That night, Lin Jue hosted a banquet for Zhang Hanqiu. Zhang Hanqiu's family had traveled a long distance and were very tired. The banquet was already over at the beginning of the night. Lin Jue's mind was in a mess. After learning everything from Zhang Hanqiu's mouth,
Lin Jue needs to think about the whole thing calmly in order to understand all the details and make a decision that is most beneficial to the Luoyan Army.
So after the banquet, Lin Jue said hello to his wife and concubines, and walked slowly to the lakeside of his house alone. After passing through the back garden with scattered flowers and trees, the maid guarding the back garden opened a small corner door for Lin Jue. He went out.
After entering Jiaomen, we came to the lake shore on the east side of Luoyan Lake.
The area near Luoyan Lake was originally close to the hillside, and the terrain was crisscrossed with rocks and trees, making it difficult to walk. However, it has now undergone some transformation. The rugged terrain and messy trees between the hillside and the lake have long been cleared and paved.
It was built with quarried blue stones. Near the water, the ground was leveled, a trestle was built to penetrate into the lake, and a small dock was built.
Lin Jue walked slowly towards the trestle by the lake. At night by the lake in the mountains, the air was particularly refreshing and comfortable. Looking up, there were stars in the sky, reflected in the quiet water of Luoyan Lake, forming a strange landscape. It seemed like the sky.
There were stars all over the ground, and for a moment, it made people feel like they were in a dream. Lin Jue stood at the entrance of the trestle and was fascinated, and for a moment he didn't know where he was.
But suddenly, the starlight became dim. It turned out to be clouds flowing in the sky, and a waning moon appeared in the eastern sky. Counting the days, today is July 18th. Although it has passed the full moon day, the moonlight is still bright.
It was still bright, but when it first rose, the moon had a slightly golden color, and the moonlight cast by it had a hazy feeling, making the surrounding scene more and more like a dream.
Lin Jue breathed a sigh of relief and walked slowly up the trestle. When he came to the turning point of the trestle, he turned to a floating platform on the left, where a dense lotus leaf stood in a row. Under the moonlight, one could actually distinguish their green color.
and pink flower buds. A small boat was tied under the trestle, and there was no one on the water, rippling slightly, giving people a feeling of loneliness and desolation.
Lin Jue sat cross-legged on the trestle, hoping that he could relax in the moonlight lake. However, the thoughts in his mind were churning endlessly, and the situation was chaotic. How could he calm down.
Lin Jue was actually very tormented in his heart. After leaving the capital, Lin Jue was not as calm as he appeared on the surface. This was because this was not the path Lin Jue wanted to take, but was forced to take this path.
road.
Thinking back on what happened in just a few years, scenes flashed through his mind like lightning. When Lin Jue was reborn, he never imagined that he had gone through so many experiences and encountered so many hardships and ups and downs.
So much so that we are in this situation today.
When he was reborn, his initial thought was just to save himself and his family's fate, and save the fate of those around him. He didn't want to get involved in too many things. But now, with all the things he has experienced, Lin Juewan
I didn't expect it. Somehow, it seems that there is really something
Xing's hands controlled his own destiny, allowing him to see so much cruelty and death, but he also saw so much beauty and comfort. In just a few years, Lin Jue felt as if he had lived three lifetimes.
The third life was so long, so exhausting and helpless.
However, Lin Jue deeply felt his psychological changes. Fighting for the destiny of himself and his family used to be Lin Jue's only motivation. But now, this is obviously not Lin Jue's only motivation. Now in Lin Jue's heart
, the fate of the Great Zhou Dynasty and the fate of the people in the world are closely connected with the fate of the individual. The reason why Lin Jue made many important choices is also based on this. If he was just for himself and the people around him, he would probably
You can choose to compromise. Then Lin Jue must be in a high position now and live freely in the court.
Lin Jue knew when his transformation began. It was after the deaths of Fang Dunru and Yan Zhengsheng. Lin Jue was greatly touched, which led to changes in his heart. That was not because Lu Zhongtian, Wu Chunlai and others must die. Yan Fang
The hatred between the two made Lin Jue go in the opposite direction of his choice. The real reason was that Lin Jue figured out why Fang Dunru and Yan Zhengsu died, understood the essence of the realm in the minds of the two adults, and then had an epiphany.
feeling.
Lin Jue experienced a state from them, which was a state that transcended personal destiny and selfish interests. He experienced what it means to sacrifice one's life for righteousness, and what it means to do something knowing that one cannot do it. From then on, Lin Jue experienced
Lin Jue truly had the thoughts of his family and country in his heart and the idea of saving the people from the fire and water. Lin Jue also realized how insignificant an individual's life and death destiny is in the entire history. "A drop in the ocean is a drop in the ocean, and I am sad for a moment in my life."
