Qin Jie stopped stroking Chen Enci's hair for a moment.
Chen Enci didn't notice anything strange. He rested his head on Qin Jie's chest and continued, "I don't want to lie to you."
From the moment she remembered what he said, "If you don't want to say it, don't say it, but don't lie to me," she never lied to him again.
"I know you might be a little unhappy if I say it, but at that time I really had the idea of marrying him."
"I also thought about going abroad with him, far away from home, away from the troubles."
Qin Jie said nothing.
Chen Enci thought of the scene when he and Jiang Chi were chatting in the coffee shop, and said nothing.
Jiang Chi hadn't contacted her or disturbed her for more than a year. Suddenly, he wanted to talk to her, but she really refused.
Jiang Chi was different from other people who had chased her. Jiang Chi was really nice to her. Even though she didn't ask for the kindness, she always felt indebted to him.
It is said to be a debt, but in fact it can also be said to be pressure and burden.
Because Jiang Chi was so kind to her and gave so much, including money, time, patience... She still couldn't pay it back, and what she hated the most was owing people things.
To be honest, this feeling is very uncomfortable.
She also feels a little guilty, because the reason why she had the idea of almost marrying him in the first place had nothing to do with feelings, it was just selfishness.
There were too few people who were kind to her. After her mother left, she spent twelve years meeting a Qin child and lost it.
Jiang Chi's kindness to her is not what she wants. She doesn't need expensive gifts, nor does she need him to spend a lot of money to buy her endorsement products, nor does she need him to follow her behind to show his attentiveness.
He was good to her in the way he thought. The moment he proposed, she was thinking that she might never meet Qin Jie again. Apart from Qin Jie, Jiang Chi was the most sincere person who treated her well.
Yes, she should have a pretty good life with him.
In this world, no one is lucky enough to meet someone who really understands you. In other words, no one in this world is lucky enough to meet someone like Jiang Chi who works hard to treat you well in his own way.
At that time, she thought that she was lucky enough to meet both of them. She had lost the one who understood her, so she would be selfish and try hard to do her best.
She had never been selfish in her life. It was good for her to be so selfish once. She really didn't need to live such a wronged life, not to mention that the family she was born in had already given her so many grievances. She was really wronged enough, but she
In the end, I chose to feel aggrieved.
……because of him.
Tonight Jiang Chi told her that he was getting married, and it was arranged by his family. It didn't matter whether he was in love or not, so he thought it was quite appropriate.
Jiang Chi also told her that the last proposal was unsuccessful and he couldn't say goodbye properly. Today, he just wanted to say goodbye properly and never see each other again.
Jiang Chi also asked her a question that had troubled him for more than a year. He asked her, where did he lose?
In fact, she thought this question was quite silly.
There is no losing or winning in love, there is only love or not.
Jiang Chi probably also thought this question was a bit funny. After asking it, he laughed first. After laughing, he asked her in a different way, if he met her first and chased her first, would she fall in love with him?
?
To be honest, she thought this question was quite silly.
There are so many ifs, but they are all self-deception.
But she really made an assumption in her heart, and finally she shook her head at Jiang Chi and said no.
Jiang Chi asked her why?
She was silent for a long time before answering his question.
She said: "If I go out with you and we meet for the first time and I ask for a drink, you will try your best to get me the best drink you can. You will know that I like to drink and do whatever I can after drinking.
If he could, he would help me collect all kinds of fine wines and give them to me. But he wouldn’t. He would let me drink a few dollars’ worth of beer, and then leave me drunk on a bench on the side of the road to sleep all night.
In the end, I was so cold that I had a high fever for a whole day."
"When I eat with you and encounter something I don't like, you will remember that as long as I am there in the future, those things I don't like will never appear. He won't, he will eat it every once in a while.
Force me to eat it once."
"If I don't open the door to him when I have a fever, he will pick the lock. I have never told him the days of my good friends, but he will remember it."
"He never asked me what I liked, but he knew it all."
"He's not like you. He keeps asking Lu Xing about the situation all day long, and then brings me what I need. He never asks me what I need. I never need anything when I'm with him.
Because he has already done it before I need it."
"He was very good to me. When he was by my side, I didn't need to think about anything. I could live like a child. But after he left me, I could still live well because he taught me how to treat myself.
Okay, I will put a candy bar in my pocket so that I will not faint due to low blood sugar when I am alone. I will drink carefully and will not put myself in a dangerous situation for my own reasons."
"But you are different. You are very nice to me, just nice to me."
"He...is very good to me, so good that he can make me feel good even when he is not around me."
After listening to her words, Jiang Chi smiled with relief. He said that he would be willing to be defeated by such a person.
Jiang Chi hurried to the airport. He got the answer he wanted and said goodbye to her.
Thinking of this, Chen Enci realized that Qin Zie hadn't spoken for a while. She raised her head and glanced at him: "Why don't you speak?"
