Chapter 714 714 Rely on, the hurt you have suffered
Ji Yunkai knew that there was no point in dwelling on the past, but tonight, or at this moment, she felt aggrieved. If she didn't speak out, she would definitely suffocate to death.
She always acted indifferent, that's because she kept reminding herself that she should look at the development of things rationally and not act emotionally.
She is not Xiao Jiuan, the guy with low emotional intelligence. She knows what is best for herself, and she knows better what choices to make so that she can live a good life. But...
No matter how rational you are, you can't resist the grievances in your heart, and no matter how high your emotional intelligence is, you can't resist the pain in your heart.
She was bitter, resentful and hateful in her heart, but she kept telling herself: Ji Yunkai, where is your sanity?
Ji Yunkai is the one who is rational and has high emotional intelligence and is not emotional. This is the Ji Yunkai who is called a genius. This is the Ji Yunkai who everyone admires.
But God knows, she doesn't want to be the rational, sensible and polite Ji Yunkai at all, she just has no choice.
She has been alone since she was a child. She has no ability to be emotional or willful.
If she loses her temper, becomes unhappy, or displays her petty emotions, no one will care about her, and no one will compromise because of her petty emotions or her grievances.
Ji Yunkai has always been the one to compromise. Because she is the genius Ji Yunkai, she is the most sensible and polite Ji Yunkai.
After so many years, she has become accustomed to being treated like this. It wasn't until, until... Xiao Jiuan started to pamper her and bring out her temper that she realized that she could also be wronged and angry.
She knew that she was spoiled by Xiao Jiu'an, and she would lose her temper even if she was spoiled. Reason told her that she shouldn't complain to Xiao Jiu'an, but emotionally she couldn't do it.
She knew that this was the only time. If she didn't express the grievance and anger in her heart this time, she might never be able to express it.
"Xiao Jiu'an, do you know how much I hated you at that time?" Ji Yunkai buried himself in Xiao Jiu'an's arms and said with a tearful voice.
At this time, she no longer had the previous anger, she was just stating her feelings at the time.
"Do you know how proud I am? I have been abandoned by so many people since I grew up, and I have never begged them. That was the first time I begged someone like that, not to be proud, not to have dignity, not not to have a future. I
I give up everything, just asking for you...but you regard me as a bed bug, trample me on the ground, and trample all my pride and dignity on the ground."
"At that time, I wanted to kill you, but it was useless. I couldn't do it. I couldn't kill you. I could only watch you leave."
"Later, you found medicine for me, but... I couldn't thank you. I once held my sincerity in front of you, but you trampled it under your feet and dismissed it. I have no choice but to hold my sincerity in front of you again.
Come out."
"Yun Kai... I'm sorry, I'm sorry." Xiao Jiu'an felt as if his heart was being held tightly in the palm of his hand, and it hurt so much.
He clearly held Ji Yunkai in his arms, but... he felt that his heart was empty and full at the same time. This feeling was very contradictory and he didn't understand it himself. He only knew that Ji Yunkai left him at this moment.
Very close, yet far away from him...
However, Ji Yunkai's emotions had calmed down at this moment. She raised her head and looked at Xiao Jiu'an with tear-filled eyes. She smiled cruelly: "Xiao Jiu'an, do you know? That was the first time that I purely held up a flower.
Sincerely, this is the only time I offer it to you. From now on, no matter how you treat me
No matter how good you are and how much you dote on me, I can't hold my pure sincerity in front of you like I did at that time. I'm afraid of being trampled on again, afraid of being humiliated again. Xiao Jiu'an, do you know? I will never forget, I
I will never forget the scene of you turning and leaving while crying and begging you..."
Just like her mother abandoned her back then. She will never forget the scene of that woman walking out of her sight step by step.
She was still young at that time, but she already knew what happened. She even knew that if she kept crying and begging, there might be room for recovery, but she didn't.
That woman doesn't want her anymore, and she doesn't want her anymore. She will never really regard that woman as her mother again, just like...
Now she can no longer hold her pure sincerity in front of Xiao Jiuan.
She was afraid, afraid that if she gave again, she would get bloody abandonment.
Ji Yunkai's tone was very soft and relaxed, but to Xiao Jiuan, every word she said was like a knife, cutting his heart one by one.
Once, he could get all of Ji Yunkai's pure feelings, but he destroyed it with his own hands, destroying the feelings that he could only dream of now.
However, he can't blame Yunkai, nor can he regret it. The only thing he can do is to treat Ji Yunkai better.
"Yun Kai, it's me, it's me... I'm sorry, I hurt you first. It doesn't matter, you don't bring your sincerity to me. I will bring my heart to you, okay?"
Xiao Jiuan increased his strength again and locked Ji Yunkai tightly in his arms.
It seemed that only in this way could he feel that Ji Yunkai was his and belonged to him.
Xiao Jiuan's strength was so strong that Ji Yun started to feel pain, but she did not cry out in pain.
She raised her head, looked at Xiao Jiu'an, smiled through tears, and said half seriously and half jokingly: "Okay... I will protect your sincerity well, and I will not ruthlessly trample on other people's sincerity like the same person.
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"Yun Kai, this king is serious." He saw uncertainty in Yun Kai's eyes.
He knew that Yun Kai's body accepted him, but Yun Kai's heart did not fully accept him.
What happened in the past is like a thorn in Ji Yunkai's heart, but...
Ji Yunkai spoke out and dug out the bloody thorn with his own hands. This meant that he still had a chance to heal the wound.
"I am also serious. Although...your sincerity may not be able to exchange for all my sincerity, but at least I also have true feelings for you." If she didn't like Xiao Jiu'an, she would not give in, compromise, let alone
These words will be spoken tonight.
She has always been rational. If she didn't clearly know Xiao Jiu'an's tolerance for her and his feelings for her, how could she reveal her grievances one by one in front of Xiao Jiu'an?
She has been wronged for so many years. She has become accustomed to everything and takes every grievance to heart. If Xiao Jiuan hadn't given her enough sense of security, how could she have allowed herself to speak out?
"Your Majesty, I have been hurt by you, and my wounds are bloody. Now I cannot love you without reservation, but as long as you don't let me down, I, Ji Yunkai, will not let you down. In this life, I am yours
Princess Yanbei will only be your Princess Yanbei." Ji Yunkai closed his eyes and leaned on Xiao Jiuan's chest.
If nothing unexpected happens, this man's chest will be her support in this life... (To be continued)