'It was only at this time that Lin Jue himself had a real understanding of the words and phrases of this Chibi Fu that he had carried.
The last few words of Fang Dunru's last letter before his death were: 'A person stands between heaven and earth. If he only cares for himself, his life will be meaningless. He should take the world as his own responsibility, establish a destiny for all people, and think about the country and the country.'
, Lin Jue knew that those were the last teachings left to him by his master. When Lin Jue reflected afterwards, he understood and understood the true inner states of Fang Dunru and Yan Zhengsu, and Lin Jue realized that these sentences were not slogans.
But Fang Dunru revealed his earnest expectations for himself from the bottom of his heart. The husband does not want himself to be an ordinary and selfish person, he hopes to become a person like him.
From then on, Lin Jue knew that he had to do that. He was Fang Dunru's disciple, and when he became a disciple, he said that he would inherit his mantle. What he had to do was to follow in Fang Dunru's footsteps.
To be a person like Mr. Fang. It is not forced, but a kind of consciousness that arises after the thought is enlightened. Therefore, in Lin Jue's study, Fang Dunru's handwritten words "Establish a heart for the world and a living"
The banner of "Living the people's destiny, carrying on the unique knowledge for the saints, and creating peace for all generations" has firmly occupied the eye-catching position opposite the desk and has become Lin Jue's motto. This inner change in Lin Jue's heart has even affected the people around him.
They were not fully aware of it. They thought that Lin Jue was
A kind of nostalgia and respect for their teachers, they didn't know that this was actually the inheritance of Lin Jue's conscious thoughts.
Of course, Lin Jue's original belief in his heart has not changed. He will still go all out for himself and his family. Moreover, on top of this, there is more love and sense of responsibility for the people of the world. This sense of responsibility has occupied Lin Jue
A huge part of my heart. I have seen too much darkness and death, and too much suffering. After understanding the huge meaning behind the seemingly incomprehensible actions of my mentor and Master Yan, Lin Jue naturally
This sense of responsibility was born. And under the current situation at this moment, Lin Jue's thoughts about the world of the Zhou Dynasty actually overrode his personal destiny. He didn't even think much about where his own path was going.
More importantly, they are thinking about where the fate of the Great Zhou world and the people of Great Zhou will go.
It is precisely because of Lin Jue's current state of mind that Lin Jue felt so tormented after hearing what Zhang Hanqiu said about what happened in the court. Even though he was against the court, Lin Jue still exercised some restraint.
This was also the reason why he refused to go out to attack the surrounding prefectures and only fought with the officers and soldiers when he had to. This was also the reason why when the imperial court was fighting with the Liao people, he not only did not let the Luoyan Army take the opportunity to harass him, but instead ran to help Yang himself.
Jun's army saved the lives of Han Gang, Ma Qingshan and others. These seemingly contradictory performances just showed Lin Jue's conflicting mood. He rebelled against the imperial court, but he still thought about the Great Zhou Dynasty.
, even if the other party will not hesitate to encircle and suppress him in the future, they will not take his actions into consideration at all.
At this moment, the conflict in Lin Jue's heart reached its peak. It was after learning about Yang Jun's death and Lu Zhongtian's seizure of the position of Privy Councilor and monopolizing power. Lin Jue was going through an important psychological point. He was in
Think about whether you should stick to the previous reserved approach of not really consuming the strength of the Zhou Dynasty and avoiding being taken advantage of by foreign enemies. Because the situation has changed drastically, and after Yang Jun's death, the imperial court was almost unable to resist the Liao people's attack.
. And Lu Zhongtian's behavior is extremely suspicious. It is very likely that this old thief has secretly reached some kind of tacit understanding with the Liao people. If he adopts a conservative policy, he will be protecting the old thief, allowing Lu Zhongtian to more safely arrest the entire court.
In his own hands, he can cut off dissidents without any scruples and achieve a certain goal. Then his tolerance for the sake of the overall situation is meaningless and seems to be laissez-faire.
Lin Jue kept weighing and thinking about this issue in his mind, and it was difficult to make a decision for a while. The alcohol in his mind was welling up, and he felt a little dizzy. Lin Jue simply lay down on the wooden planks of the trestle. The wooden planks that had been burned by the sun during the day were still there.
The residual warmth was pressed on Lin Jue's back through the clothes, making Lin Jue sigh comfortably and close his eyes. After an unknown amount of time, Lin Jue actually fell asleep on the trestle under the starlight and moonlight.
past.
But not long after he fell asleep, Lin Jue suddenly woke up because he felt that there seemed to be someone else around him. When Lin Jue sat up, a slender figure sitting next to him also turned his head.
