"There is dinner in the room, I will take you to eat it."
Xu Wei did not refuse and followed Song Yiyang to have dinner.
Maybe he was really hungry. Xu Wei had a good appetite and Song Yiyang also had a good appetite. The two of them rarely talked while eating.
When Song Yiyang was seventy percent full, he put down his chopsticks and picked up a tissue to help Xu Wei wipe the oil stains from the corners of his mouth.
"Eat slowly, the rest is yours." Song Yiyang said, worried that she would choke.
Xu Wei enjoyed Song Yiyang's care and responded.
After the two of them finished eating, Song Yiyang asked Xu Wei, "Should we continue to rest, or..."
"I don't want to sleep now, I want to see the scenery." Xu Wei said, walking towards the floor-to-ceiling window.
Song Yiyang allowed her to think, but went to get his coat, walked behind her, and put his coat on her body.
"I'm not cold." Xu Wei said, taking off his coat.
Song Yiyang put his hands on Xu Wei's shoulders to stop her movement, "Wear clothes even if it's not cold."
There are no windows in the room and there is no air conditioning, but the temperature here is lower than in Sihanoukville, so it is still necessary to keep warm.
Xu Wei had no choice but to listen to Song Yiyang.
The two of them sat in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows, looking at the night scene outside. It was not as prosperous as Westport, but the faint lights looked particularly bright, giving it a quiet beauty.
Song Yiyang held Xu Wei in his arms and talked to her about the past.
"Do you still remember that summer vacation when we went on an outing with our classmates?" Song Yiyang asked.
"Yeah, remember."
At that time, he and Song Yiyang lived in the same room, they were closer than now, and they were happier than they are now.
At that time, he and I were both carefree people, enjoying each other's company, cherishing every minute they spent together, and being extremely intimate.
Song Yiyang kissed Xu Wei on the cheek and said, "I hope our relationship can return to that time."
Back when she was in love, she got close to herself without any worries, relied on herself, and loved herself.
And I only treat her well, give her my whole heart, take care of her, care about her, and only have eyes for her.
Xu Wei shook his head, "You can't go back."
Hearing Xu Wei's answer, Song Yiyang was not surprised. He knew very well the reason for her rejection.
"I'm sorry." Song Yiyang apologized.
Xu Wei said nothing and looked at the scenery outside the window.
Song Yiyang sighed in his heart, lying in Xu Wei's ear, and said seriously, "Wei, from the moment I met you to now, the thing I regret most is that time... I let go of your hand and didn't take good care of you.
I didn’t fulfill my responsibility.”
Mentioning the pain of the past, Xu Wei's heart no longer hurts as much as before. After all, some pain hurts for a long time and hurts much, and it doesn't feel as much anymore.
"Don't you regret loving me?" Xu Wei asked.
He should regret having loved himself. If he had not loved himself, the things that followed would not have happened. Then his college time and his own college time would have been beautiful and bright.
But now, he can find someone he likes to get married and have children.
You can also find a suitable person and live under the bondage of marriage.
Song Yiyang shook his head and replied, "I don't regret it. I will never regret it in this life."
When Xu Wei heard Song Yiyang's voice, she didn't feel any flutter in her heart.
Thinking of the past and the little moments on the university campus, Song Yiyang continued, "At that time, I felt that my life was fulfilling because of you, and because of you, I felt that life had a different meaning."
"Like you and falling in love with you is an important and long-lasting thing in my life. I will never regret it in this life." Song Yiyang said.
Xu Wei just listened quietly and did not want to speak.
In fact, both of them knew that at that time, they were sincerely devoted to each other, and they were very devoted to each other.
Xu Wei knew very well in her heart that Song Yiyang had been kind to her, protected herself, and regarded herself as life, but...
In the end, he abandoned himself and left himself.
Maybe some people dispersed while walking, and Song Yiyang and I were such people, right?
The image of a child gradually emerged in Xu Wei's mind, and her defense against Song Yiyang gradually dropped, but she knew very well that she had no intention of forgiving Song Yiyang.
"Yiyang." Xu Wei suddenly called out intimately.
"Yes, I'm here." Song Yiyang replied immediately, feeling happy and happy because such a title was so rare.
"Do you want... our child?" Xu Wei asked.
Song Yiyang responded without any hesitation, "Yes, I miss him very much."
"I miss him too," Xu Wei said. "If he can come to this world, he will definitely be my favorite person. Whether he is a boy or a girl, I love him and I will give all my love to him."
he."
Xu Wei's heart ached, thinking of the undestined child. At that time, she was not accompanied by Song Yiyang, and was abandoned by Song Yiyang. When she didn't know what to do, she didn't even have time to test the gender of the child, so...
That's gone.
Song Yiyang felt very guilty and regretful. He put his face close to Xu Wei's and said seriously, "If I could go back to that time, I would never abandon you. I would do my best to give you and the child the best."
Care and companionship.”
Song Yiyang thought, if at that time, he didn't think too much about what his parents would do if they knew about it, or what his grandparents would think and do when they knew about it, he would only need to think about how to accompany Xu Wei and how to make her go smoothly.
Give birth to a child, and spend the rest of your life with her.
However, I didn't do that at that time.
Xu Wei shook his head, looked at the scenery in front of him, and said to Song Yiyang, "But there are no ifs in life."
In fact, I have also thought that if Song Yiyang did not leave me at that time, I and Song Yiyang would have to face not only themselves and his children, but also the accusations and decisions of their two parents, as well as the opinions and ideas of their friends and classmates.
He and Song Yiyang have to endure a lot.
"Well," Song Yiyang responded, also stating a fact, "What we think about now, we couldn't have imagined at that time."
Just like the cowardly self at that time, when encountering something, he did not make the best choice, but chose to escape and stay away.
Xu Wei did not speak, and took the initiative to lean into Song Yiyang's arms, closed her eyes to prevent the tears from flowing out, and murmured helplessly, "How can I forget you? How...can I...not love you?"
The last three words were too soft and the voice was too low, Song Yiyang did not hear them.
But Song Yiyang heard the previous one, shook his head hurriedly, and said, "Don't forget me, Xu Wei, remember me, remember me forever." (To be continued)