Many years ago, I was still a young boy, and all I could think about was women. At that time, I was not handsome, had no money, and was not good at studies. I belonged to the top of the "five black categories" on campus.
He is the kind of person who can't be found in a crowd. The only thing worthy of praise is his poor mouth. But it was at this time that Du Feiyu and I fell in love.
Later, due to the relationship between five shortcomings and three shortcomings, there was a misunderstanding between the two of us, and we broke up in a confused manner. Maybe we were not grown up at that time, and our minds were not whole. Many years passed in the blink of an eye.
Finally, when I think about it again, in fact, it is not a problem at all.
Maybe it was just because I was young at the time.
At this moment, I looked at Du Feiyu in front of me. This is indeed a small joke that time has played on us. We have all grown up, but I don’t know what to say. I can only do this.
He stared at her blankly, unable to say a word.
"Don't...don't you want to say something?"
It was Du Feiyu who spoke first. She said to me softly, "I don't know how much wine I have drunk now." After hearing her words, it was like a dream.
My facial expression must be quite ugly at this moment, even I can feel that the expression on that half of my face is so stiff and unnatural, and the damn alcohol happened to be on my head at this time, I feel that my
I felt so dizzy that I started to stutter even when I spoke, so I could only say intermittently: "You...you...you..."
In fact, now that I think about it, I was really a failure at that time. You and I were arguing for a long time, but you didn't understand. When Du Feiyu saw me looking so drunk, he probably knew that I drank too much.
So she smiled helplessly, and then said to me: "Are you okay?"
Are you okay? Listening to these words is really more uncomfortable in my heart than a needle prick. Yes, am I okay? Can I get better like this? If I put this sentence in other people's mouth,
It may not be so powerful, but it is true that Du Feiyu said it to me. This woman who I least want to let her know that I am embarrassed, but at this time I am really so embarrassed. Under the fire, I
I just felt like my stomach was churning, so I immediately covered my mouth and ran to the bathroom.
That night, I almost vomited blood. I felt as if I had never been so embarrassed. After I vomited everything in my stomach, I felt like I was exhausted, and even my soul seemed to be separated.
My body and even my steps became lighter, but I knew that I couldn't fall down now. If I fell down, it would be a big joke, so I barely supported myself, walked to the sink, turned on the faucet, and picked up the cold water.
I poured tap water on my face, but I found that it didn't seem to be of any use. Although I could feel the cold water when the cold water was poured on my face, it seemed like there was a layer between me, but it was better than nothing.
Finally I woke up a little. Looking at the haggard face in the mirror, I suddenly had the illusion that it was not me. My face was pale, with deep dark circles under my eyes, and black stubble. Since when did I become so vicissitudes of life?
?
I staggered out of the bathroom, and unexpectedly found Du Feiyu standing outside the door. When he saw me walking out, he hurriedly came over to help me. Anyone who has drank alcohol knows that after vomiting, although you can wake up a little, you will still be awake.
When the body is at its weakest, it is easy to be confused between reality and illusion. In my impression, Du Feiyu is not such a considerate type. Could it be that she has slowly transformed in the past few years?
So I had no strength at all, so she helped me to a small table in the corner of the bar. She ordered two cups of green tea and handed it to me. I drank it, but it tasted bitter.
But fortunately, I did wake up a lot. I was so drunk that I even forgot about the black nails. Now I took advantage of this sober time to secretly put my nails into the cup and stir it. But just now
I put the quilt to my mouth, but I didn't want to drink anymore. Aren't I here to get drunk tonight? Why do I need to be sober?
But I looked at Du Feiyu in front of me again, and smiled bitterly in my heart. Damn it, I can't embarrass myself in front of her anymore, so I drank the green tea in the cup in one gulp.
After drinking the tea in the cup, we felt awkward again for a while. Although the music in the bar was very lyrical, as if romantic notes were wandering around us, I didn’t know what to say.
What's better.
It was Du Feiyu who spoke first. She sighed and said to me helplessly: "Why do you drink so much?"
I was gradually waking up now, so I said to Du Feiyu: "I'm sorry, I was a little upset and made you laugh."
When Du Feiyu heard what I said, he sighed again, and then said to me: "How have you been in the past few years?"
These words came again, so I felt a burst of sadness in my heart. After thinking about it, I said to Du Feiyu: "Well...it's okay, how about you?"
I don't even know what kind of face I used to say this, "It's okay." But I could only say this, and Du Feiyu said softly: "I...it's okay too."
That night, Du Feiyu and I chatted word by word, chatting about the past and those days in high school. When those names that were about to be forgotten by us appeared again, we couldn't help but start to lament that time flies by.
Like a shuttle, in the blink of an eye, everyone has dispersed to the end of the world. The vows made in the past have disappeared, and the foolish words have also disappeared. In the blink of an eye, everyone has their own lives, and the scenes of the past have also disappeared.
It can only survive in our memories.
I slowly began to wake up. Although we talked a lot, we never mentioned our last bad breakup again. Indeed, those misunderstandings now seem to be just childhood jokes, after so many years.
, is no longer important, I can see that Du Feiyu no longer hates me now, yes, that was a long, long time ago.
We chatted for a long time that night. I really couldn't believe it. I didn't expect that we could talk so naturally when we met again after not seeing each other for so many years. It was like two old friends who hadn't seen each other for a long time. She asked me: "
Cui Zuofei, do you have a girlfriend now?"
