In the summer of the thirteenth year of Yongzheng's reign, Queen Ulanara's health became increasingly worse. Originally, it was said that she was depressed due to being grounded, which led to long-term illness.
But now the situation is getting worse day by day.
The imperial doctors came in and out, and the entire front hall of Kunning Palace was filled with an acrid and unbearable smell of medicine. Even the flower bed in the garden had a special area that was transformed by the medicine.
color.
As a rule, the queen's medicine residue should be kept every day for future inspection, but now that the Sacred Heart is not available in the palace, the people in the imperial hospital will inevitably become lax.
But no matter how lax you are, you are the queen after all, and no one dares to be really careless.
But the queen's health still did not improve.
Seeing that the situation was not right, Rong promised to shed tears and runny nose. He knelt down at the Yangxin Hall with raindrops on his face and asked the emperor to go to Kunning Palace to accompany the queen. Even if he just said a few words, it would be good.
The Queen is suffering from a heart disease - she has become so depressed that her body is wearing down little by little.
In fact, the Queen's inability to conceive was originally caused by excessive thinking and stress. It was just that when she was young, her body and bones were stronger and she could still withstand it.
Now, as time goes by, she has finally reached a point where she can no longer hold on.
After all, she was the empress of the middle palace. Yinzhen deliberately sent almost the entire imperial hospital to go there again, but the empress had no intention of surviving.
When the imperial doctors looked at it, they all knelt down and shook their heads. Just like Rong promised, they all said that the Queen was suffering from a heart disease.
The implication is that heart disease is difficult to cure.
It was himself who pushed himself into the corner of the ox.
Rong promised to serve the queen for so many years, she could see clearly that it was like watching a play alone, knowing clearly that the play was a tragedy, but watching the first play and insisting on finishing it.
Until the moment I met Tu Qiongdeng, I always felt that there was still hope ahead. I always felt that as long as I persisted and pursued everything, I might be able to get my wish.
There's nothing you can do about it, Master Queen, that's the kind of person she is...
In the main hall of Kunning Palace, the cold sunlight filtered in through the window panes. The newly replaced jade-colored gauze in the back hall and the shade of summer trees in the courtyard made the light coming in also green.
Even though it's summer, looking at it makes me feel a little chilly for no reason.
Ulanara was lying on the bed, listening to the movement outside, and heard the emperor's voice - this voice had not been heard for a long time.
Tears finally overflowed from the corners of her eyes, flowing down her cheeks and into her hair.
Ice-cold tears fell in clusters, and the chill spread all the way to the back of his head, finally silently soaking the pillow wrapped with embroidered phoenixes and gold thread.
You finally came to see me, Yinzhen Uranala thought.
You have to come to see me after all.
No matter life or death, as long as I am still the upright queen of the Qing Dynasty, even if you are so uninterested in me in this life, you will eventually be buried with me in the future when you die.
No matter how much you love the woman next to you, she will never have the right to lie next to you so closely like me, your real wife, after death!
She was thinking almost crazily.
The sounds outside the hall were getting closer and closer.
Ulanara swallowed, clenched his palms slightly, and his fingertips turned white from exertion.
Yinzhen walked in.
Ulanala listened to the palace people kneeling down and calling the emperor, and then the imperial doctors also followed in. A pair of eyes secretly raised and turned around, looking at her with a heavy look on their face.
As if wondering how many days she has left in the human world.
In fact, this is indeed the case.
Ulanara knew that his time was running out.
Yinzhen walked closer.
"Your Majesty..." Ulanara gasped and reached out to touch Yinzhen's hand.
After all, she is his old friend who has been with him for so many years. It is impossible for Yinzhen to say that he does not feel uncomfortable at all when he sees the queen in this state.
He sighed bitterly and sat down beside Ulanara's bed. He saw the queen's skinny hand still trembling slightly in the air, and she was so stubborn that she must find his hand.
Yinzhen reached out and held the queen's hand.
Almost at the same time, Ulanara squeezed Yinzhen's palm with such force that if one hadn't seen her pale and sick face with one's own eyes, one would almost doubt that she was lying about her illness.
"Your Majesty... I am afraid that my time is running out..." Ulanala looked at Yinzhen with tears in her eyes, her lips trembled for a long time, and finally she said these words.
After she finished speaking, she finally cried.
Yinzhen was inevitably moved by this situation.
He raised his hand and pinched the center of his eyebrows, then lowered his head and patted the back of the queen's hand. Looking at this woman who had been with him since childhood and whose hair was as white as new, he didn't know what to say for a moment.
After a pause, he sighed and said: "Queen..."
As soon as the word "Queen" came out, Ulanara burst into tears.
She squeezed Yinzhen's hand harder and held the hand of the man in front of her who was identified as "husband".
Her eyes saw through destiny for the first time in her life, and she finally felt calmer than ever before.
In the past years, she had tried hard to maintain the dignity and dignity of the queen in front of this man, every word, every action, but now, she finally felt tired.
It's easy to be pretentious for a day, and it's not too difficult to be pretentious for a year, but few people can live without being tired of pretentiousness for a lifetime.
Humble, disguise, pander...
Sitting in the main courtyard of Fujin, sitting on the queen's phoenix throne, she was the queen of the Qing Dynasty and the wife of the emperor.
As long as she is still the queen, she will always be put on this shelf, standing side by side with Yinzhen, with thousands of people kneeling and looking up to her.
She must be generous, virtuous, dignified, calm, tolerant, and wise.
She must be perfect, she must not be lacking.
This person has been on her for a long time, and she has acquiesced that she is such a person. It seems that she has completely forgotten what "she" is.
"I really envy the imperial concubine..." Ulanara murmured in a low voice, similar to talking to herself. It was unclear whether she was talking to herself or to Yinzhen.
"I envy the imperial concubine...she can be...free..."
Be free to be yourself.
Ulanara said softly: "I envy her... to be pampered by you, so authentic and natural..."
I envy her that she can be sincere and magnanimous in front of you.
And my whole life, I have been surrounded by too many rules, and gradually I can't help myself.
"Queen, you are tired."
Yinzhen was silent for a long time and finally said slowly.
Ulanara also felt tired, and she slowly closed her eyes.
I was not born to be a queen.
No, it should be said that in this life, I have never figured out how to be a queen who can please you.
Even a qualified queen... I'm afraid I haven't made it yet.
