After a bottle of red wine, Yu Jingque stood up and took a bottle without bothering Qin Jin this time.
"With your caution, today's behavior is very inconsistent with your behavior." Qin Jin said with a hint of a lesson.
incompatible?
If Yu Jingque doesn't suit him, does Qin Jin suit him?
We all live with masks on.
After a few more sips, Yu Jingque said with a hint of drunkenness: "Can we still meet people?"
Yu Jingque did not just talk about Qin Jin's problems, but brought himself along, so that Qin Jin would have the intention to speak.
Sure enough, after hearing Yu Jingque's words, Qin Jin smiled silently and said, "Do you know why I hate this body so much, why do I have to protect it?"
"Because I have to perform a mission." Yu Jingque said.
"Big mistake." Qin Jin's words surprised Yu Jingque.
"Because sometimes if I don't go, someone like me will go. Since I have already gone, why should I let them suffer again?"
The smile on Qin Jin's face made Yu Jingque feel like a spring breeze.
She just didn't want girls like her to suffer the same experience, so even though she hated this body, she still had to take good care of it and not dare to cause any damage.
"Now there are many girls participating in the anti-Japanese struggle. They are all passionate and kind-hearted. If they encounter the same situation as me, they will make the same choice as me."
"It's just that these are too painful for them." Qin Jin wanted to protect these girls.
No one is forcing these girls, just because they are too kind.
It's painful for them, but isn't it painful for Qin Jin?
How many people's pain can one person bear?
"Then you are not dirty, you are pure and flawless." Yu Jingque took a deep breath and said.
"Such words mean nothing." Qin Jin seemed indifferent to such words.
"If I die one day, can you do me a favor?" Qin Jin suddenly changed the topic to this matter.
Yu Jingque wanted to say not to say these depressing words, but he understood that for people like them, these words were not considered depressing.
"Tell me." Yu Jingque wanted to hear what Qin Jin planned to let him do.
Putting the wine glass on the table, Qin Jin flipped the hair around his ears and said, "Cremate me."
Nowadays, people pay more attention to burial, and cremation is considered disrespectful.
Qin Jin actually said that he would be cremated.
"Burn them cleanly and scatter the ashes into the river. It will be good if there is no more Qin Jin in the world." Qin Jin's tone was full of expectation.
Even longing for it.
She is looking forward to such a day, she is looking forward to the day when Qin Jin disappears from this world.
She waited for that day to come with anticipation and excitement.
Maybe Qin Jin has wanted to die a long time ago, maybe Qin Jin's heart has died a long time ago.
She persisted just to prevent those girls from experiencing the same pain.
When she persists until she can no longer persist, she will die happily, even with her wish fulfilled.
She wanted Qin Jin to disappear from this world, completely without leaving a trace.
Come clean.
But in Qin Jin's heart, he couldn't leave cleanly.
So she simply let herself disappear, disappear forever, disappear completely, without even leaving traces on the land and tarnishing the great rivers and mountains of the motherland.
But is this defilement?
Qin Jin is pure and flawless, and how many people can see her dedication.
How many people can understand her pain.
"Okay." Yu Jingque's hand holding the wine glass trembled slightly, but he still agreed to Qin Jin's request.
Because he could see that Qin Jin was really looking forward to it, even eager for it.
He couldn't refuse Qin Jin's request, even if it sounded unpleasant.
"You agreed, we agreed." Qin Jin looked at Yu Jingque in surprise. She thought Yu Jingque would refuse, but she didn't expect to agree directly.
"Don't worry, I will do it." Yu Jingque said with a smile.
"Pull the hook." Qin Jin actually wanted to hook up with Yu Jingque like a little girl.
Yu Jingque stretched out his hand, touched it with Qin Jin, and the two made an agreement.
After letting go of his hand, Qin Jin actually held his face in his hands with a look of longing on his face.
A person yearning for death, Yu Jingque felt that he was struck hard deep in his soul.
He originally wanted to ask about Abacus today, but he didn't want to mention it at all.
But then I thought about it, if I didn't mention it, many people would be killed.
In order to prevent those girls from suffering, Qin Jin persisted even though he was so eager to die. Was Yu Jingque going to stand by and watch?
After sorting out his mood, Yu Jingque said: "Is there someone among us codenamed Abacus?"
Yu Jingque's words pulled Qin Jin back from his longing.
"What's wrong?" Qin Jin asked.
"The Secret Service seems to be investigating this plan. If he is really in Bingcheng, please tell him to be careful." Yu Jingque observed Qin Jin's expression as he spoke.
Qin Jin frowned and said, "I don't know the abacus, but I will send the news up."
"Don't you even know?" Yu Jingque asked.
"Although I know a lot about Bingcheng, I don't know everything. There are many people with higher status than me." Qin Jin is actually an important person in Bingcheng.
It's just that there are many people with higher status than her. This is what Qin Jin thinks, so she doesn't know about it at all.
"I heard he is a very important person, and the Japanese seem to be watching him too." Yu Jingque could only continue to improve the lie.
"Okay, don't worry." Qin Jin said.
There is no way to judge from Qin Jin whether Abacus is in Bingcheng or not, because Qin Jin doesn't know Abacus at all.
After Qin Jin sent the news, and perhaps judged from Qin Jin's reaction, Yu Jingque could only put his hope in the next meeting.
The two then chatted about some work matters and Yu Jingque's situation in the Secret Service. In fact, what they said was pretty much the same as what Chen Xiqiao and the others thought.
After that, Yu Jingque got up and left.
After drinking, I opened the door and was blown by the cold wind, which made Yu Jingque feel a little dazed.
Turning to look at Qin Jin who was standing in the house to see him off, Yu Jingque said softly: "Don't take a shower when you go back today. Have a good sleep with peace of mind and be clean and white."
After saying this, Yu Jingque turned around and left. Qin Jin first showed a disdainful smile, and then a rare tear fell from the corner of his eye.
Back home, Ji Youning saw Yu Jingque drinking, and hurriedly came up and asked, "Why are you drinking? Did you drink too much?"
Yu Jingque doesn't usually drink, so Ji Youning would be so worried if he drank once in a while.
Looking at Ji Youning in front of him, Yu Jingque reached out and hugged Ji Youning. Before Ji Youning could react, he was in Yu Jingque's arms and his body stiffened.
"It's great to have you." Yu Jingque whispered in Ji Youning's ear, and breathed hot breath on Ji Youning's ears, instantly turning Ji Youning's ears pink.
Before Ji Youning could react, Yu Jingque had already let go of her, ran to the second floor and fell asleep without washing.
