This time I don’t have the shame to talk to you all, so I will seriously write a paragraph from my heart!
From the continuous updates every other day and weekly in recent months, to the longest one-month hiatus in history, now that I’m back, I can only say “I’m sorry” to everyone!
Originally I was too embarrassed to explain anything. After all, a break is a break. No matter how many reasons I gave, I couldn't calm everyone's anger.
But I still want to give everyone an explanation. The reason why I stopped updating is not because I am tired or lazy. In the final analysis, it is just for one reason: I drifted!
This "gone with the wind" does not mean that I stopped writing when I drifted away, but that I regressed when I drifted away.
When I first started writing this book, I had countless ideas and jokes in my mind. I just wanted to write the story I wanted to write, and I just wanted everyone to enjoy reading it and have fun reading it. That was my original intention.
Slowly lost.
Writing is something that requires talent!
Unfortunately, my talent is not high, so I can only make up for it through sweat. I need to constantly read and accumulate, and constantly recharge to prevent myself from deteriorating.
Originally, my habit was to read books for enrichment and think about the plot at the same time, so as to keep myself in the rhythm of creation.
But as the writing of this book took longer and for a series of reasons, the initial enthusiasm was completely lost. I didn’t know when to stop reading to recharge, until I felt that bottlenecks became more frequent and writing the plot became more and more difficult.
An author friend told me that if you can’t continue writing, stop writing and start a new book.
Some author friends also advised me that this book has done well, so I should keep writing it!
I have thought about all these, but the thing that I can't let go of the most is actually the reluctance to let go.
In fact, in the past few months, I have been busy with nothing else, just reading.
I have never counted how many books I have read in the past few months, how many times I have conducted self-reflection, self-thinking, and reimagined the plot.
But no matter what books I read and how many writing techniques I have accumulated, when I put down my phone, lie on the bed and close my eyes, the world in this book is always in my mind!
This is actually a great blessing for me! I finally feel that I have rediscovered the mysterious writing thinking and the enthusiasm that has not been extinguished.
I miss Xu Que very much!
I can’t let go of the Bad Dogs, nor can I let go of you who haven’t left yet!
Therefore, I still want to continue to show off and continue to have sex with Xu Que.
When I come back this time, I don’t plan to slip away again!
For a long time, I updated because of the promise. I thought that by putting pressure on myself, I would force myself to update. But in the end, I broke my trust with you countless times and lost my enthusiasm because of the pressure.
But now, I am back with a passion that I can’t let go and that has been rekindled. No matter how long this high passion can burn, at least it will not be extinguished again.
I don’t want a monthly pass, recommendation tickets or rewards. This is the truth. I just want to code and update!