Wang Xudong understood all this, and because he understood it, he could not forgive himself at all.
Zhang Xiaoyun was his wife, the one he wanted to protect his whole life, but he hurt his wife and indirectly killed his own child.
Thinking of these, Wang Xudong's heart ached so much that he wanted to kill himself. He could not forget the two of them sitting on the sofa chatting before. He stroked his belly and guessed the child's appearance and personality with Zhang Xiaoyun, thinking about how he would grow into a child in the future.
What kind of person... All those warm and beautiful pictures have been wiped out with the miscarriage of the child, leaving only the pain that is difficult to heal.
Wang Xudong just sat beside Zhang Xiaoyun's bed, sitting quietly like a statue, looking at Zhang Xiaoyun's sleepy face. Even in such a sleepy state, Zhang Xiaoyun's brows were still furrowed. It can be imagined that
How much pain she was bearing. Wang Xudong wanted her to wake up as soon as possible. He would hug her tightly and tell her that he would not let her face all this alone. No matter how difficult the road ahead, he would accompany her.
Go down.
But sometimes, he would rather Zhang Xiaoyun just fall asleep like this, because the pain when he wakes up will only be heavier than in his sleep.
Wang Xudong never imagined that in this short period of time from last night to now, he would have to face so many life and death, not to mention that his flesh and blood would also die. From the moment he knew the existence of this child, he had dreamed
They both wanted to be a good father, and he made so many preparations for this, but in the end, they never even met each other.
"It's a boy. The doctor said that if he can find a way to save him in another month, he might be able to survive..." Zhang Xiaoyun's mother cried so hard that she almost fainted when she thought about it. "I miss the child with arms and legs.
I hugged him and wanted to exchange my life for his. Such a small child didn’t even open his eyes..."
Zhang Haotian couldn't listen anymore, so he could only open the door silently and go out to smoke. Everyone knew that he could only hide in a corner and wipe away his tears, but Wang Xudong could not leave. Even after hearing these words, he felt like
Ling Chi was stabbing him one after another, and he could only listen.
Zhang Xiaoyun didn't wake up until it was almost dark. Wang Xudong was the first to notice that she woke up, because he kept observing Zhang Xiaoyun's condition motionlessly until he saw Zhang Xiaoyun move his hands, and then his eyes slowly opened.
Open, he stood up suddenly: "Xiaoyun, you're awake."
Zhang Xiaoyun's face was still bloodless, like a piece of white paper, but she looked at him like she was looking at a stranger. She didn't look at him at all. She just looked at Zhang Haotian and her mother who hurriedly walked over and called out weakly.
Say hello to your parents.
Zhang Xiaoyun's mother's tears immediately started to flow down her face. She looked at Zhang Xiaoyun with great sadness: "Xiaoyun, are you still feeling uncomfortable?"
Zhang Xiaoyun did not answer her mother. Her expression was very calm. She stared at the ceiling for a long time. Finally, her eyes moved to her belly with difficulty. She was now very weak and could not move. She stared at her belly for a long time.
After a while, he slowly asked: "Is the child gone?"
Zhang Xiaoyun's mother burst into tears and almost fainted from crying. Zhang Haotian quickly supported her and said to Zhang Xiaoyun with red eyes: "It's okay, Xiaoyun, you are still young, there will be children in the future..."
He couldn't say any more, and tears were already flowing down silently. That was his daughter. How much he felt for Zhang Xiaoyun, you can imagine how much Zhang Xiaoyun felt for the lost child.
Every scene like this touches Wang Xudong's heart. He squatted down and held Zhang Xiaoyun's hand: "Xiaoyun, I'm sorry I wasn't there at the time. I know you were in pain. It was all my fault. I will use
I will spend my whole life trying to make up for it, and this child will come back in the future."
Zhang Xiaoyun finally glanced at him, then pulled her hand back with expressionless expression, and said lightly: "I would rather it be me who dies than my child."
This kind of ignorance made Wang Xudong more painful than hatred. He knew that Zhang Xiaoyun was extremely discouraged and sad to act like this. He would rather Zhang Xiaoyun made a big noise or got angry with him, instead of being like this
, completely pretending that he does not exist.
Zhang Xiaoyun's mother cried and said: "What are you talking about? There will be another child after it is gone. If you are gone, there will be nothing. How can your father and I live?"
Zhang Xiaoyun closed her eyes tiredly and whispered: "I would rather have nothing, so I don't have to face this."
"There won't be any more. I will never want another child in the future. This is the only one in my life."
No matter how her mother cried bitterly, she remained so calm and lay quietly with her eyes closed, as if she had fallen asleep again.
"Xiaoyun..." Wang Xudong's voice was trembling when he spoke. When he looked at Zhang Xiaoyun, he thought of the time when the two got married. The newlyweds were indeed so happy, even when they were first together.
They didn't have such deep feelings, but in every aspect of getting along with her after getting married, he did exactly what he said at the beginning and learned to love Zhang Xiaoyun.
But all the feelings seemed to have disappeared in the face of this sudden disaster. Zhang Xiaoyun was worse than treating him as a stranger.
"Let's go." Zhang Xiaoyun closed her eyes and said lightly, "I don't want to see you anymore, and I no longer need you. Maybe everything is predestined, and we are united because of our children.
Together, it was a mistake in itself. In fact, I had already planned before that we would divorce when the child was born and I would raise the child by myself. What I didn’t expect was that even God would find out about my thoughts, so I directly divorced him.
The child was taken back."
The blow that Zhang Xiaoyun received can be seen from this. She was originally the person who refused to admit defeat or accept her fate. Now that she has even said this, she would have only scoffed at the idea of destiny.
Wang Xudong looked at Zhang Xiaoyun in shock. He didn't understand why Zhang Xiaoyun said that. She said that she had wanted a divorce for a long time, but he didn't notice it at all. Is this true or fact, or is she desperate after she is sad now?
"Think about it, this child won't be happy when he comes to this world. He probably doesn't want to be the shackles between us, forcibly binding us two people who have no feelings together, so he probably doesn't want to come either.
After arriving in this world for so long, I saw that there was still no hope between us, so I left..."
Zhang Xiaoyun held back her grief and spoke calmly, but tears had already slipped down her face silently: "So it is a good ending to end in this way. That's it, the child is gone, and the relationship between you and me does not have to continue.
.You go, you will be free in the future.” (To be continued)