The summer in Harbin is really not that hot. I stood on the street, covering the sun with the back of my hand, and raised my head to look at the sky. It was as blue as a wash, without a single cloud, and the vicious sun beat on my face without any cover.
On my body, I probably wouldn't have cared too much about it in normal times, but it's different for me now. The piece of fairy bone on my arm is like unwashed dirt. It's as embarrassing as it is, but the weather is really too hot.
I really couldn't stand long-sleeved T-shirts, so I made a decision out of desperation. I took out a roll of gauze from the room where Bao Long lived and wrapped it around my arm randomly. In this case, there should be no problem.
.
But after I went downstairs, I realized that the area wrapped with gauze was not breathable. As soon as I came downstairs, I was almost soaked with sweat. Damn it, every time I see this arm of mine, it makes me feel angry. You say I'm idle.
What kind of way can you cultivate if you have nothing to do?
Bao Long and his wife moved away, and just the day before yesterday, they boarded the train to Beijing for their own dreams. Just like that, there is another lewd man from Beijing drifting in the world. We have been friends for many years, and we have long been like brothers.
Generally speaking, now that he has left, I will inevitably feel bad. I remember that we both drank a lot of wine that night, and then we said all the things that should be said and those that should not be said. Thinking about the two of us, we were just like each other before.
A blue-haired idiot walking on the street with his shoulders and back, as if the story happened yesterday. In the past, we always lamented why time moves so slowly. Now think about it, time actually does not move slowly. On the contrary,
It's just a matter of opening and closing your eyes.
From school to graduation, we have been together for so many years. During this period, the gangsters in our 313 dormitory quietly slipped away one after another. At the final moment of separation, I was the only one left. I finally understood,
Even the best of brothers have to go their separate ways.
After sending him to the car that day, I returned to the empty home. It was eerily quiet, without the obscene laughter that Bao Long and his wife made in the house in the past. I wanted to smile bitterly with half my face, but I found that
I can't help but laugh.
Just when I was thinking wildly, the bus came. I shook my head and followed the crowd to squeeze in. This uncle's 104 will always be a pain in my heart. There were always so many people, but fortunately I got on the bus.
Later, I found a fashionably dressed little girl standing next to me, allowing my cloudy old eyes to eat ice cream on this hot and crowded bus. I grabbed the handle with one hand to fix my center of gravity, and my thoughts
But I remembered just now.
I didn’t know what evil possessed me just now. I called Liu Yudi and even asked her to hang out without telling her. I don’t know what I was thinking. It seemed that I was too nervous at that time and blurted out everything without thinking about it.
, by the time I regretted it, it was already too late. When the little girl heard my stammering about asking her to go out to play, she immediately returned to her previous tone and happily agreed, so she made an appointment with me two hours later.
Meet at the entrance of the amusement park.
After hanging up the phone, I regretted it. It was a fantasy that I, a lonely person, could be so leisurely and elegant dating someone else. But for some reason, I didn’t regret it much. Instead, I was a little eager to try it.
, I don’t know why I had such a reaction, but I very coquettishly dug out a few clean clothes from the closet, and then went downstairs humming a little tune.
This is why I never figured it out at the time, but I understand now. At that time, I had five shortcomings and three shortcomings. I wanted to love but didn't dare to love, so I buried this emotion deep in my heart. But I don't know that although I put the emotion
Being depressed does not mean that this feeling does not exist. Maybe I love Liu Yudi. Although I dare not admit it, it is true.
Not long after, the bus arrived at the Harbin Amusement Park. I got out of the bus and from a distance I could see the beautifully dressed Liu Yudi looking around at the entrance of the amusement park with a small bag on her shoulder.
This girl is indeed quite beautiful. It doesn’t matter whether she wears makeup or not. Her beauty seems to be purely natural, especially her eyes, which are always watery. If others didn’t know, they would think that this girl had just cried.
Well, but I know that this is what she was born with. She is born with drought and water. Although I don't see any difference, Liu Yudi is indeed extraordinary in one aspect, such as gluttony, and gluttony. I
She smiled bitterly and said, well, this is the only thing about her that is extraordinary. She can eat five or six bowls in one meal, and she can eat anything greasy, but she has such a devilish figure, which every woman would probably envy.
I took a deep breath, then walked up and said to her with the same expression as before: "Hi~~ little girl, are you alone?"
Liu Yudi turned her head and saw that it was me. She immediately smiled happily. She ran up to me in a few steps, then pouted and said to me: "Yes, I'm alone. The handsome guy will accompany the little girl."
Want to play for a while?”
After that, without waiting for me to react too much, she took my hand and walked towards the ticket office. It didn't matter what she pulled, and immediately I felt a softness in my elbow.
A scent of fragrance penetrated my nose as if it was free, and my heart suddenly surged.
Originally, I wanted to keep a distance from her after seeing her, but now that I have the soft fragrance in my hand, my mind has been blank for a long time. I secretly touched her, with a fashionable short hair, some babies
The fat little face is so delicate. At this moment, all the shortcomings and shortcomings of his uncle have been forgotten by me, brother.
