This is a quiet and elegant study, with sandalwood smoke curling up from the small and exquisite incense burner. In front of Bao Jiaxian, a delicate and elegant woman in simple clothes is looking at him.
"I'm back."
Bao Jiaxian looked into the woman's eyes, and his voice was a little hoarse: "Pu Ji."
"Welcome back."
The woman named Pu Ji looked like a teacher. She walked up to Bao Jiaxian and looked at him curiously: "I finally came back, why am I in such a bad mood?"
"That's right," Puji clapped her hands: "How about I tell you a story."
"That's all right, Puji."
Bao Jiaxian interrupted the woman and said, "I have heard all your stories."
Puji looked at Baojiaxian and fell silent. She smiled, but her eyes were red: "Yes, you have heard all my stories, and you are tired of hearing them."
"I like those stories very much, but after all, the people, ghosts, foxes, and flower demons you told are all fake," Bao Jiaxian said, "These stories can't change anything."
"You have changed."
"Actually, not really. What I want is far different from what we can achieve together today." Baojiaxian knew that Pu Ji had been watching her and helping her because she was his destiny and would never leave her.
Don’t give up, the most important person: “In the past, Teacher Diwu taught me Kunxuzu’s method, but I couldn’t learn it because I wanted to be an old soldier instead of becoming Kunxuzu.”
"But all along, only you know why I can't learn."
It's not that he aims to reform the old soldiers, but to protect the immortals. He really can't learn from Kunxu Ancestor.
"Facing the steep cliff, before climbing, I didn't know how high the mountain was. But when I started climbing, I always wanted to know how long it would take before I could climb it."
Bao Jiaxian's voice is very calm. He is not afraid of death, and he has never regretted his life. He is who he is, a person who works hard for others, hopes that they can understand each other, and hopes that the entire society can be like a family.
Peaceful fool.
"Teacher Diwu once asked me what I was afraid of."
"Actually, I've always known it, but I just didn't want to accept it," Bao Jiaxian said, "What I long for is great unity, but is there really such a thing in this world?"
"Not at all. It is impossible for people to be intimate with each other. The Tao I am pursuing is wrong in itself." Bao Jiaxian looked at Puji: "Just like when I climbed Mount Buzhou, the infiniteness of this mountain
, is the biggest fear in my heart, I am afraid that this road will have no end at all."
Bao Jiaxian wants to create a harmonious society and devotes his efforts to this end. No matter how hard and tired he is, he must do his best for everyone, even if he risks his life, he must protect any one of them.
.
But what about reality?
Bao Jiaxian has been to many, many cities. He changed his methods, kept thinking, and kept trying, hoping to be recognized by even one city or one person!
But what’s the result?
No one was willing to save him, and everyone said he was wrong.
No, no, no, at least they will say one thing to him when they say goodbye: 'Go away, you are an old soldier!'
"Have you ever regretted it?"
"Oh."
Bao Jiaxian smiled. He knew very well that his heart was not that strong. Who in this world has no regrets in his life, and who has never doubted whether he still remembers his original intention!
"Everyone says that if you defeat the old soldiers, you will die, but how many people understand the meaning of this sentence?"
"This sentence does not mean that the revolutionary soldiers will live a miserable life, miserable and helpless." Bao Jiaxian: "This sentence is to tell every revolutionary soldier that the path they take actually starts from the beginning.
, it’s just wrong.”
"Even if you know it's wrong, you still make it until the end!"
This is a dead end, but I will never look back!
"Since you came to Buddha City, you have worked hard without taking a break. You are forcing yourself because you know that you have begun to doubt your original intention." Puji knows Baojiaxian very well. She started from the beginning
Accompanying Bao Jiaxian, the two have gone through too many ups and downs: "You become more and more aware that you can't do it, and there is even no such society. There will always be barriers between people. This is human nature.
It’s nature, it’s nature!”
"So you think that the path you have chosen fundamentally has huge problems. You can't see the end at all, because it has no end at all."
A dead end, is there an end?
Of course there is.
If you look back, you will find the shore; if you take a step back, the sea and the sky will become brighter.
"But are you willing to give up? Pursue the Tao all your life. The Tao is here. Even if it is wrong, are you willing to give it up and stop pursuing it?" Pu Ji expressed Bao Jiaxian's heart. Over the years, watching Bao Jiaxian
There was silence, watching him work hard and forget about food and sleep.
But Puji has always known that he is working so hard just to hide what he fears most, choice!
He didn't dare to choose!
"You don't want to believe that this road is wrong. You are afraid that it is wrong." Puji: "So you work hard and work hard. You want to forget the distance between reality and dreams. You want to realize that
Wrong, die before making a choice!"
If you die, there is no need to choose!
If you die, you will never know that you are taking the wrong path!
This is his persistence, his unwillingness, and his reluctance to let go. He wants to use his own death to cover up his inner confusion, and wants to let himself choose an end point of "trying his best" on this road, and then
Die there!
"Die on the road of death of your own choice, forget the confusion ahead, and believe that you are right until you die."
Pu Ji's voice was like a sharp knife, cutting open Bao Jiaxian's heart. She was asking him to face reality: "But is this your fear? No, you are Bao Jiaxian, my protector."
Jiaxian, you are afraid to go on, so you choose to die to defend the path you have chosen."
Make your ambition clear by dying, and die without regrets.
"But now, for the first time, I feel that you are so confused in your heart," Puji said, "You have never been so afraid of anything. Even if you choose the wrong path, you will continue to go on firmly, because
You are the Baojiaxian, you have no complaints or regrets."
"Can you tell me why you are so scared now? Why are you more confused than ever?"
"Are they them? People from Fucheng." Pu Ji said: "Because they looked back at you, because this is the first time you have been recognized by others, and it is also the first time someone has said to you, let us go on together?"
"You know, you know everything, but what's the use of knowing it? Besides telling those boring stories, what else do you do?!"
"You know nothing except telling stories," Bao Jiaxian said, "Except knowing me and understanding me, you know nothing and understand nothing!!"