"Um?"
Qin Jie paused and said, "I'm sleepy."
His voice was very weak, very much like that.
Chen Enci stared at him for a while, raised his hand and poked his chin: "Are you really sleepy?"
Why doesn't she believe it so much?
"Really." Qin Zie grabbed her hand, turned her sideways, and held her in his arms: "Go to sleep, you have to go back to Four Seasons tomorrow morning."
Chen Enci said "Oh" and closed his eyes obediently.
The room was very quiet. After about ten minutes, Chen Enci suddenly raised his head and caught Qin Jie looking at her.
Chen Enci chuckled and crawled out of Qin Jie's arms, "Are you unhappy?"
Qin Jie lay straight and said, "No."
Chen Enci propped up his upper body and stared at Qin Jie for a while to study: "I think so."
"..."
"Look, you didn't even say anything to me, and you said you weren't unhappy."
"..."
Qin Zhe raised his eyelids and glanced at her: "I'm tired from playing."
Chen Enci: “…………”
It sounds like it's true.
Qin Jiegao was unhappy, and even if Chen Enci was very nervous, he could feel it at this time.
Her boyfriend is not just jealous, he is really unhappy.
Chen Enci reached out and picked Qin Zie's Adam's apple: "Boyfriend?"
Qin Jie moved his eyelids and said "hmm" in his voice.
I can't hear the emotion, but I can feel the lack of interest.
Chen Enci grabbed Qin Jie's shoulders, moved up, and held Qin Jie's face: "Brother?"
Qin Jie was silent for a while, but still said "Hmm".
It seems that this time it will be more difficult to coax.
Fortunately, she had a trump card last time.
Chen Enci, with his red ears, leaned close to Qin Ji's ear and said, "Husband."
Qin Jie froze and became completely silent.
After a while, he sighed helplessly and turned to look at her: "I'm not unhappy, and I have no right to be unhappy. I wasn't with you at that time."
"I... am a little scared. Afraid."
"Afraid of what I would do if you really married him? I'm afraid of what if I disappoint you in the future and you think he is better than me?"
Chen Enci's heart jumped uncontrollably.
She thought about him breaking up with her six years ago and testing her with Su Nannan. Was it because he was afraid?
It turns out that in this love, not only is she afraid, but he is also afraid.
Chen Enci's heart ached a little. She buried her face in Qin Zi's neck and said in a muffled voice: "Qin Zi, at the airport that day, you told me that you wanted to forget me, but you didn't forget me."
"I'm the same as you, I also thought about giving up."
"I knew that if I nodded that way, I would be able to live a good life at that time, but I just couldn't do it."
"I really wanted to tell him that I was willing, but the first thing I said was... I have someone I love."
Chen Enci rarely talks to people in such a heartfelt manner. She is used to trolling people, swearing at people, and hurting others, but she is not used to saying such things.
She spoke intermittently, especially the last sentence. She spent a lot of effort to finish it.
As soon as she finished speaking, Qin Jie suddenly turned over, pressed her under him, and swept his tongue into her mouth.
He kissed her suddenly and fiercely, as if he was expressing something urgently.
He kissed her until she was about to suffocate and let her go. She took a few breaths and opened her eyes. She saw that his eyes were a little red and she was slightly startled: "Qin Jie..."
He reached out his hand, covered her eyes, and lowered his head to cover her lips again. This time he kissed her very softly, and she could feel his lips and his hand covering her eyes trembling.
He kissed her endlessly, and her tongue was numb. She couldn't bear to call him his name. Her voice was muffled and lacked any strength, which made him kiss him deeper. She called him countless times, but he finally let go.
Opened her.
His breath was unsteady, and she was not much better.
In the quiet room, he and she were both panting.
Chen Enci listened and suddenly laughed.
Qin Zhe glanced at her, "What are you laughing at?"
"It's nothing." Chen Enci didn't know why he was laughing, he just wanted to laugh.
Qin Jie followed her and laughed, then grabbed her hand and led her down.
???
Chen Enci stopped laughing.
This is wrong!
It was clearly a very warm and sentimental approach just now, but why did the style of painting suddenly change?!
"Qin Jie, are you crazy?"
Chen Enci, whose wrists were still a little sore, said aggrievedly: "Qin Jie, you don't love me anymore..."
"If I didn't fucking hurt you, the little box you brought here would have been empty long ago."
"..."
Chen Enci, who was choked and speechless for a while, was silent for a long time and remembered what he had said: "Qin Jie, didn't you say you were tired of playing with me?"
"So, do it yourself."
"..."
"I just taught it twice, do you know how to do it?"
"..."
"Also, call me husband."
ps: This chapter has 3000 words ~ 1200 more words ~
1: Recommend a book that I really love, "I Want to Get Married as soon as I See You".
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