After I took out my wallet and bought two tickets, I held her arm, or she held my arm, and walked into the amusement park. The power of sperm on the brain is really too great.
We held hands and never let go. Now we are just a young couple in the eyes of others. Walking in the amusement park, I felt a long-lost feeling again, that is the eyes of others. Most of the people who come to the amusement park
They were all lovers, and those men and women looked at us. A wretched, thin man with an unnatural expression (the old Chang's fairy-bone relationship) actually held the hand of a beautiful little girl. That kind of good cabbage would even make a pig.
I felt the arching feeling again after many years. I actually had the urge to cry. How many years has it passed?
I guess it's because my dry tree hasn't been nourished for too long, which makes me a little uncomfortable with the feeling of a dead tree blooming into spring. Originally, my delayed expression was enough to make my face paralyzed, but now that I'm in full view of everyone, I suddenly have mixed feelings in my heart.
, I feel everything. As the saying goes, my face reflects my heart, so my old face has a look of happiness, emotion, and loss. No wonder those people think that I have an unnatural expression. My current expression is
Unnaturally, they were all complimenting me, and my whole face was cramped.
Liu Yudi looked very happy. After we walked for a while, she looked at me and then said with some surprise: "Xiao Feifei, what's wrong with your face? Are you sick? By the way, and your hands."
,Why are you wearing a bandage?"
When I heard her ask, I hurriedly withdrew my hand, then covered half of my face, and said to her with some embarrassment: "It's okay, it's okay. This hand was scratched because I didn't sleep well last night and fell off the bed."
My face...my face is like this because I just met an acquaintance, talked too much, and my muscles cramped."
Liu Yudi looked at me like this, sighed, then stretched out his finger and tapped my forehead, and said to me in a somewhat pitiful tone: "You still don't know how to take care of yourself."
This sounded so warm, and it was true. I scratched the back of my head, and then smiled silly at her. Suddenly I realized that even if I smiled silly, I could only cover half of my face, so I quickly held it down again.
When Liu Yudi saw my silly look, he couldn't help it and chuckled. It was so beautiful. At this moment, I really forgot about everything. It was as if I had returned to the wretched young man I used to be.
No worries, I just want to enjoy life and love to the fullest.
Damn it, I thought to myself, it doesn’t matter whether he lives or not, even if he is a prisoner in a labor camp, he still has to eat dumplings during the Chinese New Year, so what if he just has a good day today?
Thinking of this, I became more determined to not care about anything today and just have fun, so I took the initiative to hold the little girl's hand and walked towards the roller coaster.
Although I made up my mind to play it with abandon, after all, it was my first time to play with this thing. They said it was exciting, but originally I was thinking about how exciting it would be. Anyway, I follow ghosts all day long.
Fighting, what kind of car is as exciting as fighting with a ghost?
But I really underestimated the power of this roller coaster. The feeling was simply indescribable. The rapid speed stimulated my poor nerves, causing me to open my eyes wide and scream. I usually passed by it.
When I was in the amusement park, I heard the screams of the people riding the roller coaster inside, and kept laughing at them. Unexpectedly, I joined the group today. After the ride, I almost peed my pants and my calves were a little bit wet.
Turn tendons.
The little girl Liu Yudi laughed when she saw that I was so useless. I couldn't help but sigh in my heart. She said it was her first time to play, but why is the gap between us so big? It's really embarrassing when I think about it.
, I’m still a big old man. Damn.
The two of us were sitting on a bench to rest. Liu Yudi told me, where are we now? I remember that when she was a child, the entire Nianzi Mountain was frozen in winter and covered with snow. She often rode a sledge and slid down the mountain.
, much more exciting than this one. After that, she pointed to a faint scar on her hand and said it was from a bruise at that time.
I looked at her hands, then at her face, and suddenly I felt in a trance, as if I had returned to the scene when we were running together in the mountains when we were children. I was so happy at that time. I looked at this beautiful woman in front of me.
I am a woman who can still vaguely see what she looked like when she was a child, but I am different. Years of suffering and training have already made me weathered.
Looking at her, the strange feeling in my heart suddenly appeared again, my heartbeat began to accelerate, thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump thump.
Then, at this moment, I suddenly felt a stabbing pain in my heart. I didn’t know why, but it suddenly hurt. This pain made me wake up. I realized that I was a little embarrassed now, so I hurriedly changed my attention.
I looked at the entertainment project opposite the bench.
The thing opposite seems to be called "Big Wave Taosha" or I forgot what it is called. To put it simply, it is like a big sieve. After people take off their shoes, they go up, and then the staff sifts them to see who falls down first.
Needless to say, this game is simply too harmonious. There are very few people playing, but there are surprisingly many onlookers, most of whom are old men. There were also a few whistles and cheers from the crowd.
