All the people who should be met have been met, and what happened last time can be said. At this moment, the dust has settled and it has come to an end.
Yu Jingque was not in a hurry to go to work in the Secret Service because he still needed to act. He wanted to perform because he was scared and wanted to go to work, but he didn't dare to go to work and wanted to quit the Secret Service.
But do you really want to quit?
That's impossible, but you can't skimp on the details of your performance. Any skimping on the details will give your enemies a chance to doubt you.
"I'm going to work. Don't run out today like yesterday. Stay at home." Ji Youning told Yu Jingque before going to work.
Yesterday, Yu Jingque said that the house was very boring and he went out to walk around for several hours. Of course, Ji Youning was worried today.
Yesterday I had to meet Qin Jin and Chen Xiqiao, which naturally took a lot of time. I won't go out today if I have nothing to do.
"Don't worry, do you want you to take me to school? I'll sit at the back of the classroom and listen to your lecture." Yu Jingque said funny.
"Okay." Ji Youning agreed.
"Come on." Yu Jingque's face turned red. If he wanted to sit in class with a group of students, he might as well kill him.
After Ji Youning was sent away, Yu Jingque stayed at home alone, playing Qin Jin's vinyl record with nothing to do, but listening absentmindedly. He didn't know what Chen Xiqiao would be like today.
Today, Chen Xiqiao got up very early and went to the barber shop to have his hair cut by a master.
I went back to my room, took a shower, and put on the new clothes I had put on the bottom of the box. They fit me perfectly.
After taking care of his hair meticulously, Chen Xiqiao sat down.
Yes, he didn't go out, but sat down.
He sat there for an hour without moving. An hour later, Chen Xiqiao seemed to have made up his mind and came out of the room.
I called a car and went to the suburbs.
After paying the money and letting the driver leave, Chen Xiqiao came alone to the place Yu Jingque said.
Looking up, there was an open space, but Chen Xiqiao's footsteps were too heavy to lift up, and his eyes did not dare to look at the open space.
"step."
Chen Xiqiao's steps became heavy at this moment. He lifted his steps with all his strength and stepped forward.
It was obviously a very simple movement, but it was extremely difficult for Chen Xiqiao. His fists were clenched, and his face turned red due to the exertion.
After taking a step down, Chen Xiqiao loosened his fist and tightly grasped the seam of his trousers.
"Two steps."
The weather is good today. Although the temperature is not high, the sun is shining down, but it is not so hot that one will sweat.
But Chen Xiqiao felt very hot, and his back was covered with sweat.
"Three steps."
"Four steps."
…
…
"Twenty steps."
"Dad, don't laugh at me. I'll see if you cry when I get married."
"You are the only one who can't let go of dad. If you cry when the time comes, dad won't cry."
"Just keep your words, you will definitely cry secretly when you get home."
"I'm not a good college girl. I haven't gotten married yet, so I'm going to watch your father and I cry."
"No dad, you were the one who laughed at me first."
With a smile on his lips, Chen Xiqiao took the twenty-first step.
"Dad, let me rub your shoulders. You work very hard.
"Twenty-two steps."
"Dad, I want to eat the food you cooked."
"Twenty-three steps."
"Dad, I don't need a mother. I just have a father. I don't care what they say. Don't be sad."
"father……"
"Dad..."
"father……"
One sentence after another, Manjusri's words lingered in Chen Xiqiao's mind.
"Also, Dad, I don't hate you."
The memory came to an abrupt end, and this was the last sentence written by Manjusri in the letter.
Chen Xiqiao now seems to have aged ten years suddenly. Recalling this, he has taken thirty-eight steps.
But in these last three steps, Chen Xiqiao's legs just couldn't move.
Looking at a place three steps away, Chen Xiqiao's face didn't know whether it was sweat or tears, sliding down to the ground.
"Manjusri..."
Chen Xiqiao shouted in a trembling tone, as if Manjusri was standing three steps away, looking at him.
"Bang..."
Chen Xiqiao could no longer support his body and fell to his knees, rolling and crawling forward, using his hands and feet to crawl out.
The pebbles on the ground scratched Chen Xiqiao's hands, but he felt nothing. He lay flat on the ground and looked at the land in front of him.
Touching the soil on the ground with trembling hands, as if it were something precious, Chen Xiqiao pressed his face tightly to the ground.
He felt not the coldness of the ground, but the warmth of Manjusri, and Chen Xiqiao burst into tears.
At this moment, Chen Xiqiao was not a snow fox, he was a father who had lost his daughter, crying heartbrokenly.
His whole body fell to the ground, his chest and face firmly pressed against the ground, leaving no gaps.
"You don't hate dad, but dad hates himself, hates, hates..."
The wailing of Chen Xiqiao seems to be even colder than the coldest day in Ice City.
"Dad, I'm sorry for you. Dad is not a human being." Chen Xiqiao's head kept hitting the ground.
Father kowtows to his daughter?
Ironic?
Is it the same as Ji Youning kneeling down and worshiping his father?
It's completely different. Chen Xiqiao's heart is filled with pain.
Manjusri was killed on the street by himself.
How much courage and determination does a person need to kill himself?
Chen Xiqiao was feeling the pain his daughter was feeling, and his forehead began to bleed. However, Chen Xiqiao was sober. He knew that his pain was not one-tenth, one-hundredth, one-thousandth of what his daughter felt at that time.
.
"Daughter..."
"Daddy is here to see you, daddy is here."
After five years, Chen Xiqiao finally came to Manjusri's grave. This might be a grave.
Wail.
Pain.
Shout.
No matter how heartbroken you are, you can't wake up the person you want to wake up the most.
Chen Xiqiao buried his head with his forehead against the ground and whispered a lot of words. He only said it to his daughter.
Before night, Chen Xiqiao left the suburbs. When he stood up from the ground, his legs were numb.
He turned back three times with each step, his eyes full of reluctance.
But if Yu Jingque wants to continue fighting, shouldn't Chen Xiqiao use it?
He also needs to fight, and he must keep fighting.
The reluctance to leave made Chen Xiqiao want to go back several times to spend time with her daughter. However, Wenshu said that she was very happy that Chen Xiqiao took this path. This may be why Chen Xiqiao was like this.
In the midst of pain, you still have the motivation to continue persevering.
Today Yu Jingque did not go to Chen Xiqiao, he went to pick up Ji Youning.
When picking up Ji Youning, Yu Jingque had a conversation with Gu Hanyue.
"You have nothing to do tonight, go see the snow fox." Yu Jingque said to Gu Hanyue.
"What's wrong?" Gu Hanyue didn't know what Yu Jingque meant.
Yu Jingque couldn't explain it too clearly, so he said: "Bring him a bottle of wine."
Intelligence workers need to drink, and they need to drink better, because when you socialize with others, don’t you drink at all?
Without social interaction, how can you obtain information?
But you can't get drunk, you have to keep yourself sober, otherwise who knows what you will say after drinking?
But today, Yu Jingque thought that Chen Xiqiao needed to get drunk.
Although she didn't quite understand it, Gu Hanyue nodded and noted it down, and she would do it.
PS: Thanks to Ye Sechenchen and Taigu for their reward support.
