"Perhaps, this may be a relief for my mother. She has missed my dad for so long, and now she can see my dad. I just hope that people really have souls and heaven and hell. I hope they can be in the world.
Reunion in heaven, I hope they are happy..."
Qin Kexin's tears fell quietly as she spoke. Wang Xudong knew that if she could cry like this and speak out, her emotions would slowly resolve, at least she would be much better than her previous situation.
Next, Qin Kexin insisted that Wang Xudong go back to rest: "You have been guarding me here all night. Even a strong person's body cannot bear it. Besides, what is the situation at home? I can't occupy you like this just because of my affairs.
Friends are friends, you can't say you don't even care about your own family."
"If your wife asks you later why you didn't come back all night, I will explain to her later."
Qin Kexin spoke tiredly, her voice was still hoarse when she spoke, which made Wang Xudong feel relieved and not distressed. He persisted in not wanting to go back, for fear that Qin Kexin would be unable to bear it even more after he left.
"I'm fine. You don't have to be brave. This is not the time to be brave. You have to learn to give yourself time and spend it slowly. I can't bear the pain for you. I can only accompany you as much as possible. No matter what,
We are all friends, but unfortunately what I can do as a friend is too limited."
Wang Xudong said these things out of his heart. If he could, he really wanted to take Qin Kexin's place and face all these realities in pain. He had faced it twice himself and knew how difficult it was. His heart felt like it had been stabbed.
It was stabbed with a knife, so he didn't want Qin Kexin to face this. (To be continued)