"When we captured the enemy's airport, one of our tasks as scouts was to control the airport tower. We captured the tower and captured more than 30 enemy soldiers. Then, when a large force came to take over the prisoners we captured
, I killed three prisoners in front of a leader."
Wang Xudong looked at Mayor Zhang in shock for the third time.
"Because, I clearly remember that these three men shot and killed three of my comrades, three comrades in the same class. In that battle, I was the only one left in our class. Can you understand that feeling?
You know it's wrong, you know you can't do it, but you still can't help but do it. You want to avenge them, and you feel you have to do it, because if you don't do it, you will never have a chance again." Mayor Zhang asked Wang Xudong
, "Can you understand that feeling?"
Wang Xudong was silent for a while. He thought of himself, silently took out a cigarette and lit it, then nodded: "I understand."
"You know the rules on the battlefield and the military regulations of our army. Because of this, I was almost sent to a military court. In the end, because I had made too many contributions, the higher authorities made an exception and allowed me to be discharged from the army and transferred to another job. I returned to my place.
, returned to Donghai, became a policeman, then married and had children, until now. After so many years, I have only told you about this matter. The reason is that there are some things that cannot be told to the common people.
, and more importantly, I don’t want to talk about it, because people who have never experienced the battlefield don’t understand the feeling, nor can they understand my state of mind at the time. To this day, I still don’t regret it, let me choose again,
I will still do it.”
Wang Xudong smoked a cigarette and nodded, understanding a lot more about Mayor Zhang's feelings.
"From the reason you told me why you retired from the army, I can read a lot of things from your eyes and tone. I can feel it from the same sentence. When I see you, I feel like I saw the scene thirty years ago.
"I, for so many years, I have never told anyone what happened before I retired from the army, and you are the first one." Mayor Zhang sighed and then smiled at Wang Xudong: "As I get older, I also
It’s become nagging. Just listen to these words and don’t take them to heart.”
"One last question for you."
"You asked."
"What is your relationship with Xiaoyun?" Mayor Zhang asked directly.
Wang Xudong was a little surprised and asked: "Uncle, what do you mean?"
"Is the relationship between ordinary friends or boyfriend and girlfriend? Or will it develop into a relationship between boyfriend and girlfriend in the future? We are all men. To be honest, there is nothing embarrassing about it." Mayor Zhang's question was indeed straightforward enough.
Mayor Zhang's frankness and Wang Xudong couldn't accept it. It was the first time he heard someone ask this question so directly.
"It's always been a normal friendship."
"There is no possibility of continued development in the future?" Mayor Zhang asked next.
This question stumped Wang Xudong. He felt that his answer might not be appropriate, and if it was impossible, it would be even more inappropriate, as if he was directly saying that he despised someone else's daughter.
"Um...Uncle, Zhang Xiaoyun and I are friends and have always gotten along as friends. I have never thought about anything else, and I think she must have never thought about anything else." Wang Xudong answered implicitly and euphemistically.
Mayor Zhang nodded and said: "You don't need to pay too much attention to what I said. I'm just asking. As a father, I must want to know the relationship between you two when you two appear in the middle of the night, because it does.
If people have this misunderstanding, I like to be straightforward when talking and doing things, and I don’t like going round and round, so don’t mind.”
"No, uncle, I did something inappropriate. Even if I want to see you and aunt, I shouldn't come over at night without saying hello."
"Our family doesn't have to pay much attention to it. As long as you let us know the relationship between you two, whether it's a boyfriend or girlfriend or an ordinary friend, it'll be enough for us as parents to have an idea. Let's talk about it.
Look, is there anything else you need my help with?" Mayor Zhang continued to ask.
"Not for the time being. I feel sorry for my uncle to take time out of his busy schedule to help me deal with this trivial matter." Wang Xudong said politely.
"Okay, then let's do it. It's a pleasure chatting with you today. Some things have been kept in my heart for too long and no one has said it. It's a kind of pain. When I say it out, I feel much more comfortable. However, Wang Xudong, today
Don’t let the third person know about the conversation between the two of us, as long as you understand and I understand some things.”
"I understand." Wang Xudong nodded.
"Okay, Wang Xudong, let me say one last thing. You and I are the same kind of people. Your current mood is probably not much different from my mood when I came back from the army. You feel like you can see through life and death. In fact, it is wrong to think so.
If you think this way, it means you really haven't seen it through. Your current state is not called seeing through life and death, but wasting your time. People should do meaningful things in this life. The country has trained you and taught you everything.
You shouldn't bury your ability. Of course, these are just some of my personal opinions. You should go back and think about it yourself. Maybe you have been discharged from the army not long ago. After a long time, you will understand that a peaceful life should not be
Lonely life, loneliness is the most painful thing. Find something for yourself to do, find something meaningful to do, and your whole ability will be buried." Mayor Zhang finally reminded Wang Xudong.
Then he stood up, smiled at Wang Xudong again, patted Wang Xudong on the shoulder and walked out of the study first.
Wang Xudong was stunned, chewing on Mayor Zhang's words over and over again, and suddenly felt a lot of emotion in his heart. Today's conversation with Mayor Zhang, Wang Xudong also felt a sense of loneliness and close friends, because in this city, Zhang
The mayor is the first person Wang Xudong has met who understands him and his past. It is probably the same reason why Mayor Zhang told him so much about him today.
Wang Xudong collected himself and followed Mayor Zhang out of the study.
"Oh, Mom, are you bothered? Really, I've been asking for almost half an hour, and I've told you that we are just ordinary friends. What do you think?" Zhang Xiaoyun said to her mother unbearably on the sofa in the living room.
Ever since Wang Xudong followed Mayor Zhang into the study, Zhang Xiaoyun's mother has been asking about the relationship between Zhang Xiaoyun and Wang Xudong. No matter how Zhang Xiaoyun explained, she did not believe that she and Wang Xudong were ordinary friends.
"It's getting late, uncle and aunt, I won't bother you. I'll come to visit you next time." Wang Xudong said politely, and then left Zhang Xiaoyun's home with Zhang Xiaoyun's mother's persuasion. Zhang Xiaoyun sent Wang Xudong downstairs.