She asked very naturally, as if she just mentioned it casually, but there were already ripples in my heart. This seemed to be nonsense. When I met my first girlfriend many years later and asked about this topic, of course I had a different feeling in my heart.
I suddenly thought of Liu Yudi, the little girl who said she would always wait for me, and I looked at Du Feiyu, the woman who gave me the first taste of love. Am I overthinking? Why did she ask me that?
?
If it were in the past, I would probably be confused about it, but at this moment, I don't want to escape anymore. What good results will I get from evading for so long? So I said to her: "Well, I
You already have a girlfriend, how about you, are you looking for one?"
After Du Feiyu heard what I said, she seemed to be stunned for a moment, and then she said to me: "Well...me too."
"Well, congratulations." I don't know if I said this from the bottom of my heart.
Du Feiyu didn't speak, and we both became quiet for the third time.
After a while, I woke up completely, but the depression in my heart did not disappear. It seemed that alcohol could not help at all. I should be upset again, and before I knew it, another day passed.
, there are still three days before Shi Jueming’s ambition is achieved, should I do something? Although I think so, I can’t bring myself to do it, because there is still a mess in front of me.
I sighed. Is it really like Uncle Yuan said, let me just let nature take its course? I really don’t know. Thinking of this, I think it’s okay to stay here. After all, it’s almost twelve o’clock.
, so I said to Du Feiyu: "It's getting late, where is your home? I'll take you back."
When Du Feiyu saw what I said, he stood up and said to me: "No, please come with me for a walk."
After leaving the bar, the temperature suddenly dropped to two degrees. The warm feeling just disappeared in an instant. The winter in Harbin is still as cold as ever. No wonder it is called the Ice City. Especially at night, the temperature is frighteningly low. In this blurry place
That night, it seemed that something was destined to happen. The lovers came together again after many years apart, but I know that at this moment our hearts are no longer the same as before. Du Feiyu was wearing a white coat. It was obvious that she was confused.
They are much better than me, our footsteps are very light, our shadows are intertwined under the street lamp, it seems that they are also lamenting the reunion after many years, and they seem to be telling each other those old stories.
The two of us still didn't speak, as if we were each having our own thoughts. The street lights on the street were still dim and weak, giving the city's nightlife a decadent color. After the two of us walked like this for a while, Du Feiyu
Suddenly he stopped, then turned to me and said, "Cui Zuofei, I hurt you before. If I say I'm sorry now, will you forgive me?"
I smiled bitterly, and sure enough, what was supposed to come came anyway, so I sighed and said to her with a bitter smile: "How long it took to forgive or not."
I said it very sincerely, without any pretense. Although it was not because of Du Feiyu, I would never have been able to come to Harbin, a sad place, but I never hated her from the bottom of my heart.
When she heard what I said, she asked me excitedly: "Then, if I say I love you, will we start over? After so many years, I am so tired, I don't want to stay here anymore, I want to go back to the dragon."
Jiang, Cui Zuofei, can you accompany me back to Longjiang?"
Would you please accompany me back to Longjiang? Why do these words hurt so much in my heart? I looked at Du Feiyu, and her face was full of hope. Could it be that after so many years, she still misses me?
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Although returning to Longjiang is my dream, I dream of just walking away without caring about anything and living the kind of life I want, but at this moment, how can I agree to her?
Fetters and responsibilities are like chains, which have tightly entangled me. Today, is there any way for me to turn back? Thinking of this, I smiled bitterly, and then said to her: "Sorry, I can't go back.
"
"Why!" Du Feiyu suddenly shouted to me, and then looked sad. Although I didn't know why she suddenly lost control, there was an inexplicable pain in my heart. I didn't feel this pain.
Strange, it has appeared several times before.
I couldn't help but cover my chest, and then said to her with a wry smile: "I'm sorry, we can't go back to the past."
When Du Feiyu heard what I said, she actually smiled, but she looked so sad. She suddenly ran in front of me, then turned her back to me, trembling all the time. She just heard her say to me: "Could it be that
, Do you want to face everything by yourself, Cui Zuofei! Do you know that maybe you won’t be able to save anyone by doing this! Moreover, it will also make you more painful! "
What? I was stunned and looked at Du Feiyu with surprise on my face. What did she say? What happened? You must know that this surprise was really big, so that I couldn't believe it. How could she know?
I want to save people?
The wind was blowing, and the night wind was howling. A bad premonition emerged in my heart. This premonition became stronger and stronger, accompanied by my inexplicable heartache.
I could clearly hear my heartbeat, gradually getting stronger and louder. I looked at Du Feiyu in front of me and saw her standing pitifully in front of me. Although the wind was strong, it did not blow her
Hair, she was standing in front of me, and the wind seemed to pass directly through her body and hit my face. Moreover, what surprised me most was why her back looked so familiar to me.
?
I started to tremble unconsciously, and then asked her in disbelief: "You...what did you say?"
I saw Du Feiyu turning around and smiling at me. Her smile was so sad and beautiful. Then she gently raised her right hand, and then gently brushed up her sleeve.
No, no, no! This is not true, this is not true!!! I was so surprised that I couldn’t even make a sound. I saw Du Feiyu’s white wrist, which seemed to be tightly
Remember a black string.
Suddenly, I felt as if the sky was about to collapse, how could it be her! How could it be her!!! I couldn't help but cover my mouth, and then my whole body started to tremble. The street lights seemed to be shaking too. Under the street lights,
Du Feiyu's face looked sad, but she was still smiling, even though she was so weak.
I only heard her saying softly to me: "Cui Zuofei, do you know? In fact, I have never left you."