Gao Yan glanced at her secretly, and when he saw that her expression did not show any disgust, he looked away, lowered his head guiltily, and continued: "As time goes by, I admire you more and more, and it slowly develops...
It was an abnormal feeling, but I never dared to think about it. I knew that this kind of feeling was abnormal and abnormal, but I really couldn't control it, so I wrote all my feelings in a diary."
Li Yinglu's expression did not change. She seemed to be listening to him carefully and recalling events from many years ago.
Gao Yan continued: "Tian Xiao has never liked me, and I can't afford to offend him, so I'm on the same page with him.
But one time, I forgot my diary in the classroom, and he peeked at my diary."
Speaking of this, his expression became more and more ashamed and embarrassed, "Then, he knew what I was thinking. Since then, I have been frightened every day, afraid that what I see in your eyes will no longer be appreciation and love, but disgust.
Tian Xiao used this matter to blackmail me. I would give him whatever he wanted. He wanted to be the Chinese class representative, so I resigned from my position as the Chinese class representative. He thought that I would not be able to pass him in the exam. Since then, I have
From time to time he performs abnormally, I thought that was enough, I really didn’t expect that he would.”
He covered his face with his hands to block the remorseful expression on his face, "I gave in step by step, thinking that he would be satisfied, but I didn't know that he was such a beast and did something worse than a pig or a dog to you!
Ever since he discovered my unbearable thoughts, I have been living in panic. I am afraid that if everyone knows about this, all the teachers who used to like me will look at me with disgust, and all the classmates around me will alienate me.
So I dare not pay attention to you less and less.
If I hadn't been so timid and fearful at that time, I would have discovered your abnormality and stopped that beast Tian Xiao. Later, when you resigned and left, Tian Xiao used obscene words to slander you in front of me. He said..."
"I would rather believe that it was a lie he made up to stimulate me, but I know him and he is not lying. I beat him up, but it was no use. Then I wanted to find you, but I heard that you resigned
After you left Jiangcheng City, I asked your parents and they didn't know where you went."
Gao Yan said, his voice choked up, "I really didn't know that I would bring you such harm. If I knew..."
However, it's too late to say anything now.
Twenty years have passed, and the original scene is like a lingering image, appearing in his mind all the time, along with Tian Xiao's proud and arrogant expression.
"Gao Yan, you idiot, don't you know? Teacher Li, who is so holy in your heart, has long been mine. Didn't you see her look at that time, like..." The following words were unsightly, and everyone
Gao Yan was tortured day and night.
Gao Yan didn't regret at all that he beat him up like crazy. Even if he was blinded, that beast deserved it.
The beast was unrepentant and covered his bleeding eyes while laughing, "You are just a coward. I did what you didn't dare to do, hahaha..."
"Later, I heard about you after you went to college. You died and committed suicide due to depression. I knew that you must have had a psychological shadow because of that incident. And the cause of all this is me, so I
Damn it. If you want to kill me, I will have no complaints."
After hearing this, Li Yinglu's expression changed slightly, but she remained calm.
Su Keke frowned in confusion. Seeing that he didn't seem to say anything else, he couldn't help but interjected: "Mr. Gao, why don't you say anything else?
For this reason, you lost your spot for admission to the first grade of high school, which was exactly what Tian Xiao wanted. In the end, the spot for admission fell to him. Not only that, but because of the Tian family’s oppression, your family paid huge medical bills, and your parents
I went around borrowing money for you, and when your life was hard, you only ate one meal a day, and that was one steamed bun."
Gao Yan was stunned for a moment, and clasped and unclenched his hands uncomfortably, "These are my own affairs and have nothing to do with Teacher Li's affairs."
He didn't expect that the other party knew so clearly about his affairs, and even found out his most embarrassing side.
Su Keke shook his head, "We cultivators pay the most attention to the cycle of cause and effect. If you owe a debt, you must pay it back. Although your diary is the beginning of everything, you have already paid back this debt. Originally, you should have a better one."
life.”
At this point, she looked at Li Yinglu who was silent and did not address Ms. Li again this time. "Teacher Li should know. After Mr. Gao found out that you passed away, he would visit your grave every year. Not only that, he would visit your grave every year."
They will secretly send money to your parents at home.
Think about it for yourself, how big is his fault? Shouldn't he have uncontrollable unethical feelings because of his ignorance in his youth, or should he not allow himself to be targeted by a classmate with a dark and vicious heart? Do you think he is yours?
Debt, but you are not her debt."
Li Yinglu looked up at Su Keke. After a long moment, she suddenly showed a sincere smile and said, "Little master, thank you. And"
She turned her head to look at the man beside her and sighed, "I'm sorry, Gao Yan, you are a good person."
Gao Yan was flattered and shook his head quickly, "I'm not, I really am not. If it weren't for me, you wouldn't be."
"Okay." Li Yinglu interrupted him and said with a smile: "I don't really hate you, I just got deceived by Tian Xiao."
"Tian Xiao made up a story before he died, saying that you used words to blaspheme me in your diary. He was interested in me because he made a bet with you. He also said that he drugged me and threatened me with indecent photos.
The idea was also yours. Of course I don’t believe it all, but I still have some anger in my heart. Sometimes when there is too much blood on my hands, I become less rational."
She showed a hint of apology to Gao Yan, "You don't deserve to die, you should live well.
Gao Yan, you are thirty-six this year. You are no longer young. Do you think you are still the young boy you were? I don’t blame you anymore. Find a woman who likes you to get married and have children in the future. I see the Zhang I am possessing today.
The lady is pretty good..."
As Gao Yan listened, he suddenly covered his face with his hands. After a while, he made a choking sound in his throat, and tears leaked out from his fingers.
"Stop crying, you are such a big person, how can you act like a child?" xdw8
Gao Yan called her in a hoarse voice, "Teacher Li..."
"Yeah." Li Yinglu hummed softly. She used to hate this title, but she forgot how happy she was when she heard the students call her Teacher Li when she first became a teacher.