I took a few glances and found the doorway. It turned out that it was summer and the weather was hot, so the young women were all wearing thin clothes. Those who went up to play with this thing had to hold on to the 'sieve' tightly.
With such movements up and down, left and right, the scenery under the skirt and collar is naturally revealed. No wonder these gentlemen enjoy watching it so much. Is there anyone who shouts: "Fix the one on the left! Yes! Make it higher!!"
pretty!!"
This thing is so happy, even I laughed out loud, and then looked at it with a lewd expression. Liu Yudi next to me saw that I had not moved for such a long time, so he raised his head and looked at me, and saw me looking at that with a lewd look on his face.
Bian, suddenly became a little angry, she slapped my shoulder with a small mouth, and then said to me: "Xiao Feifei, why do you think you are so perverted?"
This hit hit me on the shoulder, and it actually hurt, so I smiled bitterly, and then thought to myself, am I perverted? Am I perverted? If this were Lao Yi Lai, this old boy would probably have to rush over and take a look.
So I hurriedly apologized and said with a smile: "I didn't, I just took a look, and observed the disharmonious entertainment facilities produced by capitalism with a critical eye. This is not pornographic. Besides, didn't Amitabha say that
You know, form is emptiness, emptiness is form, seeing means not seeing, not seeing means seeing!"
Don't tell me, I just made this little girl happy again with my nonsense. She wanted to be angry but also wanted to laugh and said to me: "You, you are full of jingles, and you haven't known to change them since you were a child."
I scratched my head with a wry smile, and then said to her: "Isn't this good? If you want me to be like those beasts in disguise, being gentle on the surface but lusting after all sentient beings secretly, I can't do it."
The little girl smiled again, so beautifully.
After playing for nearly a day, it was indeed relaxing, but also very tiring. The little girl seemed to have endless experiences, while I was as tired as the third grandson. Finally, when the park was about to close, we caught up with the last one.
A ride on the Ferris wheel.
I was finally able to rest. The little girl and I were sitting there. The little girl smiled and said to me, "You were so funny in the haunted house just now."
When I think of this, I feel very shameless. Damn it, I didn’t expect that broken haunted house to be so scary. It really frightened me so much. It’s really laughable to tell people. I’ve always been a real person.
People who deal with ghosts actually let a bunch of fake ghosts scare them to the point where they cry and howl.
So I smiled bitterly and said nothing. When she saw that I didn't speak, we both fell silent. The Ferris wheel turned slowly, and the sun outside the window had slowly set. Its afterglow coated the reinforced concrete of Harbin.
It has a layer of golden yellow. This warm color makes people look very warm. Liu Yudi and I looked at each other like this.
After a long time, Liu Yudi suddenly asked me: "Xiao Feifei, can I ask you something?"
The atmosphere suddenly became quite subtle. At that time, she was the only one in my eyes, so I nodded unconsciously. Then Liu Yudi thought about it and mustered up the courage to ask me: "Why did you reject me last time?"
Do you already have someone you like?"
At that time, I really didn’t know what was going on. After hearing what she said, I panicked a little, so I shook my head hurriedly and said to her: “No, it really doesn’t, it’s not what you think!”
When Liu Yudi heard what I said, her eyes became a little moist. Those big eyes looked so moving. She said to me emotionally: "What is that for? Can you tell me?"
Yes, what was that for? I suddenly felt sad in my heart. I know why. Of course I know. But, how can I tell you? Even if I say it, will you believe it? Let you know that there are five disadvantages and three disadvantages.
Is it necessary? Let you know that there are actually ghosts in this society? Moreover, even if I say it, what will it do? Can it change my destiny of being lonely?
Really, at that time I really wanted to tell her all this, but when I thought about it, although we actually grew up together, the world we live in now is completely different. She lives under the sun,
You can laugh to your heart's content and love the person you want to love without any scruples.
But I am different. My destiny has destined that my stage is only the endless night, to listen to those sad souls telling their sad stories. My world is terrifying and desperate, and it is also unknown. Sometimes I
I feel that ignorance is actually a kind of happiness. If I tell her my affairs, with her character, she will only worry about me more. Instead of doing this, it is better not to let her know. Moreover, it is impossible for us, at least
This is the case now, so I can't tell her.
I felt sad for a while and shook my head hard.
Liu Yudi saw that I was unwilling to say anything, so she stopped asking, but her eyes were obviously filled with tears. Those tears filled her eyes and streaked down her face. The setting sun reflected on her face through the window.
, those tears turned golden yellow.
She shed tears, but she didn't wipe them away. She smiled, which looked a little sad. She opened her small mouth and said to me with a slightly nasal voice: "Since you don't want to tell me, I know you must have your own difficulties."
, Okay, I won’t ask anymore, thank you for accompanying me, this is my happiest day, finally, can I ask you something?”
I looked at her, the sadness in my heart had already rushed to my head, and even my nose started to feel sore, but I held back the tears and nodded.
Liu Yudi looked at me crazily and said softly: "Can you kiss me?"